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Hey Pandas, tell me stories about your worst experience with mental illness and how you cope with it.
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#1
I have Adhd, DID (dissociative identity disorder), anxiety, and depression. One thing that happened was i was on a date and i switched alters and we broke up because I switched from Bean (who your talking to right now) and Emma (doesn't speak good english). It was terrifying
Final score:
5points
pansexualandproud 4 years ago
i have some questions if you guys dont mind...who is the host? and how many alters are there? and is Emma your guyses little?
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#2
Depressions with a mild form of selfharm (biting fingernails until i bleed, scratching until i bleed etc.)
sometimes i can't even brush my teeth because of my low energylevel.
i dropped out of university (i had to work 80% to finance my studies and that triggered my depression), i don't have any degree or certification or anything and so i don't find any job (had to quit my job becuase of covid), which stresses me, because i don't have any money and that worsens my depressions
my therapist is an angel and helps me a lot, also my bf and my close friends help me, but yeah i wished i had a stable job to stable my mind and maybe one day i can get a degree or something..
Final score:
4points
Billy The Kid 4 years ago
Looks like it has been a crap year for you like many others but hope it gets better. i have worked with self harmers in the past and a few of them wear an elastic band on their wrist so if they feel like self harming they would pull it very hard. painful i know but its better than scratches and cutting
#3
Substance abuse disorder, chronic mild depression, reoccurring major depression with psychotic features.
My "worst experience" is not interesting. What is interesting is the fact that I got help - got clean/sober, went to therapy, got appropriate medication, and did a lot of work on myself.
Currently living a better life than I ever imagined possible. It wasn't always easy and it took time, but mental illness doesn't mean life has to be bad. In all honesty, I wouldn't want to be "sane". Those people are annoying.
Final score:
4points
#4
Anxiety, mostly at night. I'm afraid of sharp things so that's fun. Living in constant fear is the best.
People without anxiety, appreciate that.
Final score:
4points
#5
debilitating anxiety, to where i sometimes can't go outside. depression, comes from my anxiety. lost a close family member to self harm, threw me in deeper. been climbing out for 30 years, i know i can do this, it just takes time.
Final score:
3points
#6
social anxiety to the point I'm not able to function properly. And probably something like anger issues in combination with self harm (biting and scratching)
Final score:
3points
#7
I have a little bit of OCD but not that much. Although I have a friend that has some brain problems and it makes him such a jerk because he hears things I don't say that my other friend can't hear and always thinks he is right. It might be Covid though because he wasn't acting like this last year. He is getting better but sometimes he just can't deal with it. He has been pressuring me to go to school because he says that it's safe when people are still being pulled out. The worst part was when he went on a rampage about something stupid for a little over a month long.
Final score:
3points
#8
A little personal, but I believe I have sensory processing disorder. It’s often confused with ADHD and OCD because it’s similar to it, but with a lot more sensory things, ofc. It was at its worst when I was little. So a tag on my shirt would feel like it’s stabbing into my side, or I wouldn’t want to move if I was wearing socks with seams. I have urges to touch random things or to make them symmetrical, or make them touch together. There’s certain things that I’ll refuse to touch though, like photographs or the paper in fortune cookies. If I even think about them I get shivers and I feel like pulling my teeth out lol.
Final score:
3points
#9
I have anxiety, insomnia, depression, and paranoia. im always wary of my surroundings and I tend to freak out a lot. I also do this weird shiver thing(?) I don't know why I do it. I will just be normal then I will twitch or shiver in a weird way. can someone tell me why that happens or is it normal?
Final score:
3points
Finn The Crab 4 years ago
Could be a tic- it's not rare, don't worry. That's really my only guess. Tics don't just happen due to things like tourettes, althought that's the most well-known cause. Some people tic when under stress, or it can just happen randomly. I have a tic in which I jerk my head forward, and it gets pretty darn anooying and kind of hurts my neck sometimes. It mostly happens when I'm stressed, or if I think about it, and sometimes it just pops up out of nowhere. Don't worry about it too much- it's probably due to anxiety.
#10
Used to have depression. Sad :'( . Dad thought I was faking it to skip school. Mom didn't bother trying to find me a therapist after I begged her. (She attempted to but that was after I defeated my depression. Which was after I asked her with a whOLE GOD DAMN YEAR!)
Anyways now I have anxiety. Can't sleep. Head hurts. Sudden urge to cry. Don't do my school work cuz I'm too overwhelmed. Too overwhelmed cuz I didn't do my school work.
*le sob*
Final score:
3points
#11
I have diagnosed schizotypal personality disorder, it's the little, lesser known brother of schizophrenia. In a nutshell I can't tust anyone, my mother, my wife, my kids, you name it. I'm strange for 99% of the people therefore I don't have any friends. To top all that it comes with a magical view of the world, it's like living in a Marquez-novel: supernatural is normal from the inside but uncomfortable, to say the least from the outside.
Final score:
3points
#12
Social anxiety. I have to go out most days to go to school. It really makes me nervous. Talking to people I don't know terrifys me. Um never said this bit but i poke my self with a compass (the maths one not geography lol) no blood or anything just stings. Idk if this even counts as self harm?
Final score:
2points
Finn The Crab 4 years ago
Hey, yeah, in my opinion, at least, it does. Doing something to cause pain to yourself is self-harm. Try talking to someone about it, tiger. Sorry to hear about that. (Also thanks for clarifying lmao I had to search it up cause I was like "tf? Did you take apart a compass???")
#13
Anxiety with panic attacks, major depressive disorder, bipolar disorder (but on the lower end of the spectrum). Couldn't figure out why nothing seemed to help my depression or anxiety, no matter how many doctors and therapists I went to. Finally started seeing a psychiatrist a few months ago. She's the one who diagnosed me bipolar and started me on a mood stabilizer. Completely changed my life, and I honestly thought I'd never get a handle on my mental health. I used to self-harm, have one attempted suicide under my belt, lost a brother to suicide, and my father tried to kill himself this year. Seems like a family issue, perhaps (sarcasm). I'm just glad someone finally gave me the correct diagnosis and effective treatment. I was so unhappy for so long.
Final score:
1point
Francis 4 years ago
a good therapist is so much worth! happy you found someone! and yes, depressions can be a family "thing". when one of your parents has depressions it's more likely for you to have depressions aswell.. i'm sorry for your brother and i hope your father finds good help aswell! keep on going
#14
Anxiety, guilt, fear of authority. I routinely have such bad anxiety I can't function at work. I just can't do somethings. All comes from childhood trama. Just started therapy, it was the hardest decision of my life but completely worth it.
Final score:
1point
#15
I'm a social worker and Psychology PhD student. I've realized that most people diagnosed with ADHD don't actually have ADHD. The symptoms from ADHD are similar to symptoms from other disorders. Also, most people who were prescribed stimulants during childhood through early adulthood have significant problems with anxiety during adulthood due to the stimulant.
Final score:
1point
#16
It was anxiety and feeling depressed. I was never officially diagnosed but it was bad enough that some days I just couldn't go to school (this was before "our current situation"). I had a "fearsona" that would tell me that "oh you messed up now everyone is going to hate you" or "you're going to get hurt doing this" even on the simplest of things like dropping an item and going to pick it up. I kind of escaped from that painful world with games...because the communities I was in were supportive. I went to a therapist for some time but that didn't help much, I hated sharing stuff about myself to people I knew in person. Don't know why, but being online feels much safer to me. Maybe because I can edit what I want to say before I actually hit submit or publish. As for feeling depressed, I would just lose interest and stop doing things when something triggered it, sometimes even randomly. I would start going back to bad/sad memories and start crying out of the blue. Now it's mostly better but sometimes I still have panic attacks and stuff.
Final score:
1point
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