While joking about certain topics has become more prevalent, actually getting into the weeds and discussing things like mental health, social desirability, and being just self-conscious about everything rarely gets earnestly explored. Despite our better judgment, these things remain distasteful for public consumption and get sidelined.
So it’s not surprising that an internet user wanted to know what “socially unacceptable” things people actually thought about themselves. Answers ranged from brutally honest to poignant, so strap in, get comfortable, and be sure to upvote your favorites and comment your own, personal examples.
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I have no real desire to do anything extraordinary with my life. I just want to have my own little corner in the world, and not be bothered by anyone. Or bother anyone.
Add-on: WOW this blew up! Thanks guys 😊
Idyllic. Kids have never appealed to me. Animals on the other hand ....
Load More Replies...Same. Before I had my accident I was asked why I didn't want to be a manager. I have no interest or ambition in becoming a higher up. I just want to do my job and then go live my life.
I think this is great. Depends on if you want to work to live or live to work. I'd rather have a job where you can leave work at work and go live your life.
Load More Replies...People should have the right to live THEIR life THEIR way. Whatever makes YOU happy is what you do. 👌🏼
Multiple members of my family are hoping so hard for making the perfect investment or something to suddenly become rich. All I want is to work somewhere I like, and make enough money to not have to worry about being able to afford rent and food each month.
Me too. Just a drama free life with a cute little house in an area with some nature. Eventually grandchildren. And books. Lots of them. Plus plenty of coffee. Never have l been tempted to bungee jump or become a CEO.
I have no ambitions, no life goals, no desire to achieve. I want to live my life doing a little damage to others. I'm very happy with my life, thank you!
I used have this feeling that I was going to do something grand and be, at least locally, famous. Now I'd rather be a recluse and just do stuff for myself. I don't even care about getting high up in a job. It's just a ton more of responsibility and being bothered at any given time.
As a woman I do not want kids.
I also think people should be able to choose voluntary euthanasia so they don't have to suffer if they don't want to (generally not for mental health problems but for physical ones).
Also, I don't follow rules because this post said one thing and I said three things, so there.
I wish we could also choose to have tubes tied before a certain age too. I’m finally 36 this year and asking the drs
I'm in my early 20s but i want my tubes tied too. I NEVER want kids. Honestly my genes don't deserve to be transferred like I've had enough issues with them. But obviously, doctors can only talk about my 'future husband'
Load More Replies...As someone with an incurable and increasingly difficult to manage mental illness, the option should be there for mental illness as well. Have you ever lived in hell caused by your own mind witb no control over it? I'd rather be in physical pain, to be honest. At least you can medicate that.
Let me say with the "opiate crisis", not a good time for any chronic pain patient in the US. Government just should stay out of health decisions like this.
Load More Replies...Why exclude mental health problems? Mental suffering can be as bad or even worse than physical suffering.
The European Court has deckared that euthanasia for phychiatric problems does not violate Human Rights.
Load More Replies...as a milk carton, i won’t be spawning in any butter babies… i’ll get a cat and that will be my ‘child’ 🙂
I highly recommend cats as children. I am a wolf and I have two. And a dog too XD
Load More Replies...I am for the right to die even if I don't have physical or mental health problems. It's my live and if I want to end it I want to end it with dignity and but with brutal tools which will affect other people
I agree. That's the ultimate "freedom" because after you've considered all your options and tried all the treatments, you, and only you, know when it's time.
Load More Replies...Many people don't want kids. Although l am not one of them (l have two), it makes me furious to hear people who don't want kids constantly being asked when they plan to have kids. Also, it's cruel and merciless not to allow euthanasia. It's legal in Switzerland (where l live).
Hi, as a woman also, thank you for saying these things. Our whole situation for women currently is infuriating. I really agree with the euthanasia decision because these diseases will force you to watch a painful and horrendous death to keep alive a person that isn't living. It should be your and their decision only (and obvi not as a free-for-all). I resent the idea of also forcing a woman to go through with a pregnancy, labor, birth, risk, to then endure genetic, neurological, immune or nervous system abnormalities. It. Is. Sick. AND then to not even off healthcare for everyone, too!!!! W. T. F. WTF!
I'm only 18 but I probably wanna donate my eggs and get my tubes tied right after. I've known I didn't want kids since I was five years old, and yet close family and strangers on the internet alike tell me for some reason my own feelings are wrong and I will want kids someday.
Hi Moo, I am someone's birth mother. She was given up for adoption. Her birth father and I made that choice together. We were physically mature enough, but not emotionally or mentally ready to be parents. I made sure that I never got pregnant again. I still have all my equipment. Just sexual intercourse never brought me the kind of pleasure that men receive from the act. The last time I had sex was in 2007. It has never bothered me since I chose to stop. Didn't do it very often anyway. Sometimes I wish I did enjoy sex. It's not possible to have a platonic relationship with a guy, when you are a female. They always end up wanting sex and have no understanding why I don't want sex. What little dating life I had died long ago. I miss dating. Just so you know, I'm 57 and most of the time a happily divorced woman.
Load More Replies...Why for physical health problems only? Mental health issues can make people suffer so bad that they wish they could die.
I am a grown man who likes to play with action figures and yes I do make the noises to pretend they’re fighting it’s my hobby it relaxes me and yet I rarely tell people because they look at me like I’m a child why should we loose our sense of wonder as we grow?
My autistic brother is 20 yrs old and my parents want him to forget playing with toys and be a grown up. They give examples like Elon Musk and Albert Einstein to try to convince him. Just let him be. It's the only thing I have that I can talk to him about without getting annoyed or fighting with him (his interess are cars and beyblade whereas mine is animals and beyblade so if he talks about cars I get annoyed cuz I don't like taking about machines destroying our planet and if I talk about animals he falls asleep, beyblade is the only thing we have that keeps us connected)
Im an engineer in product development. My whole line of work revolve around problem solving and require a creative mind, thinking outside the box etc. I'm soon to be 47 and I still play video games and love cool toys. I firmly belive my creative side comes from still being a playfull person than from the years in uni. We play when we are growing up, but I also belive we grow as we play.
Load More Replies...A sense of wonder and some curiosity is ultimately the only thing that will save the world....
My genius manual said that there is something of a pattern where creative people usually don’t have more than 120 IQ, because they need to hold that wonder and almost child-like naive awe. The Bible also says that children belong in the kingdom of Heaven, so… oh, oops, my manual didn’t say that, I read it somewhere else recently… for some reason my brain is all zig-zagged, I keep forgetting words and whatnot. Maybe bc I’m wearing glasses after a while…
Load More Replies...If your pants are loose, you are going to lose your pants.
Load More Replies...I'm of the opinion if it's non destructive or harmful to you or others then why not as we are here for a good time not a long time
I'm a grown woman and the last time I was dusting I was playing with my Wipeout Feisar figurine.
I still like my imaginary adventures in my head. Far more entertaining than real life.
We, humans, have a strange desire to appear in a way that we think will make people like or respect us more. In research, this is called social desirability bias and it is the bane of survey-makers across the globe. The long and short of it is that even in fully anonymous surveys, people will answer them in ways that they think make them look better. It’s not hard to realize just how much this can skew any data collection.
Beyond survey gathering, it also indicates that we feel a constant, omnipresent pressure to conform to certain standards publicly, even if we hardly follow them at home. We at some level are always aware of what is or isn’t socially acceptable and we’ll modify our public behavior to match. For example, people will state that voting is important and that they do it every election while not actually voting a single time.
I prefer being alone/away from others
Yes. My parents don't understand why I don't want to go to work social events. Sadly COVID has actually been able to give me the environment I want. I work 100% at home now.
There shokd be a club where loners can gather. Oh yeah. Its facebook
I thought I did too, but in reality I was just overly sensitive to rejection. So, I'd reject everybody else first. But, the loneliness will catch up to you.
I can never tell if I am a lazy person or depressed.
I feel like if you are not doing anything because you are somehow petrified into non-action, that is not laziness. That is fear of failure, lack of enjoyment (anhedonia), or some other reason... So I feel like if you cannot tell if you are depressed or lazy you are more likely to be depressed. No one chooses to do nothing if it makes them feel awful, just for... no reason? And so the problem is not that you are lazy, but that you think that you are. And overcoming that kind of thinking, to learn that your thoughts are not always correct, is an important step to healing.
I bit the bullet 2 weeks ago and got a precription. It is depression.
Load More Replies...Doing nothing is underestimated, people need to contemplate and recharge.
Laziness is just a concept invented by ableist people to make you feel like a failure.
I am not sure if it was invented by anyone in particular, but I agree with your general idea, I think. As in, perhaps laziness exists, but the negative connotation does not add up. Why would it be bad to do nothing? To me, that is a type of capitalist thinking, where everything always has to be productive in order to have value. It can even happen that you do not feel like doing whatever you think of as self-care, and then you feel like c**p... How is that still self-care, if it needs you doing some kind of violence to yourself? If one is truly lazy, I think that should bring joy. Laziness *is* a form of self-care, and even when it is not, one can choose to do nothing that produces "value" under capitalist thinking. That is a valid decision one can make, if it brings you something positive. Perhaps not always joy, but then at least the option to rest a little so you can have energy for the things that do bring you joy.
Load More Replies...Or, hear me out, undiagnosedly on the spectrum and also depressed, because you grew up with adults always yelling at you for "being lazy". 🙂🙂
Load More Replies...I find it disgusting that both are deemed as “socially unacceptable”. Everyone is entitled to not wanna do anything for the sake of re-charging their bodies and brains, for the sake of their comfort. If we wanna feel active and feel like doing something then we will on OUR time; not on YOURS. Quit pushing us, and quit judging us. It’s pathetic too how laziness and depression are linked together yet people will still shrug it off and act dismissive of it, claiming it to be a “poor excuse”. Disgusting.
If this is about being at home and doing nothing, not cleaning or not being tidy or not looking after yourself, it's depression. Laziness is when you 'won't' do things for others. It's if you sit there like a turd whilst your elderly, frail mother makes dinner and you don't or won't help if she asks. Laziness is when a friend in need asks you if you can help them paint a room (and they are always there to help you out) and you just can't be bothered to help them. Laziness usually affects others more and not yourself. Basically if you are asking if you are lazy or depressed, you are probably depressed or just going through a bad time and bad moods etc. Truly lazy, selfish people wouldn't even care about that question.
No such thing as lazy: there are many conditions that present as avoiding activity. Better find out which one is.
"Lazy" is always someone else's opinion of what you should be doing with your time; and if you yourself think you are "lazy", it's because someone else tells you that, when you are not doing what they expect you to do... And sometimes, it's just the echoes of someone else's voice in your head, from way back... But, if there are things that you legitimately want to do but simply can't find the strength to pick yourself up to do them, then you are probably sick - and, yes, that sickness could well be depression. When you are sick and it is impacting negatively on your life, you need to seek medical assistance. There is no shame in asking for help when you need it, the brain is just part of your body, and it can get sick too!
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I don't want to work.
I just want to live in a grassy field and eat fruit.
I don't wanna work. I just wanna bang on the drums all day!!!
No offense but I don't want you as a neighbour. lol
Load More Replies...I don't mind work or deadlines. What I hate is being told when to work and how to work.
I feel your pain... I have both freelance jobs with deadlines and a remote job with a flexible schedule. It still annoys me that for the remote job I have to log in at an hour I previously agreed upon 😅
Load More Replies...I just want to live in a grassy field and read books until I vomited letters!!!!
I would love to only work when l feel like it. If l didn't love my job, l'd prefer to read books on the couch all day.
Nobody wants to work, but nobody wants to live under a bridge either. ;-)
What's wrong with living under a bridge? If trolls can do it, so can I! I just need a nice, big, heavy club, so that I can keep all the other trolls out! My club, my rules! ;-))
Load More Replies...Think I've had nearly a dozen jobs and everywhere I go i see the same s**t and so tired of it. I see so much waste; time, materials, energy, and money. Just knowing most people who work hate their job and most of it is meaningless is a killer.
I'm sure our corporate overlords are about to reinstate serfdom soon anyways...and they wonder why "no one wants to work".
Load More Replies...Mental health is another topic that most agree is important to discuss but hardly ever broach the subject themselves. So one way people manage to accurately describe the way they feel is through humor. People joke about depression and anxiety quite often, despite both being relatively serious matters. The good news is that just joking about the topic can help alleviate some of the symptoms. Studies show that even a bit of humor can help take the edge off depression and help maintain happier relationships.
I’m a reasonably attractive, goal-driven woman in my 20s and I have genital herpes. Right before the first pandemic shutdown I was raped at a concert and got it as a result.
I’ve healed a lot from what happened and have very much come to terms with it and I accept it’s a part of who I am, but yeah, generally the perspective on STDs sucks and people are quick to joke about them/judge people who have them when in reality these things can happen to just about anyone.
Edit: I made this post right before bed last night and woke up to so much kindness from you lovely people. Thank you for the reassurance and encouragement, appreciation doesn’t begin to cover how I feel right now. The anniversary of when everything happened is coming up in a few weeks so naturally this has been on my mind a bit more. You’ve all made me feel a lot less alone and have given me a more positive outlook. Thank you so much.
As a fellow person who has been raped, I understand this girls pain about the anniversary, I was thinking about ending my life when it came up for me. Sending strength and love to this girl. Some men are trash.
In november last year my phone was stolen, they used my bank apps to transfer all the money they could, they asked for loans, salary advances, etcup to nearly $15,000. The day after realizing all that I felt so violated, so angry and sad... and after that I can't even imagine how a raped person can feel the day after. Rapists should be castrated.
Castrated rapists will still offend. Just shoot 'em.
Load More Replies...I am a woman who has “praise GOD” never been raped but came very close had I not jumped out a 2 story apartment balcony door. I can’t imagine having to cope with that. I truly admire all ladies who overcome this and EVEN MORE SO the women who get an STD or a pregnancy and continue fighting though that daily. More power to you ladies!!!!!! Stay strong
At least in the US, it's estimated that a quarter to a third of the population has HSV
Yep I have oral herpes, I’m not sexually active, if you get cold sores/fever blisters you have herpes! Yay!
Load More Replies...Dear OP. You are NOT to blame, nor is anything of this not socially acceptable. I hope that you are doing well, and find all the love and support that you need.
To anyone living with herpes: 1000 mg of L-Lysine a day will prevent outbreaks for most. Take with water on an empty stomach and don't eat/drink any proteins for half an hour (some compete with L-Lysine for transport). If it doesn't work, add bee propolis and have your immune system checked.
It doesn't always work for everyone. Not saying it's not worth trying, because if it works for you that's wonderful! And it does work for a lot of people, which is great! Just shouldn't be stated as fact when it's not an across-the-board solution
Load More Replies...I was sexually molested for years as a child by my Grandma's boyfriend (yes, the shïtty grandma mentioned above). CPS finally got involved with our family when it turned out my chronic yeast infections were actually chlamydia and gonorrhea and my herpes simplex WASN'T herpes simplex. I was being seen by a pediatrician who was covering for my regular doc and he cultured my swabs after getting a bad inkling after talking to me. Now, by that point I had long been beaten into silence, but petri dishes don't care. He walked because no one in the house would press charges. Don't worry though. His Harley blew up a few months later, fortunately with him on it doing at least 80 on the highway. Grandma really mourned after that...for the Harley, I mean. Don't think she particularly cared for either of us. Anyways, the moral is that many, if not most, STIs are spread via rāpe and it'd sure be nice if society talked about this fact openly.
I pee in the shower and I’m not ashamed
Sometimes it’s just impossible to control 🤷🏽♀️ the warm water prompts any urine left in your bladder to come out… for whatever reason
Load More Replies...The ppl who don't might actually be the minority. The ppl who admit it however
In scuba diving there is a saying: there are divers who pee in their wetsuit - and liars. Guess it's kinda similar here, except for @Maria Maria ;D
Load More Replies...It's healthy to pee in the shower especially as a woman as you empty the bladder completely as you stand up.
All in all, it saves water, doesn't it? So it's good for the environment.
I’m a woman and I’m completely disgusted by pregnancy, I don’t find it beautiful at all. It creeps me out.
Pregnancy isn't for everyone and just because you're a woman and have the proper "equipment" for carrying a pregnancy doesn't mean you're obligated to want it, or even enjoy it if it happens.
Does any woman really enjoy it? I don't mean pregnancy in general, I mean the multitude of trials that come with it.
Load More Replies...Oh god. Same. I recently saw some random video on my FB feed and everyone was awwwww'ing at a baby's hand running over the mother's belly. FROM THE INSIDE. Listen, I'll watch the most gore horror while enjoying my dinner but HELL NO to the parasite experience.
I've been pregnant and was so fearful of having this happen to me. That looks so freaky! Was also fearful of my belly button plopping out and my nipples increasing in size. I was spared the trauma, though, to be fair, pregnancy was traumatic enough without these things. NEVER AGAIN! Parasite experience is right.
Load More Replies...Same! My background is in human evolution so pregnancy also doesn’t seem amazing or special - as a species, we’ve been doing this for 300,000 years. Life replicates itself - has done for 3.7 billion years.
I know I probably wasn't the only woman to think this way, but at the same time it's what I thought. Make me feel better knowing that I am not the only one. More women need to talk about it more so others can learn not all women want to ever think about being pregnant
Yeah, it's still very frowned upon to say you don't like pregnancy, don't want to be pregnant etc. Every time I tell someone I don't want to be pregnant they immediately get offended and start a heated argument. People need to accept that it's not for everyone.
Load More Replies...Ugh same ... sounds like a horror plot if it happened to a dude. "Parasote grows in humans body for months, destroys host and bursts out in the most painful way possible"
On a fully separate tangent, nose-picking. Abhorrent. Childish. Disgusting. Also, we basically all do it. Despite how unacceptable it appears to be, most humans pick their noses roughly four times a day, no doubt making sure to be out of sight from any fellow nose-pickers. Due to it being so socially unacceptable, people vastly underestimate how often it happens, with only 75% of US respondents in one study believing that everyone has tried it.
I feel like I'm constantly analysing how to interact with people - every conversation I have feels like a performance and not the real me, like Im just mimicking other conversations I've read or heard.
I've got the same problem. Not autistic, but was bullied as a kid. Im pretty sure it stems from that.
You may be on to something there. I was picked on when I was younger, and it affected me because I was so sensitive. Humorless too if you will, so getting picked on and teased for my weight was the end of the world for me. It also f****d up my social skills. I was kinda like the OP, not anymore now that I’m older (my social skills and conversational skills are back to being natural, and up to par, but it took a long time to happen). Case in point, the s**t does stem from childhood bullying/picking, mental trauma. It identifies with autism, but even those who aren’t autistic can have this trait that OP has, and tbh it’s not weird or “wrong”, but rather unique and a helpful way to interact. Being different should be more accepted instead of degraded.
Load More Replies...Bro the amount of work I have to put in just to fit into a conversation is exhausting. I have to observe what the convo is and then I have to make things up along the way just so I'm not perceived as the quiet one.
Maybe, but not necessarily. I was picked on a lot as a teen and as a result spent 12 years basically locked in my room. My social skills suck as a result (tho I try to improve them) but I'm not autistic and it kinda bugs me when people automatically ascribe any issues with social skills to autism.
Load More Replies...Maybe an introvert trying to get out 9f the shell? I found myself in similar situations, although don't feel like performing but trying to sound more regular than myself.
Read up about Asperger Syndrome. You'll probably recognize a lot in the description.
I have no ambition to do anything. no dream job or passions either. I’m not depressed by any stretch but I just would be happy and fine if all I did was lay around all day and live off saved money. However most people are utterly disgusted by that so I lie and pretend I have a dream job or that I’m passionate about certain things I honestly only really do any of those things for money or to pass the time. I don’t care about any of them.
I work for money. If I had money I wouldn't work. It's that simple. Would find something to do, like a vegetable garden and reading, but certainly nothing stressful.
Agree 100% on this. It's a skill to appreciate the smaller things in life.
So many people I know made a job out of something they loved and now hate it
Load More Replies...Most humans would happily be trust fund babies. Not everyone has the overwhelming desire to sell propane and propane accessories, and that's ok.
Nothing wrong with that outlook. I work to live and have a job that takes up as little space in my brain as possible - leaving time to read books, daydream, make music, draw, etc. I’ll leave the career climbing, marathon running, etc. to other people if that’s what turns them on.
I am a pig farmer. Most y'all eat your pork, but most people don't like to think of where it came from or how it got there. The number of times I've had people imply implicitly and explicitly that I am a murder is absurd considering a vast majority of them I know eat pork or love bacon. Outside of Reddit, I no longer tell anyone what I do. What really gets me is that I take great pride in the high standards I keep at my farm. They have short and hard lives so I make sure they are taken care of and treated well by my coworkers.
Honestly, everybody eating meat should at the very least be shown the pictures of the animals it comes from, if not shown the actual process. Its gruesome, but that's how it is; if it's too much, meat shouldn't be on the menu. People should stay in touch with where their food is coming from and respect it, not toss any of it away.
No. I eat meat cos if I don't I get anemic. I've seen the processes, unfortunately, and it caused me to try to go vegetarian and then vegan for about a year until I realized I wasn't eating enough lentils and beans, and had to go back to eating meat.
Load More Replies...This is how the vast majoeity of farmers are. Respectful and have a tight and ethical operation. I'm so tired of the hypersensationalized media (looking at you PETA) trying to sell the idea that farming is cruel. It's just not the case.
... while at the same time maintaining kill shelters. PETA is a sad joke.
Load More Replies...I, for one, absolutely appreciate all you do and am thankful I don't have to do it. Because I would. Pigs and many of their glorious parts are effing delicious
Yes. Thank you for doing your best to juggle helping to feed us, showing as much care and respect for how the pigs are treated, and fight off the people who attack without any exploration. I am endlessly saddened by the double standards held by some people; they take the time to get to know the animals and their lives, but expend nothing to get to know the people trying to do their best. Imo, the #1 social dynamic destroying the world is the lack of conversation. And sometimes emotions are so high that fits must precede this to diffuse and defuse things; if you can't navigate the fits, then get the fùck out of the way and let us who are equipped to do so offer our services, but don't brush off the value of empathy or poo poo us. When these pressures are not released, they explode like a nuclear bomb. Nearly everyone has experienced the aftermath, but far far less acknowledge their unwillingness to explore emotions. Thank you for listening.
Load More Replies...I struggle with this. I love animals. I can’t stand the thought of them being hurt, injured or abandoned, because they do not understand what has happened. But, I also enjoy meat, and unless, as a society we decide to vegetarian, killing animals for food will be part of our lives. The other side to this is that there are nutrients in meats that are difficult to obtain from plants. So it is an ongoing challenge. Thankfully, there are farmers like you who take good care of their animals, and have a heart for them, even as they are raised for food.
It might help to keep in mind that people are omnivores and meant to have a mixed diet. Humans aren't meant to get all their nutrition from just plants or just neat. It's why people doing diets like that tend to need supplements to get the mineral, vitamins, and nutrients in general they're missing from their chosen food. There is a big big difference between killing an animal for food and hurting or abandoning animals for no reason, too. Hunters are some of the most respectful people. Killing something to sustain yourself doesn't have to be seen as a bad thing; plenty of other animals have to kill to survive as well, and people are animals.
Load More Replies...After I stopped eating meat I had a long think about if I wanted to eat meat again or stay vegetarian. Where I came out was I was not going to make someone else do something that I was unwilling to do myself. I've grown veggies, wheat, etc. Currently have my own bee hives. May buy from the store because it's quicker or easier, but I'm still willing to grow/harvest that food. Meat isn't something that I feel I would be able to do. I respect you for what you do, I know it's not something I could not do myself, so I choose not to eat meat for that reason. I'm sorry people treat you horrible for doing what they aren't willing to do themselves.
I've been veg now for nearly 35 years, and your reasoning around your dietary choices are similar to mine! I personally could only kill something like a fish or a chicken if I was LITERALLY starving. So because I could not kill it myself, I choose not to eat it. (Among the several good reasons to be veg) Also, one person's choices DO matter. Just sayin'.
Load More Replies...i'm a vegetarian and i don't give two tofu-filled shits about pork farming
I totally get your point, but I also don't understand how you can do this for a living and not feel awful.
It's always a tricky subject, in reality, our ecosystems are designed for animals/plants to consume each other, recycling life and giving way for new species to prosper. I don't mind eating meat occasionally. However, I wish animals had more freedom and a chance to live a life before meeting their demise, as all animals will.
Ok, away from the nose and on to daydreaming. Most of us do this as well, due to boredom or just an escape from reality. But some take it so far that it can begin to interfere with their real lives. This is often called maladaptive daydreaming or excessive daydreaming. Basically, it’s daydreaming so intense and frequent that the person begins to forget where they are, which negatively affects their academic or professional performance. Often this manifests as fake conversions people have in their heads. It, unfortunately, remains understudied and is not currently classified as a mental disorder.
I talk to myself as if people were listening even when I’m alone
I enact conversations l'm going to have or ones l wish l had if l could. But only alone at home.
I talk to myself in my head, but address myself as "we"(ex. Okay, Lea, we need to get out of here)
Load More Replies...Me too, although mostly when I'm alone. My internal monologue is often an external dialogue between me and myself as two different entities. Been that way since I was a kid.
YO! I do this too, I'll take out my phone and pretend to be calling someone if I'm standing apart from people I don't know and I'm feeling really awkward. Gives me something to do and get out of my head
Just not that long ago I had company over and they came unexpected so I wasn’t braced for unwanted social interaction (just wasn’t feeling it that day, I’m moody like that lol) so after maybe 10 minutes of talking and hanging out I whipped out my phone from my pocket and made believe I got a phone call, I keep my phone on vibrate most of the time and when it went off it was a news notification but I made it seem like it was “my buddy in NYC” and I put the phone to my ear, went back in my room, and had this convo with my “buddy in NYC” for 20 minutes before I said loud enough “OK bub, I’m gonna take a nap now, later!” and stayed in my room the rest of the evening xD #FoolProof
Load More Replies...Yeah...well I answer back as the other person when I'm talking to myself....love an imaginary conversation when I'm in the car
Oh, yes. The smeagol,- golem thing , is something I do all the time. Don't we precious, yes ,yes we do,my love.
Load More Replies...When I catch my husband talking to himself he tells me he is having a staff meeting.
I think this world is absolutely ridiculous
Getting worse by the day too.. this is why I never go out
Load More Replies...It's ridiculous for sure,rich getting rich,poor getting poorer,so many homeless,we are all human we nees to start treating each other better
How the hell can someone work 60-80 hours a week snd still not have enough money for rent, groceries and transportation!? So much bloody greed and exploitation in the world!!
Load More Replies...yes! come live in the fridge! we have shelf space for rent, it’s nice and cold and away from the humans :) /j
My father was not a very engaged parent, but when school started trying to force me to be right handed, he went to the school for the first and only time. He told them “ the boy is left handed, let him be” and they did.
As I read what your dad said, I heard this in James Earl Jones voice. Hmm, kinda surprised it wasn't Morgan Freeman considering I just heard him in a commercial
Be VERY glad he knew to do that, people are usually wired to use a certain hand, if forced to use the other it destroys their fine motor skill, this is why a lot of people can't write legibly or make smooth lines in art. The few "successes" they have at hand changing are with people who are naturally ambidextrous.
My school forced me to write right handed. We moved due to parent’s job and new school noticed how bad my handwriting was and figured I was a leftie and my mom had me do writing exercises to learn how to write left handed.
We also absolutely love some gossip. As one post here mentions, the person will leave earbuds in without anything playing to eavesdrop on what people are speaking about. Or think about going out to dinner and overhearing a terrible first date or argument from a nearby table. Most of us, myself included, would stop what we are doing and listen in. From an evolutionary standpoint, this is an important element of social grooming, but it also often seems childish and people do not want to admit to doing it.
I daydream wayyyy to much. I'm constantly day dreaming. At home, at work, while I'm driving, before I'm sleeping, while I'm eating. I'm always daydreaming.
Edit: I was not expecting this to blow up as much as it has. I'm really glad to know that I'm not the only one. I'll try to reply to everyone individually.
I think this is the only way I could live. Reality sucks way too much for me.
Yeah, I always pretend that I have time manipulation powers and then am disappointed when I can’t pause time
Load More Replies...Over the years I’ve daydreamed a whole other life. I even have a house, with detailed layout, furniture, garden, plants, dogs, neighbours, etc. I don’t need to work in my dream world, have set budget and my activities are gardening and playing with the dogs. I go there several times a day and work on the details before falling asleep.
When I was little, I learned what I called my special "trick". It was on one of the four times a week we had to go to church and sit there for hours, with all the adults...and I discovered that I could make up my own stories in my head, wide awake, and still look like I was paying attention. I continued this " trick", all thru my teenage years-it's how I made it thru without going bat s**t crazy. And now I am an adult. And I still daydream, while working full time, and doing responsible adult things- but in my head, I have lived hundreds of lives and done everything you can imagine. And I go to sleep every nite with a big smile on my face. "
You might want to work on not daydreaming when driving. Otherwise you could end up never daydreaming
I have been depressed and daydreaming is the only thing that makes me happy. Due to this I realised long ago that I should not be driving. People ask me why I don't learn driving and I have no answer. There's no way I am letting my coping mechanism become a threat for others.
Load More Replies...Maladaptive daydreaming is the name of a disorder where daydreaming happens in ways that interferes with (rather than compliments and enhances) living one's life. If you are finding yourself unable to stay connected to the physical world while doing things like driving, I'd talk to a therapist about a possible diagnosis because you can gain access to lots of helpful resources that will help you balance it so it doesn't endanger you and others. All other daydreaming should be enjoyed! What's life without fantasy and possibility?
When I worked in a human transplant tissue lab I would talk to the (deceased) donors to make myself feel better about processing a person who died suddenly hours before.. like “hey Mrs. Byrd, how are we feeling today?” When she is obviously lying in pieces in a cooler about to be swabbed, irradiated, and transplanted in another human.
I don't think there's anything weird about this. It's treating the person with respect and dignity. Also, if your job goes right, they (or at least part of them) will soon be living again.
I agree because then I'd feel weird when I talk to inanimate objects like that. Like my computer or fridge. Though now it sounds like I'm comparing a once living organism like an object....
Load More Replies...When I wash and prepare patients' bodies after they die, I still talk to them as I did when they were alive. I warn them when I am turning them and what direction and so on. I brush their hair and then compliment them. I even explain to them why I am binding their jaws shut. They are still patients until discharged, right? lol
If it's true that spirits stay with their bodies, watching what happens until they're buried, I'm sure they really appreciate and respect you.
Load More Replies...As the recipient of 2 transplanted organs I greatly appreciate you! I also talk to my donor's organs, because they are part of me now and I want them to feel at home and know that they're loved and cared for.
I do this when performing the last rights. I knock on the way in. I tell them what I'm doing as I do it and say goodbye as I close the door. I feel its the last bit of respect I can show a patient and their relative that might see them whilst still in the emergency department
In my nursing career I always talked to the deceased. I know they couldn't hear me, but it just seemed respectful. My daughter does the same thing at the funeral home where she works.
I concur. In “End of Life” semester we were taught to talk to our newly deceased patients as though they could still hear us. It’s respectful.
Load More Replies...I talk to the photograph of my dead friend which I keep on the desk. Whenever I see a news report about someone dying in a road accident the way he did, I glance at his picture and sadly shake my head, as if we're sharing a moment of sympathy.
This is actually very human and understandable. Almost typed relatable, but I have never cut into another person. Did the voices in my head whisper "yet"? Yes. Yes, they did.
I think babies are obnoxious s**t machines.
Oh coming! That's not entirely true... They are also puke and pee machines..
Load More Replies...Right? It kinda confuses me that I like both almost every other species' babies as well as the sounds they make (just think of kitten mews! 😻), but these proto-human wrinkly sausages and their infernal crying, ugh! Maybe my wiring is a little faulty?
Load More Replies...Is it bad that I really can't stand hearing a baby nursing? Sometimes a mom will be interviewed on the news and she'll be nursing or bottle feeding her baby and the microphone is placed right there, so it's like a cringy ASMR. I also can't stand that word they use "suckling".
Nope. The sound makes me want to vomit. And that's also why I do not like seeing them being fed in public. And yes, I know we aren't supposed to find it gross, but I do, and I'm not ashamed by it.
Load More Replies...In Germany there is a relating term called "F🔞ck-Fehler". As you'd call the s**t machines obnoxious f**k failures...
Vile liquids and noises from every orifice, dependent on you for years, leeching time, money, and energy from you forever… yecchhh.
I mean I do agree with you. It's true, I had a baby brother when I was younger. And god damn was that child spoiled. Not anymore, but damn.
Hey, babies ARE obnoxious s**t machines! My wedding present to my wife - a vasectomy. Thank you, kindly Dr. Whackoff for sparing me from making an obnoxious s**t machine.
I don't go out of my house if it's not extremely necessary
I have to go grocery shopping today, and I'm not looking forward to it. I absolutely will take the time to determine the best time to go in order to encounter the lowest number of people.
Same! I always google wherever I have to go to see how busy it is before I leave the house. And online ordering with pickup has been a lifesaver.
Load More Replies...In the pandemic, England went into a "hard lockdown" where people could only leave their home to go to work, go to the doctor, or necessary trips to the grocery store. And I realized - that's how I usually live anyway.
I'm the same, I can't just go out for a walk I have to have a destination and a point for going out otherwise it's just an anxiety inducing walk
I stay home as much as possible. I prefer my bubble to what is out there!
Additionally, I don’t allow anyone into my house unless it’s absolutely necessary.
Same. I go to work and home.Occasionally have to go out (put gasoline in car, visit my doctor or dentist.) I don't have any friends. I do have my husband. He does the shopping. Every few months I'll force myself to go to the store with him.
I hate kids and am a teacher. I’m a high school teacher and I enjoy teaching teenagers, but can’t stand kids under the age of 11.
I feel this. I can't stand being around kids, and if I ever dare to say so, then it must mean I'm a bad person
Funny, I get treated the same way when I mention I don't like dogs.
Load More Replies...I'm the opposite. I cannot abide teen-agers but kids around the age of 8-11 are fine and they love me.
Same. I was a primary (elementary) school teacher and I liked working with kids that age. But while I'm fine with teenagers in small doses (i.e. my own kids), I could have never worked with that age as a teacher
Load More Replies...Teacher here as well. I chose not to teach kids years ago because I don't communicate well with them and l can't stand how spoilt most of them are. I can earn teenagers attention and appreciation but kids and I just don't click.
I think people would like younger kids more of they weren't being raised by entitling, coddle monster parents. Yes, Karen, you're little Timmy is a brat and it's all your fault!!
felt this. some younger kids have way too much energy (went to a coffee shop with 3 year old cousin: running around, constantly talking, pulling my hair, scratching the scabs on my arms… went to the toilet and just cried… kids are weird)
I definitely feel this. Kids really like me for who-knows-why, but they terrify me for also, who-knows-why, and thus I prefer to be around teenagers.
You are not alone. I've taught middle school and high school for over 20 years and I would not teach elementary if they tripled my salary. Most elementary teachers I know feel the same about high school!
I have a theory. We have MAJOR behavior issues in our Middle School(all buildings and grades really). If the children hear that adults are full of s^^^, and don't know what they are talking about from their elders, chaos results (looking at YOU... MAGA folks). It is then magnified at school.
I will do nothing but sleep and eat all day if i could
Being retired, this is my daily routine unless I have errands that need to be done
i am 46 years old and whenever i come across a self opening door i make a small movement with my hand like i am using the force... i dont even control that consciously anymore its automated behaviour
We have auto open doors at my job. If they start closing while you're walking through, they reopen. Sometimes I walk though the closing doors and they just keep closing. I feel like a NINJA!
I do it because in case of a malfunction, I'd rather hit my hand than my nose.
I just walk up hoping it will actually open. I'm short, so the sensor doesn't always see me or I need to adjust my angle!
When the sensor doesn't recognize your presence, how does it affect your self-esteem?
Load More Replies...I always have to stop for a few seconds before the door will open for me. I wonder if it is connected to not being worth it to wear a battery operated watch because I kill the battery very quickly?
I sometimes say "Alohamora" and wave my hand, just to freak out the Muggles!
Apparently, I hum (quietly & randomly) when I'm in an elevator - sometimes when grocery shopping alone. I didn't realize this until I started getting weird looks and sideways glances from fellow passengers!
To be fair, some of them automatic doors won't notice you otherwise. Better make sure and use the Force.
I definitely do not know at what point expressing my desire to talk to someone crosses from 'reaching out in a friendly way' into 'annoying and impinging'.
And I worry about it !
EDIT: It is weirdly reassuring to see how many others feel similarly.
I've come to the conclusion I get annoying. Lost a lot of friends for interfering too much. When I like someone as a friend and have good times. I want to always be in those good times.
I only reach out maybe once a month and still feel this way. But the feeling is only reinforced by how many people never reach out in that month. I know it means the friendship is pretty one sided, but I haven't reached out to anyone in a long time now and it has also been a long time since I've gotten coffee with anyone. So, that's a little hurtful.
I feel like this at times, and I think it's because I don't work full time in an office anymore. And I see similar behaviour with friends and family who tend to be socially isolated a lot of the time. It's like all the conversation that would have happened in the last week/fortnight/month when you couldn't socialise every day gets bottled up instead and all comes out at once.
I was being friendly to the new guy in the office, he tells me he's married, pht like I'd think he was attractive.?
I'm suicidal. Passively, meaning I'm not making any plans. I'm safe and this is a constant for me. It feels like I can't tell my friends except in asking for help. I just want this to be something I can tell people because it's so significant in my inner world. edit: i am getting professional help, i've been in therapy and medicated for a while. thanks for all your concern, im sorry i didnt say that in the original comment
I feel you. I am in a place now and have been for a while now where I want to die. I don't want to kill myself, I just don't want to live anymore. Really hard to bring that up with others, but the thought is in the forefront of my mind about 70-80% of my waking hours every day.
I'm pretty much just waiting for my parents to pass -- they're both turning eighty this year -- before I check out myself. It would hurt them too much and I don't want to do that to them. The thought of just not being on this awful planet anymore actually gives me comfort. Only thing that scares me is screwing it up. Like, what if I take pills and they don't do the job and I'm left brain-damaged and have to live for another fifty years?
Load More Replies...I feel like this too. I go to therapy and take medication every day for depression (thanks bad family genes) but I still want to not exist anymore. I do have a lot to look forward to and get excited about and many reasons to hang around but I am just tired from constantly fighting the battle in my head and having to live in this super crummy time with all the s**t going on in the world.
That's called suicide ideation...meaning that a person feels like they'd be better off dead and think of ways to do that in the moment (for example, when driving over a bridge, have the thought of moving the steering wheel to drive off into the water). It's much more common for people to have suicidal ideation than you'd think. I'm glad you're getting help! I've been there before, but with a combination of meds and counseling, I haven't had suicidal ideation in years.
I often wished I would die in my teens-20s. Things got better but it still pops up, unbidden. I lost a dear friend to suicide and promised myself at his funeral to never wish I were dead again, but it doesn't just stop.
Load More Replies...Thank you for sharing this. You are not alone. Unfortunately, there's so much stigma/taboo around the word in itself, it isn't a normal conversation to have. I've had suicidal ideation for 30 years. I work in mental health crisis response. I'm that person who responds if someone is gonna jump off a bridge, etc ... I hate the suicide training we have to take. With every client I have who has a history of, or brings up suicide, I engage in an open honest conversation about the subject. I am unable to sit and say others need them/will be devestated, or things will work out. Our talks normalize the subject/embrace the driving factor. My high risk clients can call me anytime 24/7, I will answer or respond via text to let them know how long until I call them back. Not one of my high risk people have attempted since working with me. The topic needs to be normalized not shamed.
It is so incredibly fantastic that your suicidal clients have someone who 'gets it' to talk to. I was also a social worker for years & worked with high risk kids. It's understandable but largely unhelpful that so many docs/therapists have no experience with what it feels like to be near the edge & they'll be judgemental or say stupid sh*t that ends up causing harm. Just like you can't train a doctor to know what pain feels like, you can't train this into therapists. And clients absolutely know when you get it, too.
Load More Replies...I'm not exactly suicidal, I just don't care if I live or die. I think it's mainly because I've been sick for 20 years now and I've had enough of doctors, tests and taking medication. I mainly keep taking my meds because the ones I'm on you can't just stop taking and I hate the feeling the withdrawal causes. I only get the covid and flu vaccinations so there is less chance of me making someone else poorly.
I’m not suicidal but I do sometimes get intrusive thoughts detailing how I could off myself with what I have.
Same. I constantly wish I'd have some weird accident that kills me. I'm so tired of life.
I am a cancer patient in remission for almost 5 years, but in 2021 my life was destroyed again. At one point I found myself waking up every day praying that the cancer would come back and kill me. My psychiatrist quickly recommended that I check myself into a psychiatric clinic and that was an invaluable help. Everything is better now.
Yay for recovery, both mentally and physically!
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A can go for weeks without talking to anyone. I have no need to talk. I’d make a great vow of silence monk.
Used to love being w ppl. then they became exhausting. leave me alone please.
In general it’s life that exhausts us beyond the point of then being able to cope with people.
Load More Replies...This. I don't talk unless I have something to say or my job requires it. Sometimes I come to work in one of my super antisocial moods and I'm quiet all day but I have a very talkative colleague. She always thinks it's about her and gets offended. No.
The older I get, the less I have to say to people. I'm not grumpy or angry; I just don't need the interaction. I don't need your opinion on the weather or politics or religion or anything else. And I promise, you don't need mine. Why waste each other's time?
Thank you, thank you, thank you. I am the same way. Except I’m a teenager.
Load More Replies...Not "weeks" for me but I routinely go a week at a time. Or I guess six days. An old friend and I go out on Saturdays unless one of us is sick or something. So on Friday I usually call her to see how she is feeling. Otherwise I just stay home alone all week unless I have an appointment or something.
I hate people who are like, “hey, you need to be more social and talk to more people” boomer, no, I don’t need to. Speaking is a choice and I shouldn’t waste on talking to people I don’t want to talk to.
I have a distinct feeling that I've been a monk or nun in previous lives, and it was blissful. I have a feeling that I felt connected to God, to others around me, did my work in the scriptorium, helped in the garden, said prayers, ate and slept, and just loved it.
There are times when I have something to say and it just seems like too much work. Plus I'm not sure I want a reply. I will just hold on to it until there's another opportunity or I forget it completely. Edit to add, I will talk to everything, our pets, a chair if I bump into it, plants in the garden, and well, just about anything if the mood hits me. There are times when I just don't want to talk.
A monk under a vow of silence was allowed to say two words on his 50th birthday.. he said "Bed Hard".. He was granted the same on his 75th birthday... He said "Room Cold"... On his 100th birthday there was a huge celebration and all the other monks strained to hear his next two words.. "Food Terrible" he said..The head monk said Get Out !.. All you've done is complain since you got here ! 😂😂😂😂
I **love** not having kids!
The energy, the money, the patience, the time, the effort, the organization issues... no.
It's weird how the ones who would make good parents don't want to be.... And the ones who shouldn't have them have like 15 lol
I love having some, but I respect and understand the ''no kids'' choice
I love people not wanting kids or who would not be good parents actually not having them. It's hard work and your life is no longer yours. only have kids if you want them and can take proper care of them
I have fake conversations with people i know in my head that result in me argumenting loudly to no one.
sometimes when i get into my head and start arguing with people i end up crying 🤷🏽♀️
I do this at least once a week 😅😭
Load More Replies...Ok. The more of these I read, the less weird I feel because I do the same things.
I went thru that after my divorce. I said all the things I wanted to say to him and never had a chance.
Reminder to buy a bluetooth headset and pretend you're on the phone.
I met my wife at her wedding. Edit: Holy s**t, that blew up. RIP my inbox. I posted this just before going to bed last night, sorry to leave you all hanging. I guess it’s story time! My ex-wife and I went to one of her friend/co-workers wedding about 10 years ago (let’s call the friend Sarah). I had never met Sarah before. Over the years we kind of became friends but not particularly close. She’d come over to take care of our son once in a while when I was working nights and my ex had something going on, we went camping with her and her husband a few times, I even went to the movies with her husband once or twice. Sarah and I always got along really well. We had very similar taste in music, very similar sarcastic senses of humour. Well, things started getting really s****y between my wife and I and eventually she left me. Sarah kind of acted like a buffer between us because things were tense and we still had a child to consider. This led to Sarah and I starting to have long conversations about pretty personal stuff. Little did I know her marriage was in trouble too. Her husband (let’s call him Dave) had essentially forced her into an open relationship that she didn’t want. She’d agreed to try it because she didn’t want to give up on it but by this point she’d had enough. I even called Dave and told him to sort his s**t out and stop doing this to Sarah. He did not and eventually Sarah left him. Through all of this she and I kept talking, almost like a kind of therapy. We were both going through really difficult things and being there for each other really helped get both of us through. My ex, Sarah and some of my ex’s other friends were up at a cottage for a girls weekend, and on the Saturday night I get a text from Sarah saying she’s leaving because my ex had outed her for some very personal stuff in front of the other people there who she didn’t even know that well. Her plan was to sleep in her car and drive home in the morning. I was living between the cottage and where she lived and was worried about her so I told her to come crash at my place for the night, which she did (nothing happened). After that we started hanging out more frequently and really started to become attracted to each other. Sarah had told me before this that she had feelings for me, I had still been trying to make things work with my ex and had told Sarah that we couldn’t because it would devastate her. By the time all this happened I’d started dating a little bit and had given up on working things out. I also wasn’t very concerned about how my ex would react anymore because she’d been pretty horrible to both of us for quite a while now. One thing led to another, and one night we just said f**k it. And that was that. We’ve been together about 5 years now, have a kid and couldn’t be happier.
I don’t really see a problem here. Both of your exes were pretty s*****. Open relationship? That does it right there. He wants out, but conveniently so. Just life, and you became really close trying to help each other through it. You can get to know someone really well that way. The point is, you two are happy and that’s what counts. That’s all that counts.
I met my second husband at my first wedding. Not as sordid as you may think. We got married about 12 years after I left my first husband.
I have spent unhealthy amounts of time imagining how radically different my life would be if I didn't mess up big time
I've often wondered how ridiculously wealthy I'd be if I'd gone through life saving money rather than spending it on stuff I don't need like cigarettes, junk food, excess clothing, alcohol etc
Because I messed up big time my life is way better then it ever was.
Next time you fall into this rabbit hole, turn it around by thinking about what you can do, really can do to make steps to start fresh.
My husband often says he wishes he'd met me earlier, but I don't--we both had to go through a lot of bad relationships to appreciate each other.
I have an incredibly hard time talking to people I don't know.
I honestly think I might have social anxiety because I get scared talking to people who I'm not familiar with lol
Some people do get anxious in new situations and talking to people unfamiliar to them. There’s nothing abnormal about that!
Just do as I do. Avoid eye contact and when you need to say something stare at your drink.
Totally relate to this. What helped was getting to a point in my life where I really don't give a s**t what people think of me anymore - it's very liberating. Try it!
Ask open ended questions, something that won't be a yes or no answer. "What did you do during COVID?" "Have you lived in this area a while? Any recommendations on non-touristy things to do?" "My vegan friend is coming in to town, do you know of any vegan restaurants?" Open with something you enjoy doing and make it into a question or request. "I love taking my dog for walks. Do you know of any parks nearby?"
I don’t know what the f**k I’m doing most of the time. Respectfully.
Quit taking drugs and get enough sleep and exercise to work out your frustrations!
I’m always saying, “It’s just like I know what I’m doing.” I don’t.
I'm 34 years old and sleep with my childhood teddy bear and I refuse to pass it down to my child.
40 here, with my childhood blanket (my moms old robe) and still occasionally suck my thumb when I'm super stressed and tired.
same, but i gnaw on my fingers (except for the 40 yo part)
Load More Replies...54 and sleep with a plush toy every night, I never had toys as a child as I was brought up in children's homes and the occasional foster home.
41 here and I recently bought a shelving unit because I had run out of space for all my cuddly toys. My oldest one is 38 and the newest one is 6 months!
Im nearly 37, no kids but even if I did, I still wouldn't have up my Nanny Doll for them.
54, My panda Bobo doesn't sleep with me anymore but she is in my headboard storage so she is always close by. When I was a toddler, my Mom won Bingo and let me pick any toy and it was my Bobo, She is SOOO Well LOVED that she no longer has most of her original stuffing (mom re-stuffed her many times) and her neck has stretched dramatically because I used to carry her around EVERYWHERE. Apparently I liked carrying my Bobo like I had her in a head lock LOL She is missing her nose button and an eye but I still Love her. Bobo-645dd...2a8e15.jpg
I'm 39 and have slept with a teddy bear continuously since I was 1 year old. No shame and no regrets.
I still sleep with my childhood teddy bear. I'm 73. My husband thinks it's just fine. Makes him smile.
i have 2 bunnies from when i was a baby (one from great grandad, one from godparents) that are both coming with me to my grave and there’s nothing anyone can do about it 🖕🏻
When I'm out in public I sometimes put my earbuds in just to listen to what other people are saying around me, nothing playing on my end.
EDIT: Didn't really expect this one to get noticed and thank you for the award.
I have deaf friends. When I am with them I sign to keep in practice and out of respect. You wouldn't believe what people say! One time a fast food place I heard a Karen at another table say deaf and dumb people and mocked our signing. I turned around and said "Excuse me but I am hearing and while my friends are deaf they are not dumb.. let me introduce you to the physicist (phd).. and the economist (masters). Oh they can read lips and speak very well. She didn't stay long after that.
Sometimes I stare at people, so I like wearing sunglasses, so they can’t tell I’m staring at them. I’m not trying to be creepy, I just am looking at people
i constantly have my earbuds in without playing anything just so I don't have to listen to the constant background noise. I can still hear people well enough to talk to them (might miss some things, but not too bad), but i'm a lot less stressed when I don't have to hear the AC and all the other people. downside is my ears get sore.
I do this, except it’s not music. I just play games on my phone, but it’s just something for my hands to do. I can be fully engaged in the conversation someone’s having near me.
I now wear hearing aids. You’d be surprised just how far away you can hear stuff from. Oh my, what you can hear in a room with people in it😳
I don't care what I look like in public. I dress to be comfortable.
I'm the opposite. I used to be kind of pretty, but health issues have messed with my weight and altered the shape of my facial features, and I'm embarrassed about the way I look.
That's sad, but age will mess with most people's looks anyway. Age is a great teacher but a lousy beautician.
Load More Replies...There's a german novella, "Kleider machen Leute" = "Clothes make people", that we read in 5th grade. It's about a poor tailor who got gifted some leftover fur after finishing a job for a nobleman and made himself a fancy coat. He gets to a small town, people mistake him for a nobleman, and he keeps "failing up the ladder" until he marries the major's daughter and lives happily ever after. Now, the tailor is a decent person, and doesn't intentionally deceive people, he tries to run away/come clean, so the reader is meant to be happy for him, but I think I got a quite different reading out of it than lots of other people. Most took it along the lines of "dress for the job you want, not the job you have", but I got a very strong "don't judge a book by its cover"-message. My boss once said: "You know how clients treat you differently depending on what you wear?", to which my honest response was: "Well, yeah, and they f*cking SHOULDN'T, because it says nothing about my competence!".
Right? I will change out of my pj pants out of general respect I guess, and I will draw on my eyebrows but only because I'm very insecure about that. Otherwise who cares? Messy bun all the way, comfy clothes.
Same. It drives my mum crazy. "You're not going to wear THAT are you?!" Yes, Mum. Yes I am.
I love being comfortable so why dress otherwise unless the situation calls for it? You wear what you want.
Load More Replies...Old age will be easier for you based on my experience. If you are not obsessed with fashion it is easier to accept you are wearing a particular kind of shoes to avoid getting plantars fasciitis again and the pants you are wearing are because you were able to find them in your size, and the baggy t-shirts are because they cover your gut and so on. Also the days of - "I have enough energy to get beautiful or go buy groceries but not both" lol
I have ALWAYS chosen comfort over beauty/fashion. And I've been married for 50 years , with many opportunities (not taken) to mess around. Ladies, you don't have to spend tons on make-up, hair styling/clothes to have plenty of partner choices. The more you project your real self, the less of a façade you have to maintain, and the more likely you are to find warm honest partners. Oh, and I am a female, she/her, 71 yo grandma.
I have worn shorts, t-shirts and flip flops every day since I retired…and it snows where I live!!,
I default to comfy out of safety. When I truly don't care how I look to people, that is when I dress to the nines, lol. I will have a goth baroness fashion day and then go to friggin' Arby's. Not because it's comfy or that I want to stand out, but because it makes me feel powerful. I know I must look a fool.
I have bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder. No matter how much people scream “mental health matters” on their social media pages, the stigma is VERY MUCH still there. EDIT: I wish I could go through and like every single one of your comments. Just know that I see you, I hear you, I recognize you AND your struggles, I appreciate you, and I wish you all the best!! Also PLEASE seek help when you feel like you need it. There are so many professionals out there who I promise will listen!
The dark truth is that if you really want to know what kind of people your friends are, get seriously ill. I don't think it's the easiest thing in the world to be friends with a bipolar person, because a bipolar person doesn't have an easy time with themselves either.
Oh yeah, when things got really tough for me a lot of my "friends" showed their true colours. Good riddance.
Load More Replies...Being bi-polar sucks, and I was 35 before I was properly diagnosed. But at the same time my life changed dramatically once I was diagnosed and on the right meds. What I am sick and tired of is the flipping tv shows and movies where they say the suspect/murder/criminal was bi-polar (yes I'm looking at u Law and Order) . . . That is not what bi-polar is, and it has left the outside world with a distorted perception of it, and an irrational fear of us.
I hate that too. People are already afraid of everything they can't understand anyway, and we don't need any more bad publicity. (I'm pointing the finger at certain "celebrities"). And not all bipolar people behave riskyly in mania (reckless spending of money or excessive sexuality). I once cleaned the whole apartment. I deep cleaned the bathroom, washed everything from the curtains to the bedding, and because I had enough energy, I played The Sims 3 game for 36 hours straight. The second time I got a little excited to walk and walked 12-15 kilometers every day. So I'm a boring bipolar when I try to release euphoria and energy in a constructive way.
Load More Replies...Yet, there are folks with mental illnesses who claim they understand you, know what you're going through, etc., and still engage in the stigma themselves. It goes both ways.
*cough cough* Mother Carton for me *cough cough*
Load More Replies...We have "Are U OK?" day in Australia and everyone promotes it on social media and in the workplace, however in all these years not one friend / colleague has ever asked me if I am okay. It's a bit sad. I ask everyone else regularly to remind them they have support.
yo can we please try to be more aware of mental illnesses in the 21st century? aware in the way where if someone says they need help when they’re having a panic attack, we will ask how to help and will help others. dairy school did an assembly on mental illness, but i’ve been bullied a lot more. too much stigma for my personal liking :(
My local neighbourhood house has begun running mental health first aid courses, which is awesome
Load More Replies...I am bipolar. And major depressive disorder. And PTSD. Actually diagnosed, not self diagnosed. And a host of other things. My dresser looks like a pharmacy. I am SICK of the stigma! I am SICK of all the jokes, and claiming to have one thing another when they don't. And yet....and yet...I am still functioning. Ups and downs, even my myriad physical issues are mostly controlled, I live independently, and generally manage to convince the outside world I'm ok. The cane and service dog are a bit of a clue....
Im lucky. Trazadone and lamatrogene keep me stable right now.
Load More Replies...What angers me is that mental health issues are used as excuse for bad behaviour left and right while the real issues from people who actually have a mental health issue get minimised or vilified in the process. No, having mental health issues doesn't turn you into an AH. Most people who behave like AHs are just that, AHs. That's not how being bipolar or having depression works. As soon as people try to call out bad behaviour the 'make sure they're not neurodivergent' crowd crawls out of their holes and demands the most unreasonable accomodations, but if a quiet person with real issues asks for modest accomodations that are just slightly inconvenient for others, the whole thing turns against them. For me it seems that people only care for mental health issues when it's convenient for them, either as an excuse to not stand up to bullies and AHs, because it's more convenient to let them get their way, but still quick to ignore real needs when it's easier, aka the person is not annoying enough otherwise.
Ive always said poor behavior is poor behavior.
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I pick my nose relentlessly.
I think people who don't pick their noses and walk around with visible boogies are more disgusting.
As the saying goes you can pick your nose and you can pick your friends but you can’t pick your friend’s nose
Load More Replies...You might have an OCD type of problem called rhinotillexomania. You might want to read up on it.
I do this, and admittedly I eat it. Besides the "it's good for you" reason, I also think... What else are you going to do with it? Leave it on your finger? Wipe it on your clothes? If I have a tissue, I'm not picking anyways. Just sayin..
I try to carry tissues around to mask it but most times it's so instinctual I just do it.
Id rather be naked about 80%of the time
If God had intended us to be naked, we would have been born that way. Oh wait...
Being born with clothes would be so painfully to the mother giving birth
Load More Replies...I'm the opposite. Clothes r comfort. Can't be naked except to shower
Same. I sleep fully clothed also (sweatpants and t-shirt).
Load More Replies...You just have to find the right people and places to go 😜
Load More Replies...Probably not 80% for me but I'm naked or near naked a fair bit. Sleep naked daytime usually a muscle shirt and gym shorts or lounge pants. Might be more (by which I mean less) if I lived in a hotter climate. But I have the luxury of a very private house in the woods so if anybody sees me the blame is on them for being on my property.
I'm the opposite. I can't stand being naked unless I'm in the shower. But I do spend as much time as possible in comfy clothes - sweats and a t-shirt. No shoes, no bra.
I’m fat
Happens to the best of us. Saw the perfect quote for me, "When y'all see me in my swimsuit, mind your business. I thought we were gonna die for the last three years so I've been snackin."
Me too and I hate it so much but I am too weak to change anything
I would rather sleep than talk to another person like, all the time.
I am a quiet person and work with a guy that never stops talking and only about himself
I shower once a week. Sometimes I go longer. I also have a hard time getting around to brushing my teeth. I brought it up with my therapist and I’m trying to improve. Every time I have a good streak going, something f***s up and then I fall into weeks without cleaning myself. I don’t know what to do. Even worse, I’m completely anosmic. So I can’t even smell myself, and often forget that I need to get clean.
I do the same thing mostly about brushing my teeth, getting dressed, and cleaning my room. I'm just to tired and stressed at the end of the day even though i do nothing but procrastinate.
I'm not convinced it's really necessary to shower every day, so long as you're not getting sweaty or dirty.
True. Showering everyday when you aren't dirty or filthy can be bad for the skin
Load More Replies...Sounds like depression, honestly. I'm glad OP has a therapist. I should find one too.
More like executive dysfunction and that might be caused by more problems, not only depression.
Load More Replies...Not sure if serious or sarcasm. When you're depressed it takes energy to do *anything*. Sometimes just eating that day is all you can manage, so taking a shower? Yeah way over the limit.
Load More Replies...Not necessarily. Many people aren't obsessed with showering all the time. It's not necessary unless you're dirty
Load More Replies...I hate the prospect of showering. Its all nice till you turn of the water. But, living in a tropical country with really hot summers its impossible not to shower 2 times a day even during the winters
I've ADHD, and keeping habits going is hard. I brush infrequently, and showering would be the same if it wasn't for work. I forget to shave at times too :p
I did this for years. It only stopped when I gave up sugar and processed foods. They were literally causing 99% of my mental health issues. I've been medication free for 17 months now. Not that the meds ever really helped.
I think my family are a bunch of self involved manipulating a******s and if they didn’t talk to me again, it might make my life easier.
Life is too short to waste on toxic people even if they are your family.
You are so correct. I have cut so many of my family and now life is so much better.
Load More Replies...The older they get, the more they exhaust me. Drama everywhere, skeletons in closet, narcissism, lies. The wall I built between them and me is getting higher every year
I am having the same issue with my family. They are mostly all "old south" (this is not a good thing in the United States). I just don't hang out with them anymore unless it's a funeral which is way too often now a days. If I wanted to expose myself to racist, homophobic, pseudo-christian views, I would start going to church.
Load More Replies...Spend time cultivating your CHOSEN family. Just because you're related by blood to people you don't like does not mean you have to spend time with them. Unless you're a kid then your sc****d until you leave home. Funny thing is, when I stopped caring so much about what they thought, I found myself getting along better with them. Weird huh?
Took me cutting off every single family member to get sober. Will probably never go back, but who knows how the journey will unfold.
That's very courageous, and will probably help your healing process. Good for you. Maybe when you're stronger you'll be able to connect with them in a positive way. Only time will tell. Stay strong.
Load More Replies...I wish it was more acceptable to cut out your family. "But they're blood!" Isn't a good reason to let someone make you miserable!
“She’s your MOTHER!” Bruh that’s *her* fault.
Load More Replies...As black sheep of my family I fully understand that, sad part is that I know all their BS and could cause a full out fist brawl by just spilling some beans at any given family meeting
I also find spending time with my family difficult, I love them but I think life would be easier within them.
Same. I figured out how to make mine ostracize me and now I don’t dread waking up every morning, not to mention how my credit score has skyrocketed.
I have never been in an emotionally deep and mutually trusting relationship. I want to be but I've never met someone who felt the same way. I'm very introverted and one poor relationship experience left me reeling for the better part of a decade.
I think this is more common than people realise. A lot of people have trust issues and self sabotage potential relationships. Many others will be in relationships that aren't particularly fulfilling but are either scared to be single or don't want people to assume there's something 'wrong' with them.
I’m shy and introverted. And never really had a crush on anyone. Or dated anyone. I’m 17 now and I’m fine with it, but I’m worried what’ll happen when I’m 25 and never had my first kiss and my future friends decide to bring up that subject. (Also I might be aro ace, but idk.)
Load More Replies...I quit trying to find a BF or husband. No dating apps, no helpful friend suggestions. Nada I don't even really look at guys anymore. What's the point? My health is c**p and I have a freight train of baggage. No one wants that.
I only had such relationship once, but my inability to keep a bond or emotional connection towards other people ended it. My GF tried to fix and hold it together, but it wouldn't had been fair to keep her tied to such situation. To be honest, being single isn't that bad
I hear you. Trust and trauma haunted me an I turned my back on meeting anyone, let alone trusting them. Casual sexy-times with an “ex of sorts” was my plan. Then my long lost male BFF got in touch during Covid. He was literally the only one who got past the wall, because our “then” predated my “now”. But even now 2 years later, he gets some of my bull poop attitude. Stays calm and has non-verbally helped me work through some of it. Nobody is perfect, some are good enough. And some sneak past defences.
this is why im soo happy i have my best friend. we just get each other.
I truly believe women have it easier. Society lets us cry until it is just flat-out too embarrassing and then we are over it and move on. It is harder for men, IMO.
I can fully understand where you are coming from! I am 41(F) decent looking, funny, easy to get along with, happy person and have never had a real boyfriend. I've had lots of guys that I liked and a few FWB but have never been able to change my status to "in a relationship" it sucks! When I was in my early teens I was overweight and just figured I'd meet someone when I looked better. In my late 20s I lost the weight but never found love. By my 30th birthday I was addicted to opioids and in rehab but still no love. The closest I ever got was to a guy I met in rehab (usually not a good idea) we were extremely close but he passed away in 2017 and I gave up on finding love and started loving myself. I'll never get my dream come true, husband and babies but I'm okay with that now.
My issue was he was going behind my back, the entire time. We were engaged. Then one evening we had the “I’m not ready to get married yet”. Hmmmm where have I heard that line before?🤔 I know! When my best friend was engaged and then he told her that. Turns out, he had a new girlfriend he was living with in another city. Did I mention she was very pregnant at the time he had “the talk” with my friend? Oh, and then there’s my cousin. Engaged and then she was on the receiving end of “the talk”. He married someone else 5 months later. No, no, no! I’m not going to be number three. I’ve seen the writing on said wall. I called it completely off. This was August. He moved in with a woman from work in September. I hate it when I’m right. Oh ya🤨 My friend’s ex was messing around on her - divorce. My cousin’s husband was messing around on her - divorce. I wouldn’t trust a man as far as I could through one (sorry for the expression, but that is how I have felt. Period).
I gave my first and only relationship my all for the 5 years it lasted, yet it ended two years ago. I am now 35 and cannot imagine how I'm supposed to trust anyone that much anymore. Part of me longs to be able to, but the other part - the bigger one, I feel - is too scared to even try. And like OP, I'm very introverted too.
I am faking everything. Literally. I could not care less about anything. But I fake it all.
I am not saying that this particular person is dangerous, but this KIND of person can be VERY dangerous.
This can also be because of a deep depression. I would smile and laugh while I thought about how I couldn’t wait to go home and kill myself. The motions of pretending when I just so desperately wanted my life to end, literally nothing mattered anymore and I couldn’t care about anything. So, it really depends where this is coming from.
Load More Replies...I don't really care about my friends. Actually, I don't think they really care about me either. And I don't care if it's true.
I'm like that when im in the void and my emotions are resetting after a particularly explosive incident. Its hard to care when you cant feel anything at all.
Can't stand brushing my teeth. I do it but hate it. EDIT: Kinda sad the highest upvoted comment I have is about hating brushing my teeth lol. Please brush your teeth folks: my mom's are falling out because of her poor hygeine when she was younger.
I used to hate it too, but then I realized it was because the taste of toothpaste made me gag. I switched to kids'toothpaste, which tastes like strawberries or bubblegum instead of that horrible minty flavour, and I don't hate it anymore :)
My nephew says that toothpaste hurts his mouth, kids toothpaste that is, I'm assuming adult toothpaste would murder his mouth. So he has flavourless and non foaming toothpaste, super weird when you take it by accident but great that it exists.
Load More Replies...Peppermint toothpaste makes the skin on the inside of my mouth peel. I have a mild allergy to peppermint! I find that Sensodyne Repair is the only toothpaste that doesn't do this.
Sensodyne is good stuff. I started having noticeably fewer cavities when I switched to it.
Load More Replies...I brought this up to my dentist, that dental hygiene is extremely hard for me with depression. He prescribed me a special toothpaste that's helped prevent cavities and re-mineralize spots where cavities were threatening to form.
Use kids toothpaste!! I am the exact same way, and have had poor dental hygiene my whole life. I read (maybe even on here), a comment someone made regarding "being an adult doesn't mean you need to use adult toothpaste. Brushing your teeth, is brushing your teeth". It CHANGED ME
I do it, but I also hate it. I unfortunately have weak enamel and quite a few ofy teeth have broken over the years. Most likely from sugar, let's be real... Though toothpastes make me gag and sometimes vomit, especially when I actually am trying to clean the horror out of my mouth and tongue. Glad to know I'm not alone?
Is it the texture, flavor, etc.? If it's the flavor, try using kids' toothpaste since they tend to be sweeter. If it's the texture, maybe try mouthwash?
Load More Replies...Getting an electric toothbrush was the best thing I ever did for my teeth. Way less work, I can just stand there and daydream. Get one with a built-in timer so you don't have to think about how long you've brushing - it'll assuage the guilt.
I'm a hopeless people pleaser, i'm working very hard on that but i've been abused into being terrified of making anyone upset so i tend to let people walk on me and push limits until it's really breaking me before i start setting boundaries and it often results in hurtful situations for everyone involved. I'm working on it though.
The day you stop caring about what other people think about you is very liberating. You'll get there, start small, it'll get easier. The hurtful situations you're talking about are probably for them, not you. DO NOT GIVE UP.
Learn to say "No". Right off the bat, no excuses no explanations try not to feel guilty. No, is not used enough. Just because someone asks, you have the right to say no and it should be taken at face value. Try it out on something you could do, you have time to do it, but just say no.
The next step is setting limits and then being horrified that you did and then apologizing. The step after that is after the above sequence being angry that you apologized. Eventually the pendulum swings will slow down and you will have new skills that you are comfortable with. It’s a process. Good luck!
Yep, same here. Even lost my last relationship partly due to trying to please them instead of stating no. I'm only beginning to understand the matter emotionally though, so I hope it'll get better with time.
Keep working on it, because the freeing feeling you'll get when you're living for you instead of everyone else is better than drugs. I wish you luck
Me, too. It sucks, and I am trying to be better, but even that makes me worry that I will hurt someone's feelings. My ex was a manipulative narcissistic a*****e who took advantage of my ways, but my now and forever husband understands. He even gets frustrated when I don't stand up for myself.
It might sound ridiculous, but I was born a left handed person. It was unacceptable in our family and I was forced to eat and write with my right hand.
Now, I can write with both but much faster and neater with my right hand.
In my dreams, I still write and eat with my left hand.
Edit: Additional information.
I was born in Feb1982..... in India.
Studied in a catholic school, a Jesuit School to be precise.... so Christian(Italian) beliefs.
Yes, I started eating with my left hand again as I use my right hand to wash and wipe my rear. Couldn't wash with my left.
Edit2: Thank you everyone.
I'm a leftie and I really can't understand the constant discrimination against us. In the Middle East, the left hand is considered unclean, the Bible sees us as sinister, pretty much every tool and appliance on the planet is designed for right-handers, people with two left feet are considered clumsy (why do they never say 'two right feet?') and I'm tired of hearing 'wow, you're left handed?' almost every time I'm seen writing. It really is time to debunk these stone-age beliefs and accept that there is nothing inherently wrong with lefties. I prefer using my left hand and foot, but so what? Some prefer the colour blue instead of red, some prefer coffee over tea. No big deal.
In fact the word "sinister" is literally just Latin for "left-handed", whereas "ambidextrous" means "(having) two right hands". It's a weirdly ingrained prejudice.
Load More Replies...There are a few of us out there. I use chopsticks with my left, but chop veggies with the knife in my right.
My mum is a leftie, when she was in school she was forced to do everything with her right hand, she's now sort of ambidextrous, there are some things she can only do with one of her hands. She writes left handed but uses cutlery right handed.
So sad. My brother was a lefty, when he started school his teacher screamed at him for using the "Devils Hand" his left hand. Dad went down to the school and sorted the teacher out, not so politely. She never spoke to David again.
My Mom is left handed, but writes with her Right because the nuns would hit her with a ruler if she picked up a pencil with her Left. "Left handed children and children of the Devil" 1950's Catholic school.
I was born in America in the 70s. Forced right, pretty ambidextrous now. Two of my kids are lefties and I let them be.
I think I’m autistic but I’m not diagnosed. I’ve been reading a ton of studies on ASD presentation in adults but I almost feel embarrassed doing so without a diagnosis.
I think I have Asperger's but I've been unable to find someone in my country who could do a diagnosis.
Just so u know please don't use the term Asperger's you can just say u think you're autistic. I recommend researching why to understand!
Load More Replies...I believe I am, too, and wanted for years to be tested, but here in the US, autism "standards" of testing are based on male subjects, who often present much differently than females. My doctor asked me what would change for me if I had an official diagnosis, and that made me think. Nothing would actually change - all I can really do is educate myself and be aware of pitfalls I may encounter. I am who and how I am, and nothing will change that, so I'm just trying to pay attention to aspects I can better manage so I don't lie in bed at night cringing about some clumsy thing I said. 😜
My autism diagnosis meant that I finally had proof that I actually really am different, and it lifted the weight of trying so hard to be 'normal'. It was such a relief! And of course you are you, no need to change that. Take care of those pitfalls you mentioned <3
Load More Replies...It could also be ADHD. They have areas/symptoms which are similar, but some areas diverge. There are also different types of ADHD - I think we all assume hyperactivity is part and parcel of it, but they have realized that is merely one type. Don’t be embarrassed. If you are able to seek a diagnosis, decide if it can be worth your while to discover if there are medications that can help.
Yep, although having one can increase the chances of having the other. I have combined type ADHD and autism
Load More Replies...Recently found out I was tested for ADHD (prob called ADD) 45+ years ago. They knew I was but I didn't. Self educated myself and discovered on my own. Gee, wish I knew back then b/c I might have been able to manage myself better rather than spending decades feeling like something was different about me. It was an a-ha moment that became a content ahhh moment b/c all the pieces fit finally. I wasn't just imagining these things. So now I actively work to counteract my quirks that are so obvious to me now. Likely everyone else recognized them decades ago and didn't say anything.
If you're like this person, don't worry: autism is 100% acceptable to self-diagnose and an official diagnosis can bring you a lot of problems.
I'm exactly the same. Stuff I do or feel I've seen on things that say I maybe autistic. It would explain a lot if I was.
I have a voice in my head who I talk to out loud sometimes. Not like my inner thoughts but it’s like they’re another person. I know they’re not real but they make me think twice about doing or not doing something. Usually for the better.
I'm with you. We have conversations just like two people would. I often say my inner monologue is an external dialogue ;)
I have one of those! Ive mentioned it a few times to a few different people and they all claim it's my inner monologue. But I know for a fact it's not. First of all, I already have an inner monologue and I recognize it when I hear it. Second... The voice I hear is not mine. It's a male voice, almost like my dad's but not as deep. He reminds me a lot of my dad too. He scolds me when I do something stupid or dangerous, he encourages me when I'm struggling, and oddly enough, he breaks up arguments I have with myself when they border on self deprecating. I wondered once if I didn't have some form of DID but I looked into that and it doesn't really fit me. I won't deny I had some trauma in my childhood but I don't lose time and Ive never had someone tell me I'm acting out of character so I dunno.
I never just have a “few beers” if I have one
This is why I have been sober for over a year now. Two shots of whiskey would turn into ten. Everyday.
Load More Replies...I really do sympathize, oh so much. There is a lot of alcoholism in my family. It truly is a disease as opposed to a "lifestyle choice." I believe that there is a genetic predisposition. I am very lucky that I dodged that bullet. My brother succumbed, as did my son. There are many ways to get help. Please pursue them if you need to.
Yep. My genetics kicked in at beginning of covid. Altho covid was stressful on me, I think it would have kicked in at some point in my life if not then. I had an uncle die at 40 from syrrosis and I have a 1st cousin who has to be hospitalized for it 2-3 times a year. I didn't want to go there too - went to rehab instead & go to counseling frequently now. It won't ever go away, so every day I have to keep vigilant with my emotions and impulses.
Load More Replies...Oof, I feel this. 8 years sober. Because there was no such thing as one beer.
I’m not proud to say that I am the first alcoholic in my family, ever. I come from a family of Islamic background, so there was never any alcohol in the house growing up. My parents immigrated to the US from Egypt in the 70’s, I have one sister born in 78 and myself in 82. I didn’t start binge drinking until my early-mid 30s. It started when I began dating an alcoholic. I ended up getting in trouble with the law 5 years ago and it was the day that relationship ended. Since then, I go through periods of where I don’t drink much, but then other times binge to numb the pain (I’ve also been diagnosed with major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder.) I can’t remember the last time I’ve gone a day without a single drink. Edit: Last month I was put on meds for depression/anxiety and I talk to a therapist once a week.
I was born in 1983. My parents never drank around me & my mother never had a drink in her life (bc of alcoholics in her family). It didn't stop me from becoming one. I have adhd along with same 2 diagnoses as you. My therapist says negative feelings or hopeless feelings trigger my impulses to drink. Don't be ashamed. Its okay to not be okay. And it's also okay to be who you are - just work to become your better self - which I've learned for myself is without drinking a drop
Load More Replies...I'm exploring alcohol-free beers and cocktails. I like the adult flavors, they're fewer calories, better sleep. Not always easy to find but there are some great options out there now with more brands coming on the market everyday. This way I can have as many beers as I like.
Check out Hoplarks! While a little pricey, I have subscription & get them delivered to my door once a month
Load More Replies...Well ya - tall boys used to be my go-to when I was pretending to not be an alcoholic & just buy one - but go to a different store an hour or 2 later to do the same thing
Load More Replies...I have never been much of a drinker but I do tell people that "I'm not an alcoholic, but I play one at the bar." If I go out to drink, it is always in excess. I'm glad that I don't actually care for alcohol b/c I am pretty sure I would have one helluva problem.
Please stop. My husband was not a heavy drinker. His family is chuck full of heavy drinkers. He's the one that had Esophageal varices that nearly killed him. His liver is in bad shape too. He can not drink at all now, it could kill him.
If offered, I would probably endulge in a drug and prostitue fuelled orgy
At a guess make it happy milk? And sour milk on the come down
Load More Replies...I have a really severe, degenerative disease. This is how I plan to go out. It's gonna be there best week ever.
Apparently me not wanting to drink often is socially unacceptable to my peers. Had some guy basically yell at me over and over at a party because I didn’t want to drink :/
Why are people so weird about this?! Like, look Dudebro - it makes me sleepy and gives me heartburn. Not my idea of a party. You do you and I'll do me, ok?
I guess I'm lucky in that all of my friends are cool with it. I tend to only have one or two drinks because I don't like the feeling of being out of control. On a big day (like new years eve) I might have 6 or 7 drinks, but spaced out so I'm only lightly buzzed, not hammered. It also helps (hinders maybe?) that more than two beers give me a headache. Not spirits fortunately :)
Load More Replies...I used to drink on a regular basis. When I decided to pause for six months, one of my peers said "I don't recognize you when you're not drinking." I figured it was time to move on. That was twenty years ago. I never regretted my decision.
Not everybody can drink or likes to. I have a very low tolerance to alcohol, I can be very drunk and even throw up on 1/2 a glass of wine. I would however still under the legal limit to drive and could easily kill someone. I thankfully don't like alcohol and am sick to death of having to justify not drinking.
I'm always surprised when I read things like this online, because "in real life" it's always felt like I'm the only one in the whole world who doesn't like alcohol.
no my entire family is teetotal except me and my G/F. That's literally 7 other adults.
Load More Replies...It's sad that non drinkers aren't respected by choice. If someone was a recovering alcoholic, that's acceptable, but just to choose not to drink?! Oh my!
This isn't a personal defect, this is just needing better people to hang with.
I lost friendships over this. I don't want to or care if they do, but they *really* care if I don't.
Yep, if someone doesn't want to drink, mind your own business. People get like that over veganism as well. just because *I* don't want to eat it, doesn't mean (a) that I am judging you and (b) that you get to force it on me. Let people be what they want to be, it's not hard.
I think being a stay at home dad would be great. I hope I can be.
I did this for eight years (diapers to diplomas) for three kids. They're great kids and we have a great relationship. Wouldn't change a thing!
I've been there and done that, it was awesome. Housework is way less stressful than an office.
Some people are born to nurture, and gender has nothing to do with it. Nothing wrong with the domestic life, as long as your happy.
Love your comment I’m an at home dad and I love the closeness we all have.
Load More Replies...My mate is a SAH dad and it’s not a picnic at all. He’s brought up his 2 kids while his wife works. While doing this he’s found that he was in somewhat uncharted waters - especially when interacting with the other parents at school and toddler groups - overwhelmingly women. As a man, he was treated with great suspicion as if what he was doing was somehow unnatural. FWIW I think he’s done a good job despite the prejudice of other parents.
I don't have any hobbys. I just don't have anything special I do to be entertaint or something that makes me super interesting. People just question me what the hell I do all day without anything like that. It's not a good look somehow?
I think it might be because, after finishing work or school or whatever stage your life is at, doing whatever household chores need doing, you just... sit and stare into space until bedtime? You must do *something* with your downtime? And that's the "not good look" they mean. Even watching mindless TV could count as a hobby (possibly not a healthy or acceptable one, but it's still a hobby of you do it for fun in your spare time). Hobbies don't have to be super interesting and you don't have to do them to be entertaining to others, you are entertaining yourself.
I don't have any "Hobbies" either. I've tried several but get bored with them. I have had passive hobbies, collecting music boxes, but my 2nd husband who was abusive smashed them all. I used to play guitar but my nails are too long to really play well. I just haven't found anything I like doing enough to invest my efforts into. Would love to find something but finances are preventing it right now.
I absolutely hate driving. It's hard to find a decent job when there's nothing good around, and the thought of driving further than 10 mins away makes me want to jump off a bridge Edit: glad I'm not the only one who feels this way Thanks for all the upvotes, that's my first time past 1k
I have gone to nearly all the hours of practice and driving school very fine but the thought of being responsible for myself and all other people on and near the street name me feel very anxious all the time (I did martial arts and know my bad reflexes, although my sister newly died in an accident) to the point I broke down and finally (after years of heavyweighing procrastination!) decided to not do the tests and live my life without a licence. What a relief. Yes my life is more complicated. Everything needs more time but where I live it is manageable. It will be the most difficult if I need a new job in my field because usually I would have to drive to customers (upholsterer)
I see no conversation off limits.
Do they mean subject of conversation or do they mean they'll see random strangers talking and just wander over and join their conversation?
On occasion, I prefer to drink hot water. All my friends think I am insane. Each time I explain, yes, I still drink cold water. Yes, I still use ice in the summer. But sometimes, I prefer hot water to sip on. They just don’t get it.
A lot of people do this. All my Chinese friends. I've heard it is good for you
Yup especially if your dosha is vata (Ayurveda).
Load More Replies...I've done it on occasion. I don't care for ice water. I drink my water room temp.
My mum and I do this, especially now there are so many more options for insulated drink bottles, but my sister thinks it's weird.
Long one here.
I dumpster dive and find perfectly good fruit at the grocery store. I don't eat them but turn it into cider or distill it to something stronger. When I go to a group event or party I just bring a 10+ gallons of whatever to the party as my contribution to the group. I've given many people at least 200 gallons of alcohol to mix drinks for their wedding or events. All for free.
The thing is... I don't drink. Don't drink at all.
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Fixing some confusing wording. Thanks. I don't think this is impressive at all as I think anyone can make alcohol/cider.
I quit drinking in 2007 ( I'm alcoholic) but still bring booze for my friends at parties, love seeing them being wasted. Also I never quit going to bars, having a soft drink, and I'm planning to buy good wines to stock for their older days. Probably on the step of death, l'll drink one last glass of Madiran
I am really good at relating to everybody and then they say or do something I don't like and I ghost. It doesn't even have to be anything that serious...I just peace out. Someone said I just don't like people but I'm sure it's deeper than that.
I have a similar issue -one friend had too much "forced new age positivity" in her and another had bad taste in music so I just let them go. My best friend is someone I try to keep and not hurt, but secretly it drives me crazy how she is not too smart. I have truly admired and looked up to a few rare people, mostly people just annoy me with their small talk and lack of depth.
I flake on plans 99.999% of the time. Edit: s**t guys, I’m gonna work on this.
I like to give imaginary tours to people from my life when I drive alone. It could be my wife, old friends, cousins, crushes from high school… Doesn’t matter who. I pretend like I’m taking them for a drive around the city to make my drive a little less boring. All this is involuntary. Edit: Thanks for the award 🤗 I didn’t realize my quirk is so popular. And glad that I’m not the only one.
I do something similar. I often find myself describing the process in my head of whatever ridiculous thing I'm doing like I'm giving instructions or something.
I've always struggled with sweaty hands and feet since I was a small child. In formal settings I enjoy the option of wearing opera gloves. People think I'm being fancy. Nah bra I'm just hiding that I have to shake 9000 hands at this event tonight and I don't want to have to keep wiping them on my dress.
Get some Carpe antiperspirant. It's AMAZING. you can get it on the giant online retailer
By no means am I any sort of expert, but this sounds like it could be a form of hyperhidrosis.
I don't talk to anyone other than close relative Not even friends
Probably doesn't have a lot of friends, and those they do have think they're a great listener.
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I can’t do groceries by my self always have to call a homie to come with me. I can do anything publicly but idk wtf it is about grocery stores I need someone to hold my hand or else I am dipping WITHOUT ANY GROCERIES.
No shame in needing a homie to come along and hold your hand. I am grateful you have homies to accompany you <3
I hate showering. I do it everyday but I hate it
I love showering. If I wasn't in a water-scarce country I'd do it twice a day.
The uncontrollable urge to discuss rats during sexual intercourse. It started off as a joke but now the thoughts are pretty intrusive.
can you make room for a carton of milk please :)
Load More Replies...I read fanfiction constantly. Like, a LOT of fanfiction
Me too, and only slash. (Not slasher, slash. If you don't know what that is, probably don't Google it.)
It gets boring reading the canon storylines over and over again. And some of the fanfics are actually quite good.
I write fanfiction to improve on my writing skills - but never publish it
yeah, i agree… anything that i like, i will write about and it also helps me get off to sleep!
Load More Replies...I've read and have written it. Had an account on Fanfiction.net years ago.
Years ago, I didn't just read fanlit, I wrote it. (Heh, but not slash.)
I internet stalk the s**t out of potential crushes to decide if I want to actually pursue a date w them. Totally opposite of my fairly chill exterior.
That's fair. Better be prepared for potential red flags. Don't let them know how prepared you are, however.
I enjoy the stink of my farts.
Sometimes you get a good one, and sometimes you stink even yourself out.
I work very very hard to be equally prejudiced to all people.
My father was like that. He used rude words for everyone including himself. He used to market himself as a misanthrope but he'd give you the shirt off his back.
I get a lot of flak for making generalised remarks. I think it depends on your attitude. If you are making a statistical point and there's no group-hatred involved, I think it's ok to make the observation. Compare the following: white guys like fishing. VS: white guys are racists. The first is ok, in my view, the second is probably racist. So it depends on your atittude.
I am so close to being a recluse, if it wasn't for the fact that I work, I wouldn't leave the house.
I'm **always** slightly high.
I like sardines
Sometimes I like having fake phone conversations. Sometimes because I just need to talk through a problem or plan something out loud but my mom isn't picking up the phone. Sometimes for my own entertainment (trying to get people to eavesdrop).
sometimes i’ll be walking and i’ll put my phone to my ear and go “you ran over the cat?! how did… don’t tell me you barbecued it… ok thank goodness” >:)
I left a lot of vocal messages to the recently deceassed ones I loved ( favorite uncle and close friend) . Sometimes I love sitting in front of their graves and having a talk
I support my husband not working. Come at me bros.
Same. He watches the children, and does all the house work, I got to work.
I see absolutely nothing wrong with this. If you both agree then that sounds perfect.
Load More Replies...I'm happy to be a jealous psycho who is married to another jealous psycho. When I share stories of how possessive we are people generally ask me how we're still together or if it's smothering.
There is nothing I've encountered inside a fish tank or kitchen sink that I have felt too grossed out by to shove my hand in. Days old discolored grease congealed at the top of a sink filled with water? I'll reach in and unclog it. A fish filter that hasn't been changed in literal YEARS and is completely full of algae and fish s**t? I'll grab it with my bare hands and toss it no problem.
A lot of my work is dealing with garbage, including food waste. Some people can't handle it, and will loose their lunch. It doesn't phase me. I think stuff like this is like an underrated superpower
100%. I'm one of those others and I hugely appreciate you dealing with the stuff I can't handle. Thank you!
Load More Replies...I can clean up stinky stuff, but I can't handle the stench of fast food or curry.
I had 2 kids by the age of 18 in a heavily Mennonite Christian area nicknamed "The Bible Belt" in southern Canada.
Yep through in god told me too and people will shut up
Load More Replies...I heat up my cereal in the microwave. It’s cozy.
well porridge is a cereal so.. depends. Corn flakes would probably be weird.
I actually prefer my cornflakes heated, but no one else I know (except maybe mum) does
Load More Replies...Just pour a little boiling water on weetbix to soften them up. Even in summer.
Load More Replies...I kinda get the cereal. The warm salad person though… genuine psychopath.
Load More Replies...That i lie to seem cool i general dont know why i do probably cause i craved attention but i try not too
Whenever I'm cooking I pretend I'm on a cookery show and talk (in my head) to the imaginary audience. I'm a very witty and popular host. Was nominated for an imaginary Emmy a couple of years ago, although I didn't win.
One thing I have noticed a great deal is since Covid lockdown the amount of people who now prefer a much quieter life and less social interaction.
Ngl, overall, even with getting it, covid lockdown was a huge blessing for me, the only time I've had a near total reprieve from anxiety for a while
Load More Replies...sorry but this list is so funny to me. As for me, my weird thing is probably that when I'm reading a book and a dramatic scene happens, or a character does something awful, I put the book down, stand up, and start monologuing. I'll talk to the characters and completely chew out the ones I wish I could yell at, or rework the dialogue to fit what I want, or so on. TL;DR, I talk to book characters like they can hear me when I have emotions about the book.
OMG, someone who does this too?!?! I thought I was insane!!!! I’m not the only one!!! Oh god, it can get really vivid too. The story just gets too good and my heart feels like it’s gonna pop so I have to stop and start monologueing to the characters!
Load More Replies...most of these seem ok to me, not socially unacceptable but just eccentric or low-effort (e.g. not wanting friends, not wanting kids, not wanting to go out/socialise, not wanting to have ambitions, etc) - these seem to be just people who do not want to expend effort. I'm ok with that, not everyone wants to do dramatic stuff.
I'm not really sold on the idea of deodorant. Seems to me that it doesn't last all day, and when it stops working the smell is far worse than when not using any. Decided to give it up, kind of like the shampoo-free trend, and never ended up going back
yep I find that it ruins shirts as well. I've taken to using spray sanitiser (strong alcohol) to kill the germs and reduce the smell. As soon as a shirt starts to smell like armpit EVEN AFTER being laundered, I throw it away.
Load More Replies...I am 22 years old and I still play make believe when I'm alone. I'll pull out my Halloween costumes and everything. It's one of the best ways Ive found to relax after a super stressful day.
I really feel some of these. I work full time but I have no desire to socialise outside work or do anything. I'd rather be at home in my pj's. Feel like I did all my socialising in my teens/20's and now I want to just stay in my house and not be called weird. Also, I'm not teetotal but almost. And that's another reason I don't go out
I feel guilty about so much, even things I know aren't my fault. Like, I feel guilty about how my antidepressants don't work as well as they used too even though I am on the max dosage. I feel like it's my fault that I am not good at antidepressants or something. I know it doesn't make sense, but I feel that guilt all the time.
There are so many different drugs on the market because everyone is so different. Talk to your doctor and they'll work out a plan with you to try different meds. I don't know what country you're in, but I highly recommend seeing a psychiatric nurse practitioner over a primary care doctor or psychiatrist MD. And definitely see a counselor; it can change your life.
Load More Replies...I chew my fingers. It's an OCD problem called Dermatophagia. It something I have done all my life and I can't stop. I'd kill to stop but can't. I go spans of time where I don't but never completely stop. It's very depressing.
have you tried painting your hands with something that tastes or smells awful? like chlorine-smelling or acid-smelling?
Load More Replies...I don't really care that much anymore about anything. I am not sure if it's just about getting older or about the particular traumas I have been through in life, but things don't matter as much as when I was younger. We live, we die. Either there is a meaning or not. It's my "job" to live well and be kind to others either way. And that's it. The rest is just noise. I am dating much younger person who is head over heals in love with me. I remember that feeling, but I can't really relate anymore. We have have long conversations about it. They don't care as long as I spend the rest of my life with them. And I will as long as there is not abuse. They are actually that rare decent person, so I think we are good. But I am kind of sad that I can't be totally crushing like when I was younger.
That kind of sounds like depression to me...
Load More Replies...Whenever I'm cooking I pretend I'm on a cookery show and talk (in my head) to the imaginary audience. I'm a very witty and popular host. Was nominated for an imaginary Emmy a couple of years ago, although I didn't win.
One thing I have noticed a great deal is since Covid lockdown the amount of people who now prefer a much quieter life and less social interaction.
Ngl, overall, even with getting it, covid lockdown was a huge blessing for me, the only time I've had a near total reprieve from anxiety for a while
Load More Replies...sorry but this list is so funny to me. As for me, my weird thing is probably that when I'm reading a book and a dramatic scene happens, or a character does something awful, I put the book down, stand up, and start monologuing. I'll talk to the characters and completely chew out the ones I wish I could yell at, or rework the dialogue to fit what I want, or so on. TL;DR, I talk to book characters like they can hear me when I have emotions about the book.
OMG, someone who does this too?!?! I thought I was insane!!!! I’m not the only one!!! Oh god, it can get really vivid too. The story just gets too good and my heart feels like it’s gonna pop so I have to stop and start monologueing to the characters!
Load More Replies...most of these seem ok to me, not socially unacceptable but just eccentric or low-effort (e.g. not wanting friends, not wanting kids, not wanting to go out/socialise, not wanting to have ambitions, etc) - these seem to be just people who do not want to expend effort. I'm ok with that, not everyone wants to do dramatic stuff.
I'm not really sold on the idea of deodorant. Seems to me that it doesn't last all day, and when it stops working the smell is far worse than when not using any. Decided to give it up, kind of like the shampoo-free trend, and never ended up going back
yep I find that it ruins shirts as well. I've taken to using spray sanitiser (strong alcohol) to kill the germs and reduce the smell. As soon as a shirt starts to smell like armpit EVEN AFTER being laundered, I throw it away.
Load More Replies...I am 22 years old and I still play make believe when I'm alone. I'll pull out my Halloween costumes and everything. It's one of the best ways Ive found to relax after a super stressful day.
I really feel some of these. I work full time but I have no desire to socialise outside work or do anything. I'd rather be at home in my pj's. Feel like I did all my socialising in my teens/20's and now I want to just stay in my house and not be called weird. Also, I'm not teetotal but almost. And that's another reason I don't go out
I feel guilty about so much, even things I know aren't my fault. Like, I feel guilty about how my antidepressants don't work as well as they used too even though I am on the max dosage. I feel like it's my fault that I am not good at antidepressants or something. I know it doesn't make sense, but I feel that guilt all the time.
There are so many different drugs on the market because everyone is so different. Talk to your doctor and they'll work out a plan with you to try different meds. I don't know what country you're in, but I highly recommend seeing a psychiatric nurse practitioner over a primary care doctor or psychiatrist MD. And definitely see a counselor; it can change your life.
Load More Replies...I chew my fingers. It's an OCD problem called Dermatophagia. It something I have done all my life and I can't stop. I'd kill to stop but can't. I go spans of time where I don't but never completely stop. It's very depressing.
have you tried painting your hands with something that tastes or smells awful? like chlorine-smelling or acid-smelling?
Load More Replies...I don't really care that much anymore about anything. I am not sure if it's just about getting older or about the particular traumas I have been through in life, but things don't matter as much as when I was younger. We live, we die. Either there is a meaning or not. It's my "job" to live well and be kind to others either way. And that's it. The rest is just noise. I am dating much younger person who is head over heals in love with me. I remember that feeling, but I can't really relate anymore. We have have long conversations about it. They don't care as long as I spend the rest of my life with them. And I will as long as there is not abuse. They are actually that rare decent person, so I think we are good. But I am kind of sad that I can't be totally crushing like when I was younger.
That kind of sounds like depression to me...
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