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I’m Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

My partner and I have been documenting daily life with a terminal illness through Instagram without the filters and mushy inspo-porn. I’m brutally honest and open with my photos, revealing aspects of a disabled person’s life that you don’t often hear about.

I’m Holly Warland, a 27-year-old woman from Australia and I have a rare disease called Limb Girdle Muscular Dystrophy. LGMD involves the gradual deterioration of all my muscles from the chin down leaving me predominantly bed bound, reliant on care and basically living with a death sentence.

I was diagnosed at 11 but led a mostly typical life with great support from family and friends. I worked hard getting my Bachelors and Honours in Psychology and had planned my life around my doctorate; I wanted to be Dr. Warland by 25. I was halfway through my Ph.D. in neuroscience when I noticed my physical strength diminishing.

In 2016 I had to pull out of my Ph.D. studies as well as give up my beloved teaching job at my university. Every day I began waking up to waves of nausea, a racing pulse, sore muscles, hyperventilation, and uncontrollable shaking. My life was thrown into chaos. As my condition worsened, I found a real lack of true representation of severe disability. It seemed like every social media personality with a disability fell into the category of ‘inspirational.’ Worse still, the fitness blogs posting inspo-porn memes of amputees with captions like ‘GET AFTER IT!’ and ‘WHAT’S YOUR EXCUSE?’ Gross.

I couldn’t relate to that strong woman bullcrap, so my partner Luke (who is also my full-time carer and a part-time photo/videographer) and I decided to take some photos of my naked body and post them online so people could see the whole real story a disability has on the human body. The response I got was encouraging (and relatively non-creepy) and spurred me to share some more of the intimate parts of disabled life.

Most of the photos come with a backstory or a musing on an issue from my crippled point of view. Luke catches me at my best and worst; from fancy dinners to vomiting in the shower, nothing is sugar-coated. I’ve reached thousands of people around the world and have been given the opportunity to advocate for issues close to my heart.

What started as a way for a bored, bed bound cripple to vent her frustrations and clear the air on a few topics has turned into a window for those who may never encounter a deadly disease in the wild.

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I wanted to show more of this darker and more honest side to disability, so my partner and I have been documenting my daily life

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I have a rare condition called Limb Girdle Muscular Dystrophy. It involves the gradual deterioration of all my muscles from the chin down leaving me predominantly bed bound and reliant on care.

I figure if people are going to stare at me, make them laugh. I’ve always tackled things with humor and a sprinkling of pessimism. I know that doesn’t sound healthy, but it’s impossible to feel positive and ‘inspirational’ when you have a degenerative condition with no cure in sight. Things are literally only going to get worse. I wanted to show more of this darker and more honest side to disability.

Luke: a partner, a carer, a cat-wrangler. I’m convinced some philanthropist is paying him millions to make my final years the happiest they can be

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

This is Luke; my photographer, partner, carer, kitty dad, and an all-around incredible human.

He’s the one behind the scenes of every one of these pictures. He never leaves my side, regardless of my mental or physical condition.

I’m convinced some philanthropist is paying him millions to make my final years the happiest they can be. There is no other explanation because just look at him. He’s gorgeous, loves cats, and gives great massages.

I love him with all my brain.

I used to be unstoppable. I was halfway through my neuroscience Ph.D. specializing in ASD children’s ability to read facial expressions when my MD exacerbated

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

Giving a speech at a conference, pre-bodily breakdown.

I’m not humble about my achievements because I feel proud of the obstacles I overcame to achieve what I did

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

Presenting my Honors thesis (also pre-BB).

I’d present at conferences about my research, be on science panels, teach at my university, and write academic articles.

Now it’s gone. But I’ve realized I stressed my whole life over a piece of paper. I went straight from high school onto seven years of university. I worked my crippled arse off, and now I have no future to use my skills.

It’s hard to let go of your entire life plan but also oddly satisfying.

This photo was taken a few months before everything went downhill

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I felt happy and healthy and had the strength to do fun things like go out to dinner or concerts.

As well as dealing with physical problems, I also had to come to terms with my loss of autonomy. I can’t be spontaneous anymore; everything has to be planned. People have to work around me and how my body has decided to feel on any given day.

I used to be well enough for a weekly walk

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

Now, it’s been long 4 years of hospital visits

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

My condition is so rare that when I tell the doctors what’s wrong with me, I’m often left with blank stares. It’s not the doctor’s fault; I just feel like every time I am there for treatment. I’m also a mini sideshow for medical students.

This is one of many hospital visits. But due to the freezing temperatures, they keep hospitals in I’m better off at home self-medicating. I can’t make my own body heat so you can cover me in blankets, but I won’t warm up without an external heat source.

Life in bed is not a dream come true

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

As aforementioned, I’m basically bed bound. I can get up periodically to go to the toilet or have a shower but it takes a lot of energy, and I’m often left gasping for breath. I know living in bed might sound like a dream to some but think about how bored you get after a week at home with the flu and just pretend that’s forever.

When I’m not trying to manage my pain or other physical maladies I’m watching TV, snoozing, or reading. Because of all the medication, I’m on; it’s very difficult for me to concentrate so I can’t even keep myself busy with writing or working online. I feel my once alert and task orientated brain is turning to mush.

Even showers can be tiring, but at least no one can see your tears

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

A shower for me is simultaneously heart racing and relaxing. I sit in a specialized chair and with my right hand can direct the water. It makes my heart race because I’m sitting up using strength to hold my back and neck up. Luckily the glass acts as a head and shoulder rest. But the hot water also relaxes my muscles, so it’s not an entirely negative experience.

This has nothing to do with nudity by the way. Luke caught me having a shower rest and figured it’d show another glimpse into the experience that is being Holly with the MD.

At the doctor’s; my second home

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I had to have a difficult conversation with my doctor about how I’m petrified of becoming addicted to painkillers but need to increase my dosage due to my dip in strength and mobility now. I shed a few tears, and he calmly explained that because of my condition, I was only going to get worse and there’s no possible treatment, so I am kind of allowed to become addicted because there’s essentially nothing to lose. Of course, he said it more professionally; he wasn’t advocating pill addiction!

Tonight I’ll go to bed and congratulate myself for making it through the day. I can’t spiral

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

Pale, sweaty, and mid-vomit: a daily occurrence.

This day was quite sh*t if I’m going to be eloquent. This pic is mid dry heaving. Then 5 minutes later I’ll get the chills. It’s bloody miserable, but I feel so grateful to have such amazing medicine available and that Luke was with me through every part. He literally sat and read a book next to me while I went through the motions.

Every time I get sick like this, it makes me appreciate ‘normal’ days. I try my hardest not to let this affect me mentally. I can’t spiral.

I have had to come to terms with the fact that I will never get better and that I have to just get through each day

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I like to think the expression on my face sums up how fed up I felt that particularly bad day.

We see a lot of pictures of sick people battling acquired diseases like cancer, but most of these afflictions either kill you or you ‘recover,’ so although the suffering may be great, it’s relatively quick.

We’re all brought up to believe in hope, and that life will improve, it’s hard to be in a position where that’s unachievable.

I’m angry at you. I’m jealous. I want your sh*tty life. Because you have a life. It’s hard to cry with tubes up your nose

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

Today I was just angry. Furious that able-bodied, well people complain about things in their lives. If you have a working body and mind, you can CHANGE things. So many people take their autonomy and body for granted. I can’t muster up sympathy for someone who doesn’t try. Who holes themselves up inside. You need to help yourself. Stop whining and be proactive. Lonely? Join a group that engages in your favorite hobbies. Unhealthy/overweight? Change your habits. Feeling down? Go for a walk in the sun.

I’m not trying to simplify depression or real problems, but YOU CAN CHANGE. I can’t. I’m stuck. I’m pissed off. My body dictates my day/life. I’m not inspirational when I tell you to get off the couch and stop feeling sorry for yourself. I’m angry at you. I’m jealous. I want your sh*tty life. Because you have a life.

I’m old enough to vote, drink, drive a car, and have a baby, so why can’t I control when I have a nice peaceful passing?

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I have been given the opportunity to advocate for issues close to my heart. One of these issues is the legalization of Voluntary Assisted Dying in my state. The unfortunate reality for me is that this condition will eventually make life unbearable for me and I want a safe and reliant option to end my life when I am ready. I never thought this was an issue I would become so passionate about, but when I stopped to think about it, it’s my only humane option. I could wait until I die naturally, but that might be decades of more pain and suffering.

I work with a group called Dying with Dignity Queensland to convince and work with politicians to pass fair and merciful voluntary assisted dying laws.

Not all frowns and clouds

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I’m a self-proclaimed crazy cat woman. They are the perfect companions for someone stuck in bed all day

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

I have two cats: Ragnar (featured) and Whiskey. They are the perfect companions that provide great entertainment and love.

Everyone knows how much I adore cats and all my birthday and Christmas gifts are usually cat themed. If I could work in an office, I’d be the lady with cat pictures and figurines everywhere.

Luke always cheers me up – even when I’ve had my blood drained, my pee stolen, and deadly x-rays blasted on my internal organs

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

Puns make life fun.

Still a little fighting spirit left!

I'm Documenting Myself Slowly Dying From A Rare Disease To Show Why Euthanasia Should Be Legalized

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LiveEclectic 6 years ago

God damn. Thank you for that dose of honesty. You deserve to be angry at at all of us who live our lives without thinking you exist and who waste so much of our time feeling f*****g sorry for ourselves. For what it's worth, I am certain your contribution to the field of autism will pave the way for many, especially in such a specialized yet crucial area. And your post has made at least one person re-evaluate their existence.You and Luke are amazing human beings who exemplify what it means to fight, and what it means to stand by someone unconditionally. Fight on sister, I'm so grateful that you are a part of my reality now. Thank you for this post, and as long as you're able, please continue to share your unique wisdom with the rest of us. It is a fresh taste of realness in a more and more out of touch world.

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Natalie Parsons 6 years ago (edited)

Carol Emory accuses people of not reading the post while NOT reading the post. Imagine that.

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Marnee DeRider 6 years ago

It is completely understandable for the OP to be angry with us. And overall, I love this post. However, you can't compare pain. If someone was horribly neglected and abused all their life, for example, their brain has very, very likely not formed the same pathways as someone with a healthy upbringing. And that faulty brain, like any other organ, can cause someone who looks healthy otherwise, to be unable to do what might benefit them, to make it difficult to make friends, difficult to make the decision to get out, etc. To say that someone who isn't dying should just do everything and stop whining is like saying someone should never complain about anything because children are starving in China. I was not abused as a child, but I have ASD, and that is a problem with a brain I can't fix with a wave of my wand. And it prevents me from going out and living life. Also prevents me from getting help for that. Haven't had a friend since 1998. I'll never be married. I'm jealous.

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Nancy Tilton Pope 6 years ago

Carol Emory. College and PHD is to her what backpacking is to you. A decrees is the meaning of life for her. She just wanted more time to pursue her goals.My idea of the meaning of life is completely different than yours or hers and that's okay. We are all different.

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Lucinda Overhoussen 6 years ago

A boy at school had terminal brain cancer and got the best exam results in school the year he died. He didn't live long enough to get his GCSE results. He knew he wasn't going to recover yet spent his last months studying. It wasn't wasted. He wanted to live up to the potential that he had, there is something noble about that. He also made his family so proud. You have 5 times more years and you probably don't achieve half as much as they have done. All our lives are extremely short in the grand scheme of things and yet in that short time you can achieve amazing things or your life can fizzle and you will have spent your life backpacking and doing the minimum and regretting not having done more. If you feel that that is the way to live the do so, but to claim that someone else's achievements is wasted is a terrible insult. When the spotlight is shone on your life. What glittering wonderful achievements have you achieved will achieve with your comparatively long and healthy life?

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Mals Winter 6 years ago

Carol Emory can't even empathize with a disabled person. That's just messed up.

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K. LNU 6 years ago

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Labrador 6 years ago

This post makes me want to get off my a*s and do something, honestly this made me so much more grateful for everything I have

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Amy 6 years ago

Me too - suddenly feeling guilty for every opportunity I've wasted.

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trix 6 years ago

It's too sad that we need to be reminded of what blessings we have that we take for granted.

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Magpie 6 years ago

Please write a letter to your local politician, perhaps your local medical association, perhaps your prime minister.

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diane a 6 years ago (edited)

Nobody should be forced unwilling to continue on with a condition becoming utterly unendurable, no quality of life and which will only get worse. We are humane to suffering animals and should extend those same rights to people. Those with incurable degeneratve conditions should have the right to pass peacefully at a time of their choosing when things reach a certain point. I dislike the term Euthanasia in relation to people though. It has too much connotations on animals, who have no say" being "put to sleep".

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Freya the Wanderer 6 years ago

To those who parrot the same old stale bromides about the value of human life, I say: Trade places with someone like Holly. Experience what he/she is going through. Don't judge somebody till you have walked from dawn to dusk in his/her moccasins.

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Noemie Hefti 6 years ago

I have CRPS since 8 years. And I'm bedridden almost every day now too since the docs are taking my painmeds away and the disease is spreading further and further, killing me one day with multiple organ failure (unless I get killed by a car when I'm on my way to doctors with my wheelchair). I know how hard it is to shower or do daily things. How much strength it takes to even smile some days! And I have to say: I admire your bravery to show it so honestly and pure! You're a hero in my eyes! Thank you for that so much!! Also your partner is amazing! He's another hero! It takes a lot of strength from him too! And it just shows how deep his love for you is! Seeing that gave me back my hope that there are good guys out there! Thank you for this post!

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Apollo 6 years ago

I don't understand why your painmeds are taken away. It just sounds so awful that you don't even have the opportunity to numb the pain.

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SirWriteALot 6 years ago

How do you go on? I admire your strengh!

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Nancy Tilton Pope 6 years ago

Good God !! Why are they taking your medication away? Can't you find a different doctor maybe? There has to be someway you can protect yourself against something so inhumane??

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Hseed 6 years ago

I find this situation completely unfair. For me it's an easy statement: when your body is completely fine and operational, you get to decide if you want to jump off a bridge to end what you're convinced is a s****y life. Why this people, that are completely capable of making decisions, and have really good points to end their lives, don't get to decide? I would like to think my life is mine, but it seems is not that way. I wish this girl the best of lucks, taking this word with the meaning she wishes the most. PS: my father died two days ago from a similar situation. So I know what I'm talking about

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Daria B 6 years ago (edited)

I don't doubt you know what you're talking about. However, I'd like the raise the question: are depressed people really capable of making decisions, or is it really a crippling and deadly disease as much as cancer? Let's think about it. Usually cancer, when detected early enough, can be treated. That doesn't mean, however, that once you get rid of it, you're cured for good, as cancer can return. On the other hand, cancer makes your body deteriorate into a painful death when it goes untreated. All of these things apply to depression as well.

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Kelly 6 years ago

Life is not fair. Me too (cancer, fighting, hoping) wonder why and envy a normal, simple life as it was before. I wish Luke, the cat and you all the best and I wish I could really hug you. Give us some of your bravery and spirit!

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Lilly 6 years ago

Heartfelt wishes that Luke (& other family & friends) are able to make your remaining days the best they can be. Good for you for being a fighter!

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Bobbi Newell 6 years ago

As an Oregon resident, I fully support voluntary euthanasia, and voted for our Death With Dignity bill twice - once to enact it, and once again a couple years later to uphold it. We have the ability to extend life, but there are so many things we just can't cure. Palliative care goes only so far, terminally ill patients suffer horribly with few options as a result, and at that point the laws banning physician assisted suicide add insult to injury. I have heard every argument against euthanasia, including the one that it's amoral. To me, it's abominable to make a person live with daily agony knowing that they'll never get better. You wouldn't do that to your dog or cat, but somehow it's ok for the person you love.

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Cassie 6 years ago

My mother took three years to die of cancer. Three long torturous years she suffered. We're willing to put dogs down to protect them from suffering, but we often won't allow the same for our fellow human beings.

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BusLady 6 years ago

I'm so sorry for her suffering, Cassie. It's always hard on the loved ones as well. You also suffered. 😢

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Bogawlagabreath 6 years ago

I can't express how sad it makes me. You are supported by a beautiful soul. Love and peace to you and your soulmate.

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Naomi Armitage 6 years ago

Amazed by this woman's courage and thankful for her brutal honesty. WAY too many times, no matter what the situation, people try to sugar-coat it with all the "inspo-porn" (I learned a new term today!), and as someone who has several issues, this always nauseates me, too. What's wrong with being brutally honest and admitting that yes, sometimes life really does suck? At least in my case, I know my situations (and most of yours out there) will improve, so I have much less reason to whine than the OP. Just praying she eventually finds the relief and peace she desperately needs, and thankful she's got such an amazing man by her side (where ARE they growing these men, and where can I find one??).

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Apollo 6 years ago

I hate the whole inspo-porn too. Suddenly it has become a taboo to be anything else than extremely happy. Nobody has a life that's only amazing. Looking at all these fake 'I'm 100% of the time happy-pics' make people feel bad about their own lives.

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Rik Khaos 6 years ago

Hi holly, my wife just shared this with me. I’m sorry to hear how things have progressed. I saw and imedately recognized you from a forum we both used to visit YT. I wish you the best and hope you are able to get the peace you deserve. -rik khaos

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Holly Warland (Post author) 6 years ago

Hi Rick! Blast from the past!

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Molly Block 6 years ago

I know how it feels to want something, and to work so hard for so many years, only to face that reality that your desire to contribute to our world and its people will come to fruition. It's a loss comparable to losing someone so close to you, suddenly. The best place to cry IS in the shower. No one seers your tears, the sniffles can be washed down the drain, and you can always say your red face was due to a very hot shower. I feel your pain. You are so brave. Most people don't realize what it's like to have no other options left, other than the reality of dying, because you inherited a faulty gene. Be strong, and thank you for sharing your heart and soul with us.

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yikes 6 years ago

she's so beautiful and strong and powerful. it hurts to see the way that the world treats some people, but she is making light of it, and lives everyday to the fullest. its amazing, how people can preserve through hard times and this amazing woman is an example of it.

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Dian Ella Lillie 6 years ago

Everyone should have the right to die with dignity, on their own terms. If anyone wants to eschew this right they should be welcome to do so, but not to put their own fear of mortality onto others and force them to live in suffering and abject distress. I've watched loved ones die this way, and there is no reward at the end. It doesn't "build character", it doesn't give them a lovely sense of "well done you" at the end, it's just inhumane misery. A dignified, peaceful and painless death when a person chooses to die is the best gift we can give people at the ends of their (OUR!) lives.

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Lara Sommer 6 years ago (edited)

I Wish you best luck with What you left fighting for. I can Imagine your pain and really Wish you AS many regular and good days as possible. I have a dying bone in My feet and Arthrose in The Same Leg and therefore im Just able to Walk with crunches Most of The time. I feel miserabel about that and Often so Jealous at Others people. I completly can Imagine your Feelings. I Hope you dont missunderstand My saying AS comepting cause i dont. I Just Reader your Artikel and was Like, Oh i know those Feelings. Greetings. Write to me If you Like. I would bei Happy

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John Hermanson 6 years ago

Holly- Thanks for your effort to be visible and reach out to express yourself as you are. Your vulnerability, honesty and courage to face your options which includes your right to a merciful passing is inspirational. Your plight is close to me. My sister Kathy Huser passed away from ALS July 4th which in the USA is Independence Day. Our family and her friends have an expanded meaning to this holiday as Kathy's day of independence from her suffering. She lived in Colorado where they have a "Right to Die" law. She did not choose to do this in part because her Palliative Care Physician said that the difficulty and emotional toll may not be worth it to Kathy. She said that in the end she could provide enough medications that she could pass comfortably. Whether she did is questionable and at sometime i plan to further study what is know about the experience she may have gone through. In any case I am glad that she had some choice and that the state of Colorado acknowledged

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girlonfire783 6 years ago

Sorry about your sister. We don't have a law covering "death with dignity" where I am but as they are both passed now, it doesn't matter... When my mother-in-laws father was passing (like he was on the edge and had been on hospice care at home with visiting nurses for some time) they had instructed MIL to call them when his respiratory rate got to a certain rate per min or hour (I forget, it's been a while) and then they instructed her to administer a morphine injection "for his pain" (enough to slip him off into a nice forever sleep, painlessly - they all knew this beforehand). He was gone in minutes instead of what would have been agonizing hours of painful respirations, etc. People should have control over their own body. I myself have two incurable auto-immune diseases that are degenerative and other painful illnesses that like to tag along with them just for fun... If it got to the point where I felt I had no quality of life whatsoever, I'd end it in a heartbeat.

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Zet 6 years ago

i feel so sad to know that there are people wo would prefer to die but legally can't end their lives... as a swiss citizen where euthanasia is legal i completely support the extreme cases that are not correlated with mental problems. stay strong girl!

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Cat 6 years ago

My nan went into coma after a stroke and was cared for in bed for close to 7 years. She was well looked after but it wasn't life. Half way through that, my dad sat me and my sister down, and told us specifically that if he fell into a coma, let him go. I'm with him on that decision. I've always led an active life, if something terrible happened and I had to rely on others entirely, I'd like to have the option to exit the world. It's about having the right to decide one's own path.

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Bored Fox 6 years ago

It is sad that euthanasia is not legal in most countries. I remember several years ago when my granny said that if she gets Alzheimer's other severe health issues when she gets older she does not want to spend rest of his life in a nursing home - she would rather die. And now she has Alzheimer's and she is living in a nursing home and does not understand much what is happening around her. :(

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Slune 6 years ago

So sorry. In case of Alzheimer or other hopeless health issues it should be a human rights to choose your time to leave the earth and die in dignity! In this regard Switzerland is very advanced .There are organizations like Dignitas and Exit who guide trough euthanasia.

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Rachel Egan 6 years ago

Thank you so much for sharing this. I know it isn't the same, but my mum is very severely disabled by MS; she cannot speak or write, walk, stand or sit up and struggles to swallow sometimes (she is tube fed). I find it so hard that there is so little awareness of this level of disability, and such animosity towards euthanasia. I wish you all the very best and hope you find a little happiness in every day and I do hope once day that people have the right to die with dignity and their friends and family around them, with all the proper safeguards in place. xx

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Fairsher 6 years ago

Makes me even more thankful we have Assisted Death here where I live. Everyone should have the right to choose a peaceful passing, as part of their advance directive . We have a wonderful Dr. and nurses who provide this service with compassion and love.

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Mad Mar 6 years ago

You are a beautiful person with a wonderful mind. If your choice to leave is legitimate then you should be able to make that call. Although in a positive kinda way, Stephen Hawkin led a long life in a chair and still was a great mind. If you still can share your brain, I'd say hang on. If the pain is too much then you should prepare all your documents and then ask your s/o to see what or where you could go to peaceful leave your pain. But if you could use your mind a little long, you might create something to leave that changes the world. Much love and thank you for sharing.

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LeAnna Lukas 6 years ago

I do believe there should be a time and a place for euthanasia. Like following anyone's end of life wishes. I u Der stand some of your suffering but not to that degree. You mentioned depression. I have felt trapped in my mind as you have in your body. Sometimes it takes every fiber in my being to get out of bed. I am so sorry for your diagnosis. I think people need to hear your message.

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Sj Peet 6 years ago

" Im angry at you. I'm jealous. I want your s****y life"... I balled when I read that. Shes so right ... I f****n thought my life was s**t but after ready this perspective... it really hits hard. Inspired <3 A wonderful of looking at life and death

7points

Ilir Toli 6 years ago

Your story made me think of everything i have and be able to do in my life. I hope u have a miracle from God to get healthy again.

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Larry XK 6 years ago

You and your partner are extraordinary Human beings.

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ulalume ulalume 6 years ago

thank you. massively.

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Elena Adams 6 years ago

I was just complaining to my boyfriend about how much I hate my job and said "whatever dude, f**k life anyway" and then I read this. And now I want to cry.

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Tyler Duffy 6 years ago

It's super sad for someone to think death is better than life. But sometimes it is. There are groups devoted to this called Right to Die groups. This shouldn't be taken lightly.

6points

Lena 6 years ago

wow... great article. this Girls Story is one of the many reasons i believe every human being should be able to decide for him or herself when and how they want to leave. as much as i agree with here, i don't agree with her Anger. how can anyone be angry towards other People lifing ? and no... you don't want my life. trust me. no, i'm not dying, no i'm not in a bed 24/7, and no i'm not on life Support or anything like this and yet... you don't want my life. trust me.

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Bobbi Newell 6 years ago

What makes her angry is that when MOST people complain, their problems are fixable. They have the choice to make a change and don't. Your situation, like hers, happened from circumstances beyond your control. I'm glad you're still fighting to go on. That's different from the social media whiners who are just looking for sympathy.

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Mariana Pinto 6 years ago

Thank you. And, also, I'm sorry...

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PyroarRanger 6 years ago

oh my god this is amazing and opens my eyes so much

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Raluca Andreea 6 years ago

Holly...Thank you for documenting this. Thank you!

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UnicornHuman 6 years ago

Such a fighter! Proud of you for sticking it out and urging and inspiring others to make the most of their lives. God bless :)

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Slune 6 years ago

Hello Holly, thank you for the deep, unvarnished post! I like the way you still have this strong attitude that shows the fighter in you.....and that smile! Except,of course, you felt miserable:(..... I like your T-shirts: Statements! I can totally understand your wrath against people who just "live along" without appreciating life.....it's so precious. Like your Luke and the cats! I wish you many "good"days and the option that you would be able to

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Slune 6 years ago

....make your own choice when it will be the right time to say adieu to Luke, familie, cats and all important and beautiful, unimportant and nasty things in your life. I keep my fingers crossed for the best for you. Your post left me shaken and after looking in your beautiful, strong eyes I will never ever be able to forget you!

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Peter Ager 6 years ago

I think you deserve to have your last remaining strength available to punch those politician's, who deny your right, right in the face. You deserve to end your life on your terms, no questions asked. You're living your life, on your own terms and while our politicians may be gutless, you're showing us all you're not. BTW, love the crazy cat lady tat on your shoulder. Dammit go girl!

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Ruby McDee 6 years ago

How wonderful would it be if we could choose to end our suffering and go out when life is good, instead of spending your final days debilitated and in pain? Kudos to you Holly for your fight for all of us.

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Michael Makovi 6 years ago

Thomas Szasz used to say that if you can't end your own life, then it isn't really your life. That is, you don't own yourself unless you can end yourself.

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Alyson Lovegrove 6 years ago

From this day, any dark day i have, i shall remember you. Any day i can push my self to do something, I'll remember you. Thank you for sharing your story on behalf of yourself and many others. Thank you for saving my life today. Thank you for perspective. Sending you, love, light and health ❤️

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Connie Smith 6 years ago

Thank you for making me get off my a*s and stop feeling sorry for myself. I needed a good a*s kicking. Thank you for posting your life for all of us to see and appreciate so we never forget how precious and beautiful life is if we just stop whining and get off the couch and live it. Love you young lady.

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Pascale Griffe 6 years ago

Holly, you are an impressive young woman. Not only for all your achievements, but especially for your wonderful spirit. Thank you for sharing your story. I send you hugs. May you find the peace you seek.

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Bari 6 years ago

"people battling acquired diseases like cancer but most of these afflictions either kill you or you ‘recover’, so although the suffering may be great, it’s relatively quick" Yikes. In the words of South Park, I'm gonna stay out of this one.

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Adi B. 6 years ago

I love you. I support you. Be strong, you'll live <3

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Petra Christovová 6 years ago

This is so messed up .. I wish there could be something done for the girl, other than assisted suicide. But the worst is the realisation that she can just choose between fast death and less fast and probably more painful death - no other alternative. I do not see euthanasia as inherently bad, if someone feels that the pain and suffering is unbearable and there is no chance then she/he should be helped. It is probably always choosing the lesser "evil".

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Amanda Panda 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing. I hope you get to choose your path.

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Miriam Vr 6 years ago

I completely and totally agree with the fact that we should be allowed to decide when to go when we can't get better. I had to watch my dad die slowly for 10 years and it was the cruelest thing you can do to a human being. He was on dialisis even when they knew he had no chance of getting a transplant, 10 years of that plus maaaaaaaany other issues. His last 2-3 years he wasn't even there, he was just a breathing corpse forced to go on. I really wish you get to decide when, where, how and with whom you want to just let go. I hope you have many not-so-bad days ahead.

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BusLady 6 years ago

I have to admire this woman's courage, and the dedication of her boyfriend. I believe Holly should have the choice to end her life when it becomes unbearable. If anyone is interested, there are some great books written by Dr. Elisabeth Kubler Ross. She spent her career working with people who were dying, and their loved ones. Fascinating subject. She worked with many people who were suffering, and just wanted it to be over. Assisted suicide was not an option.

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Chris Arnold 6 years ago

You are courageous beyond mere words. You are beautiful beyond your outer shell, brilliant, passionate and blatantly honest. You give so much gratitude to those aka Luke walking this journey with you. I pray that God grants you and yours mercy, comfort, peace and healing. I believe prayer is powerful and God hears all. Thank you for your posts I feel incredibly appreciative to you. This is real🌟

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Brigitta Swart 6 years ago

You are an amazing person. I am so sorry for your suffering

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Azure Adams 6 years ago

Awesome shoot and everything (except the disease, that sucks). Move to the US and to Oregon. It's legal there but there are many hurdles. Look up Brittany Maynard's case. Brave and love the simpsons crazy cat lady tattoo!

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M M 6 years ago

Dont let bureaucracy determine your fate. You'll need a bottle of grade A 99.5% purity nitrogen and a regulator. Also a plastic bay with a draw string. Attach the hose from the nitrogen to the bottom of the drawstring bag - make sure its airtight. Place the bag gently over your head and pull it down to the top of your upper lip. Tighten the bag slightly so it is sealed on your head. Slowly turn the rugulator so the nitrogen fills the bag. When you are ready, exhale completely and pull the bag down to your neck and tighten the drawstring. Wait a few seconds for the nitrogen to expel any remaining oxygen. Breathe deeply. It is that easy and simple. No more pain.

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Paula Pritchard 6 years ago

❤️❤️❤️

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Ohio Hands 6 years ago

The state and doctors shouldn't be involved in someone's choice to die. Do the research, find the best methods for a peaceful end, plan it and then at your choosing do it. If its YOUR life and YOUR choice, then its YOUR responsibility, not the state or a medical professionals. Involving third parties and seeking the blessing of the state isn't necessary nor is it moral, passing on that responsibility and acting as though you need the state to grant you a right is misguided. Sorry this response seems so void of emotion, but I think thats how these kinds of social/personal matters should be, emotions should not dictate law or morality.

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Catffirmations 6 years ago

Many of these patients are too ill to physically complete the acts necessary to end their lives. Additionally, since they are not medical professionals they may not have the access to the medicines to end their lives, nor would they be experienced in administering the medicine. If the patients were forced to do it for themselves then they may end up causing further harm (e.g. going into a vegetative state) without actually ending their lives as they wanted.

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Human 6 years ago

Wow.. Makes my "big" problems seem so small. I wish you the best of luck!

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Christina Sersif 6 years ago

Humble pie for breakfast

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Kate 6 years ago

Thank you so much for sharing!

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London River 6 years ago

You. Are. A. F*cking. Queen. A lot of people don't realise how lucky they are until they see someone worse than them. You deserve to be angry with us. You deserve to have happiness and Luke (which may be the same thing for you :)) and you deserve the whole f*cking world, because you are strong, you are resilient and everyone should see this and see how f*cking lucky they are. I mean, look at you! You were doing your phd, and look at how far you've gone! Keep being strong, and I'm so sorry that you're stuck in bed every day. It must be absolutely horrible to be sick everyday, and to be feeling like everyday is a marathon. Now I see why you have Bored Panda, it really is a buster for your boredom! You and Luke are beautiful human beans, and I wish you both (and that cats!) a happy life. They say live life to the fullest; well I bloody well think you're a perfect example of that.

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Mitsos Dream 6 years ago

You are a great person, helping others evaluate their life and fighting for your rights in life. You are also beautiful!! Greetings from Greece!

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K. LNU 6 years ago

I am all for assisted suicide, especially in cases like Holly's. There is no cure. Her progress is only going to get worse. Her quality of life is slowly and painfully going downhill. As many pointed out, we help animals - when they are in pain, beyond care, and there is no solution to make them better, why not people?

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Kiki 6 years ago

I find it outrageous that women can get abortions on the grounds of, "My body, my choice" but people cannot choose to end their own lives if they want.

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Cristi Beehn 6 years ago

This has been a topic of discussions for my sister and I for years. We will all die someday and I agree with the author. My grandmother lived for 15 years after a stroke. She had no idea who anyone was. She spent those years in a strangers house being cared for by the same. So unfair. My mom was blessed with a more rapid pace if decline. She mentally left us about 4 years before her passing.

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Ian Sirota 6 years ago

My heart goes out to this poor woman. She clearly deserves so much more from life, including the ability/right to end it on her own terms.

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Jaded Queen 6 years ago

Death is peaceful.

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Chrissy Core 6 years ago

Hi, Lots of comments here so not sure if this has been mentioned, my sister chose euthanasia herself last year and did it even without a life threatening illness. It is our human right to choose when we die and to die in peace. That is what Dignitas works to support for people globally: http://www.dignitas.ch/index.php?lang=en Maybe crowdsource fundraiser could help you with expenses i that is an issue

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Mascha Claessens 6 years ago (edited)

I knew someone who was in terrible pain daily, like you. She had a life long muscle disability which made her misarable. She was also happy, at times: she visited metal concerts (at which I saw her usually multiple times a year), she had friends. But also lots of physical ánd mental problems. She endured all of this, while she got worse and worse, but always stayed SO strong. Finally, it got too much. Luckily, we live in The Netherlands: you can get euthanization here, if you really only have a very painful future in your foresight. So finally she got her last wish: to sleep forever, when SHE wanted to, not when her body gave up. I really hope other countries get laws like this too. It's hard, and every case needs to be inspected very thoroughly, but it's possible, and I think also very desirable. You've seem to have been SO strong for SO long, and these pictures are beautiful. I think you (and anyone who only has a future filled with physical and/or mental pain) deserve to choose when enough's enough. Stay strong!

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Jodi Sonoda 6 years ago

As someone with a disease that causes extreme exhaustion struggles, I can only imagine what it must be like to know you’re not getting better. I can’t work right now, I’m on the edge of losing everything, and I’m mad too. Working on doing less self pitying but some days... lord some days. We all need a Luke in our lives. I’m glad you have someone who is truly by your side and supporting you. I hope when the time comes, you’re able to make the choice that is right for you and that your advocacy will help others who want that same choice. From one cat lady to another... I wish you freedom, in whatever form is best for you.

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Kiahna 6 years ago

Your story reminds me of mine. I didn't have a fatal disease though, an eating disorder. ARFID. I struggled with eating anything, I couldn't leave the house because I was terrified of everything. I was the size of a 6 year old at 14. I wanted to end my life too. Still do. Even though I can't even begin to imagine what you feel, I respect you. Even after all the s**t I've seen, it's not much compared to you. I hope you are able to have a peaceful and humane death.

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Christopher Lee 6 years ago

It was only when I saw you mention Dying with Dignity Qld and the Qld Health on the pillow I realized that you're right here in the 'sunshine state' - keep fighting for the right to die on your own terms because I want that very same right when my turn comes. It should be a basic human right - the right to choose the time and manner of their own exit from a life they no longer find valuable. After reading classical authors like Marcus Aurelius, Epictetus and Seneca my views have really crystalized - Musonius said: "Choose to die well while you can; wait too long, and it might become impossible to do so." So, we should all be able to choose the time and manner in which we face death. In fact, how do I/we assist this fight to change the law in Qld?

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Karasi Mills 6 years ago

Holy shirt, this sucks. Thank you for bearing honest witness to your journey. I really hope that your time is as alert and painless as possible. I will always vote in favor of assisted dying laws.

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Magpie 6 years ago

I know i don't understand how it feels. All I can do is listen. And hope with you. When I was a nurse I had faaaar tooo many people ask me " give me that injection the vets give." We are allowed to be kinder to our pets. Suicide is logical. More logical is to have sufficient medical help that is it quick, effective and painless. And you (anyone) can die in the arms of their loved ones. I also know that "thoughts and prayers" are NOT enough. Get up there readers, and write a letter to your relevant politicians.

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Antoni Salim 6 years ago

Really inspiring. Good job, good luck and remeber God always be with you.

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Krystalyn Jackson 6 years ago

Washington DC and the states of California, Colorado, Oregon, Vermont, Hawaii, and Washington 👈 all the places in the US where you can get assisted suicide...

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Dave H 6 years ago

I'd feel the same way you would. Nobody should force me to suffer if I don't need to. When there's no solution, you make your own solution, and you should have that solution. Your fighting spirit has shown you're getting out of life what you can, which was the point of keeping you alive to begin with. At this point the decision should be yours.

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Dominic Biondi 6 years ago

Wow wow wow...you are amazing, Girl. Keep fighting for what you want and what you believe. You rock, your cats rock (I have two, too!), and Luke rocks.

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Lana Belysheva 6 years ago

How unfair it is that such a beautiful feisty soul has to go through this pain.

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D Zavozin 6 years ago

Before I read all the comments, I knew what I'm going to see. And I knew the top comment all along. "Omg, we are so sorry for you" and "Omg, that makes me reevaluate my life and start doing more with it". Did you tho? Honestly. Did it??! You will forget about her in the next 10 min! But even if it did make you reevaluate, you're a sick person if you need to see someone dying the most horrible death to "start doing more with your life" - shame on you, I feel very sorry for a person like that!

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DrVarun Tyagi 6 years ago

Very well quoted man. ❤️

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Alyson Lovegrove 6 years ago

Any dark day i have, you'll be the first

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Louise Gerathy 6 years ago

What an inspiration you are. It's amazing how people take health and 'Normal' lives for granted. I know I'm guilty of it. I truly hope you get your peace and are allowed to leave this earth when and where you want to. We are allowed to let our animals go peacefully so why can't we do this as people? Huge love to you xxxxx

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artist-in-residence * (artist-in-residence) 6 years ago

Hey Holly, I'd love to write to you and chat if you ever wanted to, I will be here for you even if only over the net.

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Sick Boy 6 years ago

Crowdfund for a trip to Switzerland is what I'd suggest in case there are no other options!

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Grumble O'Pug 6 years ago

Heartbreaking

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Ginette Rochon 6 years ago

Very courageous girl!!

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katboxjanitor 6 years ago

This is an incredibly honest and thoughtful post. It makes me sad that choosing your own end of life is not an option legally in so many locations. I am fortunate that the state I live in in the US has a policy permitting the choice of ending the unendurable stages. The giant hole in the law is for individuals with conditions like hers with no ability to administer her own drugs. Death should be dignified and there isn't a cure on the immediate horizon. Hats off to Ms Warland.

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LoneWolfie 6 years ago

Ok don't judge me but I forgot what euthanasia is..

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Marta Puig 6 years ago

It's so unfair that this happens to you, and at your age. Yes, you deserve to be angry, more than angry. Life is so unfair is so many things. I hope you do not get offended by what I am going to say. I am one of those who has a Shi** life. I suffer from major depression (40 years of that) people think that it's bearable, but I am telling you, it's not. Some days I cannot even bother to pick up a paper from the floor. So I wanted to thank you because now when I think of my lack of will to live I think of you and it helps me. I fight every day to just get out of bed, to get dressed, anything is like climbing Mount Everest but well, you gave me courage because if you are fighting so can I. Thanks for your post. You are amazing,

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Marta Puig 6 years ago

I forgot to mention that I know what is like not being able to move bc due to lack of potasium I got paralysed for 2 weeks and it was AWFUL. So keep fighting and maybe you could manage to have your bf to write a blog for you. You have a special way of telling your story....share it more please.

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Julinda 6 years ago

This type of illness, along with cancer and all the other terminal illnesses make me question some religious beliefs that I was brought up to believe. Why would any god allow such pain and suffering be brought upon to their children? This is my opinion only, its bull c**p! I hope that you find peace and your suffering ends when you choose it to. After all it is your body!

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John Wilkinson 6 years ago

I will pray for you and hope you can understand why people don't all agree with your wishes. You are a beautiful flower that maybe should be adored as long as possible. On the other hand, You are not enjoying what we all accept as life as usual. I feel your pain. As a true friend would let you go as they see your life as painful,they also see your life events and memories . It is hard to let go. Love to you.

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Algernon Blue 6 years ago

I am with you. I was caught in something of a similar situation. I languished for a decade before I got better. It's pure hell and some people will never get it. I'm truly with u lady. Godspeed

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Помаже Бог 6 years ago

Please no hatred unleashed upon me, for the question I honestly naively will ask: Why won't she take her own life herself then? Why would she have to be "euthanized" by other people ? This is also putting a heavy burden on people. :( I'm really wondering here.

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Cat Nip Gal 4 years ago

Because she wants it to be peaceful I guess, idk either

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Mun Woo 6 years ago

Dear Holly, you are one courageous woman. Though I’m no fan of euthanasia but as I see the you deterioration it pains me. Taking one’s life whether it is your own or another’s is contrary to what is taught in the Word of God but I also see the question one asked in the face such a dire condition. I have no quick answer to this except to pray that in the process of this experience, dear Holly, you may find the faith and courage to believe that God still loves you and that He still has a plan for you despite the condition you’re in and the battles you’re fighting daily. Be strong, Holly. 😢

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Dark Half 6 years ago

god bless you =)

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Lynne Anders 6 years ago

You have caused everyone who read your story...to think. Maybe you will be the person who passes the “right to die”. Amazing young man God gave you for your problems which will end up being a blessing of sorts. Lovely eyes tell your love of what you fight for. Geez I’m proud of reading about you.

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Marion Friedl 6 years ago

I left the following comment on Holly´s Instagram account: WOW your´re very couraged, I find it great that you make your rare disease public, a friend of mine had Chorea Huntington, she died a slow and cruel death, first she was "wobbly" as if she had Parkinson, then her muscles decreased, she couldn´t walk anymore, couldn´t even eat & drink anymore at the end, was skin & bones at the end, but as long as she could still come to the weekly meeting at the "AWO" meeting point she always kept her humor, she´s been our "Black Forest Girl" because originally she´s been from there, I´ll never forget Diana!!! Prayers for you Holly... 😲😲😲🙏🙏🙏💖💖💖

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Christine M Quigley 6 years ago

I think she wants to have control over something, even if it's how to end her life. What a frustrating, overwhelming feeling, not to even have a say about your exit.

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Cristi Beehn 6 years ago

You are stronger than I

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Pete Nightingale 6 years ago

I hope they sort this mess out before I need an exit.

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Karen Boje 6 years ago

Hi Holly I can associate 100%. I know that reading this post might be exhausting that is, if you took your laptop/cellphone/ whatever out. I have Hereditry CVID. I was supposed to die at a young age but noooooo, not me. No one ever knew. I was termed 'lazy' as a child. I know more than any conventional or specialized Doctor about my condition. My Haemotologist learnt as we went along. Fortunately he is a bright cookie and is now a spesialist in his field. My worst experience of my condition is not the pain, nausea, chronic bacterial infections, isolation from the world but that this Immunity Dysfunction make you seem like a serious hypochondriak, Nothing shows outside and the worst is the sicker I am, the better I look. Genes are a ba....d. The other one is Christians convinced that I can or will be healed, the criticizm! The whole point of a discussion like that is, "That it is actually your fault you have no immune system". No, I was born like this.

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Lynda Shaw 6 years ago

As a long time sufferer of depression I was told by a VERY excellent counselor that feeling grateful for what you have helps lift some of the depression. This posting has made me VERY grateful for what I have. Thank you for sharing. And you have one of the BEST smiles I have ever seen!

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Jim Lowe 6 years ago

Every since I saw the movie Soylent Green I have wonder why we can't have a for people like this to go and end their life.

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Evie Hanlon 6 years ago

"I work with a group called Dying with Dignity Queensland to convince and work with politicians to pass fair and merciful voluntary assisted dying laws." That's about the only bit I found interesting, and the bit you guys need to focus on. Euthanasia already has a lot of support in Australia. The concern is that our politicians aren't up to the task of creating laws that don't just cover people like you, but also cover the people that can't make a concious choice or don't have control over their business. It's the lawyers and the legislators we need to hear from and details of how they're going to protect the poor old buggers in nursing homes from the unscrupulous. Sorry to be blunt, but since you're going all unpolished. That's my unpolished point of view.

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sharron lynn parsons 6 years ago

It's heart wrenching, a beautiful, intelligent young lady, who suffers as well as having no quality of life. There must be some research done for such a horrific disease !!!

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Lyn Ellis 6 years ago

come to CANADA, WE have this law you need... I am so sorry you need it

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Lyn Ellis 6 years ago

come live in CANADA

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Orly Grace 6 years ago

This is horrible but also odd. .In the United States if you are diagnosed with a terminal disease you can elect euthanasia. What a tragic story. My empathy while abundant means nothing .

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Laurie Williams 6 years ago

Brave to document in this style. Hang in there and enjoy every opportunity for happiness that you can. I agree that when it becomes unbearable then you should decide when the end should come. It should be your decision, God Bless, Lau

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SharonRose27 6 years ago

Thank you for this. I feel a lot like you. I wish the same things you do. At least I know there are more of us with disabilities that keep us from living a real life. I get so angry that I yell at the TV and sometimes people without really wanting too. Just so frustrated and fatigued all the time. I sit is a reclining chair, but keep getting more things wrong. I am old now, but you are still young and I feel for you. I cried and still am. May God grant you your wishes. Love and Hugsss

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Jovy Jergens 6 years ago

You are a most brave and extraordinary young woman. I too have health challenges but from here on out I will tell myself to just suck it up. God bless you, Luke and Kitty!

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Roberto Durante 6 years ago

One more reason why I am keeping my dutch passport even living more than 20 years in spain. I ca't understand why is it not world wide legal for Euthanasia, its the best way to leave this world in all your dignity and not as a plant that become everyday worst and painful even you are totally a zombies from the painkillers. Its a shame to this society that even you are clear of mind, not are aloud to decide when you like to leave this painful and horrible life. Once I was witness from the departure from a very good friend his mother, and it was such beautiful ceremonie, we all were around her bed at home, we wish her a wonderful birth in the other dimension, the doctor came, give her an injection to fall in sleep, and after 15 minutes a second injection to stop the heart. Without any pain and when she wish to go.

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Starr Beauvais 6 years ago

I read an article yesterday about withholding food and water, that it's your right and you can go into hospice to do it.

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LGI 6 years ago

Agreed your life, your choice. I respect that We should all respect other people's choices to practice the religion they want to, marry who they want to (regardless of gender), choose to have children or not...... as long as something does not have an adverse affect on others it is all good. If you don't like the idea of euthanasia - don't do it.

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Paul Saulnier 6 years ago

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/will-the-end-of-life-care-bill-turn-quebec-into-a-euthanasia-tourist-destination-1.2667383

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Kyle Obergfell 6 years ago

world needs more people like you, healthy. I'm sure looking at my life and not feeling so sorry for myself. I can't ever begin to say I'm sorry, or this shouldn't happen, I don't have the right words. Honestly, I am moved. And I'm damn glad I got to know about you. Selfishly I wish I knew more. I'm wishing you peace and tranquility and you absolutely have my respect.

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Mary Dellenbusch 6 years ago

Holly is a beautiful and strongest human I have seen in a very long, long time. She is absolutely correct that she should be able to go out peacefully if she so desires. I work on a Oncology floor and see many who suffer through ignorance from family members who don't listen to their loved ones feelings and decisions. We do have the choice to die peacefully here. I think it should be in every country. If we do it for our fur babies we should have that same choice.

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Susan Stuart 6 years ago

You are beautiful inside and out. I agree with the idea of CONTROLLED euthanasia. People need to wake up!! God bless you and Luke!!!

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Wim Cossement 6 years ago

Pro-lifers, even if yours sucks... The problem with those people is that once you're born they don't give a s**t about you any more!

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David Woodroof 6 years ago

I'm pretty sure that you can have euthansia in Switzerland - I don't know more but maybe it's worth looking it up - David Woodroof

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Charlotte Winters 6 years ago

I wonder if she has the resources to travel to a place that offers asst suicide? Hopefully, she has more good days than bad. The disease sounds more than miserable.

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Faith Nicole 6 years ago

Obe state I've heard of a case where a woman was terminal and chose to end her life with drs and her family surrounding her and for the life of me I dont k ow where that was. Somewhere out west in the united states I believe. This of course brought tears to my eyes all while slapping me and saying stop being selfish with my life. God love you sweetheart and I pray you can fin md the peace now, and when that time comes. If I knew where you lived I'd help vote for medical assisted alternate to ending a terminal life of pain and suffering. I hate that thought but I do understand not wanting to suffer in pain and slowly get worse knowing what's a head of you. You have an amazing boyfriend as well

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Sue Clasen 6 years ago

Thank you for this post, it's amazing my daughter would have been able to help you with your work because being a perfect example for your Ph .D. in ASD because being herself an un-diagnosed case of it in a family of perfect examples different shades of autism and aspergers at 47 she is investigating it too while looking after me, suffering a disabling case or Arnold Chiari + quite a few more ailing maladies, so I perfectly understand what you are going through, As my case gave us time to go slowly understanding that behind this situation there is also a spiritual purpose of learning how to give and recieve. a circumstance that for people in the autistic spectrum is not so easy to do, and as in your case cats are the perfect glue to soften hard moments. My son, who is a perfect integrated asperger is part of our family trío. Let me call you darling child Holly, you are giving Luke without even knowing it as much as he is giving you, a treasure full of tiny unforgetable moments gori-5-5be...1c6c2d.jpg

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Laura Cattell 6 years ago

Holly, you are an absolute inspiration for everyone but particularly for those of us dealing with chronic illness and debilitating disease. Staying positive is a battle but you give us all a reason to keep fighting - just amazing.

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Elly Clifton 6 years ago

You are a brave, amazing woman, and your partner deserves a medal. I hope you get all that you want and need. Hugs and total understanding of your love for cats - they are the best huggers!

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Susan Jackson 6 years ago

Fight on girl!I will truly try harder

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Luna Zen 6 years ago

heart broken, eyes opened. thank you for sharing. i wish you peace and dignity.

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Gilles Légaré 6 years ago

You have been fighting for your life for years even if MD offers no solution. Go try Su Jok or Acupuncture. Your wind system of energy is off but can be turned on again. Please try.

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Peter Kovak 6 years ago

To act normally, like everybody, is a privilege, is not a given fact. I know it very very well, after a hard accident. But I (at least) am going to recover, not like this unlucky young lady. As far as I've understood there is a certain hospital in Switzerland that specializes in euthanasia. Is not an encouraging option but, sometimes...My God, I've got tears in my eyes. She still has the power to smile, a real life hero. Bless her and wish her only the best.

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Bunny Lady 6 years ago

Omg. I am such an ungrateful human. I feel sorry for myself because I am overweight, have slight rosacea on my face and thread veins on my legs. Oh poor poor me eh? If I want it badly enough I can lose weight, I can cover my rosacea and wear frigging tights if my legs bother me that much! You have every right to be angry with me. I bet you would swap bodies with me in a heartbeat and be grateful for a fully functioning body complete with lines, wrinkles, stretch marks and veins! I know you say you haven't set out to motivate people but with me you have. I cried when I read your story. I cried for you and how your life is and I cried for me and my selfishness in not appreciating what I have. You have given me a damm good kick up the a**e that I have needed for a long time. I am starting now. Instead of my many rounds of hot, extra buttery toast and sugary coffee I am going into the kitchen to make porridge and green tea. Thank you for sharing. Thank you for making me change. Xxx

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Nancy Kobald 6 years ago

God bless you for telling yr story, for which you may get criticism. You are a courageous warrior. I do feel that we should hv the right to a dignified death, and i commend yr honest, heartbreaking journey, you hv taken us along on. I suffer from unrelenting chronic pain. Altho i don't live in yr shoes, I do understand a suffering, and a decreased quality of life. I want to be able, when the time comes, to hv the option (which in my state in the US, i do) to make an informed decision, to hv death with dignity. Thank you from the bottom of my heart, for sharing yr story with all of us. I pray you continue to cherish the "better" days, and if/when that time comes, you make that decision out of peace. You will touch many hearts with yr story! God bless you, and yr loving partner! 💕💕💕

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Johanna Kidd 6 years ago

Having nursed many people who's only release from pain is death, this makes me so angry! We dont let our dogs&cats linger in pain but humans have to stop intake of foods to die when Nursing them into a slow decline, is the only answer! Please let euthinasia happen, for those who are lingering&just want a release from excrusiating pain, please have the heart enough to release them to a peaceful&dignified death! For those who have never held the hand of someone who is dying, please do that first before you make any judgement on Euthinasia of humans! Thats only fair, to witness a slow painful death&then make up your mind wether dignity in death is the right thing to do

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Kathleen McManamon 6 years ago

One of those medical students may just take an interest in LGMD and start research. I know any med student worthy of the position will have researched LGMD after meeting you. I know I just did. I wish you the best in your efforts to relieve your suffering on your terms.

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Ashley Kirk 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing.

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Elina Tea 6 years ago

Sending you blessings and courage. I would consider the Master Fast System and Dr. Morse. I've heard of people recovering from every condition with the help of their protocols.

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zenithorton 6 years ago

Friend of mine went to Switzerland to do the procedure. We should have everywhere in the world. Dignity to die when therequired are no hope with our body. I'm 8 years in agony , went through many treatment and operations and nothing is working. ...I am not seeing myself living too long with this problem and before I reach my limit I would like to be able to end my suffering with dignity insteady of throwing myself in front of a train/car, jumping from a bridge, hanging myself or having an overdose. I want to have the choice of dying peacefully.

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Denise Lewis 6 years ago

i totally get it im 50 they say i have copd i have had 15 surgeries i have nerve damage in both my arms my knees are basically gone just about every disc in my neck is blown pain in my hips i have days where i have to have help to stand i am not the person i was 10 years ago and on top of it my electric went out one night and i took the wrong pill eneded up with a dirty urine it was an old prescription that pain management had given me them selfs at one point it didn't matter that they gave it to me they took my pain med away so now i have no relief i just suffer i had an operation twice because of acid reflux which left me unable to vomit i ended up with cyclick vomiting syndrome because i can't vomit i dry heave for 10 hours at a time i have to go to the hospital and have ng tube put in and meds to make it stop the doctor described it as doing a 1000 sit ups at one time some have compassion most don't and on top of it i have a mother who could careless about me

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Renee Schreader 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing your story.

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Dianne Edwards 6 years ago

You message is loud and clear. Never take a day for granted. Do life as best you can each and every day. Not to feel sorry for ourselves comes thru too, but mostly how blessed we are all. Bless you, honey. Your partner in crime is a saint and your kitty cats are loved its obvious. Sending hugs your way and thinking of you today. Keep writing, updating. We are listening, reading.

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Danielle Holder 6 years ago

Everyone should have 100% say in what happens to their own body!! Death with dignity should be available worldwide. Much better than the trauma of coming home to find brains all over the walls, blood all over the floor, etc. There is no "slippery slope" that'll lead to everyone killing off the elderly. People take their own lives every day. Who TF are you to tell them what they can/can't do?! *The helium and hood method is a clean, peaceful alternative for those denied the right to their own life, and own dignified death.

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Gerry Bast 6 years ago

Lying in bed with a cold! I always wonder about people who suffer for long periods of time. You are so beautiful. Thank you for letting us in!

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AwesomeKitty 6 years ago

You are a truly brave and strong person.

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Samia Peregrine 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing this. May you find the peace you seek, and may some part of your story live on in all of us who are touched by your words.

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Elizabeth Molloy 6 years ago

Having watched loved ones die slow, painful deaths I am all for being able to end the pain and suffering for anyone who wants it.

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Jessica Ann 6 years ago

You seem like such a cool, intelligent person with a great sense of humor (that I can see through your t-shirt and tattoo choices.) Thank you for the reminder of how blessed I am to have a body that works. I wish you all the best and agree that you should definitely have a choice in how your life ends. I wish you strength, comfort, and peace on your journey .

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Jo Choto 6 years ago

So grateful this amazing woman has shared her story here. I will never understand how we can put down our pets out of love and no one questions it, but we still can't make that decision for ourselves without breaking the law.

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Naima Ivansdóttir 6 years ago

i was diagnosed with cystic fibrosis when i was two months old. i can definitely relate. the difference is that i've been dealing with this my whole life and i don't know how it is to live without it. i think of it as a great advantage. hugs.

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Priscilia Hioe 6 years ago

i cry sh*t that's so f*ckin true you have just become an inspirational person. i hope you can be happy forever.

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Yannick Van Velthoven 6 years ago

Legal in Belgium

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Daniel Todd 6 years ago

Real thankful for my arthritis right now.

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Cyndy Mowbray 6 years ago

You are amazing. I feel so ridiculous complaining about my disability in light of yours. And if you can smile that incredinot beautiful smile, so can i. You are an inspiration and a powerful example. Love and light. Cyndy

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Kevin T. Bradley 6 years ago

Are you familiar with Final Exit Network? http://www.finalexitnetwork.org

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Barbara 6 years ago

Because of the depression, I spent an entire year in bed, going nowhere, just staring at the ceiling. Now, I'm just starting to feel good again, and your post where you are angry at people for doing nothing for their lives brought me into tears. I'm so sorry for what you're going through. You don't deserve it. It's f*****g unfair. Now I know that every time when live feels too much, I'm going to remember this. I hope this story can impact so much others to change their lives and to fight for everyone to have the opportunity to put end to their lives with calm, by their own terms and surrounded by their loves ones. I send you a big hug.

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Captain Planet 6 years ago

I never thought I would say this. But I hope you can die. XD

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Laura Parker 2 months ago

Many states in the US, including New Mexico, where I live, have Right to Die laws. I don’t know if you have to have citizenship or only a sponsor. If it’s possible, I would be glad to sponsor you here.

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Eliza R Rob 5 years ago

I believe that she has the right to determine her outcome. Keep religion and politics off of people's bodies ! Bless you young lady

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RavenPuffPanda 5 years ago

You want my life? You gotta think twice before you say that. You got a cat, a wonderful husband and a life that would be perfect if this sickness didn't happen. What do I have? higher expectations, the need to fake smile, no friends that truely understand me, a family that I can never be perfect for, and depression.

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Rick Vanden Heuvel 5 years ago

You are amazing to be documenting your experience this way. As a Lyme disease victim and warrior myself I can relate. But what gets me is how similar your symptoms are just like a tick born illness. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if you got misdiagnosed. All that you describe here can be caused by Lyme. So if I were you I'd get a Lyme literate Dr to check you out. Alternatively you can try taking the herbs that often help in the fight against Lyme. Such as the Buhner Herbal protocol. Be glad to help you with that. Rick

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Madison Charap 5 years ago

All I kept thinking when I read your posts and saw your pictures was "She is so cute!" I know that is not very sympathetic or in accordance to what you are writing about, but you just are. You have a shiny, exuberant soul who really has a lot to say. Anyone who reads what you are writing will start to fall in love with you. I am so sorry you are going through this. It must be painful and hard. Who knows why things happen and what contracts we have agreed to before getting here. I only can see that Luke is your soulmate and I am happy you found one another, because you help him as much I am sure, as he helps you. Whether or not you see or know that . Keep up your messages. They are very, very important. I am wishing you peace and happy moments and that you find meaning on your journey. That is really and actually the best we all can do.

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Jane Padwick 6 years ago

Holly , thank you . I wish you could team up with my friend Kate (SMA) . You two could rule the world . Jane in Uk xxxxxx

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Jeremy Cooper 6 years ago

I to have LG muscular dystrophy and it's hard to get the truth with what's going on even at the muscular dystrophy Clinic they don't know what to tell you and they barely tell you anything. I've never known what I was looking forward to in my future after reading this article I know a lot more about myself and this crazy disease. even though I've been dealing with this since I was in high school I'm now 41 fearful of being stuck in this wheelchair and I want to say thank you Holly. I now know why I cannot stand the cold, my body simply doesn't produce the Heat. I'm in love with my electric blankets and now I know why. thank you Holly thank you..... you know within the last week or so I made a t-shirt and I wear it proudly now and it says "F**k muscular dystrophy"

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Helen Hill 6 years ago

I'm in the same boat as you I have a rare disease my muscles and are slowly dying including heart I also have Scleroderma effectively turning all my organs to stone to top that I broke my hip and found d out from L1 to L4 of my spine is close to collapse and total left hip and left femur also on the verge I'm in a wheelchair stuck in 3rd floor flat no lifts since August I need my ears syringing but GPS do t do this at home so I stuck in a box with no hearing and barely alive however! I craft and send and make happy mail I'm fighting it with every strength left in my body and I will not be euthanasia when it's my time e to go il go I do respect you though and best of luck! If you ever have the strength to do a happy mail swop I'd be happy too from one sister to another x

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Claude Mallet 6 years ago

I'd so wish to meet you. You're an incredebly great person and realy inspirational! Thank you for sharing you're story. It realy help me to show it to other to help them.

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Julie Walker 6 years ago

I'm so sorry to hear about all the pain you are going through, sounds absolutely terrible, nothing anyone wants to go through. The good news though is that this life isn't it! If you read in the Bible you will see the sad truth of where pain comes from but also the wonderful news that there is something better ahead that does not even compare with the worst pain we go through on earth. God sent his son Jesus so that whoever believes in Him can have eternal life. He is the one who created you and gave you life and I'm so glad he did because if you choose to receive his gift of salvation through Jesus you will experience life to the fullest, I'm not saying the pain will go away, but you will have the hope of amazing things to come on the other side of death. I hope you will read God's Word so that when your Creator chooses to end your time on earth you will go home with him forever.

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Algernon Blue 6 years ago

Inspo-porn. New term

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Janet Summers 6 years ago

I'm kinda mixed. What if the person is mentally unwell and wants to live, but someone in the family wants something so they take them to be put down? Totally possible. Don't say it isn't, because people can be despicable. I'm jealous of your crappy life, too. I'm Autistic so I can't work and there are no programs to help me. Everyone wants to help Autistic kids. Why don't you still care about us when we grow up?

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gul wish 6 years ago

I dont know if this message will reach you. Never lose hope. May GOD be with you.

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Faqir Afaq 6 years ago

Boo hoo ka-choo, just another self victimizer seeking attention.

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Samantha Comerford 6 years ago

I have no words at the moment. 😭

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Paul Saulnier 6 years ago

all i can say is i will pray you get your wish ..in Quebec Canada it was a huge debate and one girl did win her case ..she was living in an Iron Lung machine ..the case went before a judge and she had won her case ..a few days later she had a party with friends and family and then a few days later she had the machine unplugged at her own free will ..my heart goes out to you and god bless you .You're stronger than i could ever be .

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David Jeu 6 years ago

I don't get this one. Its legal since 2002.

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benang panas 6 years ago

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Tracy Mack 4 years ago

I was cured of herpes simplex virus 1 & 2 by a great herbal doctor called Robinson Buckler with the use of different combination of Africa herbs. it is still like a dream to me. There is no word suitable enough to qualify your significant in my life dear doctor. You can contact him via Robinson.buckler [@] yahoo. com, ……….

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Paul Dixon 6 years ago

We have no idea of what medical advances may be made or if cures will be found. Then their is the ethical question at hand because doctors take a vow to save lives and not take lives. Why should they choose if and when it's ok to kill a patient? Also, how can we be sure the person is in the right frame of mind - some are and some are not...I've know people be on very powerful pain meds and wanted to end it...a year later and they are glad to be here. The harsh truth is, she could close her door and refuse treatment - that way she isn't putting her life ( or death) in someone else's hands.

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Hossam Kamel 6 years ago

♥♥ Never give up fighter

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Katerina Hix 6 years ago

Let her give up when she wants to give up. That's what this is all about.

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Carole Reid 6 years ago

Lay off Carol Emory. You are all trying to one up each other and that is not a good coping skill.

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Christopher Lee 6 years ago

There are about 15 different forms of LGMD and some progress faster than others. No, apparently it is not 'fatal' as such but it is irreversible and as time goes by the loss of muscle can effect respiration and other vital functions, leading to pneumonia and other conditions which can be fatal. So, while the LGMD may not actually kill you, conditions that arise due to the loss of muscle might.

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Kiahna 6 years ago

No. Not here.

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Christopher Lee 6 years ago

While I support and consume a plant-based diet, I really don't think that this is going to make any difference at all to her prognosis. Her condition is totally independent of the effects of diet or lifestyle and it is simply not going to go into reverse if she has kale smoothies.

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Kiahna 6 years ago

You first.

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Holly Warland (Post author) 6 years ago

I know there are people worse off. You know that too, but does it stop you from complaining? Nope.

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The Girl on Fire 6 years ago

Colin, how insensitive can you be? "It doesn't work that way, sweetie?" She's not cowardly and she's not "trying to leave existence guilt-free." As far as I could glean from the article (Not trying to put words in your mouth Holly) she wants to end her suffering and die a humane death.

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Holly Warland (Post author) 6 years ago

I am the author and they're all my own words. And f**k you, it IS hard to cry with tubes up your nose.

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your name 6 years ago

If God was real why do children die of cancer? Why do people have any disease or are sad or suffer? How do you believe in something that doesn't believe in us?

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Natalie Parsons 6 years ago (edited)

Carol Emory accuses people of not reading the post while NOT reading the post. Imagine that.

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Mals Winter 6 years ago

Carol Emory can't even empathize with a disabled person. That's just messed up.

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Labrador 6 years ago

This post makes me want to get off my a*s and do something, honestly this made me so much more grateful for everything I have

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Amy 6 years ago

Me too - suddenly feeling guilty for every opportunity I've wasted.

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trix 6 years ago

It's too sad that we need to be reminded of what blessings we have that we take for granted.

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Magpie 6 years ago

Please write a letter to your local politician, perhaps your local medical association, perhaps your prime minister.

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Apollo 6 years ago

I don't understand why your painmeds are taken away. It just sounds so awful that you don't even have the opportunity to numb the pain.

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SirWriteALot 6 years ago

How do you go on? I admire your strengh!

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Nancy Tilton Pope 6 years ago

Good God !! Why are they taking your medication away? Can't you find a different doctor maybe? There has to be someway you can protect yourself against something so inhumane??

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Lilly 6 years ago

Heartfelt wishes that Luke (& other family & friends) are able to make your remaining days the best they can be. Good for you for being a fighter!

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BusLady 6 years ago

I'm so sorry for her suffering, Cassie. It's always hard on the loved ones as well. You also suffered. 😢

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Bogawlagabreath 6 years ago

I can't express how sad it makes me. You are supported by a beautiful soul. Love and peace to you and your soulmate.

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Holly Warland (Post author) 6 years ago

Hi Rick! Blast from the past!

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Ilir Toli 6 years ago

Your story made me think of everything i have and be able to do in my life. I hope u have a miracle from God to get healthy again.

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Larry XK 6 years ago

You and your partner are extraordinary Human beings.

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ulalume ulalume 6 years ago

thank you. massively.

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Elena Adams 6 years ago

I was just complaining to my boyfriend about how much I hate my job and said "whatever dude, f**k life anyway" and then I read this. And now I want to cry.

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Tyler Duffy 6 years ago

It's super sad for someone to think death is better than life. But sometimes it is. There are groups devoted to this called Right to Die groups. This shouldn't be taken lightly.

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Mariana Pinto 6 years ago

Thank you. And, also, I'm sorry...

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PyroarRanger 6 years ago

oh my god this is amazing and opens my eyes so much

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Raluca Andreea 6 years ago

Holly...Thank you for documenting this. Thank you!

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UnicornHuman 6 years ago

Such a fighter! Proud of you for sticking it out and urging and inspiring others to make the most of their lives. God bless :)

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Michael Makovi 6 years ago

Thomas Szasz used to say that if you can't end your own life, then it isn't really your life. That is, you don't own yourself unless you can end yourself.

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Adi B. 6 years ago

I love you. I support you. Be strong, you'll live <3

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Amanda Panda 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing. I hope you get to choose your path.

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Brigitta Swart 6 years ago

You are an amazing person. I am so sorry for your suffering

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Paula Pritchard 6 years ago

❤️❤️❤️

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Human 6 years ago

Wow.. Makes my "big" problems seem so small. I wish you the best of luck!

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Christina Sersif 6 years ago

Humble pie for breakfast

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Kate 6 years ago

Thank you so much for sharing!

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Mitsos Dream 6 years ago

You are a great person, helping others evaluate their life and fighting for your rights in life. You are also beautiful!! Greetings from Greece!

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Kiki 6 years ago

I find it outrageous that women can get abortions on the grounds of, "My body, my choice" but people cannot choose to end their own lives if they want.

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Ian Sirota 6 years ago

My heart goes out to this poor woman. She clearly deserves so much more from life, including the ability/right to end it on her own terms.

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Jaded Queen 6 years ago

Death is peaceful.

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Karasi Mills 6 years ago

Holy shirt, this sucks. Thank you for bearing honest witness to your journey. I really hope that your time is as alert and painless as possible. I will always vote in favor of assisted dying laws.

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Antoni Salim 6 years ago

Really inspiring. Good job, good luck and remeber God always be with you.

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Krystalyn Jackson 6 years ago

Washington DC and the states of California, Colorado, Oregon, Vermont, Hawaii, and Washington 👈 all the places in the US where you can get assisted suicide...

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Dominic Biondi 6 years ago

Wow wow wow...you are amazing, Girl. Keep fighting for what you want and what you believe. You rock, your cats rock (I have two, too!), and Luke rocks.

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Lana Belysheva 6 years ago

How unfair it is that such a beautiful feisty soul has to go through this pain.

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DrVarun Tyagi 6 years ago

Very well quoted man. ❤️

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Alyson Lovegrove 6 years ago

Any dark day i have, you'll be the first

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artist-in-residence * (artist-in-residence) 6 years ago

Hey Holly, I'd love to write to you and chat if you ever wanted to, I will be here for you even if only over the net.

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Sick Boy 6 years ago

Crowdfund for a trip to Switzerland is what I'd suggest in case there are no other options!

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Grumble O'Pug 6 years ago

Heartbreaking

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Ginette Rochon 6 years ago

Very courageous girl!!

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LoneWolfie 6 years ago

Ok don't judge me but I forgot what euthanasia is..

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Algernon Blue 6 years ago

I am with you. I was caught in something of a similar situation. I languished for a decade before I got better. It's pure hell and some people will never get it. I'm truly with u lady. Godspeed

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Cat Nip Gal 4 years ago

Because she wants it to be peaceful I guess, idk either

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Dark Half 6 years ago

god bless you =)

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Christine M Quigley 6 years ago

I think she wants to have control over something, even if it's how to end her life. What a frustrating, overwhelming feeling, not to even have a say about your exit.

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Cristi Beehn 6 years ago

You are stronger than I

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Pete Nightingale 6 years ago

I hope they sort this mess out before I need an exit.

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Karen Boje 6 years ago

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Lynda Shaw 6 years ago

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Jim Lowe 6 years ago

Every since I saw the movie Soylent Green I have wonder why we can't have a for people like this to go and end their life.

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Evie Hanlon 6 years ago

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sharron lynn parsons 6 years ago

It's heart wrenching, a beautiful, intelligent young lady, who suffers as well as having no quality of life. There must be some research done for such a horrific disease !!!

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Lyn Ellis 6 years ago

come to CANADA, WE have this law you need... I am so sorry you need it

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Lyn Ellis 6 years ago

come live in CANADA

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Orly Grace 6 years ago

This is horrible but also odd. .In the United States if you are diagnosed with a terminal disease you can elect euthanasia. What a tragic story. My empathy while abundant means nothing .

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Laurie Williams 6 years ago

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SharonRose27 6 years ago

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Jovy Jergens 6 years ago

You are a most brave and extraordinary young woman. I too have health challenges but from here on out I will tell myself to just suck it up. God bless you, Luke and Kitty!

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Roberto Durante 6 years ago

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Starr Beauvais 6 years ago

I read an article yesterday about withholding food and water, that it's your right and you can go into hospice to do it.

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LGI 6 years ago

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Paul Saulnier 6 years ago

https://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/will-the-end-of-life-care-bill-turn-quebec-into-a-euthanasia-tourist-destination-1.2667383

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Kyle Obergfell 6 years ago

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Mary Dellenbusch 6 years ago

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Susan Stuart 6 years ago

You are beautiful inside and out. I agree with the idea of CONTROLLED euthanasia. People need to wake up!! God bless you and Luke!!!

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Wim Cossement 6 years ago

Pro-lifers, even if yours sucks... The problem with those people is that once you're born they don't give a s**t about you any more!

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David Woodroof 6 years ago

I'm pretty sure that you can have euthansia in Switzerland - I don't know more but maybe it's worth looking it up - David Woodroof

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Charlotte Winters 6 years ago

I wonder if she has the resources to travel to a place that offers asst suicide? Hopefully, she has more good days than bad. The disease sounds more than miserable.

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Faith Nicole 6 years ago

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Sue Clasen 6 years ago

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Laura Cattell 6 years ago

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Elly Clifton 6 years ago

You are a brave, amazing woman, and your partner deserves a medal. I hope you get all that you want and need. Hugs and total understanding of your love for cats - they are the best huggers!

1point

Susan Jackson 6 years ago

Fight on girl!I will truly try harder

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Luna Zen 6 years ago

heart broken, eyes opened. thank you for sharing. i wish you peace and dignity.

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Gilles Légaré 6 years ago

You have been fighting for your life for years even if MD offers no solution. Go try Su Jok or Acupuncture. Your wind system of energy is off but can be turned on again. Please try.

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Peter Kovak 6 years ago

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Bunny Lady 6 years ago

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Nancy Kobald 6 years ago

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Johanna Kidd 6 years ago

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Kathleen McManamon 6 years ago

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Ashley Kirk 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing.

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Elina Tea 6 years ago

Sending you blessings and courage. I would consider the Master Fast System and Dr. Morse. I've heard of people recovering from every condition with the help of their protocols.

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zenithorton 6 years ago

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Denise Lewis 6 years ago

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Renee Schreader 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing your story.

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Dianne Edwards 6 years ago

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Danielle Holder 6 years ago

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Gerry Bast 6 years ago

Lying in bed with a cold! I always wonder about people who suffer for long periods of time. You are so beautiful. Thank you for letting us in!

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AwesomeKitty 6 years ago

You are a truly brave and strong person.

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Samia Peregrine 6 years ago

Thank you for sharing this. May you find the peace you seek, and may some part of your story live on in all of us who are touched by your words.

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Elizabeth Molloy 6 years ago

Having watched loved ones die slow, painful deaths I am all for being able to end the pain and suffering for anyone who wants it.

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Jessica Ann 6 years ago

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Jo Choto 6 years ago

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Naima Ivansdóttir 6 years ago

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Priscilia Hioe 6 years ago

i cry sh*t that's so f*ckin true you have just become an inspirational person. i hope you can be happy forever.

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Yannick Van Velthoven 6 years ago

Legal in Belgium

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Daniel Todd 6 years ago

Real thankful for my arthritis right now.

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Cyndy Mowbray 6 years ago

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Kevin T. Bradley 6 years ago

Are you familiar with Final Exit Network? http://www.finalexitnetwork.org

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Barbara 6 years ago

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Captain Planet 6 years ago

I never thought I would say this. But I hope you can die. XD

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Laura Parker 2 months ago

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Eliza R Rob 5 years ago

I believe that she has the right to determine her outcome. Keep religion and politics off of people's bodies ! Bless you young lady

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RavenPuffPanda 5 years ago

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Rick Vanden Heuvel 5 years ago

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Madison Charap 5 years ago

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Jane Padwick 6 years ago

Holly , thank you . I wish you could team up with my friend Kate (SMA) . You two could rule the world . Jane in Uk xxxxxx

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Jeremy Cooper 6 years ago

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Helen Hill 6 years ago

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Claude Mallet 6 years ago

I'd so wish to meet you. You're an incredebly great person and realy inspirational! Thank you for sharing you're story. It realy help me to show it to other to help them.

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Julie Walker 6 years ago

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Algernon Blue 6 years ago

Inspo-porn. New term

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Janet Summers 6 years ago

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gul wish 6 years ago

I dont know if this message will reach you. Never lose hope. May GOD be with you.

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Faqir Afaq 6 years ago

Boo hoo ka-choo, just another self victimizer seeking attention.

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Samantha Comerford 6 years ago

I have no words at the moment. 😭

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Paul Saulnier 6 years ago

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David Jeu 6 years ago

I don't get this one. Its legal since 2002.

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benang panas 6 years ago

Insert *I'd f**k her meme*

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Tracy Mack 4 years ago

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Paul Dixon 6 years ago

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Hossam Kamel 6 years ago

♥♥ Never give up fighter

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Katerina Hix 6 years ago

Let her give up when she wants to give up. That's what this is all about.

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Carole Reid 6 years ago

Lay off Carol Emory. You are all trying to one up each other and that is not a good coping skill.

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Christopher Lee 6 years ago

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Kiahna 6 years ago

No. Not here.

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Kiahna 6 years ago

You first.

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Holly Warland (Post author) 6 years ago

I know there are people worse off. You know that too, but does it stop you from complaining? Nope.

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Holly Warland (Post author) 6 years ago

I am the author and they're all my own words. And f**k you, it IS hard to cry with tubes up your nose.

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your name 6 years ago

If God was real why do children die of cancer? Why do people have any disease or are sad or suffer? How do you believe in something that doesn't believe in us?

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