I used to have a pet one, they are cute!

Really? That's awesome, yes they are adorable

Can I ask why you were asking?

Because my friend says they're disgusting pests and I'm trying to prove to her that everybody thinks they're adorable

Well mine itches off their ears so they weren't as cute as whe. We got them

oh dang

That's good! I'm getting my first one this sunday

Hii

Hello!

How have you been?

Pretty well, you?

That's good, I'm also pretty good

That's awesome!

That is funny, how old is ur brother?

11

I assumed he was like 7 or 8. Lol

lol i do have a 7 yo brother too

Pretty good, my family baked a lot for a mother's day get together tomorrow. How are you doing?

That's good, that sounds fun. I'm also good. We are on vacation for mothers day and we went to go get lunch and there was a full blown german festival going on so that was awesome, and it was so fun.

That sounds pretty cool!

It was epic

Were did you go on vacation to?

Well I'm not gonna say the town or whatever bc from that information you could probably figure out exactly where I live but it was somewhere in Washington still (took 5 hours to drive there from my house and it was fun)

I get it. That does sound fun though

Yeah. It was until my brother fell off his bunk bed and kicked my brother in the nose and broke his nose and woke everyone up at 2 am lol

Oh no, js he okay?

Yeah he's fine lol

I honestly don't know. This is like my worst case scenario of what might happen. I would probably tell your dad that you want to be treated the same as if you hadn't been suicidal. If you want to get out of therapy, maybe you could tell the therapist that it is making it worse. A good therapist wouldn't do something h that makes it worse, so they might tell your parents to pull you out of therapy. If that doesn't work, remember that when you are 18, your parents can't make you go to therapy, so depending on your age you would only have so many years left. Also, you can just protest your therapy by being silent the entire time. That is probably what I would do. If you need anything, you can email me whenever, my emails in my bp description. I will probably respond quick because I don't have any true friends. I hope this helps

BTW, if you do email me, you can be sure I'm not some creep cause honestly, if ur gonna make a fake account, you could make the backstory better than mine. I don't know if ur a creep, but i'll take my chances, cause u seem like a good person:)

I have told the therapist that it's making it worse, she said "yeah, being in therapy when you don't want to isn't fun, it's a waste of time for you and for me. but your parents seem pretty determined to keep you in it." which they are, so. And it only makes it worse because they make me talk about everything and I don't want to. I'm 14, so thats like 4 years. That's a good idea. I don't like seeming rude so I would probably crack and talk at some point. Well thanks, but as I told my friend over email, my mom now checks my emails, she doesn't like the thought of me talking to people i dont know irl, if I were allowed to email people I would have my email in my own description. If you stay on BP for like another 4 years, I'll email you when I'm 18. Thank you, you also seem like a good person :) And I promise I'm not a creep, I can not lie for the life of me.

By the way. I chickened out of telling my parents yesterday. I wrote the note though.https://photos.app.goo.gl/ddZdQafwFWzwyTDc7

When I'm 17, I'll look for your email. We should keep talking on bored panda though. Does she check your texts too?

Okay. She does check my texts, she actually gets alerts when I text a new person and asks me about them, if she doesn't know them, she flips out. Yes we should totally keep talking on bored panda, i like talking to you. and that's a really well written note, and it's okay that you chickened out, take as long as you need.

Well, I've already taken two years so maybe I shouldn't take much longer. I am really sorry about ur mom, I don't know how I would stand that. Although it's not like I really text or message anyone anymore

well maybe. It's alright, not your fault. She's done it since I got my phone, so I'm used to it. Yeah I don't really message anyone anymore other than my girlfriend, all my friends are mad at me :/

Why would they be mad at you? you seem like a great person to be friends with

They're mad at me for being mad at my friend who told my mom. I blew up on her and told her about how I lost all trust I had for her and she went and told all my other friends and now everyone's ignoring me.

Honestly, I don't see how they could be mad at you. It seems like if they should be mad at someone it would be the snitch friend

Ikr, but they all like her more than me i guess. like, i even said sorry and she said she forgives me, and i sent screenshot evidence to my other friends that she forgave me and they didn't respond, they just left me on read.

That's rude of them. How do you see if something g is read? I can't do that?

They have to turn on their settings, if they turn on the thing that says to let people see when they've read the message, you can see, there's not anything you personally can do about it

Oh, that makes sense

Hii

How are you?

Hi

I'm actually pretty good today, how are you?

Today js pretty good for me but I still haven't told them, I think my mom k ows something is up though.

I was thinking about telling my brother first, but idk if I should

Well, moms do tend to know when somethings up. You could tell your brother, I was gonna try to give you advice but I don't know your brother. My brothers aren't great secret keepers so I don't tell them stuff before I tell my parents but if yours is that might be a good idea.

Yeah, I don't know ow if I should cause the other day I was hinting that something was wrong and he was like joking about depression and anxiety, but I've told him secrets before, I just don't know if he's changed

Hm. If you feel like you can trust him with it, then go for it.

I think I'll show him the note to my parents to tell him. BTW are things any better with your parents or friends?

Totally random, but I wish we could meet someday like at least on a video chat. Like it's kinda wierd that we are like telling each other secrets, but we don't even know what we look like. I guess that's what's cool about BP though

Okay, sounds good. Things are better with my parents but not my friends. Also, yeah I wish we could meet someday too. Maybe someday we could do a zoom or something, I feel like that'd be easy to set up. Yeah, it is kinda weird but it's cool. Yeah. Btw, sorry about late replies, I am doing schoolwork and scrolling through bp lol

Yea, I'm doing Spanish for school. Would ur parents catch u on the zoom though?

Nice, I wish I could do spanish in school. I'm doing math. And not if I do it during one of my classes, we have optional zooms and they're not allowed into my room during them because sometimes I am. And they'd think it was my school zoom. I have a class in 10 minutes, we could do it then if you wanted, but if not its totally fine lol

That's genius, yes we should do it. You can put a link here whenever it works for you

Hi! One of my friends stopped ignoring meeee

Yay, that's good!

Yesss!

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Ikr, okay one sec let me get an ID and password

Yeah.

I'm sorry things got worse. I don't really know what's going on but maybe your mom is good with it but has trouble with change. Also, I've never dated so I don't know what it's like, but breakups probably suck, but you'll probably be able to move on eventually. Also, I heard somewhere that it was better that you dated and had good times, but broke up rather than not dated. I don't know if that makes sense to you, but I think it's just saying at least there was the good times. I'm glad you found good music, I know that can really help!

yeah but anyways, i dont mean to bring down the mood. what have you been up to?

I care more about you than the mood, but if you don't want to talk, I understand. I've been crocheting a lot, right now I'm making a bucket hat for my sister. I've also got and been testing out makeup, and that's pretty fun. Also, what are some of the songs you like? I'd love to listen to them?

thats sweet of you. that sounds fun, ive never tried makeup before. at least not how i want. my mom likes to put mascara and eyeshadow on me but all i want to try is eyeliner. and the songs i like arent the most appropriate so be warned lmao, but i just have a playlist of songs i like ( https://open.spotify.com/playlist/2lUgX2FrIxvCz6ZzyHGU5c if youre wondering) but some of my favorites (which are not necessary screamo but some of them are) are Sarcasm by Get Scared, Turbulent by Waterparks. EAT SPIT! by slush puppy and royal & the serpent, Dont You Dare Forget The Sun by Get Scared, I'll sleep when I am dead by Set It Off, and Riot by Hollywood Undead

Eyeliner is one of my favorite makeup because there is so many styles of it. I have so many kinds and colors. Thanks for the music, I will definitely listen, but I can't right now, I'm about to have a cello lesson

Also, if you are comfortable, do you want to chat on a messaging platform? it's kinda hard for me to find our conversation in all the comments

depends what messaging platform. i dont have my phone. i dont have my computer. all i have is my school chromebook, and i cant do much on that.

Email, or Google chat would work for me, you?

neither works for me, sorry. my parents monitor anything to do with my email. bye bye, have a good time.

Oh, ok. This is good then 🙂

ok wow boredpanda made me make a whole new acc bc my school emails name got changed my god im a little pissed about that i was in the top 1% and had 184 followers

That's a lot of followers! Sorry you lost it

yup. how are you today?

I'm pretty good, but finals are next week and I am really stressed about that. How was your day?

ah im sorry dude, that sucks. i hope your finals go well. my day was not the best lol it was just stressful and i was upset most of the day and idk

Also, am following your Spotify now, I really like your hot gay villan vibes playlist

i saw lmao, and im glad. thats one of my favorite playlists i have

I hope the rest of your day is better, what's stressing you out?

theres this kid in my grade named AJ who pisses me off SO MUCH dude, he called our lunch table (which is just the queer kids) the "loser table" because hes so f*****g mature like that, so we all asked to be let out of class 2 minutes earlier than normal so we could go and sit at his table to force him to go sit at the "loser table" and he got pissed and tried to make "peace offerings" and gave us like 3 corndogs and when we didnt want his f*****g corndogs he kneed me in the back, then i just walked into class and put my backpack on my chair, and left it for two seconds and he lifts it up and goes "WHOS BACKPACK IS THIS" and i snatched it back cuz i dont want him to touch my backpack and i went "its mine, dont f*****g touch it" and he goes "woooooooooah girlie watch your language there hahahahah" and i just glared at him and then he left the class and my teacher comes over to me and goes "i get it. he pisses me off too." so at least SOMEONE agrees that hes an idiot.

He sounds really horrible to be around. I don't know if there's anything you can actually do about his annoyingness, but you might be able to get him to stop bothering you if he knows that he's not gonna get a reaction, he probably is just looking for attention. Honestly, if I were you, I would prank him somehow but not that you could get in trouble for (glitter is always good, except if you make a mess in the school)

like i dont hate many people but i absolutely DESPISE this kid

he upsets me so much to the point where i nearly cry when i talk to him

There was a guy like that in one of my classes a few years ago. He made fun of lgbtqia people, made everyone except his annoying friends uncomfortable, and other general assholery. He was usually not rude to me in specific, but really upset me. I'm kinda the silent scary girl, so I just kept glaring at him whenever he did something rude. Also, I watched a ridiculous movie about a dog with his name, which helped me because when he made me uncomfortable, I pictured him as the funny dog and it made me see him as less powerful over me.

yeah. thanks. i just avoid him when i can.

im less upset at him now cuz i havent seen him since friday.

That's good, how was your weekend?

decent. how was yours?

Pretty good, mostly studying got finals

i hope your finals go well

Thanks

ofc. how are you today?

s**t s**t s**t i started crying in the middle of the class and the teacher had me go to the nurse and there were so many teachers in there this is my worst nightmare its been 30 minutes and i still havent stopped crying and my head hurts so much

and i cant even go to the person who i usually go to because im crying because of them

Why were you crying? Is there anything I can do to make you feel a bit better?