I secretly eat toothpaste, don't ask for details, and was curious if anyone else does really weird things in secret.
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scream into a pillow to my heart's content.
Having fake conversations with my old friend I haven't seen in 6 years. (Such as pretending we meet at a walgreens randomly in 20 years.)
I make ugly weird faces by squishing my face into my neck to have double/triple chins and then release, looking at my skinnier face from what I just had. Ngl it gives me a boost of confidence
I talk to / with myself....like, a lot.. can even have full blown discussion with fictional me. It's not hearing voices or psychose, I just respond as if someone asked something.
Daughter of a friend heard me once, scared the crap out off her 😁
Stick stuff down my throat to attempt throw up if I am afraid I ate too much. It never works, and I am left with guilt on overeating. I want to get better but I don’t want to fall behind in school because I had to go to a hospital. As long as I’m a healthy weight I’ll keep doing this.
Please seek out for help. As someone with a history of both phases of overeating and not eating at all, trust me, the sooner you get help, the better. Eating-disorders are serious (way before they threaten your life) and often it's not about food but deeper feelings and problems.
Two sided conversations with myself. I will verbalize one side, the other side is in my head.