I have two children. My daughter Jewlia is turning 21 this year and my son is going to be 19. When they were 3 and 1 years of age due to my addiction to drugs and alcohol I basically destroyed our relationship by abandoning both and moving clear across the country.

I never looked back until I decided to get sober 6 years ago. Their mother (my ex-wife) passed away at the age of 32. When I went back to attend her funeral I finally met my daughter and son again as teenagers. It was a surreal experience.

Then slowly over the years I would struggle with my sobriety going in and out of the rooms of AA. I then when I was at times very drunk would text with my children and sever any chance of me being in their lives by being disgustingly abusive. Driving them further and further away until they both decided not to answer text messages, phone calls, social media messages or basically anything connecting us. They decided to block me on all social platforms.

I completely understand why they did this. It does hurt that I caused did cause this unintentionally of course but nonetheless it does still hurt. I’m think that I did hurt them very badly and I am so sorry for that.

I have now been sober for a one year. And day by day I pray I can make it through and be able to repair the damage I have caused.

My daughter Jewlia and son Andrew

My son HATES photos. This is the only photo I have of him.

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