Hi Sierra, and thank you for answering. I am glad to hear you are well. Please understand that I meant absolutely no harm. However, there is a contradiction in your statement when you say that your friends never harmed you or did malicious things. When you talk about Devvra at the start, the things she would do to you (push to steal, lie, cheat, choke you in your sleep, get angry at you etc) sound harmful enough. Either way, like I said, this is a topic far more complex than we can afford right now, and I am happy that you are happy.

Write a book. And I mean it! Publish it or not, it's a wonderful way to keep those memories alive and visit them whenever. This was an interesting reading and that was all I could think of. Stay safe!

Hi, im curious about tanaabaruu.. in malay language it sound like tanah baru or "new land"..

yeah Sierra write a book please and find a really good artist to bring them to life, I absolutely loved them, I'm gonna be the first one to buy it :D

I'm also going to add one more thing. From some of the research that I have done on my own, people like you often have a well-functioning pineal gland which is responsible for the production of DMT in our brain. Dimethyltryptamine (DMT) is known as the "spirit molecule" and our own brain produces it through the pineal gland. Scientist say that it is DMT that is responsible for our dream state and many mystical experiences in a waking state. Ayahuasca that I eluded to earlier, contains DMT in a natural state and helps to reactivate that which those medications previously suppressed. Again, this is not magic or science fiction but fact that modern research is now confirming.

I agree, write a novel! Surely you could outdo J.K. Rowling?!! Your fantasy world and animals/creatures sound really appealing. I bet you could make the next big box office hit! And become a famous children's author. Give it a shot!! PS--My mother's brother and their father, (my grandfather), were both paranoid schizophrenics who could be at times very physically dangerous to anyone. They saw people who were not there, heard things that were not happening. They had both been diagnosed, but not until they were very much along in life, 60's and around that age. It was terrible. You do not sound like you have schizophrenia at all. Just a great imagination, that helped you cope with life every day. Nothing wrong with that!!

Sierra, I have some interesting advice for you that might help you to better understand what happened and what these events were. Do research on ayahuasca. It's an ancient brew used as a traditional spiritual medicine in ceremonies among the indigenous peoples of the Amazon basin. Ayahuasca could provide you with the answers you might be seeking. Ayahuasca is an ancient plant medicine to which modern science has been taking interest. I went to Peru recently to experience this myself. There are many articles on the internet as well as videos on YouTube. Check it out. I can direct you to some very experienced, safe and reputable ayahuasca retreats in Peru where you could partake in this ancient ceremony and even see your friends again. Ayahuasca is known for opening the door to the "other side", so to speak. I encourage you to do your own research though. There is more to our world than most people know or can understand.

Really interesting descriptions of your friends. There's so much depth to them. I particularly like the 20 tails forming a bulb and everything behind that. As many have said if you actually wrote a book about this it would be a very interesting one to read. I never had imaginary friends but I drew so much growing up as a form of escapism. The only think that ever materialised before with a voice was some freaky demon creature when I had a moment of sleep paralysis, which I've read is common. The voice felt like it was everywhere. Anyway I thought I'd share, haha. I am glad you're doing well now. Thanks for sharing your own experiences. As is apparent here it's a brave decision, since so many wish to impress an opinion.

I had similar experiences as a child, but I'm over 40 now, and don't remember much of the details anymore. The strongest memory I have is a friendly being protecting me (I wasn't abused as a child for those wondering), it it would often tell me when to close my eyes and pretend to be asleep, because the not-so-nice being was about to come in. I would feel this presence come in, and fly around my room, then leave once satisfied I was sleeping. Weird to some, no doubt, but it was what it was. I, too, was anxious and depressed; something I continued to struggle with for a long time, but finally reached a happier place. I'm glad you've got it all on record, once forgotten, it seems they're gone forever.

Thank you so much for sharing your personal treasure with us! I envy you for having friends like that to help you through hard times. I have never been so fortunate.

I understand. :)

U donot have a nutty brain. Just the opposite!! You have been given a gift. Dont let society make u fit into their box of what they think is right. It has worked afterall if u think u have a nutty or bad brain. U have no idea how important this part of your life is. They (ur friends) tried to tell u. There is a reason u have this gift. Figure it out and use it to help the universe and all in it. People may nit understand now but at ine point in time they will. Some of the all time great munds never got any recognition, (even got persucuted) untill way after passing.

This is really strange and beautiful, thank you for sharing

I can't believe I spent an hour listening to your podcast while at work. Great story to tell and I'm glad everything turns out ok for you in the end.

Those who have tried to label you missed the beauty. You don't need to answer to them. :)

I cant find the podcast. Where is it?

I never said she has any of these issues, I just said it looked like that. Unfortunately the limitation in the messages box prohibits me to explain in more detail what I meant, but there was no sentence in which I officially diagnosed her with anything. If nothing else, it is you that assumes things freely about my statement. I do NOT trivialize mental illness. I was talking about DID when I mentioned trauma, not schizophrenia. But in the end I don't want to spark an argument. I was just stating my opinion based on the information I was provided with, nothing else.

@hellcat you stated "sounds very much like if you mixed schizophrenia and disassociation personality disorder". Stay in your armchair love. She has a gift most don't understand.

Don't you people have any decency? The lady just asked not diagnose her ...!

Yes, true. I do agree it sounds like schizophrenia, but I prefer not to make concrete judgments. (And when I mentioned trauma I meant that it is not fair to assume that trauma/disease is the cause of development. There are a host of other influencers, and for her to assume that it was due to trauma is likely only based on common media stereotypes.)