Never, ever apologising for anything.

Easily better than them

My father set on fire by him pouring hand sanitizer of my back after lifting my vest and pinning me to the ground set it on fire, it burned for several seconds, my vest slided back down burnt as well, melted onto my skin plastic(?) zipper included and fused with it!. I kept from screaming the whole time because he told me to, or else.

My back melted off and was oozing, I couldn't see properly it was my back, thankfully he left this evening to go fetch/take my grandparents from/to the airport so I could take care of it a little (I.E. let it in the air instead of putting a shirt over it to hide it. I don't know if it was second or third burn as I couldn't go to the hospital as people coudn't learn about it.

Hurt for several weeks, I couldn't lie on my back or sides bend or hunch, having a chill hurt extremely, having a shower would make my back worse, the rubber elastics of my panties and bra were pushing on the scar/healing hard and hurt, my shirt would constantly brush against it. I didn't see it but I felt it with my hand when I tried to fix it when it happened and think one of my vertebrae bone was bare, and leaking black(?) I thinnk it got infected because there is a bump at one spot..

that's one example

So considering I have to actual will to be a good parent if one day I can that's makes it better, just that only.