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Recently I decided I want to illustrate my personal frustrations and voice my suicidal ideation and experience with dark thoughts. When I began, I thought I might share them with my friends but got the courage to share them with everyone that I knew. When other people saw the work, they connected with the stories from their viewpoint.
Talking about suicide and people's experience is very important. I want to continue creating my images to hopefully be able to help and reach out to others struggling with dark and suicidal thoughts. If you're interested, you can find the whole project on Facebook. I hope you enjoy it.
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#1
Many Days I Feel Like I'm Just Watching Everyone Else Go By
Final score:
38points
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#2
Getting Up Is The Hardest
Final score:
37points
#4
So I Spend A Lot Of My Energy Hiding My True Feelings
Final score:
35points
#5
It's A Struggle To Get Out Of This Thinking
Final score:
27points
#6
And The Fog Just Takes Over So I Can't See At All
Final score:
27points
#7
I Just Deal With The Bizarre Ways They Make Themselves Feel Like They're Doing Something To 'Help'
Final score:
27points
#9
If I'm Doing Ok.... I'm Sure To Be Reminded That I'm Actually Not
Final score:
25points
#10
And Don't Get To Close. If You Do, I'll End Up Pushing You Away
Final score:
25points
#11
So I Feel A Bit Stuck In My Own Thoughts
Final score:
24points
#12
When I Have Braved People To Talk, I Realise There Isn't A Lot Of Point To It
Final score:
24points
#13
People Meaning Well Hurt Me More Than They Could Ever Imagine
Final score:
23points
#14
If I Don't Hide My Feelings, I Have This Magical Gift Of Draining Everyone Around Me
Final score:
22points
PastelHope 5 years ago (edited)
You won't drain people if you show your feelings, trust me. I know it's hard but talking to people helps, and one of your friends or family might actually be going though the same stuff as you and might be able to tell you ways they deal with it :).
#15
The World Moves Without Noticing Me
Final score:
21points
glorytherainwing 5 years ago
yes. I, too, feel like a useless speck on earth with no use whatsoever
#16
I Reach Out For Help But No One Really Has Interest Or Time
Final score:
21points
#18
They Really Have A Way Of Making Me Do What They Want
Final score:
19points
#19
Sometimes I Just Can't Stop What's Going To Happen
Final score:
18points
CaughtInTheRain 5 years ago
@Foxxy I am so disappointed in your words and hate. Certainly not the person I thought you were.
#22
It's Just A Mess...
Final score:
15points
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What do you think ?
Night Owl 5 years ago
That was some heavy stuff. Trust me, you're not the only one who feels that way (even if it often feels that you are)
Dirk Aarden 5 years ago
Painfully accurate, recognized a lot of my ex in this. Tried to help her for many years, she still managed to push me away in the end though.
Magpie 5 years ago
I know I have talked a lot on this thread. It is because I live with depression and I want to share what has helped me. I see it as a life time disease. Kind of like diabetes, or asthma. ( I have asthma) 1--We need to learn several strategies, 2--Monitor conditions constantly, 3--Protect ourselves from toxic situations /people. 4-- Know our personal warning signs. 5 --Recognise how far we have come. 6--Find good professionals who know what they are doing and are a good fit with us.
Sarah Kate Lamming 5 years ago
Please remember that it just feels like no one is willing to help, and that you are the only one going through it. Please remember that it's so hard to try to help and yet be repeatedly lied to and pushed away. That most of us don't want to make you feel worse, in fact we try so hard to help you get better. We know it's the illness and not you but that doesn't stop it hurting us when you blame us or when we see you suffering. We know that we aren't to blame for your suicide attempts but it feels like we've failed you, that we should had done more and that sometimes you and other people us blame for not doing enough when we feel we could not do any more. Loving someone with depression and suicidal thoughts m is really hard too
KayKay 5 years ago
All of this. I felt all of this. I'm getting help through a therapist/counselor but someday's it doesn't feel like enough because the people around me just don't under stand what goes through my head or how I feel inside. I can put on a smile, that's easy. But to actually FEEL okay is another thing.
John Laurens/Gay Turtle 5 years ago
I've struggled with Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety, ADHD, Schizophrenia, and suicidal thoughts since I was 11. I can relate to all of these posts. I've gone through 14 different therapists, and none of them helped, so now I rely on my dog, Dakota, to help me through it. It's kinda like @glorytherainwing, but with my dog. She's the only one that keeps me going. I've failed my family and friends. So Dakota is the one thing I live for.
Magpie 5 years ago
Thank you Chrissy I can relate to so much of this. This is my favourite site that taught me a way to turn around in a new direction. If it is not your cuppa , maybe someone you know would like it. >>>>>>https://www.metanoia.org/
Malgorzata Margo 5 years ago
I lost my ex to depression and now I am struggling with it. Therapy doesn't seem to work.
Sunny Topia 2 years ago
🙃... I used to be at these phases before and still struggling with my overthinking things when I make a mistake. I already succeed in exiting my safe zone. It doesn't feels alone because I have myself! I surround myself with good people. Sometimes I will hurt them especially when my emotions are not good. ☹️😞 Half of them started to make my emotions badly and I exposed all of my feelings about it. I never even been that satisfied before.. 🥲😭 it such a good reliever!
Lara 5 years ago
This is my sister. Right now. I really want to help her. I noticed some of the things I say make it worse. So what should I say? Please enlighten me because the last thing I want is to make her feel worse. I am polar opposite. And sometime I think she resents me because I'm a happy person and she isn't. Anything you can share would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
Night Owl 5 years ago
That was some heavy stuff. Trust me, you're not the only one who feels that way (even if it often feels that you are)
Dirk Aarden 5 years ago
Painfully accurate, recognized a lot of my ex in this. Tried to help her for many years, she still managed to push me away in the end though.
Magpie 5 years ago
I know I have talked a lot on this thread. It is because I live with depression and I want to share what has helped me. I see it as a life time disease. Kind of like diabetes, or asthma. ( I have asthma) 1--We need to learn several strategies, 2--Monitor conditions constantly, 3--Protect ourselves from toxic situations /people. 4-- Know our personal warning signs. 5 --Recognise how far we have come. 6--Find good professionals who know what they are doing and are a good fit with us.
Sarah Kate Lamming 5 years ago
Please remember that it just feels like no one is willing to help, and that you are the only one going through it. Please remember that it's so hard to try to help and yet be repeatedly lied to and pushed away. That most of us don't want to make you feel worse, in fact we try so hard to help you get better. We know it's the illness and not you but that doesn't stop it hurting us when you blame us or when we see you suffering. We know that we aren't to blame for your suicide attempts but it feels like we've failed you, that we should had done more and that sometimes you and other people us blame for not doing enough when we feel we could not do any more. Loving someone with depression and suicidal thoughts m is really hard too
KayKay 5 years ago
All of this. I felt all of this. I'm getting help through a therapist/counselor but someday's it doesn't feel like enough because the people around me just don't under stand what goes through my head or how I feel inside. I can put on a smile, that's easy. But to actually FEEL okay is another thing.
John Laurens/Gay Turtle 5 years ago
I've struggled with Major Depression, Generalized Anxiety, ADHD, Schizophrenia, and suicidal thoughts since I was 11. I can relate to all of these posts. I've gone through 14 different therapists, and none of them helped, so now I rely on my dog, Dakota, to help me through it. It's kinda like @glorytherainwing, but with my dog. She's the only one that keeps me going. I've failed my family and friends. So Dakota is the one thing I live for.
Magpie 5 years ago
Thank you Chrissy I can relate to so much of this. This is my favourite site that taught me a way to turn around in a new direction. If it is not your cuppa , maybe someone you know would like it. >>>>>>https://www.metanoia.org/
Malgorzata Margo 5 years ago
I lost my ex to depression and now I am struggling with it. Therapy doesn't seem to work.
Sunny Topia 2 years ago
🙃... I used to be at these phases before and still struggling with my overthinking things when I make a mistake. I already succeed in exiting my safe zone. It doesn't feels alone because I have myself! I surround myself with good people. Sometimes I will hurt them especially when my emotions are not good. ☹️😞 Half of them started to make my emotions badly and I exposed all of my feelings about it. I never even been that satisfied before.. 🥲😭 it such a good reliever!
Lara 5 years ago
This is my sister. Right now. I really want to help her. I noticed some of the things I say make it worse. So what should I say? Please enlighten me because the last thing I want is to make her feel worse. I am polar opposite. And sometime I think she resents me because I'm a happy person and she isn't. Anything you can share would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.
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