My parents and I have recently been getting into multiple huge fights, and things are breaking between us. I feel like we both have some big problems, and I don’t know how can I deal with all of it. It’s starting to overwhelm me, and my studies, social life, and mental health are starting to make a beeline for the worse. For some background info, im 14 right now, and I self diagnosed with bipolar disorder( I just realized that, after a friend talked to me about whether or not I have bipolar, and I found out I have all of the symptoms ). I have issues with productivity, and my parents are having absolutely none of it. They are traditional eastern parents, and they expect a lot of me, especially since im going to an expensive and very high standard international school. They have a lot of goals and agendas for me, and expect me to go on forever completing thing after thing nonstop, and even after I have achieved a lot and is proud of myself, they still devalue my efforts and tell me im not doing enough. also, they never care about my mental health. They only care about themselves, and do their oh-so-tragic speeches to me about how im PUAing them into believing I am ACTUALLY WORKING HARD. As I said, my productivity is not exactly thee highest, and when I do things, o usually waste about 1/4th of my time, but im totally fine with that, and I don’t see any problems with that happening. But my parents do. And they yell and scold me repeatedly about it, but I don’t and couldn’t stop. They took away all my electronics, and even went as far as making me record down the time. And here is where the chaotic part kicks in. I would say that im really good at lying, and well, ‘cunning’. I always found ways to break into my electronics, time after time, by using different techniques. And every time my parents find out, I get screamed at. But I done feel bad, or sorry. I feel like it’s totally their fault.so I continue. It’s been making my life harder and harder, and I hate all the inconveniences that are coming from it. When my dad yells at me, I sometimes feel bad and even remorseful, but my mom is a total bitch who does not care about my feelings at all, and these situations have brought me to absolutely despise her. I’ve hd multiple thoughts about suicide, and I just keep myself locked into the bathroom until they pass, then come out. I also text my best friend way too much because I NEED the emotional support from her, and I need to have someone to talk to. It’s the only way I can hold on. I don’t know whose problem it is in the parent situation, or how to solve it, and I really need to know.