and i remember you saying your phone turns off at 9 or something so im guessing that's what happened. but hey i promise you it's going to be okay i promise i promise i promise. and it's completely okay that you feel this way. and i also promise you that there is going to be another person that will love you (maybe there already is) because you are an amazing dude and how could anyone not? it's going to be okay but for now just know that i'm always here for you for anything. here's a giant internet hug

Thank you. I doubt that there's anyone else who could love me, I'm just not really a loveable person. I try to be perfect for everyone but I still only have like 3 people who I would actually consider friends, including him. Everyone in my school genuinely hates me or can't tolerate me. I thought that he was going to be the one person who cares about me the way I care about everyone and ig he still might be but it's not the same. Thanks for being here

i wish i could just give you a hug right now

How am I supposed to act normal today? Were going to be seeing eachother irl tonight and I think talking through it with him will help but I need to act like everything is fine for the entire school day and I can't even go 20 minutes without breaking down right now

just keep breathing. you can get through it. meanwhile i was crying in the back choir hallway a few minutes ago and i'm trying not to have a panic attack right now...

You should take a break from people, like go to the bathroom and lock yourself into a stall if you can. Trying to not have a panic attack never works for long, just let yourself feel what you're feeling. If you need any help, please tell me

my librarian got mad at me for having to finish this massive choir slideshow that we have a strict deadline for (as in we just started yesterday and we just now finished) and she never gets mad at me and it wasn't even that bad but i started crying and it was so stupid. i'm mostly calmed down now i think but i'm a little shaky

It's okay. It's alright to be overwhelmed and it happens to everyone. Just breathe and give yourself some time to start feeling okay again. You can do it

i'm just sitting by myself in the back choir hallway so i'm able to breathe right now and i don't think i have to go to biology today since i'm helping with banquet prep so i'm taking this time to give myself time.

Alright! Thats good. How are you feeling? Is there anything specific I can help with?

i'm occasionally unintentionally taking a deep shaky breath but sitting on the ground is helping. i have to get up soon to go to bio, i decided to go cause it's cold in there and that will help, there's not gonna be that many people there.

Alright! Good luck, if you need any help, I'm here

thank you. same for you.

(:

if you need me tonight i'll be at my audition and then my choir banquet but i will be back later. i hope you're doing well

Ty, you too. Good luck with the audition!

i'm so so so sorry