What are your barriers? You can do it!! 💪

Try laying on the kitchen floor with your arms and legs slightly spread and relaxed for fifteen minutes. Let the vertebrae crack themselves for a few minutes. If there’s no improvement over a few days, you might have a slipped vertebral disc. Whatever you do, DON’T POP YOUR BACK STANDING UP. Just in case.You don’t want sudden movement to cause further damage if that’s the case. May your back get well soon.

I hear you. I really do. Falling apart is the first step to coming back together, so you can figure out where the pieces go, when you need God to help you be whole again. Holding it together for too long is like holding a broken cup together. You’re getting cut, when instead you need and deserve someone to care and help you just lay it out on the table, and help to make comforting sense of it. And give you as much space or warmth as you need. You’re not whiny at all, you’re human. You deserve to have people there for you, because you’d do it for them. You sound like the kind of person who’s always being considerate, but often struggles to see that it’s your turn to be considered, seeing it as an inconvenience to others, rather than a sign of your equality. It’s not your fault. Whatever’s hurting you, it’s time to ask for the favor to be returned. You are NOT the A-hole if you do, under any circumstances. 😭

You’re not stupid at all. Your dignity has been disregarded so many times by life, and perhaps by people. I know what you’re going through is terrifying. I also have this condition. The only way to make peace with yourself is to challenge every negative voice that tries to call you worthless, stupid, or anything less than a worthy human. It’ll take years of challenging all that self hatred, of letting all those bottled up emotions free. But it’s worth it. Every lie you crush makes the load lighter. Each alter has a story, and feels as hurt as you. They won’t always make peace with you off the bat, but they are you’re brain’s way of encouraging self-compassion when you feel alone. If you can, take a day off each week to relax and self care. You don’t want to fight your trauma when exhausted. I hope that advice helps you. You deserved way better out of life. I’m so sorry. Children should never be traumatized. Nothing can ever make me believe you are to blame.