I'm Terence Eduarte and I'm an illustrator from the Philippines. Every person has an interesting story to tell and I wanted to channel that into this project. I gathered a lot of silly secrets from friends and unexpected confessions from strangers around the world.
Here are some of them.
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"It Was My 28th Birthday Last Week And No One Remembered It. Not A Single Call Or Text From My Friends And Family. So I Woke Up The Next Day, Sat Outside My House And Cried Quietly. My Dog Came And Started Crying Too. It Was The Most Beautiful Thing Someone Has Ever Done For Me"
"I Burned The Suicide Note I Wrote A Month Ago. Today Is A Good Day"
Enjoy life while you can. Don't let anything or anybody bring you down.
"I Always Check If My Friends Are Doing Well, But People Rarely Ask How I Am"
"I Try My Hardest To Make People Happy Because I Know What It's Like To Feel Absolutely Worthless. I Don't Want Anyone Else To Feel Like That"
"I Sometimes Feel Alone Even If I'm With Friends. I Feel Like I'm Just An Add-On When We're Together"
Sometimes is because you are actually different and just don't fit. I know the feeling buddo
"I'm Acting In A Play Where This Guy Has To Act Like He's Secretly In Love With Me. But When The Play Ends, We Go Back To Real Life Where I'm Secretly In Love With Him"
"I Told My Unborn Son I Wasn't Ready To Be Loved By Him. The Next Day I Miscarried"
There will be a lot of comments here that you (or someone in this situation) may see. Some will be negative. But if you read just one comment here, please let it be this: a miscarriage was not your fault. You would have loved your baby unconditionally - whether you held it in your arms or asked someone else to raise it. The fact that you were scared and uncertain just means you are human - a kind, compassionate human. You will make an amazing mother one day. <3
"It's Been Two And A Half Years But I Still Can't Tell Those Around Me That I Am HIV Positive. So Instead Of Focusing On What I Can't Do, I Volunteer To Help Change The Stigma Around HIV"
I love you who ever you are if you where my family I would be right there with you volunteering.
"Half Of My Friends Are People I Wish I've Never Met"
Then it's important to focus on the other half. You can always turn your life around, there are always going to be people who you relate with better.
"I Want To Ask My Half-Sister If Our Estranged Dad Ever Touched Her Back When They Were Living Under The Same Roof. Or Was I His Only Victim?"
"It Sucks To Feel Unimportant. I Know You Shouldn't Really Expect Much From People But It Hurts To See When They Only Come To You When They Need Something. They Only Remember Me, Not Because Of Me, But For Something They Might Gain"
"I Wanted To Visit My Grandmother In The Hospital But It Was A Long Walk And I Got Lazy. The Next Day, She Passed Away"
"I Tell People My Mom Died From Cancer When She Actually Died From Cirrhosis Due To Alcoholism. I Didn't Want People To Think She Was A Horrible Mother. We Were Close No Matter How Different The Alcohol Made Her Sometimes"
I don't think you ever have to explain HOW your mom died if people know that it's a sensitive subject for you.
"I Lost My Smile A Long Time Ago. Now I Go Everywhere Hoping Nobody Will Notice That This Isn't My Smile Anymore"
"I Was Abused When I Was 6 Or 7. I Can't Remember Which Age, But I Remember What The Abuser Did. He Drew Naked Figures, Showed Me Where To Touch, Made Me Touch Things... Things I Don't Want To Remember. I Didn't Know It Was Wrong Back Then, But I'm Grateful That It Didn't Go Any Further. It Left A Big Impact On Me And I Always Blamed Myself For It. I Got OCD After That. My Every Action Repeated, My Daily Routines Repeated. I Wash Repeatedly, Lock And Unlock Doors Repeatedly, Read My School Books Repeatedly. I Repeat Words 50 To 100 Times Till It Satisfies Me. It Affected My Life So Much, And No One Knew Why. And No One Knew Why"
You are not to blame and should not let it ruin your life, see a Counsellor for some help, trust me I know
"I Got Drugged And Raped By Someone I Knew And Can't Get Myself To Tell Anyone For Fear Of Victim Blaming. But On Most Days, I Can't Help But Victim Blame Myself"
make sure to get help for yourself, then decide what to do. You are not to blame.
"I Wrote Letters To My Girlfriend Every Day. Every Day Until Her Lung Cancer Took Her Away From Me"
Those words will mean she is never lost and shows how much she ment. She will have gone in knowing someone cared enough to make an effort for her
"I Like To Think The Best Of People But I Actually Think Most Humans Are Terrible"
Treat everyone as though they are good people - but only let them close when they prove to be good x
"I Created An Imaginary Friend As A Coping Mechanism For My Depression. Now I Want To Make Her Disappear But She Keeps Coming Back"
"I Got Rejected By My Friends Because They Think I’m Gay. I Tried Telling Them That I'm Not But I’m Starting To Realize They Might Be Right. I’m Lost Between Myself And Our Friendship"
"I Am Generally Thankful And Happy About What I've Got In My Life. But I Always Feel Like There Is A Black Hole In My Heart That No One Would Understand, Some Pain Just Won't Go Away And I'm Trying Hard To Live With It"
"I Am Constantly Thinking About What Other People Think Of Me. And I Don't Think That's Healthy"
I've come to the point, where I REALLY don't care, what other ppl think of me. I've always been different, in my looks and my interests...Only what you think of yourself, is important!
Same with me. In my class, I'm the weird girl who loves climbing trees and prefers the company of her dog, 3 degus and bunch of flying stick insects (which ruin her avocado tree) instead of the one of the loud gang going to the mall. I'm 15, I never wear make-up, my dream is to become field zoologist and I'm proud of it! I have the feeling that this woman lives in a society where anyone a bit different is discriminated in some way. The cures for this are two: Either move away or completely ignore everyone else.
Load More Replies...As you get older, the freedom of not caring what others think of you is wonderful.
Not really, darling. After a certain point, it becomes social anxiety, which is not something everyone does and an actual problem!
Load More Replies...at the end of the day, you need to be sure of yourself and have strong sense of who you are. don't let others tell you who you are or what they think of you. people may try to paint a picture of you based on who THEY want you to be. you know who you are - don't let go of that. improve and change yourself based off of you NOT others - not based off of what they would like you to be for their own selfish needs!
Same here, I have tried a lot of things to stop those thoughts, so far nothing works... My mind always goes back to the annoying thoughts.
Try reading The Four Agreements.... One of them is that other people's opinion of you is none of your business and has nothing to do with who you are, but is a reflection of themselves. Another is don't take anything personally, as people do things and say things that are actually about their own issues, etc.
"One Day, I Came Home From The University And My Mother Told Me To Cover Up My Legs In Front Of My Friends. She Didn't Want Them To Realize I Had Gained Weight And She Said She Was Just Protecting Me From Gossip. The Comment Didn't Leave My Mind And I've Been Bulimic Ever Since"
"I Don't Know What I Want..."
"Although The Nasty Rumors That Circulated About Me Were Untrue, I Don't Bother Correcting Them And Let People Think I'm Not A Virgin Anymore. But The Truth Is, I Haven't Even Had My First Kiss"
I smiled a little at this. You got a hard skin and that's what matters. you're true to yourself
"I'm Always The One Who Gets Left In A Relationship. I Thought I Was Okay. I Try To Convince Myself That I Am Okay. But There Are Nights When I Just Have Sudden Breakdowns And I Ask Myself So Many Questions. Is Something Wrong With Me... Am I Really Not Worth Fighting For?"
"I Don't Like My Close Friends Being Close With Other People"
"Many Years Ago, I Was So Broke That I Stole A Roll Of Toilet Paper From My Office"
"I'm A Perfectionist Who Isn't Perfect At All. It's Exhausting"
"My First Relationship Was A Physically And Emotionally Abusive One. When That Finally Ended, It Took Me A While To Get Used To The Idea That Love Can Actually Be Expressed In Ways Other Than What I Have Experienced"
"He Is The Love Of My Life But I Found That Out Too Late. Whenever There Is Snow, It Reminds Me Of Him"
"I'm So Self-Conscious That I Can't Even Go To The Grocery Without Comparing Myself To Other Women There"
Everyone feels the same and someone, somewhere would love to be you and have your life. Trust me on that one
"I Contributed To My Friends' Success And Resent Them For Not Including Me Once They Became Famous"
"I Am A Journalist Secretly Dating A High-profile And Controversial Public Official. If This Gets Out, I'm Almost Certain I'll Lose My Job"
"Father's Day Will Always Be The Time Of The Year I'll Envy Everybody For Posting How Great Their Dads Are. I Used To Be Sad About It But Now, I Think I Accepted That He Won't Be That Hero And Role Model Every Father Should Be"
"I Made Up An Entire Part Of My Life. People Believe Some Of The Things Actually Happened, But Really A Lot Of My Stories Are Fake"
"I’ve Cheated On Quite A Few Guys. And Now That I've Found The Love Of My Life, He Wasn't Ready For Me. He Was Seeing Me While He Was Seeing His Ex. If There's Any Way To Portray Karma In Its Purest, Most Painful And Justified Form, This Is It"
"I Can’t Stand The Ringing Of Bells. Every Time I Hear It, My Heart Beats Faster. It Reminds Me Of My Mom's Voice And The Bells On Her Keys That Would Ring Every Single Time She Comes Home. God Knows What She Had Done To Me"
"I Fall In Love Too Easily And Terribly Hard. I Don't Know If That's A Good Or Bad Thing"
"I Dont Have A Twitter Account But I Still Stalk Him On Twitter Just To Check How He's Doing. He Seems To Be Doing Fine. I'm Not..."
"I Overdo Things And I Constantly Make Myself The Center Of Attention Because I'm Terrified Of Being Forgotten"
"I Think I'll Never Find My Other Half Because I Have A Hard Time Expressing And Feeling Love; It Might Sound Weird But I Would Only Feel Love After Watching Films And Series Because Of The Beauty They Hold"
"Five Years Ago, I Caught My Third Girlfriend Cheating On Me. That Was The Time I Decided To Have A Boyfriend Instead"
“i Was Born Into A Culture That Never Accepted Me. Born To An Arab Father And A European Mother; I Am Constantly Fighting Two Sides Of My Identity. Anxiety And Depression Has Completely Taken Over Me”
"Sometimes I Feel Like I Am A Really Abusive Person That Only Use People For My Own Good. This Scares Me So Much"
"It's Been Two Years But I Still Think About My Ex Every Day. It's Cliche And Lame I Know. I Wish I Had A Better Secret"
Well I have 12 years, thinking of him, recently I find out he is getting married this year and its killing me, I wish that movie of jim carrey and kate winslet was true, that way I could erase that guy from brain😢
"I Have A Weird Obsession With Smelling The Scent Of Paper And Hearing The Sound While Flipping Through The Pages"
"I'm In The Military So I Can't Be Open About My Suicidal Thoughts. They Constantly Give You Training On Suicide Prevention But They Don't Get That Once You Make The Decision To Take Your Life Nothing Changes That Decision Unless You Have True Hope, And That's My Husband For Me. I Don't Think Very Many People Out There Have True Hope"
True indeed. Those who don't have hope just can't be saved without giving them it. Words don't matter in such cases much. But love goes a long way
"I've Posted Photos And Stories On Social Media To Show People How Interesting And Colorful My Life Is. However, It's Just The Total Opposite"
"I Haven't Been Posting Any Photo With My Face On It Since Last Year. I Feel Better Than Ever"
"My Bipolar Disorder Is Completely Out Of Control. No One Knows, Because I'm Good At Being Fine"
There's great medicine out there. I was lucky and with my first medication, I am almost entirely free from the crazy swings.
"I Tell My Close Friends A Lot Of Details About My Relationship Issues. I Can Never Tell If They Actually Do Care, Or If They're Just Pretending"
"I'm Ten Years Older Than My Sister But She's Marrying Someone My Age. I Tell People I'm Unhappy About The Age Difference, But I Think The Real Reason Is I Might Be Jealous"
"I Talk To Myself Everyday In The Mirror To Rehearse How My Day Would Likely Turn Out. Unfortunately, It Never Turns Out The Way I Planned"
"I'm On The Album Cover Of My Cheating, Lying, Sociopathic Ex-boyfriend. I'm Still Wondering If I Should Be Ashamed Or Proud"
"My Father Usually Takes My Milk After Coming Home Drunk And Suffering From Stomach Pain. One Night, I Said No To Him To Punish Him For His Drinking. A Week Later, He Had A Fatal Accident After Another Drink. I Really Feel Sorry For Not Offering My Dad The Milk That Night"
"I Never Learned How To Swim. So I Just Tell People That I Have Chlorine Allergy. It’s Quite Embarrassing"
"I'm Ashamed That I Take Pleasure In My Friends Fighting With Their Partners. It Makes Me Feel Better About Being Perpetually Single"
Most couples pretend their life is much more exciting than it is. Don't buy into it
"To This Day, Only My Boyfriend And I Know That I Was Pregnant At Age 18. Not Even My Poem On A Bathroom Door Was Interpreted Correctly By Strangers. The Secret Continues To Be Safe Between Us And The Hotel Room Where It Ended"
"I Buy Stuff I Can't Afford To Make People Believe I Am Someone Who I Am Not. They See Prada And Burberry While My Bank Account Is On The Verge Of Ruining My Life"
"Everyone Thinks I Can Drive But I Just Choose Not To. The Truth Is, I Never Pass The Test"
"I Got Drugged And Raped By Someone I Knew And Can't Get Myself To Tell Anyone For Fear Of Victim Blaming. But On Most Days, I Can't Help But Victim Blame Myself"
"I Am In Love With My Favorite Singer That Lives Halfway Across The World. I Often Write Her Letters And I'm Hoping We Can Be Friends One Day"
"I Like Playing With Other People's Feelings Because I'm Unsure About Mine"
Sometimes it's helpful to tell someone what you're going through even without trying to get help. I really hope these people overcome this.
@Hayley Lightcap Hey Hayley, this is a bit off-topic.... but I saw your comments in all the transgender-posts. You have a very good, informed stance on the topic. Spreading good information about transgender issues is something that is very important to me. I'd like to work together with someone to make the overal comment section on those posts better. If this is something you find interesting you can contact me via the info in my profile. (Sorry if this is awkward, but I saw you post often and thought I can give it a shot :O.)
Load More Replies...I added a few more :) you can see all 100 here - http://trnz.co/100-days-of-secrets/
Load More Replies...Some of those are heart breaking, others make me feel warm inside... Or both two feelings at once! People are so complicated and it's amazing what you can find inside an average human being's mind.
I barely glanced at the illustrations. The words were very powerful, and looking at cartoons of people's backs didn't add anything to the experience.
The stories are very moving. But illustrations aren't very impressive, to be honest.
So much sadness and fear, so much anguish. I hope that the people will find a way to heal.
I think many of us just don't want others to know how desperately sad we are all the time........
It sounds like you are suffering from chronic depression. I did also for many years. I talked to friends, then counselors, then a doctor who put me on antidepressants. That was 40 years ago. I spent the first 30 years of my life depressed and the last 41 so far feeling like I should feel. Find a good doctor who will help you feel better. I am now 71 years old and feel better about life than I did when I was young. Good luck and God bless you.
This post got me so much feels, I like that in the Illustrators own way, he was able to help and reach out to people struggling. I hope and I pray that to everyone who suffered enough, find the courage to move on and have the life they always dreamed of.
I go out of my way to be nice to people and to show them that kindness exists. They ask me why I do it and I tell them, then they ask me why do I never take credit in helping and I say that I don't want them to remember me. I just want them to remember the good and have a smile on their face. Then pass it on. The truth is, I am afraid of turning into my parents. I feel as if I am already there, and I never feel as if I deserve kindness because of it.
complete sweet b******t, with its made out of the thin finger visuals. Was expecting much more power in The Conception. B******t it is.
It's amazing art with a powerful message... But I hope your friends who trusted you with their secrets knew you were going to be doing this.
Hopefully these people will realize they should get help, after doing this.
I'm very certain he can, but decides not to, since it needs to contain an element of mystery, referring to the secrets that the individuals shared with the artist.
Load More Replies...One of the individuals was drugged and raped... Tell me how your "People inflict their own misery." still holds ground, La.
Load More Replies...What's your point? If people like and can relate to them, they have validation. You want them verified why? You apparently just don't get it
Load More Replies...Sometimes it's helpful to tell someone what you're going through even without trying to get help. I really hope these people overcome this.
@Hayley Lightcap Hey Hayley, this is a bit off-topic.... but I saw your comments in all the transgender-posts. You have a very good, informed stance on the topic. Spreading good information about transgender issues is something that is very important to me. I'd like to work together with someone to make the overal comment section on those posts better. If this is something you find interesting you can contact me via the info in my profile. (Sorry if this is awkward, but I saw you post often and thought I can give it a shot :O.)
Load More Replies...I added a few more :) you can see all 100 here - http://trnz.co/100-days-of-secrets/
Load More Replies...Some of those are heart breaking, others make me feel warm inside... Or both two feelings at once! People are so complicated and it's amazing what you can find inside an average human being's mind.
I barely glanced at the illustrations. The words were very powerful, and looking at cartoons of people's backs didn't add anything to the experience.
The stories are very moving. But illustrations aren't very impressive, to be honest.
So much sadness and fear, so much anguish. I hope that the people will find a way to heal.
I think many of us just don't want others to know how desperately sad we are all the time........
It sounds like you are suffering from chronic depression. I did also for many years. I talked to friends, then counselors, then a doctor who put me on antidepressants. That was 40 years ago. I spent the first 30 years of my life depressed and the last 41 so far feeling like I should feel. Find a good doctor who will help you feel better. I am now 71 years old and feel better about life than I did when I was young. Good luck and God bless you.
This post got me so much feels, I like that in the Illustrators own way, he was able to help and reach out to people struggling. I hope and I pray that to everyone who suffered enough, find the courage to move on and have the life they always dreamed of.
I go out of my way to be nice to people and to show them that kindness exists. They ask me why I do it and I tell them, then they ask me why do I never take credit in helping and I say that I don't want them to remember me. I just want them to remember the good and have a smile on their face. Then pass it on. The truth is, I am afraid of turning into my parents. I feel as if I am already there, and I never feel as if I deserve kindness because of it.
complete sweet b******t, with its made out of the thin finger visuals. Was expecting much more power in The Conception. B******t it is.
It's amazing art with a powerful message... But I hope your friends who trusted you with their secrets knew you were going to be doing this.
Hopefully these people will realize they should get help, after doing this.
I'm very certain he can, but decides not to, since it needs to contain an element of mystery, referring to the secrets that the individuals shared with the artist.
Load More Replies...One of the individuals was drugged and raped... Tell me how your "People inflict their own misery." still holds ground, La.
Load More Replies...What's your point? If people like and can relate to them, they have validation. You want them verified why? You apparently just don't get it
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