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Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Taylor is from Colorado, USA. Taylor’s young. She’s 22. She has always felt constant dysphoria with her own body, and she always strived to feel ok about herself. So she decided to change things. Radically. And, according to her, she’s succeeding, though she’s not completely there yet. Even though she has been going through hormone replacement therapy for over a year, she’s still in transition. Despite that, everyone can appreciate the stunning results already. Taylor can see and experience these changes firsthand; therefore, it’s best that she shares the story in her own words. Here it is:

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Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

“I guess I just feel like a real person now. Like, everything was gray before. I was alive, but I wasn’t living, if that makes sense. I was acting like a real person and doing things that real people did but everything felt pretend.

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Even just after starting hormones, the difference was astounding. I only had estrogen in my body for a couple of days and everything had noticeably changed. It was like an alarm had been ringing in the back of my head my entire life and I was so used to it that I thought it was normal, but all of a sudden it was gone and for the first time in my life I could actually LIVE and hear everything so clearly without the alarm drowning everything out. It was like I could see colors for the first time, like I’d never really smiled and I was just learning what it felt like, like I’d never noticed all the beautiful trees and flowers and weeds and rocks around me.Then, as my body started changing, I’d wake up every day excited to notice something new. My muscles I hated so much (I lifted weights a lot in my denial phase) were suddenly shrinking, my boobs were growing, my skin was softer and more sensitive to the touch. I’d bump my chest against the door frame ’cause I wasn’t used to having anything there to bump. A few months later, the same thing started happening with my hips.

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

I started seeing a real person in the mirror. Like the mask I’d worn my whole life was slowly fading away and each day my reflection made more and more sense.

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

I started experiencing emotions like I always wished I could. I experienced emotions I didn’t even know existed. I would cry at a cute meme on Instagram or a touching story from another trans girl and it felt like pure ecstasy. When I felt angry or sad, I didn’t have to bottle things up and let them out in bursts of anger. I could cry and feel and experience the sadness and feel it slowly melt away from me.

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

So I guess in summary, I feel ‘real’ now. I feel happy and right and content and grateful that I’m finally able to live as a real person.”

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

Transgender Girl Recorded Her MTF Journey For Over 2 Years, Finally Feels Happy

Image credits: tayloraves

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Hidrėlėy

Fascinated by music, movies and sitcoms, I'm passionate about social media and can't live without the internet, especially for all the cute dog and cat pictures out there. I wish the day had about 40 hours to be able to do everything I want.

Fascinated by music, movies and sitcoms, I'm passionate about social media and can't live without the internet, especially for all the cute dog and cat pictures out there. I wish the day had about 40 hours to be able to do everything I want.

Titas Burinskas

This dude right here? He works as a Community Manager at Bored Panda. Has no back-story, cause his spine works just fine. He writes about himself in third-person, and in first-person about others. Fell in love with storytelling and cannot let that love go. Now, he's here to help you make your own story simply beautiful. Secretly makes cute music samples and writes stories in the dark that nobody has ever heard of before.

This dude right here? He works as a Community Manager at Bored Panda. Has no back-story, cause his spine works just fine. He writes about himself in third-person, and in first-person about others. Fell in love with storytelling and cannot let that love go. Now, he's here to help you make your own story simply beautiful. Secretly makes cute music samples and writes stories in the dark that nobody has ever heard of before.

What do you think ?

Flisey 4 years ago

Gives hope to those just starting their journey <3 My daughter started out as a sad little boy and is now a happy young lady, seeing stories like this gave her hope

159points

Elsahthescienceguy 4 years ago (edited)

Zergo. As a non-binary person, I can say truthfully that gender is all in your head. People like you make me sick. I don’t think you realize that a lot of transgender people such as myself (yes non-binary does classify as transgender) go through their whole life being tormented by there own minds. It’s not up to you about what I feel, or identify As. Same thing applys to the whole transgender community. I’m twelve years old, smarter than you, and damn proud to be part of the LGBTQ+ community.

41points

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Jan Feline 4 years ago (edited)

Zergo - you have said the same thing over and over. We know how you feel. Your comments about voting for Trump are irrelevant. Huge logical fallacy coming from someone who claims to know about science. All you are doing by repeating yourself is racking up downvotes.

32points

Sheila Crosby 4 years ago

Zergo you're forgetting several things. 1) The biology of sex and gender is waaaaaaay more complicated than most people think. What you learned as a kid at school is the kiddie version. Taylor got half her DNA from a woman. The sex specific part of DNA is tiny, and not just on the X and Y chromosomes. The DNA for things like body hair is all over a bunch of different chromosomes. In fact, occasionally the DNA for "Make testicles" winds up on an X chromosome (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/XX_male_syndrome) 2) Our DNA doesn't change at puberty, but our bodies do. My body changed quite a bit again at menopause. What does change is the hormones involved.What makes a transwoman taking hormones so different from a cis woman with polycyctic ovaries, or an older woman taking HRT? They're all looking to be happier. 3) The US constitution is supposed to guarentee "the pursuit of happiness." I think defending the constitution is anti-Trump, myself.

21points

Carol Emory 4 years ago

Hey Zergo...who pissed in your cornflakes this morning? What do you care what someone else does with their own body? Does it hurt or harm you in anyway? Is anyone asking to compromise who you are by being who they are? You really need to review your own life to see what makes you so bitter and judgmental. No one forced this young person to do anything they didn't want to. If this person chooses to be called HE or SHE...it is up to them..not you.

26points

Taylor Chilcote 4 years ago

awwwww omg that makes me so happy 😊😊😊

23points

Pamela24 4 years ago

Congrats on being an awesome parent, Flisey! :) Warmed my heart to read this!

8points

Taylor Chilcote 4 years ago

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5points

Jovan Janevski 4 years ago

You are so better than other people in every possible way.

0points

Elsahthescienceguy 4 years ago

To Rhonda Harris. I apologize if I offended you in anyway! I was and still am very upset with Zergo. To have someone tell my community that we do not exist is sad, and makes me want to cry. Christy Smith. Screw you. Aarush. I did not mean to make it come across as if I was trying to convince someone else if their gender was in their head. I apologize if i came across like that. Ann Smith Jones. Thank you. I TRULY appreciate your comment. (Not). Tres d. Science actually states that being transgender is when in the womb your brain develops as one gender, but your body develops as another. So science is in my side. And also you seem to be a very religious person. How do you believe in science if Jesus supposedly made the earth. Because science says that the Big Bang made the earth, and to a lot of Jesus people think that science is a sin. Also Christy Smith why are you talking to a child like that? If you are an adult, you should be the bigger person and not say anything.

-1point

Zergolonoz Menieanaris 4 years ago

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Isabella 4 years ago

Just by her eyes you can see she went from feeling miserable and unsure to happy, quirky, bubbly girl <3 What a change! You go girl <3

91points

Taylor 4 years ago

thank you!!! I always wonder how people can look at our eyes in transition timeline pics and continue to bash us and call us freaks. HRT saves lives, it certainly saved mine :)

80points

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Isle_of_stressed_pilots 4 years ago

I love her transformation! Also i'm sorry but i'm laughing so hard at Zergo's responses. Imagine being that ignorant and pissed and have so much free time that you actively click on a BP link and then COMMENT TO EVERY SINGLE POSITIVE COMMENT IN ORDER TO TEAR THEM DOWN. Imagine being so ignorant that you don't know the difference between sex and gender, and try to "educate" people without being an actual medical practitioner. What a quim he is lol

43points

Taylor 4 years ago

being open about my transition and active on social media has unfortunately brought a lot of hate messages/death threats. some people just can't stand someone different from them being happy in their own skin. I'm used to it though, and I honestly feel pity for people like this guy. I can't imagine feeling so much hatred that you'd go out of your way to tear someone down. it's unfortunate, although sadly all too common

57points

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*sigh*, The Yellow Teletubby 4 years ago

YESSSS like how much time does he have?? I mean yes, I'm responding to his stuff because I don't want to do my homework... but still.

3points

Myxomatosis 4 years ago

I love his "no-ledge" on the 'Merican language as well. If you're going to troll at least do it with intelligence! **TAYLOR I LOVE YOU AND YOUR "BALLS" FOR TAKING CARE OF YOU!**

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Flisey 4 years ago

Gives hope to those just starting their journey <3 My daughter started out as a sad little boy and is now a happy young lady, seeing stories like this gave her hope

159points

Elsahthescienceguy 4 years ago (edited)

Zergo. As a non-binary person, I can say truthfully that gender is all in your head. People like you make me sick. I don’t think you realize that a lot of transgender people such as myself (yes non-binary does classify as transgender) go through their whole life being tormented by there own minds. It’s not up to you about what I feel, or identify As. Same thing applys to the whole transgender community. I’m twelve years old, smarter than you, and damn proud to be part of the LGBTQ+ community.

41points

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Jan Feline 4 years ago (edited)

Zergo - you have said the same thing over and over. We know how you feel. Your comments about voting for Trump are irrelevant. Huge logical fallacy coming from someone who claims to know about science. All you are doing by repeating yourself is racking up downvotes.

32points

Sheila Crosby 4 years ago

Zergo you're forgetting several things. 1) The biology of sex and gender is waaaaaaay more complicated than most people think. What you learned as a kid at school is the kiddie version. Taylor got half her DNA from a woman. The sex specific part of DNA is tiny, and not just on the X and Y chromosomes. The DNA for things like body hair is all over a bunch of different chromosomes. In fact, occasionally the DNA for "Make testicles" winds up on an X chromosome (https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/XX_male_syndrome) 2) Our DNA doesn't change at puberty, but our bodies do. My body changed quite a bit again at menopause. What does change is the hormones involved.What makes a transwoman taking hormones so different from a cis woman with polycyctic ovaries, or an older woman taking HRT? They're all looking to be happier. 3) The US constitution is supposed to guarentee "the pursuit of happiness." I think defending the constitution is anti-Trump, myself.

21points

Carol Emory 4 years ago

Hey Zergo...who pissed in your cornflakes this morning? What do you care what someone else does with their own body? Does it hurt or harm you in anyway? Is anyone asking to compromise who you are by being who they are? You really need to review your own life to see what makes you so bitter and judgmental. No one forced this young person to do anything they didn't want to. If this person chooses to be called HE or SHE...it is up to them..not you.

26points

Taylor Chilcote 4 years ago

awwwww omg that makes me so happy 😊😊😊

23points

Pamela24 4 years ago

Congrats on being an awesome parent, Flisey! :) Warmed my heart to read this!

8points

Taylor Chilcote 4 years ago

This comment has been deleted.

5points

Jovan Janevski 4 years ago

You are so better than other people in every possible way.

0points

Elsahthescienceguy 4 years ago

To Rhonda Harris. I apologize if I offended you in anyway! I was and still am very upset with Zergo. To have someone tell my community that we do not exist is sad, and makes me want to cry. Christy Smith. Screw you. Aarush. I did not mean to make it come across as if I was trying to convince someone else if their gender was in their head. I apologize if i came across like that. Ann Smith Jones. Thank you. I TRULY appreciate your comment. (Not). Tres d. Science actually states that being transgender is when in the womb your brain develops as one gender, but your body develops as another. So science is in my side. And also you seem to be a very religious person. How do you believe in science if Jesus supposedly made the earth. Because science says that the Big Bang made the earth, and to a lot of Jesus people think that science is a sin. Also Christy Smith why are you talking to a child like that? If you are an adult, you should be the bigger person and not say anything.

-1point

Zergolonoz Menieanaris 4 years ago

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Isabella 4 years ago

Just by her eyes you can see she went from feeling miserable and unsure to happy, quirky, bubbly girl <3 What a change! You go girl <3

91points

Taylor 4 years ago

thank you!!! I always wonder how people can look at our eyes in transition timeline pics and continue to bash us and call us freaks. HRT saves lives, it certainly saved mine :)

80points

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Isle_of_stressed_pilots 4 years ago

I love her transformation! Also i'm sorry but i'm laughing so hard at Zergo's responses. Imagine being that ignorant and pissed and have so much free time that you actively click on a BP link and then COMMENT TO EVERY SINGLE POSITIVE COMMENT IN ORDER TO TEAR THEM DOWN. Imagine being so ignorant that you don't know the difference between sex and gender, and try to "educate" people without being an actual medical practitioner. What a quim he is lol

43points

Taylor 4 years ago

being open about my transition and active on social media has unfortunately brought a lot of hate messages/death threats. some people just can't stand someone different from them being happy in their own skin. I'm used to it though, and I honestly feel pity for people like this guy. I can't imagine feeling so much hatred that you'd go out of your way to tear someone down. it's unfortunate, although sadly all too common

57points

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*sigh*, The Yellow Teletubby 4 years ago

YESSSS like how much time does he have?? I mean yes, I'm responding to his stuff because I don't want to do my homework... but still.

3points

Myxomatosis 4 years ago

I love his "no-ledge" on the 'Merican language as well. If you're going to troll at least do it with intelligence! **TAYLOR I LOVE YOU AND YOUR "BALLS" FOR TAKING CARE OF YOU!**

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