I never wanted to have a kid. I don't like children. I was too far along (or so I thought at the time) when I found out I was pregnant that I couldn't get an abortion. I ended up giving up the rights to the kid. My parents adopted him and I haven't seen him or talked to my parents since just before the kid was a year old.

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Why feel sorry for the kid? He has a great life with parents that wanted to take him and who can afford him and who indulge his extracurricular activities. I can do none of that stuff. Better to be with people that love and want you than someone who doesn't. I didn't try to get pregnant, it was a birth control failure.

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I don't want kids at all, but at least he wasn't aborted and instead has a happy life with his grandparents. (I have nothing against abortion btw, I'm just saying)

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I never wanted kids but I got pregnant on birth control. I wanted to terminate the pregnancy but was convinced by a close family member I'd go to hell if I did. I wish I would have just ignored her and done it.

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Never allow someone else to make such a monumental decision that's going to affect *your* life, and not theirs.

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Let me preface this with the fact that regret seems like a little strong of a term for how I feel- and a lot of it I’m sure is frustration.

My whole life I didn’t particularly want kids. I had s****y parents growing up and I saw having kids as a hinderance to the type of life I wanted to live. I wanted to be able to travel often and be a workaholic.

When I was 22 I married my (now ex) husband and he made it very clear that he wanted kids. I, wanting to be the diligent wife, obliged and spent a long time trying to get pregnant. When I was 8 months pregnant, he began an affair with an ex girlfriend that kept going until I found it six weeks after giving birth. At the time that I found it, I was DEEP into postpartum depression that lasted until my son was a year old. Going through a divorce, being thrusted into single-parenthood, and not even knowing how to be with my son without wanting to kill him or myself was the worst experience I had ever been through. I was miserable, endangering my son, and furious that this man had put me through all of this.

The postpartum depression has now gone and I’ve healed from the anger, but my ex husband is barely in my son’s life so I am constantly the only parent he has physically, monetarily, and emotionally. I love him more than life itself, but I can’t exactly say that if I could do it all over, I would still choose to have gotten pregnant. I still daydream of the life I wanted on a daily basis.

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This is heart breaking; poor woman and poor kid.

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I got pregnant at 18 and was convinced by an abusive man to keep my daughter. I endured one of the worst births possible, 3 years of abuse, and becoming a single mom at 22.

I gave up a full ride scholarship to a prestigious school after finding out I was pregnant. I worked my butt off to get that scholarship, beating the odds as a child of an addict. I wanted to be a journalist who traveled the world.

I have realized I am too selfish to be a parent. My daughter does not go without the necessities. Am I emotionally invested in her like in the movies? Nope. I am more focused on my teaching career and making ends meet. Maybe I'm just a product of the bad economy.

I even asked for multiple doctors to just take out my uterus because I'm terrified of getting pregnant again. I realized I don't have mother instincts because of my upbringing after years of therapy. Do I want to fix it? Eh I've tried.

I am very lucky my daughter seems to have inherited my fierce independent and responsible personality. I don't think she'd survive me being her mother otherwise.

Again, my daughter never goes without anything. Everyone tells me I'm a great mom, but am just too hard on myself. Maybe I am too hard on myself. Who's to say?

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I speak for myself and most of my friends that are also moms with this comment. But a lot of the regret people hear about or suspect isn't completely directed at having kids specifically, but all the other changes that come with becoming a mother.

I will also note that I'm one of those women that didn't know I was pregnant for a while, so I didn't have much time to prepare or really think about anything.

But one big shock was how my boyfriend who had respected me for working 2+ full time jobs and being a total workaholic switched to thinking I was totally happy to stay at home and not go back to work. He also seemed to think I was naturally some domestic goddess that could cook and clean and stay on top of everything.... But really, prior to going on leave/giving birth I had never really cooked at home or kept my house clean... Because I was never home and always on the go! Giving birth did not suddenly grant me the knowledge of all these things mothers are apparently supposed to know.

That leads into the next thing, which was daycare. There was no daycare. They exist, sure, but the waiting lists are YEARS long so if you didn't apply before you even got pregnant, you're s**t out of luck. So if you're like me and LOVE working, you feel pretty f****d over.

So there I was with a 18 month old, maternity leave was up (which paid $800 a month, yay), no daycare, and a boyfriend that totally did not understand why I wasn't thrilled to stay home with a baby, never have to go anywhere or make my own money.

And then there was society in general s******g on me for not appreciating my own personal hell of isolation? Like how dare I, as a woman, not enjoy being a prisoner of my own home and a personal maid?

And then when I did manage to be able to get back to work, it was the opposite where I was apparently horrible for leaving at a daycare instead of "raising him myself".

Basically, I was expected to apparently just not be a person anymore and instead be a mom.... And that's it. I love my son but I also love myself and having my own goals and s**t going on. All of this I mentioned plus more makes me have some regrets, but there's really no preparation I could have done anyway.

Also my son is 5 now and I managed to go to school quite recently and I just finished, so everything is improving.

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I've run across too many men who seem to think all women want this. I just don't get it. I need to get something done in my day besides laundry. Which just flummoxed more than one ex-boyfriend.

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Am I allowed to answer from the dad's point of view?

I love my kids very much and regret is probably too strong of a word, but I do regret having them in my early to mid twenties, which has denied me alot of things I wish I had done in my life.

I regret that I have to stay more or less tied to my ex when it would really be healthier for us to make a clean break. We're getting a divorce and it is actually quite amicable, but I think we both kinda wish we could say our goodbyes and move on from one another.

I dislike the city I live in for my kids. We moved here for my ex-ish wife to be near her family. I don't care for it and if not for our kids I would be gone before the ink dried on the divorce papers. But we have kids together. I am not okay with leaving my kids and going away without them. I'm not going to try and take the kids with me and deny them their mother. Mom will never leave this city. So the only solution is to stay here and suck it up, at least until they are old enough to travel by themselves.

On the positive side though; 50/50 shared custody is possibly the best thing to happen to mom and I'm parenting. The kids spend a week with me and a week with their mom. Having that week off from being a dad, when I can go and destress and have a drink with coworkers or go on a long motorcycle ride or whatever makes my week of having my kids *so much* easier. No matter how rough parenting gets, you always know some alone time is just a few days away. And mom and I get along well enough to tweak if one of us has something come up during our time with the kids and we don't mind taking the kids an extra night.

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I love my children, but I regret having every single one of them.

I regret having to hold back trained responses and failing. I regret risking my life on multiple occasions to have them. I regret the loss of income from having them. I regret being told that I don't deserve my meagre stipends I use to raise them. I regret every day I am away from home, working a piecework job I hate, because my soon to be ex husband doesn't want to pay enough child support and wants to work at a just above minimum wage job so he doesn't have to pay child support. I regret every moment I spend with them when they are yelling at me about how horrid of a mother I am. I regret that I have to put their needs first, even if my needs would benefit them. I regret how I had to bury one that didn't have a chance at life. I regret that I had to have another because I didn't have the option at the time to abort a child conceived of marital rape.

I regret being told that my children are my responsibility, but that if I don't live up to standards that are financially beyond my reach to make, I'm hurting my children and should have never had them in the first place. I regret every moment where their father uses his paternal rights to bully me into making them visit him, or when I'm forced to obey his edicts or he'll send child services after me if I don't.

Then I look at them... the artist. the writer. the mechanic.

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I must have done something right.

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That last two sentences…you are an amazing and strong person!

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I don’t regret having my son—he’s the light of my life—but I do regret that I’m tied here to this s****y town and job and ex-husband until he’s 18. Only 5 more years to go, though!

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I don't actually regret my oldest, but at the same time I do.. Kiddo was concieved during an abusive relationship. He raped me repeatedly. I got pregnant 3 times, he demanded an abortion every time. First pregnancy I kept, which resulted in kiddo. I was too far along for an abortion, which he claimed was an excuse because I wanted to ruin his life. Being pregnant and having kiddo made ex more abusive. Pregnancy no2 ended in an abortion after he kicked me down 2 flights of stairs (and all over the floor between the 2 stairs) to make me miscarry. When I didn't start to bleed straight away he tried to strangle me. Pregnancy no3 I found out I got chlamydia from him, not sure if it's because of medication or just bad egg/sperm but the fetus stopped developing and I had to have it removed. 3rd pregnancy also happened after he left, he raped me when he would come "visit" kiddo. Strangely ex started to hound me about the "abortion", claimed he wanted the pregnancy even though he'd demanded an abortion 2 weeks before.

I love my son. I really do. He looks and acts a lot like his father. He reminds me of my rapist and that's hard for me. Kiddo can't help it and I feel horribly guilty. I can't help but think that I'd love him more, not regret his creation, that we'd have a better relationship if he had a different father or came from a different kind of relationship.

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I am not a mother, I am staunchly childfree, but I did obtain guardianship of my niece and that has basically made me a foster mother to this little girl.

I don’t necessarily regret being her guardian, because I couldn’t live with myself leaving her in the situation her mother put her in, and I have a lot of support from my boyfriend and his family taking care of her, so that makes it possible for me to go on knowing she’s safe and well provided for...and not in a foster/group home.

But I do hate being a parent.

Pretty much from the start, I’ve always known I’d be a “good parent” because I can provide financially, stability, and consistency. But I do not enjoy children at all whatsoever, and I really only want to give and receive affection from my boyfriend, and children like my niece REALLY need all the love and attention they can get. I have to force myself to be affectionate with her after hours of rolling my eyes.

The annoying, constant, questions, attention seeking behaviors, trying to “be cool”, always thinking they’re so clever and funny when they’re just mimicking other cringey people they watch on Netflix and YouTube...it irritates the s**t out of me. Throwing pity parties and feeling sorry for themselves when they don’t get their way or are disciplined for doing something wrong instead of accepting the consequences for their behavior...it’s like...ugly to me? I don’t know how else to describe it.

Don’t get me wrong, I know good and well I was an annoying child too. But I was also a quiet child, and rarely tried to reach beyond my abilities to be funny to make adults pay attention to me. That was just me. And I get that kids today think trying to be entertaining 24/7 like a YouTuber is what’s cool and wanted now. Doesn’t make it any less aggravating, though.

So, I love my niece dearly, and I’m glad she can express herself and has the confidence to be as annoying as she is, but this experience has for a fact solidified my decision to get sterilized 10000000%

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tbh i feel like she shouldve let the kid go to someone else. that girl IS going to realize, if she hasnt already, that she's considered an annoyance and unwanted.

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I always tell people, if you think you dont want kids, you dont want kids. I thought I wanted kids, had one, still on the fence. She's great and all, but I'm really not a patient person and parenthood has not taught me any patience at all.

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Lack of patience is one of the major reasons why I decided to be childfree. I have no patience and no maternal/nurturing instinct with kids.

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Because children tie you to males. Glad I’m older. It’s good to be free.

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Regret is a strong word for how I feel. I love my daughter and I would never *ever* change my decision to have her.

I had the worst pregnancy imaginable. I had a rare condition called TRAP sequence which only occurs in 1 in 40,000 pregnancies. I lost one of our identical twin girls very early on, but this condition causes the passed twin to keep growing until the end of pregnancy. It was diagnosed very late at 26 weeks which made me EXTREMELY high risk as it was too late to have a cord ablation. The literal day I was diagnosed I was admitted to the hospital for the rest of my pregnancy. 59 days straight I stayed there until my planned c section at 34 weeks. I had preterm labor stopped 3 times and because I’m sensitive to stimulants the drug they used almost stopped my heart. I almost died as my husband watched in horror. Full cardiac work ups etc. Our little girl was much sicker than we expected at 34 weeks. I didn’t hold her for a week. Her left lung collapsed at 24 hours old and they had to cut her chest to put a tube in. I still grieve over her sister. I grew both, I carried both, and spent 59 days unsure if I would get to even go home with one baby. After 25 days in NICU she got to come home. A part of me died in that hospital after so long in near total isolation. It was maddening. We were young! It’s should have been easy, but it wasn’t. All my friends have had textbook pregnancies and I envy them. Hard. I didn’t even get to have a baby shower. However, I would do it all over again 100x just to see her smile.

That being said I wish for like one week every 6months where it is just me and my husband again. I’m tired. It’s not even her that makes me tired honestly is the cumulation of being a working mother. I thought I was exhausted as a SAHM mom, but my god. Working 40-50 hours a week, plus keeping up with our home, plus being a mother, plus being a wife, plus being a full time student etc. I’m freaking tired. I’d give anything to be a SAHM mom again for a week. I don’t even know who “me” is anymore. I want to know her. I’m trying. From the moment I wake up to the moment I go to bed I’m NEVER alone. I feel like giving my all is never enough. My mental health has been shi*e lately. However, I now recognize it and am taking steps to better my mental health and changing jobs by this fall to help myself. I wouldn’t say I have regret, but I want to find me again. I miss her. It’s been a long time.

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Same preface as everyone else, I love my children, but I had them way too young. I was raised Mormon, and good Mormon girls get married to a righteous priesthood holder and find their life’s purpose when they have children. So that’s what I did. I had my first at 21, second at 24, and third at 27. I had severe postpartum depression after my first, that I treated with diligent scripture reading and prayer. It didn’t work. Looking back, I think I depressed for most of my twenties.

My husband and I both had a faith crisis almost immediately after I gave birth to my third. It was a horrendous, hormonal whirlwind of a year, and when I got through to the other side, I told my husband I was going back to school. We had a bit of a rough patch redefining our roles after Mormonism. A lot more family responsibilities became his job, which triggered depression for him.

After that major life transition, we both agree that we were much too young to have children. Neither of us spent our 20s doing the typical 20s things. As a young mom, I didn’t feel like a really person, I was an appendage to everyone else. I didn’t get the chance for self-discovery that I think is crucial. My twenties were just a blur of coping with the demands of very small children. Sometimes I resent that. Being a SAHM was incredibly damaging for my mental well-being, and I think that has really affected my daughter. She has a lot of my anxious tendencies, and we’ve gotten her to a good therapist to help her cope with the ways I think my young parenting affected her.

I don’t regret my kids, but I hate that I had them so young. Being pregnant wreaked havoc on my body and my mental health. I hate parenting babies and toddlers. I hate feeling so tired all the time. I hate that I’m 31 and still in school/trying to “find myself”. I hate that I don’t really find motherhood fulfilling. I hate that 80% of my favorite things involve me being away from them. I don’t regret them as individuals, I actually think that are pretty amazing little humans. I just regret that I feel like our society portrays motherhood as a certain thing, when I found it to be be something very different. I also hate that I don’t feel like it’s societally acceptable to say that motherhood probably isn’t my cup of tea but I’m doing the best I can.

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Another life ruined by the expectation of others.

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First, I need to begin by saying that I adore my children and would do anything and everything in the world for them. That being said, I now know that I'm not cut out to be a mother to young children.

My children are two and four and I left my job to be a stay at home mom when I was pregnant with my second and it felt like I lost a sense of my identity when I did that. Because of my husband's job, I don't have the flexibility to go back to work until they're both in school and that makes me feel like my children are trapping me in my own house. On top of that, they still need me for a great deal of things, so it feels like my entire existence is solely for the purpose of taking care of nothing but them. I have very little in my life to call my own. It feels selfish to feel like this, but I've made my peace with that.

I hope and believe that once they're in school and my entire day doesn't revolve around them I'll be able to slowly do things for myself again and perhaps not feel like this. I see myself enjoying my kids more when we have separation during the day. But for the time being, I do find myself wishing that I never had kids.

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I didn't really like my daughter until she was 7 years old, maybe a little before - she was beyond annoying, I'm not a kid person so it was a very big learning curve. At 7 she could do a lot of things on her own - and kids like to feel independence so your job becomes to just make sure they don't get hurt or anything. She's 16 now, calm, very smart and independent so my new thing is to cry because she's almost 17 and I only have one more year with her before college and I don't know how I'm going to mentally and emotionally handle it. We're extremely close and the thought of her not being in the next room terrifies and saddens me to my core.

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I don’t regret having my kids per se. But I do get where you’re coming from. I had my kids when I was fairly young (compared to how I wanted life to be) and people were expecting me to have them. So at 26 I got married and had 2kids. Fast forward 12years later, divorced from my kids’ father, I realized that I have no maternal instinct at all. I had a period when I resented having them but that went away already. It was a conscious effort to change my perspective. I draw strength from my kids now. But sometimes I can’t help but wonder what life would be like without them. I feel a wave of shame whenever I think of that but it is what it is.

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Childfree....decided I did not want kids after my dad cheated on my mom, left us, did not pay child support as in the agreement. No regrets about not having children...but now really sorry never found love of my life. Life is lonely and I def. see a limit to life now. Its all related...how childhood affects how one trusts and succeeds as an adult.

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When my mother had me, her only child. Her post partum depression never left, her entire life since my birth has been medicated (30+ years)
I feel her pain so deeply, I never figured I would have exactly the same experience.
My kids are good people, I do the best I can for them.

However, if I had my time again I would do it kid free... it may be worth feeling this intense love, but not losing your mind, body and soul over.

Hindsight is an amazing thing

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Yes, this: "However, if I had my time again I would do it kid free... it may be worth feeling this intense love, but not losing your mind, body and soul over." Waited to have a child because of the fear of not being a good parent after an abusive childhood. Worked on myself continually and, clock ticking, decided that if I brought a child into this world, I would take 100% responsibility to be a good parent. Devoted myself to thinking through everything everyday with the goal of creating a confident, happy, undamaged, forward-moving human being. For all except these last 3 of 17 years, could honestly say I felt like a really good mother and it was worth all the personal sacrifices. Put all the right amounts of love and support in and it grows, right? Even more positive energy and healthy people will be drawn in, right? No. It isn't an investment, it's a deferred loss you realize after it's too late. My life given for his, but I still have to go on-- just with nothing left.

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I am so so so dang relieved I'm not the only one.

I never wanted kids. I always felt awkward around them and quickly would be bored by friends who only talked about them.

And then I got pregnant, became incredibly depressed, experienced crippling postpartum depression, and had two more.

I still don't want kids, and it makes me feel guilty for thinking about if I could go back and do it again... I wouldn't. I love them deeply, but I have never been one to express outward affection or to enjoy constant touching.

Somedays it's really freaking hard to not scream and run away.

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Why would you have two more? I'm so confused by this.

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I don’t regret having kids but I do dream about that elusive world wherein I had my current resources and wasn’t tied down by motherly duties.

I have a great career and I make good money, but my husband an I live in another country than our family which implies that we don’t have much support if we ever want to take a break. Yeah we can hire a babysitter every now and then for a date night but the thought of even taking a weekend trip together is laughable. We are so prudent about our vacation days as kids fall sick or school holidays etc and we often have to save time off for such exigencies.

I haven’t ever spent a night without my kids and even the thought of it exhausts me.

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I want to preface this by stating that I absolutely love my child and will not ever regret her, as my child.

But there are days I do regret the decision. Especially now going through a divorce and seeing how bad of a father my ex really is. On top of that, I feel like I completely suck as a mother and just fail at doing motherly things. I tend to disconnect and try to teach her to be more independent - more so she will do things on her own and just leave me alone. I know she's only 5 and she is at the age where children are pre-wired to test every single button that you have....but sometimes I just want to run away from it all and go back to not having any responsibility over any human being.

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A five year old, needs to be taught how to do things, guided. They aren't going to figure it out by being left alone. They are just little.

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As with some others, regret is a strong word for it, but I have a dependent adult child who's a challenge. Thing is, the child's a bigger challenge to themself than to me (mental illness), and I don't know that I'd put them through it all again if I had the choice.

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My mother moved from korea to the states. She told me she was lonely, had identity issues, and then she had me and it seemed like her problems were fixed. She invested almost all her time and energy to me. She told me that I gave her meaning to life.

Ironically, i got married and moved to korea. I felt the same thing my mother went through. I believed that having a baby would fix everything (give me purpose, keep me busy, etc), and of course it didn’t. I was never even a ‘baby person’ to begin with, so parenting was even more difficult for me.

I have two boys now and I love them so much, but I am definitely done having kids. I dont think I was “born to be a mother” like some other women are. I try my best to be the mother they need, and I think thats all that matters. Buuut I still go through these periods where I become very depressed thinking about where I would have been if I never had children... what if I did finish school and pursued a career for myself. I know its not too late to do all of that, but it’s just so much harder when I need to care for my family as well.

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I wouldn't exactly say regret. Though sometimes it does feel that way. I'm 32, married, and have a 3 year old son with autism. I had my tubes tied immediately after him and recently had an endometrial ablation. I never wanted children and I had to make sure it wouldn't happen again. I chose to go through with the pregnancy and I'm not quite sure why. I was in shock. My husband was thrilled. Everyone was happy. I was not.

I miss my freedom to do the things that nourished my soul. And I'm absolutely exhausted. Pregnancy destroyed my body in more ways than just weight gain. I love my son, dearly. But I do regret giving up the things I had to give up that made me- me.

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awesome post about how ur kid having autism ruined YOUR life. /s

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I simply regret having a child because it feels like I'm tied down. I can't do things on a whim anymore. I can't spend my money foolishly anymore (not that you ever should). It's difficult to find a babysitter you trust (and it is expensive). If you love working (like me!), it will put a damper on your life. I work 50+ hours a week mandatory where I work and I constantly feel guilty. If I'm not working, I'm sleeping. I feel like I'm not the best mom because I never get to see my daughter.

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I love my son, but I waver between if I would make the choice to keep him again. I'm just not interested in motherhood. I'm not interested in the way everyone expects him to be the most important and most interesting thing in the world for me. He is not the center of my world. He is not the light of my life. He never was, even as an infant/toddler. He's just my kid.

I regret having something/someone tying me down in a way that is out of my control. There are a lot of things I am not able to do anymore because my son exists. That sucks.

I also never got all of the hippy-dippy lovey-dovey things. I'm not a cuddler. We didn't co-sleep. I don't know. It just truly isn't the best part of my life.

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Jes try Ur best and you'll do great 🖤

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My oldest child has ADHD amd the teachers just suggested we get the younger one tested. It's not like they are not wildly funny sweethearts, but they are always switched on.
The younger one is probably more high functioning than the older... Better able to express herself, her mind doesn't run off in Wild directions. But miss 8 (older), she can't even express herself in a logical way. Can't order her ideas, can take 5 minutes just to sort out what day of the week something has happened. Frequently brings up stuff that happened 6 months ago and forgets what happened that day... Or at least can't effectively express it to me. And then there's the emotions... Lack of emotional regulation is worse for the little one, but also miss 8. Some days I can hold it in and stay calm and positive. Other days we are all one annoying thing away from loosing it at each other.

My husband goes away for months at a time for work.

Regret is a big word, but I really can't wait until they are teenagers. I like teens, I have never liked children. Anybody's.

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Agreed, teens are waaaaaaaaay better than children and those gremlins called babies and toddlers.

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I was diagnosed with Lupus in 2012. I had two boys and was a single mom. The depression and physical pain made me feel like a s****y mom. I wanted better for my boys.

I met my husband in 2013. We had two more children plus his two from a previous marriage. 6 kids in all. Both pregnancies were unplanned but I love my kids. I just wish they had better. I’m depressed off and on and I get stressed easily. I’m also in pain constantly. Having to miss things because I’m sick or hurting sucks. If I could do it all over, I don’t know if I’d have kids because I just stay in a constant loop of depressed, in pain and guilt.

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Ok....if that doesn't make you want to give yourself a tubal with a rusty tin-can lid then I don't know what will.

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I would say I strongly regret having a kid with the father of my child, and also the timing that I had her.

I did not want children and I was happy with just being the fun aunt. Fast forward to me meeting the man who I should have never been involved with. We had only been dating a few short months when I found out I was pregnant. I was switching birth control pillls, on top of the condom breaking. At that time, I had no idea my daughter's father would be emotionally and physically abusive. I did not believe in abortion and I thought that we would be a happy couple in love raising our child together. That did not go to plan and I had to get my daughter and I away from the toxic environment we had been living in. She was about 1 when we left him and I had extreme depression and ptsd. I was careless in the sense that I just didn't show her enough love and attention. She had her needs met, but I couldn't even bring myself to shower or get out of bed. It took me 2 whole years after that to fully appreciate her and get out of my funk.

Being a parent is the hardest job you will ever do, hands down. I've been a single parent for quite some time now and there is days I just want to give up and be selfish. Gone are the days of sleeping in, having a full nights rest for that matter, going to the store alone, going out, having alone time. I wish I could have my child 10 years from now. When I could actually be ready financially and emotionally. I wish she could have a father who actually gives a s**t about her and wants to watch her grow. I wish I wasn't so bitter sometimes and didn't lose my cool with her when she just wants to spend time with me. As a parent, there will lots of tears, poop, vomit and meltdowns. But there will also be an unlimited amount of hugs, kisses, laughter, and a child who will love you unconditionally no matter what. It's true when the say the love you have for your child is unlike anything you will ever know. So where's there's regret, there's also love. It's hard to explain, really!

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There are days I regret that I have three kids. Three is hard. I wouldn’t trade any single one of them, it’s just the sheer number. My first two are step kids, so it was a steep learning curve going from zero to two at different ages and stages (better or worse than twins? Who knows). We added to the family and some days I feel like a shell of a woman. We share custody of the two oldest, so I used to have time to recharge. Now that I have a little one, I don’t get any time to myself, hubs works a lot, so I don’t get any help, and sometimes I just want to sleep, but I can’t because the baby won’t take a (&:&@/$ nap.

Sure, babyhood is a stage, but man, elementary age is getting harder and harder. The attituuuuude. Sometimes I just want them to shut up about who did what to whom and who’s fault it is. Then there’s the questions. Good lord, the questions. I love the inquisitive aspect of it, but the older they get, the more out of my depths and skill I feel. I get worried I’m going to screw them up and they’ll grow up with a false sense of what true love, compassion, and kindness is because sometimes I snap and yell.

So do I regret it? On the surface, yes, sometimes. But Its more like I regret not equipping myself better. Maybe I’d take more parenting classes for older children in my free time before we had the baby. Or maybe I’d help foster a better parenting balance between my husband and I. But here we are, and like I said, three is hard. I regret that three is hard but I wouldn’t give up any one of them just to get that dynamic back.

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