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Over 18k People Joined This Thread In Which They Confessed Things They Haven’t Told Anyone In Their Real Life (30 Confessions)
There are parts of us that we ourselves don’t like and tend to hide from others. Or there are things from our past that we would never tell anyone about. Having secrets even from people that are the closest to you may be a defense mechanism. It could be that you are either protecting them or yourselves from even bigger pain that would be caused if the secret came out.
However, it is hard to keep all those thoughts just to yourself. Seeking professional help is not always an available option so the next best thing is to take advantage of anonymity on the internet and express what is bothering you to complete strangers. People started confessing their deepest troubles in this thread that was started by SillyGuy who asked “What do you want to confess that no one else in your real life knows?”
Lots of people in the thread found it therapeutic and felt like part of the burden was lifted from their chest. Especially when other people related to them and expressed their support. The thread itself was liked by 35.5k redditors, over 18k people joined the conversation, and we invite you to join too.
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#1
Only my girl knows this, i was thinking of killing myself when i came back from working abroad, i was about to do it on a friday, but a friend told me "Hey you wanna come hang out saturday night? just chilling here at home"
I decided to go.
It was actually a surprise welcome party for me, all my friends were there, it was an amazing night.
None of them know, but they saved my life, i wouldnt be here if it wasnt for that.
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#2
My giant sexy engagement ring is a created diamond. You (my dear coworkers) all love it to death and go on about how amazing it is because you think my fiance dropped $10,000 on it.
It cost $50 on Ebay and I love it because it's SCIENCE and not DeBeers.
#3
I'm fully vaxxed as at 3 days ago. Only my wife knows. My entire family and coworkers are all SUPER ANTIVAXX. I'm a closet vaxxer
That_One_Harry_Potter_Nerd 3 years ago
Hey, congrats on keeping everyone safe by making that choice. Because of you, and every other vaccinated person, we are a few steps closer to beating this virus. Good for you!
#4
I have terminal cancer and am tired of the side effects of the treatments and the pain the cancer is causing. I really want to just die and get it over with but my wife and two daughters would be devastated if I stopped fighting.
#5
Compassion fatigue is slowly killing me. I’m so tired. I love my friends and family deeply, but I need a break from being the shoulder to cry on for awhile
Nikki Sevven 3 years ago
Ten years ago, when my mother suicided, I was prematurely forced into the role of family matriarch, a role made that much more difficult because my parents neglected to prepare for their own deaths. I took care of my dad while he slowly smothered to death for three years (idiopathic pulmonary fibrosis), then spent two years cleaning out my mother's hoard and selling the house. I'm exhausted. Worse, I've been the "go to savior" for so long that my own life is long gone. Parents and grandparents: take care of your own mess; don't leave it for your children.
#6
I cried over bell peppers today. I always made my dad stuffed orange bell peppers on Halloween. I would cut the little jack o lantern faces out and everything. He’s been dead for three years but today for a second in the grocery store I thought oh that’s right I need orange bell peppers.
#7
I've always told everyone my mom died of cancer. She committed suicide. Footnote: So did my son.
#8
My husbands family are all complete c***s. When we first got together I just thought he wasn’t close to them, but now after spending more time with them, I realize they’re all bullies. They constantly ridicule each other and fight and tease my husband for one thing or another. They’re loud and interrupt each other and belittle each other’s opinions. It’s truly a shame that he had to grow up with those dips**ts. He’s really amazing at so many things and has a lot of self loathing because nothing was ever good enough to his family.
He’s made a name for himself and I’m so proud of his hard work and success, but they still just nitpick. I’m on a mission to make my husband have a peaceful adult life where he’s only encouraged. I want to make him see how amazing he is, the way I see him.
#9
How lost and hurt I really am. It’s easier to hide it all and pretend everything is getting better.
#10
In my group of friends consisting of couples in deep relationships, I’m the only single guy. In fact, I don’t think I’ve been in a committed relationship for more than 2 weeks. The idea of being part of a couple has always sounded exhausting and it was something I never really worried about rushing into.
I didn’t truly realize how lonely I’ve been until one night playing beer pong, when I was on the same team with one of the ladies (who was a little tipsy), she hugged me after I won the game for us. It didn’t occur to me that since leaving home for college, those types of physical gestures that brought me comfort as a kid weren’t always there for me anymore as an adult.
TL;DR– All I want is to be hugged.
#11
I feel really lonely.
kim morris 3 years ago
People here on the other side of the keyboard are real people, and would hug you if we could. Don't forget that.
#12
I dropped three courses not because I was failing academically, but because I was very close to killing myself.
#13
Every day I hate the life I'm living a little bit more. I can retrace my steps and see all the choices that would have gotten me to where I wish I was too, but I feel so trapped now. I feel so unwanted and out of place all the time.
Tanya Venter 3 years ago
Please talk to someone you can trust or see a therapist/counselor/doctor. I hope you are ok.
#14
I don’t think I want kids because I’m too much like my father. I can end the bloodline with me.
Leo Domitrix 3 years ago
I know several people who have said this, and I respect their decision completely.
#15
I see, hear, and touch my wife every now and then.
She keeps me up at night just talking to me.
My wife's been dead for the past 7 years.
Pills, therapy and counseling haven't worked. The doctors are out of options for me.
If it happens during the day, to others, I seem to suddenly have a thousand yard stare, my speaking stops, then one or two seconds later, i seem to snap back to reality and continue on.
Otherwise it's chipping into my sleep and making it hard to wake. Last week was 7 years...
Leo Domitrix 3 years ago
Okey-dokey, then.... There are options, but only if he goes to a neurologist, b/c this is probably organic, not merely grief-related. You'd be shocked what even a tiny blob of unwanted cells can do in your brain.
#16
My wife cheated on me a few months back. She claims it was just one kiss and dirty texts but who really knows the extent of her infidelity besides him and her. I was beyond stupid and ignored all warning signs. I have told no one and it happened about 4 months ago. We are buying a house and have 2 kids. I initially forgave her and we worked on things. However, she and her sister are going on a cruise in November and I don’t trust her at all. FML.
Edit: I talked to my wife this morning and she was more concerned with our marriage than the cruise. She even went as far as saying she is going to call about canceling it today.
I know many people suggested divorce and I understand why you would suggest it. I don’t know if that’s where wile will end up but for now I’m going to keep trying. Sometimes things aren’t as black and white as they seem.
Adam Belaire 3 years ago
If you both love each other, work together to rebuild the trust. Counselling might help. At least she understands the depth and is not going on the cruise if it makes you uncomfortable.
#17
I've become really detached from life ever since my mom passed
Mical Scott 3 years ago
Same, it's been almost 6 years - I feel like the "thing" that tethered me to this world is gone and now I'm just floating - detached...
#18
My final semester of college got ruined by the pandemic, including the capstone I had been working on for several years. I got dumped by the person I though I would marry the day before I left campus for the last time. Every single one of my friends stopped talking to me a couple months afterward. I tried seeing a therapist, but she seemed more interested in telling me about her life than actually helping me. In the past year and a half, I’ve lost more family members than I can count, both to COVID and other causes. Those deaths included 2 grandparents, and my 16-year-old cousin who hung himself.
I am more lonely than I’ve ever been and I don’t have anything to look forward to in my life. I don’t know how much longer I can keep doing this. Every night I fall asleep wanting nothing more than to just not wake up in the morning.
#19
I did a two hour online test for college and we had to stay on camera for the whole two hours until everyone was done.
The problem was I s**t myself half an hour into the test and sat in my own s**t not allowed to move and if I did move everyone would see I s**t myself.
So I waited until everyone was done and got marks done and could turn off the cameras.
I got 100% in the test.
Edit: so yes this happened and I had no clue this happened to another person on a talk show, but am glad am not alone. Am going to look into American life, am going to find that story and look into it for a good chuckle.
It happened because am highly lactose intolerant and I added milk based creamer by mistake to my coffee.
The clean up was horrendous and I had to throw out my office chair after and shower myself off after.
My stomach is super sensitive and it has happened before but that story is for another time but far worse inside a Bible study at a church. *FML
I was studying psychology, I now work in that field.
#20
I have eaten food quantities that were listed as "family sized" in a single sitting, many times.
T. 3 years ago
What really helped me stopping overeating was counting my chewing. One bite to be chewed 20-30 times. I know it sounds painfully slow and it unfortunately really is, even more if you're hungry. But after a week, maybe a bit more if you pull it through, you will feel full before having inhaled a family pizza. You'll get accustomed to the slow eating as well. Now I'm fully stuffed by just one regular plate.
#21
I have a husband and two toddlers that I love deeply and would give my life for.
But I often fantasize about running off and traveling the world. Not having to wake up every morning to a 2 year old and 1 year old while my husband soundly sleeps just sounds like pure bliss to me.
I would never do it, I just wish I had done it before I settled down.
Nikki Sevven 3 years ago
Regretting the things you did is nothing compared to regretting the things you didn't do. Do the things while you're young.
#22
I’m 28 years old and still struggle reading analogue clocks
Johan van Luijn-Hermans 3 years ago
Same here, to make it worse, my IQ is way above average and everyone uses me as a walking Google/Wikipedia, but clocks, not my thing. It's a daily struggle, people don't understand at all.
#23
I just started drinking again. I would have been 2 years sober in January.
Rikke Visby Wickberg 3 years ago
Start again, you are going to make us proud. Don't let a little fall refrain you from continuing the journey to sobriety. We believe in you.
#24
I only wear a tie and jacket when I’ve been feeling really upset and fed up with life. That way I have at least one thing to brighten my day. I have been dressing up everyday for more than two weeks now…
#25
I’m unhappy in my marriage, but still love my wife. I think if we met today we wouldn’t even date, much less be married but the thought of leaving her for my own happiness makes me sick to my stomach. She constantly says how happy I make her, how much she loves me, that she couldn’t live without me. And I love her back, we are just so different.
We got married young because “God was guiding us to do so.” Our responsible adult figures told us it was smarter to wait but we (and our pastor) knew better. We did a bunch of premarital counseling, so we actually have a very solid base for our marriage, we have just changed in political views, personal views, leisure activities, movie interests, religious beliefs (unbeknownst to her on that one), and just about everything else. There’s very little common ground any more. I can say we both enjoy watching anime together and listening to audio books of her choosing as we fall asleep (I’ve tried to recommend some and a few podcasts but they didn’t work for her).
We haven’t had sex in months and she recently discovered she’s a-romantic and is fine with basically never having sex. I’m not like that at all.
She doesn’t work at the moment and we are in financial stress because of it, but I still want her to be able to spend money on herself because it helps with her depression (legitimately helps, shes spending money on hobby supplies which give her a sense of accomplishment). Despite me working 50+ hour weeks I still do a majority of the cooking and cleaning due to her mental health. But I still love her dearly.
I’m just unhappy. I care for her, I WANT to be with her, I’m just not happy. I feel like I put in more effort than she does, but she is so appreciative and I know it isn’t malicious on her part, I just enable the behavior. She’s seeing a therapist (newly because of finances) but I don’t think I can afford one for myself or couples therapy.
If you made it to the end, thanks for reading my ramblings.
Edit: 1. My wife described herself as aromantic because she gets repulsed by SEEING romantic acts. She actively seeks out kisses, hugs and cuddles from me on a regular basis. After looking into it more I don’t think she’s actually aromantic based on her behavior, she seems more romance-averse specifically when viewing those acts
2. My wife recognizes that she doesn’t do a fair share of the work and it eats her up and contributes to her depression. I’m not blaming her for not doing enough, but that doesn’t take away the fact that I do still have to do more than my share. She is actively trying to improve herself for our relationship which is a big part of the reason I’m still with her. But I’m still unhappy in this moment in time.
3. We both know we need couples counseling, it’s just not on the table for us at the moment. Honestly just getting it off my chest and having the opportunity to talk with some of you amazing Redditors has helped me a bit already. It’s no replacement for individual therapy but it’s a good boost to give me strength to keep on until we CAN get to therapy for me and us together.
Hollysmom 3 years ago
Check with your county for available free or reduced rate counseling. Most offer something. If you have insurance make sure to check with them if you haven't. I am so sorry you are unhappy but, good for you for not giving up. Loving someone is so much more important than "being in love". I am not discounting you unhappiness or pain just hoping you can continue to make it through long enough to get some help. Check online for available service too. There had just got to be something. Maybe it would also help for you two to get away by yourselves for a fee days too. A break in the day to day can sometimes breath nee life into a relationship. It's worth a shot.
#26
I’ve tried so hard to not be my mom and not be like her that I started doing things she did, and lying to myself and everyone around me, just like she does. One year of therapy down, and I’m trying really hard to put a stop to my bad patterns.
Queen Metapha 3 years ago
Good for you to recognize it and trying to change! Congratulations, you are on a good way....
#27
I should be job searching, because I need to leave my job soon due to life changes, but I can’t bring myself to care. I just procrastinate with video games and meaningless tasks.
#28
i havent done a single assignment this semester, i havent even gone to class. i dont know why im doing this.
#29
I’ve been passively suicidal For 7+ years now and most days I wish I had a completely different life, because I don’t want to live mine anymore.
I just feel like I’m suppose to have died 7 years ago. I tear up a lot when I’m thinking about it too long. I love a lot of my life. But I can’t imagine wanting to live it.
#30
This month marks ten years since my mother died. Even though I recognize that she was a broken person with a lot of issues and no strength to face them, and it isn't entirely her fault, I'm glad she's gone, in an almost hateful way.
What do you think ?
Leo Domitrix 3 years ago
What I don't even tell my husband: I no longer care if people die b/c of their choices regarding Covid. Kill others, I'll want to scream in your face. Kill just yourself, fine, go, good, begone. I want to say"Please mask and sanitize or you will not be permitted into the building, please don't try to sell me that fake-as-fu*k vaccine card as real, please stop telling me it's fixable with dewormer." I want to say, "Drink your bleach and be dead, okay? So the rest of us can get on with our lives in more safety!".... ANd my supper break is up n six, so have a good one, Pandas,.
Vicky Z 3 years ago
That the reason i reject going out with friends is not because I'm bored or lazy... it's because I suffer from depression almost my entire adult life.... nobody knows... everyone sees a funny person, meanwhile i might be in my darkest times...
Bex 3 years ago
I'm terrified I'm never going to find a boyfriend or get married. I'm 43, and it's been 16 years since I had a boyfriend that I believe actually loved me, and 11 years since any relationship I've has lasted more than a couple weeks or I've had a man tell me he loved me. I feel left behind in so many ways bc I'm still single, too old to have kids, am disabled and unable to work, so I'm always struggling w money, so no chance of ever affording a house (you try living on $1,000 a month then tell me how easy it is to save for a down-payment or qualify for a mortgage), and no career to give me fulfillment. I'm terrified I'm going to be left behind and forgotten about once my parents have passed away.
Leo Domitrix 3 years ago
What I don't even tell my husband: I no longer care if people die b/c of their choices regarding Covid. Kill others, I'll want to scream in your face. Kill just yourself, fine, go, good, begone. I want to say"Please mask and sanitize or you will not be permitted into the building, please don't try to sell me that fake-as-fu*k vaccine card as real, please stop telling me it's fixable with dewormer." I want to say, "Drink your bleach and be dead, okay? So the rest of us can get on with our lives in more safety!".... ANd my supper break is up n six, so have a good one, Pandas,.
Vicky Z 3 years ago
That the reason i reject going out with friends is not because I'm bored or lazy... it's because I suffer from depression almost my entire adult life.... nobody knows... everyone sees a funny person, meanwhile i might be in my darkest times...
Bex 3 years ago
I'm terrified I'm never going to find a boyfriend or get married. I'm 43, and it's been 16 years since I had a boyfriend that I believe actually loved me, and 11 years since any relationship I've has lasted more than a couple weeks or I've had a man tell me he loved me. I feel left behind in so many ways bc I'm still single, too old to have kids, am disabled and unable to work, so I'm always struggling w money, so no chance of ever affording a house (you try living on $1,000 a month then tell me how easy it is to save for a down-payment or qualify for a mortgage), and no career to give me fulfillment. I'm terrified I'm going to be left behind and forgotten about once my parents have passed away.
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