I Was Following My Dream Till I Get Divorced.

When my daughter was born, I had to move to Misawa AB in Japan which is really far away from my family.

I was ok being away from my Family but Misawa has lots of snows in Winter which make me feel depressed.

all I enjoy was taking a picture of my baby with my cell phone since I was stuck in a house with her due to snow almost everyday.

Maybe My ex husband was worried about me then so He bought me a digital camera as Christmas present. He said I need to have some hobby.

Since then I started to practice photography by myself.

I wasn’t serious at first but when I saw some child fine artist’s Work on FB ,They Inspired me a lot.

I was stay at house mom so didn’t have money to use for my hobby. So I decided to learn Photoshop by myself at first.

what I did was watching Youtube and learn new things everyday for a year.

also I start posting my work on some Photography groups on FB. which choose 10 images for photo of the day.

It was hard though. I got lots of comments like

or even just wrote

Of course it made me sad but it also made me think as I WILL BE BETTER THAN YOU ONEDAY!

Since then my dream was To get an award on International Photography competition and To make an photo Album for my daughter to give on her wedding day.

Life was good that I could make lots of photo and memory with my daughter and I could get improve myself day by day too.

6 years later I got pregnant again and had a baby boy.

Of course I started to take photo of him too.

also started to work as photographer on military base.

I enjoyed it a lot but then my life changed suddenly.

I got divorced back in 2020. which was really hard time. Back then Covid was around and I had to sell my camera and all gears to make money for to rent an apartment for me and my kids in my home town.

I cried so hard that I had to give up my dream.

Still remember the day I sold my camera etc. I cried all night.

I was lost and depressed for a while.

But when I was clean up my photography album, it made me wants to take an photography again for my kids. so I bought camera and a lens with loan.

I Even decided to start photography job in my home town too and tried but things didn’t work well .Due to covid and since I didn’t have money for marketing etc, I couldn’t get much Customers.

I had to give up again.

Now I am working at my sisters company which isn’t photography job to live.

To work for only making money to live made me away from photography now. since I am busy with work and taking care of kids, its hard to even think what kind of image I want to take.

I wish That my passion for photography will be back oneday..

I will post some old work to keep it as memory.

Grieving

I Was Following My Dream Till I Get Divorced.

I created this image right after I got divorced. My daughter was sad about it back then. but trying not to show her sadness to me.
I wanted to tell her that it’s ok to be sad and cry.

Also, This photo was taken in a small bedroom with my Black wide pants and her school uniform. I just cut Both clothes and put them on her head. I didn’t sew lol
Flower is also Fake and from a dollar store.