Not all secrets are equal. Far from it! Some are as simple as who stole the last cookie from the jar (though that can still make us feel incredibly bad). Others deal with the dark past of your family, immense feelings of guilt, and trying to hide some truly awful things that you’d done. Today, we’ll be taking a look at the latter.

We’ve collected the most impactful and uncomfortable secrets that people shared in a thread on r/AskReddit. They’d promised to themselves that they’d take these secrets to the grave with them, but they found an anonymous outlet for at least some of their guilty feelings.

Scroll down to read the stories, and let us know which of these shocked you the most, Pandas. If you have anything that you’d like to get off your chests, the comment section also works as a confessional. Now, shall we go feel very uncomfortable and tackle some complex feelings we’d probably rather not feel?

Suzanne Degges-White, Ph.D., was kind enough to shed a light on why we feel guilty and why it feels good to confess something that we'd been keeping a secret. Suzanne is a Licensed Counselor, Professor, and Chair at the Department of Counseling and Higher Education at Northern Illinois University. She told Bored Panda that guilt is an emotion that we learn very early on in life.

#1

30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else Well for a while last year i was planning on [taking my own life], with a note typed out on google docs, how to leave the rest of my room to be the least inconvenience to my family, etc. Doing much better now, went on antidepressants, weaned myself off, just trying to land a job so i can actually get started with my life. Feeling good about the future :)

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Call Me Mars
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3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

This one hit me. My friend tried to kill himself a few days ago and now has to be followed around at school. If I could have done something I could have. All I can do now is be there for him. I'm horrible at making people feel better, but I would have tried my hardest for my friend.

Legen ( wait for it ) dary
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

"I'm horrible at making people feel better" in this case, nothing you can say will help your friend feel better, but be there for him oooh this will do wonderful things to his heart and soul.be there with him and for him is the most important.

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Anna Snorrepot
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I told our family doctor and help started rolling in :) You can tell someone. For example the people at the suicide phoneline. They don't judge. They don't try to persuade you. They listen :)

Jo Frey
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

So happy you are still here! But please, don't avoid taking antidepressants (you said you weaned yourself off). Depression is a matter of *chemistry,* not character. The chemicals in the antidepressants help you to be your best self. There are different types of antidepressants that work better for different people. Zoloft works best for me, whereas Prozac turned me into an indifferent zombie. For my dad, it's exactly the opposite--- Zoloft numbed him to the world, but Prozac worked miracles. Counseling, when you have the right therapist, is also a great tool for changing your thinking into healthy growing patterns. Keep on doing your best, and use the tools available to you. You're the only you we have. Be a blessing where you can. Peace.

Angela B
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I am glad you are here. I mean that from the bottom of my heart. I wish you peace and strength.

Tessb90
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Speaking from someone who has been in the same headspace, I'm really glad that you're here to write this. If all you can do for the day is to get through it, that is a massive achievement. When it comes time to go to bed, just keep reminding yourself that not a whole lot will change whilst you're sleeping, and it's worth at least seeing tomorrow. If you're asking yourself why you need to wake up tomorrow, at least it's not likely to be any worse than the day you just survived. If you don't wake up tomorrow, there is nothing that you can do from there. Even if it's an endless cycle, you're getting stronger every single day, even if your head doesn't buy into it.

Alan Green
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

I noticed the original post is 6 years old but CptBarbosa continued to post on reddit for years after so it seems things are alright.

Helen X
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Wow. Sending a big hug your way. So glad you didn’t go through with it. 🤗

SuperChicken
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3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

Bravo! Keep the optimism outlook in life.

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"Parents often try to use guilt to get their kids to 'fess up' or do the right thing," Professor Degges-White, from Northern Illinois University, told Bored Panda.

The professor explained that guilt triggers the part of the brain that's associated with our empathy for others, so we're holding back information from someone we care about, we become focused on how this lack of honesty affects our relationship with others. This works similarly for when we let someone down.

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    #2

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else We had an old cat growing up named Tuna. He was 16 or 17 and had a long and happy life but was really deteriorating. My mom did not want him put down as it was her cat and she seemed to be in denial about how decrepit and near death this cat was. One day she comes home from the store and my dad calmly tells her that he found Tuna dead under a tree in the sun. She was happy he died peacefully and on his own terms. What she doesn't know is that she actually ran him over as she was leaving for the store. She obviously didn't feel him under the tire but my mom killed her cat and we all lied about him dying in his sleep.

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    Rod
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    When I started to read I was sure the Dad would secretly take the cat to the vet to be taken care of gently. I did not see the end coming and I'm horrified.

    Gina Babe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I was right there with you, then a quick twist I didn't anticipate

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    Petra Moon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It’s best she never knows.

    SuperChicken
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Oh, wow. That's a really sad twist of fate. I agree not to tell the Mom. Sometimes, things are best left the way it is.

    TheAquarius1978
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Dude as some One that loves cats, if that happened to me it would be worst than running Over a person ( not even kidding ) i Run Over a cat once, didn't kill it i saw it running away from the car, and it left me f... up for a few days.

    Down With Agent Hedgehog!
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I would definitely need therapy if I ran over a single CAT or any animal. Not sure would need it if harms person. Call me cold-hearted, but I think it’s true. I’d just feel really really sorry for the person with the slight injuries, but if I ever NEARLY ran over a cat I’d be traumatized.

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    Helen X
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Don’t ever tell her. It will break her heart and nothing good will come out of it.

    Trisha Howson
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm glad she don't know, don't never tell her. That would break he heart.

    Veronica Alejandre
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Some things really do have to be kept a secret from others for the best and this is one of those cases. If she couldn't let her cat go it would have been worse if and she would have been forever traumatized if she knew she was the one who killed him.

    Carla Phillips
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Good decision. Don't ever tell her.

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    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else Throw away because some friends know my username. My dad had bowel cancer, he fought it for a few years but we eventully realised that the chemo was losing. They set up to make him comfortable, this included one of those little automatic dosage machines that hopped him up on morphene every so often so he wasn't in pain. By the end he could barely speak, couldn't move, his stomach was distended because he hadn't s**t in... f**k I can't even remember how long. Close to the end the morphene would become less effective faster than the doctors/ nurses could come around to up the dose, it was so distressing for my mum hearing my dad in pain that the nurse showed her how to increase the dose on the machine herself in case he woke up in pain. Me and my sister are pretty sure that the night he died, after we had all said good night to him, my mum increased his dosage... quite a bit higher than she should have done. Nothing was ever said, by my mum, the nurses or the doctors, but we're pretty sure... **If** she did do it, I understand why and I don't blame her, I'm actually quite glad because my dad was suffering, and it was just f*****g awful to see him in so much pain and not be able to do anything. Anyway, that's sufficiently depressed me first thing in the morning and I'm sure this will get buried anyway. Never logging into this account again...

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    Ewelina Rydzewska
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I hope someone would do this for me if I was in the same situation.

    Gijs van Gaans
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    In the Netherlands, in very clear defined circumstances and when the patient with a clear mind has explicitly expresses so, euthanasia is allowed. In cases like this, I believe euthanasia is a good option; it prevents unnecessary suffering

    Kara Born
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    People should be able to 'go out' on their own terms. If the person is close to me I wouldn't like it, but I'd understand why they would have made the choice

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    Penny Fan
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I suspect that's exactly why the nurses showed OPs mum how to increase the does. They know what they're doing

    Lyone Fein
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Alot of people do this. When loved ones are dying of cancer or other painful diseases the medical staff shows the family members how to work the morphine drip.

    LuckyL
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That's how a friend's dad died, with the help of a doctor - who legally wasn't allowed to do it. But did it anyway because the father didn't want to die a painful death due to cancer.

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    Cathelijne Van
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Our doctor said this (same thing happened with my sister in law): Please remember that it is the cancer that killed them. If they were a healthy person he would probably easily have taken the dose. Therefore you can conclude that cancer is the one that killed him and not the morphine. It is something many people think though and not necessary

    Christos Arvanitis
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This is quite common I think that the care team provides very ready access to morphine at end of life to help to accelerate the inevitable. I was the caretaker for ,my girlfriend in the end stages of terminal cancer. When she came home for her final hours, days, who knows... they gave me oral morphine on a sort of sponge on a stick and told me not to be shy about using it. Sort of with a compassionate nod. She could have lived in excruciating pain for what? A few more hours? Days? I gave her comfort by swabbing her mouth. She passed peacefully and pain free. There is nothing more intimate than helping somebody at the end of their life. It changed me, in a good way, forever.

    Debby B
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm a hospice volunteer, and what you said about intimacy at the end of someone's life is exactly right. You're a good person.

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    Joshua Moon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    A death with dignity should be a right for every person.

    Jrose Roseyrose
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I work in healthcare. This is how it is done at the end. It's one of the secrets we keep. It was probably just his time and not your mother's doing. It is merciful that we have palliative medicine.

    Katy McMouse
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My mum's hospice nurse explained why pain meds and antipsyoctic meds were important part of the end of life. When the time came, she sat me down and told me that in order for a timely and peaceful passing, a person's body and mind need to be relaxed. She explained that pain and delusions kept a patient in a state of anxiety, so much so that the body is too tense and the mind too active to allow for the process of death to start. I guess that meant the body naturally fights this process and administering meds more often than prescribed takes a weakened and sick body to the point where the process can begin. The morning my mum passed, she wasn't conscious enough to even take the dropper with the morphine, so luckily I didn't have to make the decision to actually "overdose" her to save her any more pain and agitation. Just giving her more medication throughout the days prior to her death was a bit of relief for both of us. I could finally help her be really comfortable.

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    RandomCitizen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It's almost an unwritten rule that the amount of morphine needed to stop pain will never be looked at as the cause of death. It's always the cancer that kills, not the morphine, on the paperwork.

    Cathelijne Van
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    But it isn't it true though? Wouldn't these increasing dosages be very tolerable for a healthy person?

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    Paul Upton
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Me & my siblings had a similar plan in place for my Dad (his request) with Oramorph but we were too late as he coupd no longer swallow and he suffered for a few days longer. The more you talk about this, the more you realise people feel the same way.

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    "Guilt is a feeling that results when we've engaged in activities that are harming or distressing other people. As a rule, people don't take pleasure in harming other people—especially the people they are close to," she said.

    According to Professor Degges-White, confessing secrets helps get rid of the cognitive dissonance that we'd been dealing with. "When we 'fess up' about the knowledge that we've been holding onto—whatever secret we were keeping or white lie we were telling—it removes a great deal of cognitive dissonance and we feel better about being honest than we did when we were intentionally withholding information from another," she explained to Bored Panda.

    #4

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My father bought me a beautiful Fender Stratocaster for my 15th Birthday. It was unique and gorgeous. I sold it to a guitar shop when I was 20 because I needed the cash. I never had the heart to tell him. I even found one exactly like it almost 10 years later, after I had become financially stable. I bought it in an instant. He still thinks I have the guitar he got me for my birthday. I still don't have the heart to tell him.

    cobhc83 , Yurii Stupen Report

    Jaekry
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Agreed, there is no gain, other than relieve your possible guilt. You made other choices made back then, either stupid or sound. :)

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    Ralica K.
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He's a parent, he would understand even if he knew. Most importantly you got yourself out of a situation with your dad's help, in whichever form. That counts more to him than the guitar

    Destiny Thornton
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I would totally be ok if my son sold something I bought him if he were in a pinch, although I would hope he would come to me first for help. I like this response. 👍

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    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He doesn't need to know.

    TCW Sam Vimes
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You still have his guitar in your heart, or you would not have bought it back. All that counts is this

    Jonathan Zagrodnik
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Sad story yes... BUT WHY IS THE PICTURE OF A TELE WHEN THE STORY IS ABOUT A STRAT?!

    Mark Kelly
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I mean, there's no really need to tell him. I'm sure even if you told him at the time you needed money he would have given you some.

    Anita Kochyle
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He doesn't need to know, nothing would be accomplished that would benefit him.

    Karl Baxter
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Erm, that’s a Telecaster in the photo…

    Caitlin Davenport
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    How do you know it's not the same guitar?

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    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else About 10 years ago I met my now wife and her 2 year old daughter that was a product of a r*pe. After falling in love with her, I decided to adopt the little girl under the condition that we tell everyone that we had a one night stand and I got her pregnant and she couldn't find me for 2 years. I don't like lying about paternity but I love this little girl so much I couldn't even fathom the idea of her growing up and finding out how she came to be. My family has big mouths so I will never let them find out. Now my parents call me the family whore and make jokes about it and it f**king pisses me off. But I love her and treat her like I treat my own son. As a bonus, the entire reason I married my wife was to adopt her daughter. We've been married for 8 years now and my daughter is now 12. She never questions it and I will never let anyone find out the truth. It could ruin my life.

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    3 years ago

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    Leoninus Fate
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    if she thinks her whole life is a lie then she didnt deserve any of his love at all, cause HE was her father no matter what, that r@pest was a "doner" NOT a Father

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    Jason Mixon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    If your daughter ever learns the truth, make it clear that the only thing you don't share are your genes. Your love for her has not changed, the effort you took to raise her did not change, and the time you had (and will) spend together has not changed. You are actually better than her biological father. If she feels her life was a lie, remind her of the truth. "Family" is more than just genes.

    Brandon Marlowe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Beautifully stated, Jason. Thank you for a bright spot in a somewhat bleak thread this morning.

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    Savannah Newman
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My son is the product of rape. My husband and I are white and he has Native American and Black genes so there will be no hiding that he is not genetically my husband's. But even if that were not the case I will not lie to him about his origins. That will cause so many more issues then telling him the truth. He has a happy life full of love and curiosity! He saved our lives. I do worry how to tell him. He is 4 now and has not noticed he looks different from his parents and sister. I will give him age appropriate information when he asks for it. The lie could be much more devastating than the truth. I wish your family the best!

    FinkAdele
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Best of luck for your family, that seems inevitable situation.

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    G
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    "It could ruin my life." I appreciate that a lot of people will think this person did the right thing, and maybe they did in a lot of ways, but it's not just about them. There could be health things that come up and she finds out they aren't her father or, like somebody else suggested, they could do DNA testing and find out they have been lied to. This is a really tricky situation.

    LH25
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I don't totally get the leap from the rape to the dad having to have been him. Couldn't they just have said it was a one-night stand with someone else? That would deal with the DNA/genetic issues.

    Daffodil
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    They might've just wanted to avoid any comments about it not really being his child or something stupid like that

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    Jennifer H
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'd tell her when she was over 21 so she can handle the blow. With all of these dna tests and family history effecting health and our offspring it is important.

    Arwen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Genetic testing is becoming more and more common, both for medical reasons and curiosity about ancestry, so tbh I very much doubt this kind of secret can be kept. In another ten years, it’s possible DNA tests will be the norm for almost everyone.

    Tina B
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    DNA tests will out you some day.

    anarkzie
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    "The family whore", what sort of people say that about their own family members?

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    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else The real reason I don't talk to my mum is because she called me at 3 am one day, after she'd had a fight with her boyfriend and I had to run to her house and wrestle the pill bottle out of her hand to stop her from trying to [take her life] by OD'ing again. She refused to get help, we'd had her committed several times, and I couldn't handle the burden, at 19, of being the one physically stopping her.

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    JJ
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Which is totally valid. A child (even at the age of 19) should not have to carry the burden to be responsible for their parents, esp. not for them staying alive. (I mean, it's fine if you - as an adult! - decide to do it) My mother has multiple severe mental and physical disorders. I felt responsible for her my entire childhood, this continued even when I moved out. I was let down by relatives with that burden because "that's what girls/daughters have to do" and "You have to be careful with your mum and take good care of her". F*ck that! A child deserves their own life.

    Nathan Wolfe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My mother had severe depression, to the point she'd sit at her computer for days on end playing toontown when I was younger. It never really dawned on me that there was an issue because she was still smiling and seemed happy. But I'd come home from school, do my homework, make dinner, do my chores, then go to bed. That would be my life for weeks, sometimes months on end. I'd make sure she ate, I'd make sure she showered, I'd make sure she did what needed doing. To be fair, this was really only while my step dad was overseas (military). When he was home, I'd act up because I didn't get much attention, and I spent a lot of time in trouble. But yeah, I get you. But because of that childhood, I'm now a far better SAHD than my wife is a SAHM. So now I make sure my wife has her meals, I make sure she takes her meds, I provide for my kid, even through my own depression. Because I've been there. I won't make my kid parent me.

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    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I always felt like I had to take responsibility for my brother's mental issues. If he had an episode, I felt it was my fault. I grew up letting him beat the s**t out of me so he wouldn't hurt anyone else. Even when he died, when I was 30, a part of me felt guilty for not taking better care of him.

    Pg130
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I don't think you should feel guilty. Matter of fact, you should be somewhat angry that your parents did not step in and stop your sibling from beating you up.

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    Trisha Howson
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It is hard I had to put my sister in a home. My dad wouldn't take care of her and she mental health issues that got real bad. And I was afraid something bad would happen to her I was 23 with three kids. And I couldn't take care of her. But I had to put her in a home and I don't talk to my dad anymore because he called me one night. And had to drive him to the police station to help find my sister cause she had ran away and he was worried about her. And he had to sign a paper because she was over 18. And he wouldn't do I had to. And that when it really came to light that dad didn't care that much. Because she could of been hurt, kidnapped, raped, list goes on. An I didn't want that on my hands. So I put her in a home so I know she is safe

    Katie Andrews
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Parentification is a type of abuse.

    William Beier
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Thank you for taking care of YOURSELF! For your sanity, you have to distance yourself from her which you said you did. You've given yourself permission to distance. Try to ignore criticisms of others. Unfortunately, your mom will probably do what she wants. Don't allow yourself to be put on a guilt trip.

    Mark Kelly
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You can only do so much for someone.

    Electra Complex
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Why are we not allowed to say suicide? "Died by suicide" is a much more appropriate term than "took their own life."

    Jude Bennett
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I feel the fact that she rang you was the cry for help otherwise she would have just done the deed. Not fair to place this burden on you at such a young age.

    FinkAdele
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Cry for attention, I am afraid... Not good from a parent to child, the parent is already centre of the world for child.

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    Jorocky
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    3 years ago

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    So she has mental health problem and your response is to stop talking to her. Sounds like she is better off without you.

    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    There's only so much you can do if the person refuses to get help, you sometimes have to take a step back to maintain your own sanity. I've been on both sides and it's really difficult.

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    "Whether it's nurture or nature, most people do not enjoy lying by omission or commission to others—honesty is a quality that most cultures value. Even when we're confessing to something that we feel shame for having done, the cognitive dissonance that's removed when we tell the truth and reveal the secret can be tremendous."

    The truth can set us free. We really do feel better when we’ve confessed to doing something wrong or when we decide to talk about what’s been bothering us. However, at the same time, it’s inevitable that some individuals from our social circle will look at us differently.

    Whether because they realize that we’re not the people they came to know or due to how our family history might make them feel very uneasy. Sometimes, withholding certain information and going for white lies is the right way forward. It all really depends on the specific situation. There’s really no one-size-fits-all approach here: you’ve got to decide what’s best for you and your nearest and dearest.

    #7

    For about seven to ten years I was sexually abused by my dad. No one else in my family knows and I have never told anyone about it. I do not know exactly when it started but it has at least been going on for as long as I can remember. The last time I remember it happening was when I was 10, in a hotel room when we were on our last family vacation before my parents split up. It was never intercourse, but he touched/kissed/licked my body. I remember when I was maybe 7 years old and I kept thinking that maybe when I turned 13 dad would r*pe me and I might get pregnant. The disgusting part is that I always really liked my dad when I was a kid. I never understood what was happening so I couldn't grasp that it was wrong. I lost contact with him for a few years when he lived with a truly disturbed and mean woman, but nowadays I do talk to him and meet him occasionally. I feel really weird about it... part of me wants to scream and cry because he really ruined me, but another part of me wants to just forget and put it all behind me. I hate that I still like him. I hate that I get so happy when he calls to wish me happy birthday. I hate that I just really want to have a dad. Today I'm 18 and very afraid of boys/men. I can't trust anyone and I never feel safe. I am very desperate for attention and affection, but I get absolutely terrified whenever a male pays me any attention. I get uncomfortable and wonder what he wants from me. No one ever loves someone genuinely without having some dark motives. Sorry if this was long, but long story short: I was sexually abused by my own dad for several years. It f****d me up and I don't even hate him.

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    Lyone Fein
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I am sorry for what you have been through. You need to know that the things your father did have nothing to do with what kind of person you are or whether you are a good person or not. It is natural to have mixed feelings and thoughts toward him. I have a similar background with my father, and yet I have tons of "happy" dreams about him. Just cut yourself some slack. Be kind to yourself. He's the a*****e and sick weirdo. Not you.

    FinkAdele
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    True. His fault. Not childs fault for having good memories or wanting to have dad (without the wrong touch...). I don't know if it is even possible to forgive to yourself for having good feeling toward abuser - but I strongly feel it should be possible, to forgive yourself, but not forget.

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    Annie Bieber
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Please, PLEASE...Do not keep this a "Secret", this person may be molesting other children. I was told at 3 if I said anything my Mother wouldn't love me anymore, as an adopted child this was my greatest fear. My father died when I was 11. I DID keep the secret hidden so deep it became a repressed memory. That was until I was a self destructive 18yo hell bent on killing the pain, and frankly myself, when a roommate, Bless him, told me to see a therapist or I had to move out. Both the roomie & therapist saved my life. I wish I had said something, three of my siblings did self destruct and that is on my heart forever. These Monsters NEED to be exposed for the safety of others. Please 🙏.

    Marcia Ferris
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It is NOT your fault he got to your sibling. You did the best you could to survive. I am very sorry for all that happens to you and your siblings.

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    Jennifer H
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Sweetheart. This happened to me as well. It started when I was 5. By the time I was 10 I thought the abuse was normal so in the end before I was 12 many men took advantage of me. It took therapy to get though it. My dad passed away two years ago. I never spoke to him about it at all. I never let my children both boys alone with him or anyone else for that matter. PTSD in relationships is very hard. I ended up with a guy I met when I was 8 and he never abused me.

    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Lyone is right. No matter what he did, he's still your father, and you want to love and be loved by him. Sadly, that's not realistic at this point. I hope you find the help you need to get through what he did to you and to find a way to move past it. Please know that none of what he did was in ANY way your fault.

    Nathan Wolfe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Aye. I'm a guy, and I've tried discussing my SA a few times. But 1 of 3 things always happens. Most commonly, I get laughed at. 2nd, I get told to man up. 3rd, I get treated like I'm made of glass for the rest of that "hang out", then ignored and dropped as a friend. But long story short, as a kid, I was forced to recieve a**l by our neighbor (I was 5, he was 47). More recently, I was drugged and R-'d at a party. Once by a girl and once by her boyfriend. She got pregnant and tried to sue me for child support. dna showed it wasn't mine. I still was on the hook for trying to prove SHE wanted it (my case of being R-'d was laughed out, despite the + drug test). And I was nearly unalived by 3 former girlfriends. So now I'm terrified of women, I never leave my house except to go to work. I'm at a point now where I'm ready to eat a barrel if one more woman says I did something I didn't.

    Agnes Jekyll
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Nathan, I'm really sorry. Would you consider reaching out to a therapist? There are also call-in centres for men who have been abused. You need to be surrounded by love and support.

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    Anton
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You are scared of losing him. That he will permanently shut the door in your face if you confront him. He prays everyday that you have forgotten about it, but you havent and never will. You have to talk to someone, go see a professional therapist or someone you trust who can guide you step by step on what to do to get truth out. Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come forth later in uglier ways.

    carlita
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That is awful, I am so sorry that happened to you.

    Leoninus Fate
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    oh hun....I deal with people/teens/children like you on the aftermath of this..... Tell someone, Dont keep it to yourself, Pull people that support you and go to him and tell him what he did was wrong and how it made you feel then drop him for a while {in case you still want somthing to do with him, cause oddly some people do}

    Aniviel
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I was abused from the ages of 9-13 by my brother. Yes, it fùcks you and relationships up for a while, and yes, I was terrified of relationships, but desperate for love and attention (slept around a lot). It took until my early 30's to decide that I no longer wanted it to keep affecting me, and I... not forgave him, but more acknowledged what he did was very wrong but it was done and I couldn't change it. We have a good relationship now (I'm in my late 50's), but I still have a fear of intimacy. Please, please seek therapy - I wish I had.

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    #8

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else Probably not going to the grave with it because I'm sure the rest of my family will find out about this (some family already knows and that's how I found out) but I just found out that my homophobic/racist as [hell] step brother who is a marine has been doing gay [adult movies] for the last few years. Apparently, he is one of this site's top stars or whatever and it all has a military theme. I just found this out 3 days ago..

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    troufaki13
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He's not gay. He's just acting!! lol

    Nathan Wolfe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    From what I've heard, gay porn pays bank over straight porn, especially male gay porn. Most male gay porn stars aren't themselves gay, but their whats known as "gay for pay".

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    Gina Babe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Many homophobic people are gay.

    Stevie
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    And I can't imagine with how much self-hatred they have to deal. It's just sad.

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    SuperChicken
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    IMHO, I think they're being homophobic to hide their true gender identity (if that's the correct term)? Because, they're afraid of what other people might think or how they would be treated?

    Casey McAlister
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It's sexuality, not gender identity, but yeah, I believe some homophobic people are struggling to accept themselves, hence irrational aversion to gay people.

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    BoredShark
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    But how did his family find out? 🤔

    Mark Fuller
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    As a gay man, I've heard about this hole "gay for pay" thing. I don't think a 100% straight guy could ever get hard and do that stuff simply for money. There's an element of them that enjoys it, whether they want to admit it or not. Just as I naturally couldn't be with a woman for any amount of money, because psychologically / biologically, my body don't work like that!

    Mark Kelly
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Maybe they take Viagra or think of a woman?

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    Queen Bee
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That must have been a bit of a shock as well as being ironic him being homophobic.

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    #9

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else In the car ride home the other day from a family vacation, my date offered to drive the 9 hours home since I drove us there. I had fallen asleep but woke up abruptly when I farted. Loudly. And it stunk. I had been sleeping with his jacket over my head so I pretended to be asleep. As I was drifting back to sleep I farted again. Just as loud. Just as smelly. I continued to pretend to be asleep, though I heard him stifle giggles. I'll never tell him I was awake the whole time.

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    Jaden Alexander
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    3 years ago

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    Jude Bennett
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I could never have pulled off the still asleep act cos I would have cracked up laughing.

    Kristina Atwood
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I had a man ask me if I was ready to go home, which was weird because he really liked me staying over at his place. I left, of course. 10 years into our marriage he admitted it was because he had to poo and was afraid I'd hear. We're approaching 16 years and he no longer has that shame, but he does have his own bathroom.

    Breezy
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    So you basically Dutch ovened yourself, twice! lol

    Brandy P
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    No no. You can fart in your sleep.

    Mark Kelly
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Hope he cracked a few windows

    Daffodil
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Literally last night I put my little brother to bed and he farted in his sleep. It's certainly possible

    Daffodil
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Oops I meant to respond to the person at the bottom of this comment section lol

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    Cezicezi
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This story sucks !!!!!! Give me back my money !!!

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    A while back, relationship coach Alex Scot explained to Bored Panda that transparency is vital for the health of romantic and familial relationships. We’ve got to put ourselves in the other person’s shoes and see how they’d feel if we’re ever having any doubts about whether to keep something secret or to spill the beans.

    "If it can affect your partner or family, there absolutely should be transparency. Whenever in doubt, put yourself in the other person’s shoes and ask yourself what you would like if you were in their situation," the expert told us.

    "If it wouldn’t impact them, then you have the option of keeping it to yourself. The difference between privacy and secrecy is that secrecy has a sense of shame, guilt, or knowing that your partner or family member wouldn’t be ok with whatever took place."

    #10

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else Throwaway because the whole point of this thread is to take this secret to the grave, right? I feel like this isn't actually that uncommon, but since it's still taboo as f**k I'm not taking any chances. I'm generally not sexually attracted to anyone, but I *am* attracted to my cousin. He's a year younger than me and used to be the kid nobody noticed but me -- he was a little overweight for most of his childhood and was just generally awkward. I'd spend time with him and listen to him when we visited. When we were 11/12 we spent a whole week's vacation hiding under a fold-out bed with the door closed and locked just talking about our lives and how we felt about our families and all that. When we played together he used to let me tie him up and pretend that I was queen and had taken him -- a valiant warrior from a distant tribe -- prisoner. We'd also make paper airplanes and send them flying off the balcony of our grandparents' house. For a while we were really close, and then we didn't see each other for years. We drifted apart, but I found myself thinking about him every now and then, and we'd call and talk sometimes. Fast forward a few years. I'm 17, he's 16. My family has moved closer to his. Now we're an hour apart. I'd *heard* that he's changed since I'd seen him last, but I didn't really think about it until we pulled up at my aunt's house. I say hi to everyone, they've all grown and changed. Then, fifteen minutes in, he comes downstairs fresh out of the shower apologizing for being late; he'd had to coach a junior soccer game in the southern summer heat and needed to clean up. Meanwhile, I'm dying. What the f**k happened to that awkward kid I used to know? He's 6'4", golden skin, sandy blonde hair, beautiful clear blue/green eyes. He's also lost all the baby fat and gained just enough muscle to make him look really damn good. Since then, over the last two years, I've had to deal with this horrible attraction to him. We don't look anything alike and I basically thought of him more like a friend than a cousin growing up, and now that we're older (18/19) I keep thinking about him in incredibly inappropriate ways. He's only gotten better looking and more muscular and it's honestly the worst. A year ago he volunteered to be my model to help me practice outdoors photography (I was a fledgling photographer) and it turned into him lying shirtless on the grass and giving me these *looks.* I'm f****d in the head and I'm going to hell, but I figure as long as I keep repressing it I might get out of this alive. Tldr: My cousin turned from an ugly duckling to, essentially, a greek god. I've been attracted to him for the past two years. Kinda hate myself. God, it feels good to get this off my chest, even though I'm already kind of regretting it. Thanks, reddit. Hopefully I won't get too much backlash here.

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    Captain Awesome
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    All's fair in love and war in Alabama

    Rosey Red
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I moved from Texas to Alabama. I had never heard this about Alabama until I got here.. in Texas we used to say the same about Arkansas.

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    Jaekry
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You can't control who you fall in love with. That's okay. You can control what you do with it, and your actions. No need to feel guilty or bad for just feelings. IMHO.

    Monday
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Exactly. Attraction is totally out of our control and we should never be judged or shamed for it. Actions are all that matters in that department.

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    Molly Whuppie
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Not saying anyone should, but intimate relations with your cousin is actually legal in most states in the US.

    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It's legal in the UK as well, I had a great aunt and uncle who were cousins.

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    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I have a cousin about four years older. When we were children, he tormented me along with our brothers. When he grew up, he was SO sexy. He became incredibly kind and thoughtful. He's extremely intelligent, and self-made rich. I had a crush on him for years.

    Petra Moon
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Never understood this taboo in the US.In the UK first cousins are allowed to marry.

    TheAquarius1978
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It might be geneticly problematic if you ever want kids, but a part from that.....

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    Laura Ketteridge
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It totally depends on where in the world you live. In the vast majority of countries, marriage of first cousins is legal. The main country that don't allow the marriage of first cousins is China. In India, it depends on a person's religion. In the USA, it's illegal in 24 states, legal in 19, and legal under certain circumstances in the rest (this is usually to do with age/ability to produce offspring).

    Laura Ketteridge
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    One of the biggest reasons against first cousin marriage is the increased risk of transmitting genetic abnormalities to the offspring. Genetic problems intensify (4%) in communities where first cousin marriages are the norm, but when it is done relatively rarely the risks are low (0.1%).

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    Anna Snorrepot
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    don't worry, feelings are not prompts to action. Just endure the feelings, for as long as they last. One day they'll have evaporate.

    Stevie
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    3 years ago

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    Why shouldn't she act on her feelings?

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    TheAquarius1978
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Think of it like this lol, its not incest it is wincest....

    FinkAdele
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    A good laugh at this one I had :)

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    dar Rah
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Look, honestly I'm hard-pressed to make an argument why two Cousins shouldn't be together. You are two informed, consenting adults. When its not a regular occurrence, deformities in children are only barely more likely than in other couples (if you even want children). So why should it be wrong? If the main point is "Ewwww" - well, that's what they said (and some still say) about homosexuality, too.

    Mosheh Wolf
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I don't get this "not between cousins" thing. It was extremely common in the past, when people lived in smaller communities. Jews did it in Europe, the aristocracy and gentry did it forever, etc. For all you Bible lovers there, Jacob was Rachel and Leah's first cousin. Well, Isaac and Rebecca were also related, and Abraham and Sarah were half siblings, so I guess that cousins are not too bad.

    humdrum
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm imagining Adam and Eve's family must have been a tad incestuous as well...

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    #11

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else There was a math competition/test in grade 8, and this was to actually decide who got the math award at graduation, but we didn't know that at the time. They grabbed all the top students, including me and my best friend, and we were probably the two smartest kids in the grade. Well my friend was always faster than me at completing tests, assignments, etc. he just had that gift of always flying through these things, so I knew he would crush this competition/test. There was about 15 of us in a computer lab, all spaced apart, the test was done on a math program (I can't remember what it was called) and it was some long a*s weird word problem that was actually meant to confuse us. Well while the teacher was explaining the test I was clicking through one of the network drives and I found a folder that said Final.Test.William (my name is William). I was like "That's really weird I don't remember making this?" so I opened it up, and BOOM! it had the answer for our competition. So I quickly copy and pasted it onto Word so no can see, and then once we started I minimized Word into the corner and re-wrote out the answer in my own words. This only took me about 10 minutes to do, and the teach said this should take everyone at least an hour. So I sit there for another 10-15 minutes just to play it safe, and then I told the teach I was done. He came over and was amazed how fast I completed the test. Graduation comes and I receive the math award and the teacher explains how amazed he was how fast I had completed the test in record time. I found out that day the teacher's name was also William. Funny end to the story, my best friend and I actually live together now and he is a very successful Architect and I'm an Engineer. Years later he still brings it up and asks "How the f**k did you do that test so fast? That was mine and you know it"

    BantKane , Ryutaro Tsukata Report

    LeeBreezy
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    now, i dont condone cheating, but it takes a certain level of intelligence and skill to pull off a successful cheat, so my hats' off to you

    Wondering Alice
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    When I was doing English Lit in college I was visiting my old high school and mentioned to the librarian, who id always got on with, that i was struggling getting in to Chaucer. Few days later, I got a huge thesis sent to me in the post with a note to read it but not share or tell anyone. I studied it, loved the different take and tried to bring up what id learned in class, but my teachers dismissed me as reading too much in to it. Day of the exam, one of the questions was the title of the thesis. Years later, the librarian (literally on his death bed) saw my mum's name (she was a nurse) and told her his best friend in uni had been in charge of setting the exams and he'd sent me the thesis.

    Hello
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I would have done the same

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    #12

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else I always tell my wife how much I love her makeup that day. I hate it. I wish she would stop wearing it but it makes her happy so I decide to lie.

    MUFFINCSGO , Peter Kalonji Report

    The only Plueschopossum
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Plot twist: she hates her makeup and wears it only because she thinks her husband loves it... :D

    SuperChicken
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I wouldn't be surprised, if that's also the case.

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    Petra Moon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Next time, say “I love the way you love your make up”. She might say she only wears it because you like it…

    Telmo Belo
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Just tell her how you love how she looks today BEFORE she puts her makeup on.

    Lily bloom
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I was thinking the same but say "I love how your makeup looks today" she will reply "I'm not wearing makeup yet" to which he says "whaaaat?you don't need it. You look stunning right now"

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    Queen Bee
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That gives very false security. It is sooo much kinder to tell her the truth.

    Jan Bowyer
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Tell her in a tactful way. She deserves the honesty.

    Deborah B
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Complement her on being an amazing person. Complement her skill at makeup, and when you see her without makeup, complement whatever you like about that look (how clear her skin is, her natural glow etc). Let her know that you love her and find her beautiful with makeup and without.

    Lene
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'd think it possible to tell her that you love her makeup but still prefer her without any? Or is that just me?

    🌵 Drazil
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I became fed up with makeup. It's expensive and time consuming besides causing pimples if I didn't clean my face sufficiently. Therefore, I stopped! I told persons who asked that I was allergic to something they were putting into it. I have maintained that line for 20yrs. I have no intentions of using it again, but I do take better care of my skin.

    Pizzagirl 91
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I've stopped wearing makeup since I stopped working in retail 2 years ago - except for the occasional mascara when I want to feel exceptionally pretty. Nobody's ever said anything, except when I'm really exhausted, and I really do like my face without it. I'd only use more makeup if I ever get into my amateur drama group again and needed it on stage.

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    Mark Kelly
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Well next time she's not wearing makeup tell her she looks good

    Natasha MUA
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My husband always says I'm beautiful with and without makeup, I'm a makeup artist by trade and when I'm not working. I very rarely wear any makeup and hell still compliment me, maybe tell her how. Beautiful she is when she's. Not wearing makeup, maybe ask her, does it make you feel more confident do you enjoy it and see how she reacts.

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    According to relationship coach Alex, smaller instances of trust being broken can take a while to get past. However, for larger offenses, “be prepared to be overly transparent for a time and hire a therapist or coach to walk you through the process. Trust takes consistency to rebuild and consistency equals effort over time."

    Meanwhile, relationship and dating expert Dan Bacon, from The Modern Man, explained the difference between secrecy and privacy to us.

    “In a relationship, secrecy is about keeping secrets from the other person, whereas privacy is when you are free from being observed or disturbed by the other person,” he told Bored Panda. According to him, emotionally independent people who are confident and happy “regardless of what the other person says or does” will be all right giving each other some space.

    However, needy people are far less likely to give others privacy because they need “the other person’s attention to make themselves feel okay on a daily basis.”

    #13

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My dad was having a heart attack in front of me and my mother, she yelled at me to go get help but I froze in fear. He later died which caused my mother to become addicted to prescription pain killer and then killed herself while my brother also killed himself a year later. TL;dr I ruined my family.

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    JJ
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You didn't. You may feel this way but you didn't. Freezing is one of three psychological reactions that are so damn deep in our genes, you just can't react differently in such a stress situation. Please seek help to work on this. You don't deserve to feel responsible and guilty for a situation that wasn't in your hands.

    Thee8thsense
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You cannot blame yourself in these tragic occurrences. Your mother and brother made their own choices, and as far as speculating on your reaction to your Dad's heart attack, sometimes forces much bigger than us are play, and nothing we do or don't do will change an outcome. My mother died from a heart attack, and I found her shortly after. I also wrestled with guilt, thinking if I had arrived sooner, she might have survived. The truth is, it was her time, and the medical experts assured me that I couldn't have changed the outcome. I hope you heal your heart, and free yourself of any ill-placed guilt.

    Ray McArdle
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Freezing for a bit didn't kill your dad. Nothing that happened is your fault.

    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You didn't ruin your family, no one knows how they will react in that situation. A lot of people don't survive a heart attack even if they get help.

    Queen Bee
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    No you didn't but you really need to find a therapist to help you. You mustn't carry that burden for the rest of your life,

    Liz McPherson
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You didn't ruin your family. You couldn't have saved him anyway

    Sheila Stamey
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Hey hello. . For you, go somewhere and get help. You are in danger. You didn't hurt anyone! What was your mom doing? Hey some help for you would be nice about now. If you are thinking of suicide, I'll say it, get help. You are too valued! You will have a chance to help someone else some day. How do I know? Been there!

    BasedWang12.2
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This poor person. I understand the feeling of that burden but it is NOT their fault at all

    Dynein
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    *You* ruined your family? What about your mother and brother? They were there, too, they could have gone get help themselves...

    Katy McMouse
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    No you didn't. Your parents and your brother passed because they each had become sick from a disease. Your father's heart was sick and your poor mom and brother also suffered from a mental health issue (essentially, a disease). Not one of them suffered from something they had control over and you were in no position to save them. In these circumstances, even if you had been a doctor of any sort, it was unlikely that you could have done one thing to keep them from dying. Guilt and grief, after a death, whether it be conscious or not, is a terrible thing that will eat away at you until you, yourself, becomes ill. I've been there and it nearly caused the breakdown of my family and that's the one thing that forced me to get help. Don't let that happen to you. Please.

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    #14

    TL;DR I "stole" my dad's expensive stamp collection because my family was fighting over it. I'm safekeeping it until everyone who fought over it is dead and turning it into a family heirloom. Before my dad fell off the wagon, he assembled a beautiful stamp collection. I really loved watching him collect them as a kid. Life happened. He became a non functioning alcoholic. My parents got divorced. He moved in with his girlfriend. Then he beat his girlfriend, and she kicked him out and got a restraining order. At that time I was living on my own attending college one state over. My mom called from the other side of the country. Somehow she'd just found out my father had left his valuable stamp collection in his ex's garage. My mother had been having money problems and asked me to retrieve it for her so she could sell it. I was reluctant because finals were coming up, and I was broke. It would cost me a lot in gas and the trip was long enough I'd need to sleep at a motel, too. My mother said she'd give me 10% of the sale if I got it for her. She anticipated selling the collection for $10,000. I agreed to get the collection for her. The trip was miserable right away. My car was an ancient beater that burned through gas. By the time I got to the ex's neighborhood, I'd spent so much money on fuel, I had to sleep in my car every night. Though I'd been told she was expecting me, this was clearly a lie. His ex had no idea I was on my way at all. Thankfully, she was happy to let me take whatever I wanted that my father had left behind. As soon as I had the stamps, I called my mother. She was ecstatic, claiming she'd found someone who would buy the stamps sight unseen for $1,000, and she was very excited about her upcoming windfall. I told her she'd said the collection was worth ten times that. She said she was sure it was but didn't have the energy to shop around and would just go with the offer she'd been made. I asked if she was still going to give me 10%? No, since she'd only be getting a tenth of what she'd anticipated when she'd made the offer, she no longer had money to spare to pay me. Also, could I pay the shipping to mail the box? I was furious and just said "I'll see what I can do," and hung up to decide what exactly I was going to do. Once I had calmed down, I decided I'd sell the collection myself for as high as I could, take my 10%, and cut her a check for the rest. Before I could call her back, my phone rang. My mother had called my father to rub it in that she was getting his stamp collection, and he'd called me to scream at me and demand I turn around and bring it to him instead. By the time I had made my way back home, my parents had tag teamed me with so many angry calls, I'd had to shut off my phone. My e-mails (both personal and school), my AIM, my Facebook, hell, even my DeviantArt account was flooded with messages from both of them trying to convince me to send them the collection. The messages swung wildly between being sweet and pleading to angry and accusatory. I told my mom if she gave me $80 to cover the gas I'd bought and accept the collection POD, I'd wash my hands of this, but she was too angry to negotiate. She wanted the stamps. She wanted them now. She wanted them no strings attached. Angrily, I shoved the collection into my closet and told her to stop calling. So of course she called every. Single. Day. She called from friend's numbers, blocked numbers, she sent me e-mails, texts, private messages, snail mail. F**K. She sent me FLOWERS with messages begging me to pick up the phone. Eventually, the storm died down over the course of a year, but we'd pretty effectively stopped talking. Then one day, my sister knocked on my door. I was baffled. I knew she'd be in town for a game, but we were not friends and I wasn't expecting her to visit. She said mom had sent her to pick up the stamps. I was furious all over again. But I kept my cool, went back into my house, and packed all the inexpensive parts of the collection into one box- unfilled binders, info books, various supplies for setting the stamps in their books, and the junior stamp collected kits I'd done with him as a kid. I told her it was all I'd found and passed it off. My mom later called and said she'd sent it back to my father without ever opening it because it had caused so much drama between everyone. The air cleared a lot between us after that, even though I still have the stamps, though my father hasn't spoken to me since. I'm not going to tell my family I still have the stamps. I've brought them with me every move I've made. They've crossed the planet with me. Twice. I've never once tried to sell them or even had them appraised. No one involved in the in incident- my mother, my father, my sister, not even me- is going to profit off the stamps. They're staying away from the light of day until I have a grandchild or grand-niece/nephew I decide will appreciate them. And if I'm not the last of us four alive when the time comes to pass them off, they go into long term storage and willed to that person to be opened only once all four of us are dead.

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    KombatBunni
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Good for you. Screw that AH family, they don’t deserve someone like you

    Sandor M
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    AH starting with him, essentially he stole the stamps from his father

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    Annie Bieber
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My brother had my Great Grandfather's violin, not a Strad but Very Valuable...brother had major substance abuse issues. I had a chance to nick it and didn't, wish to God I had as this heimloom is lost forever.

    Jaekry
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Get them appraised. You might be disappointed. But the fact remains, the stamps belong to your father. They still do.

    Signe Manat Hansen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Lol no. He left them in the garage of a woman he beat up.

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    Julie Davis
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Stamps aren’t worth this kind of baggage. Burn them at a bonfire. You will be amazed at how relieved you will feel when they are gone. And then some day, at the right time, tell your parents you burned them…but not when.

    Helen X
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Your parents are crazy. You made the right decisions.

    Panda Kicki
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    In most cases stamp collections are worth much less then the owners think. Unless a qualified person appraised it, dont count on any value. The fact someone paied a certain amount for it dont mean they are going to sell for the same price.

    Gabrielle Russell
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I love how you decided to handle this! Definitely the best possible solution.

    BluEyedSeoulite
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'd get them appraised. My grandfather had inherited a stamp collection, one we thought were worth thousands. It would have been, if most of the stamps hadn't been put in the book with scotch tape. It was worth a couple hundred, at most

    yellowphantom
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I was advised that my late father's stamp collection is becoming less valuable every year because mostly older people collect stamps and the market is dying out. If you keep it for that long, sentimental value will probably be its only value, so that is probably the best way to think of it..

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    #15

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else The wife of a close friend knows that the friend was closeted and was gay before they got married. She believes that she is the only reason he decided to be straight instead. She admitted this to me on a 12-hour road trip once and then realized she'd said too much and swore me to secrecy. I didn't tell her that, before getting married, the close friend admitted to me that he wanted to be gay but that he never dared to out of fear of judgment of his rural, conservative family. He almost didn't get married because he didn't think he could pull it off, but it seemed like the to save face with his family. They have been married over 20 years now.

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    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I wouldn't mind being married to a gay man, but I wouldn't expect (or even want) him to perform marital duties. If he were a good enough friend, I'd marry him for the companionship. Of course these days, he wouldn't (hopefully) feel pressured to marry a woman.

    ADJ
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    3 years ago

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    You talk about marital duties, and I am wondering if gay male can be sexually aroused by a woman? If he finds women attractive and exciting shouldn't he be called bisexual instead of gay?

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    MiriPanda
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    "wanted to be gay" & "decided to be straight"? What a weird choice of words...

    TheAquarius1978
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Not the 1st One, i knew a guy, very respected gentlemen sales manager for One of the biggest hardware stores in the island married 3 kids ( all adults at the time allready 25+ years a go ) and he was gayer than Elton John, it was a secret that everyone knew.

    Marla
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It's incredibly sad how common this is. How unfair to both partners but the idea that she seemed to think she could or did change him is worrisome.

    Nathan Wolfe
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    A friend of mine is gay. He's "dating" his roommate (female) solely as a smokescreen for his parents. She knows and understands, as does my friend's boyfriend. The reason? His younger sister came out as Bisexual on her 18th birthday. Their parents threw her out that day and haven't spoken to her since (she's now 26). I've met them. They refuse to even acknowledge having a daughter. As far as they're concerned, he is their only child. So I get where the guy in the post is coming from. Here's hoping that one day, he can be true to himself.

    Signe Manat Hansen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Why would he want any contact with bigots like that? His sister must hate him and she has every right to.

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    Dre Mosley
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Well as long as she knew going in that she was marrying a gay guy. It's worse when the woman doesn't know and he's just using her to hide his sexuality.

    Bubbles and sparks
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I once had a friend who thought she could pick up straight husband material in a g*ybar... She was shocked he turned out to be gay... (I wasn't, my radar works 99% correctly). I got to know them later in their relationship as she was the daughter of my then husband's colleague. What I did think was a nasty trick, was what he did a few months after their son was born ... He told her he had everything he wanted now, a child, and was getting a divorce. Not the most honest way to become a dad. However, what she did after the divorce was finalized, was trying to prevent him from seeing his son. She swore to do anything to get that done. So she started telling and fabricating lie upon lie to get full custody over her son and it even got so far as that he only was allowed to see his son under supervision. Later it turned out to all be lies... Did he handle this the right way? No, absolutely not, neither did she... The only one who lost almost everything was their little boy who got so confused he needed therapy at a very young age. Adults can be so nasty when their feelings get hurt... Just be open and honest from the beginning and not be judgemental will get you a long way.

    FinkAdele
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It would be great story, that they both had the hardest awakenings, thinking world will cope with them being both egoistic beings... if not for the son. Hope the boy would turn up ok and get his life without toxic parents.

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    Bisces
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Man, this relationship really sucks. I would say that the dude should divorce if he wants to be himself, but because the woman seems to believe that he "became straight" or decided to "be straight" for her and that he actually loves her, him coming out would break her heart. Also, it's a conservative town, and if he doesn't wanna be stoned, then he's gonna have to come up with some excuse for the divorce and not "I'm gay". I've also heard that divorce is looked down upon in the bible and seems to me that nost conservatives are Christians, so they'll both be shunned for that.

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    “Each relationship is different in terms of secrecy and privacy, but for a relationship to work, both people need to fully trust each other and allow the other person to take responsibility for that trust on their own,” relationship expert Dan said.

    “In other words, there’s no need to continually remind the other person about being trustworthy, demand it, or sulk about it. Just give your trust to the other person and let them take care of it. If they break your trust, then that is their mistake. However, if you regularly demand that they be trustworthy and make them promise not to cheat or betray you, then that is your mistake.”

    The expert noted that it’s not always necessary to tell the other person absolutely everything. “Sometimes, past truths can ruin the current relationship,” he said that withholding some information is fine if you’re no longer the person you used to be and you’ve atoned for your mistakes.

    #16

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else One night I woke up with my mind in a twist, my mom was in the hospital at the time, I had a crazy urge to call them and check on her, but I reasoned not to because I couldn't think of an excuse so I fell back to sleep. 5am I get a call that they checked on her and she didn't have a pulse, I just think there was something I could have done that destroys me to even think about it.

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    Ewelina Rydzewska
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I think it was her saying goodbye to you. I don't think you could do something.

    Petra Moon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Agreed. You couldn’t have saved your mum. Forgive yourself.

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    Annie Bieber
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Some people wait until their loved ones are not there to make their transition, it's because they love you.

    BluEyedSeoulite
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My mom did that. The hospice nurses warned us, we should give her some time alone. She had a 15 min window when her kids were all safe and she was alone to pass. The nurses recalled times that the heart monitor would flatline as soon as doors shut with other patients. Absolutely amazing

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    Down With Agent Hedgehog!
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    When my grandma passed away when I was in middle school, in the middle of the night she suddenly yells at my mum that she thinks her heart generally hurts. She went downstairs, and there was an ambulance, and in the morning my parents said she passed away in hospital. They thought it would come as a pretty much shocking thing, but it wasn’t, because my grandma was so loud she woke me up. Good thing is she just suffered for a few minutes, and because she was literally 70 years old it was too late when the ambulance showed up about freaking FIFTEEN minutes later. Hello there grandma, your daughter’s okay so far, your granddaughter is mostly okay, and the cat is VERY ok because it’s a mum cat now.

    lili
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This is a thing that happens to people (myself included) you feel like something is weird but aren't sure. It turns out someone passed, usually at or around that time.

    lili
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Also this shouldn't be a reply, if it is sorry. It was meant to be it's own comment

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    Karen Gladden
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    A very similar situation happened with me and my father. I had a strong thought about calling him. I was in the hospital at the time from serious complications from childbirth and talked myself out of calling by telling myself he would already be asleep. I found out the night after that he had a stroke at almost the exact time I had the strong voice in my head telling me to call him. He wasn't found until the next day because my mom was in another state, taking care of my newborn while I was in the hospital. When he was found, he was still alive but with no chance of improving his condition through medical treatment. He lingered a few weeks then passed away. It has been 15 years now and I am still racked with guilt over the thought that if I would have called I helped or gotten someone to help him. I feel like he was mentally reaching out to me for help or something was trying to alert me but I blew it off and ultimately sealed his fate. I don't think I will ever get over it. I know how you feel and empathize with you. It is a hard thing to live with because nothing anyone says can change it or definitively say "yes or no" to whether your actions would have helped. My best advice is to seek treatment because the thoughts can take control of you.

    Tina Hugh
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He was saying goodbye to you as he passed (even though he lingered a few weeks). He was already gone when you sensed him. Something similar happened when my father died.

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    Leoninus Fate
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I do this... a lot.... to the point family and friends just do it without asking, But if you dont do anything, dont worry because... it was going to happen anyway, it sounds cruel, but it's true, You might not realize it but if you got them on there..... you "could" have saved her...for a few mins... a few seconds....but you wouldn't have stopped it, IT WAS GOING TO HAPPEN NO MATTER WHAT, a bit later, or not it was, The Threads of Fate are Cruel and strong

    ilhaan aadam
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I had the same experience with my mother.

    M Gee
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Dayum. One phone call and dude coulda find out sooner that she ded. Cause not like a call coulda saved her if she just didn't have a pulse.

    H M
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    LIke what? You a doctor?

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    #17

    I'm a 6ft4, 320lb MMA fighter, bouncer, and weight lifter. My Dad thinks of me as the manliest guy in the world, and often times I'll even feign a call and chat with ine of my female friends. He thinks I'm a chick magnet since I get a decent amount of looks in public if my shirt is tighter than usual. His daughter is a 35 year old woman with two kids, both of which are failing school. She married a deadbeat and essentially is ruined, living in a sh**ty leased house which she struggles to keep afloat. I know my Dad wants me to be successful, form a family, and pretty much be the successor of his family. To bear him eventual grandchildren even, and just to be his "pride." I don't have the heart to tell him I'm gay, and since he was raised rather racist considering he is of German decent and his father was a decently high ranking KKK member, he'd be even more pissed that I'm dating a latino guy. He isn't very open minded at all, and is pretty strict and tunneled in his views. I don't think I coukd ever break his heart and tell him. To top it all off, he was ahem.. "snipped" rather early on in life, so there's no chance of having another success kid. He expects the world out of me, and I wish I could give him that. I just want him to be happy.

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    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He chose to bring you into the world. You owe him nothing. Be who you are. I can't suggest whether you should tell him or not, but please don't feel guilty for being you and not mini him.

    Helen X
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    ‘Considering he’s of German descent’. Wow, that’s bringing things to the story that are not at all relevant. Being German has nothing to do with being racist.

    Dynein
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Yeah, that bit was grating to me, too... Firstly, while the Germans brought the idea of eugenics to a whole new level, the racism and antisemitism were quite mainstream at the time and not uniquely German. Secondly, given the ages in this post, it seems likely the father's German ancestors left Germany *before* Nazi Germany (even the grandfather was already living in the US), so before Germany became noticeably more racist than other European countries. I'd say the KKK membership tells way more about the family's views than the German descent...

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    Liz McPherson
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It's not your responsibility to sacrifice your happiness for someone else's.

    Paul Upton
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Be you. Be happy. If he cant handle it, he doesnt deserve your love and respect.

    Cass Malone
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Please don't think all Germans are racist. My Mother is German and is the sweetest person who does not discriminate people based on the color of their skin. She discriminates against racists, like me.

    BatPhace
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Oh sweet summer child. He's the only one that can make him happy, and if what you say about him is true, its not gonna happen in this life. He'll never open his heart enough for it

    Melissa Jane
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He's already got grandchildren. It will be a shock, but he will get over it. It's your life, not his.

    Ray McArdle
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This post is confusing on so many levels.

    Marguerite Barnett
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    As he immortal Kahlil Gibran put it, children are "Life's longing for itself. They come through you but not from you." In other words, you are what you are and you are exactly what this world needs. Especially your father, my G-ddess! Most parents would give their eyeteeth for children who genuinely wanted their happiness to the point where you are willing to live less fully for his feelings. Blessings on you and those you love!

    M Gee
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    To be happy? Dudes a racist. Screw him.

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    #18

    My friend in 8th grade called me before he killed himself and told me it was my fault. If I called his mom sooner instead of feeling sorry for myself and for him he might still be here

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    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Life is filled with if only. You were a child. His choice is not your fault. His mental health is not your fault. His mother's not realizing (or possibly being unable to admit) that her child had a serious problem is not your fault. Please try not to let needless guilt hurt you. Celebrate what you loved about your friend, and that he was a part of your life.

    Legen ( wait for it ) dary
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Which friend ? The same that called him to blame him before killing himself.? No, that's not a friend. Thats a guilty inducer person.

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    Stephanie A Mutti
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    And that was mean on the friend's part of putting that guilt on you.

    BluEyedSeoulite
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I had a friend in high school blame me for her attempted suicide and all these bad decisions she had made. It messed me up for a bit but I knew I couldn't control her, I am not a bully. The only thing I had done was my parents weren't divorced and I had a long term boyfriend, stable relationship, while still being a virgin. She was envious of my life. I felt sad for her and gave her space, didn't want her to think I was rubbing my honestly just okay life in her face. I tried to reconnect with her after college and she was still angry at me. I'm sad since she was my best friend for so long but I hope she managed to be happy

    tragicaltales
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I can’t image what living with that sort of guilt would feel like. Horrible on the friend’s part.

    ThatBiBookLover
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I literally talked my friend out of suiciding by drinking bleach just a week ago. Then I cried. I feel you, it’s exhausting.

    Deborah
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Aita? Absolutely not. 'Suicide doesn't take away the pain, it gives it to someone else'

    Rei
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    No, it's NOT your fault. Every suicide is a conscious decision of the person attempting it. After all, it really takes guts to kill yourself, and not just thinking about it. If anyone reads this who has problems with suicidal thoughts, please consider seeking help. There are so much more better ways to deal with your stuff than ending your precious, beautiful life.

    M Gee
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Dayum. What'd you do to get him all screwy?

    #19

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else In 5th grade, I cheated on an exam. My buddy and I were the only two people in the grade who got this particular question correct, but I copied him. The worst part was he was considered 'dumb' while I was at the top of the class, so the teacher was convinced that he copied me and he ended up getting suspended. Long story short, I was too p**sy to admit that I was the one who cheated as my parents would have murdered me if I failed the test and even worse if I got suspended.

    fffeeesssrr , MChe Lee Report

    Monsen
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Cruel. For both of them.

    Sally Horrocks
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Sounds like a really rubbish school if they can just suspend someone with no proof they'd cheated.

    Helen X
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    And why exactly did they think he copied the answer? Did they see him do it? Probably not and that makes it disgusting that the school did such a thing. Suspension for ‘cheating’? Come on.

    Anna Snorrepot
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    on a next occasion you know telling the truth will be better. You hurt a human :( But you won't hurt someone again like that :)

    Sharon Gersowsky
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    We had a really nasty biology teacher in HS. She had her pet students and some she really seemed to hate. We had a test coming up and two of the girls cooked up a scheme to cheat and turn in identical answers. Everyone knew about this. Her pet passed with flying colors and she failed the girl she didn't like. We all confronted her and then went to the principal's office to tell her what happened. Teacher got canned 😆

    ADJ
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I feel pity for you, not because you cheated but because you have such a*****e parents. You did wrong because you were forced by your helicopter parents expectations and fear of their reaction.

    Queen fhk
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This is literally stupid! Just because they copied each other does not mean suspension

    Minath
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Not everyone lives in the same country as you, some places have extremely strict rules.

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    Time Lady Donna
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Same s**t happened to me. But they copied from me, I still resent them.

    JL
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    What would prompt the smart person to copy the answer of someone considered 'dumb'.

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    #20

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else That I hate all my f*****g friends for not inviting me anywhere and my cycles of sudden realization that nobody cares about me except for my family.

    _AISP , Devin Avery Report

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Go yourself. Find something you seriously enjoy, and pursue it. Find people with that interest, and you may be surprised at how soon you have friends that want to do things with you.

    Jennifer H
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Time for new friends with the same hobbies as yo. Or addressing the situation of feeling left out if they have been around for 15 plus years. I've learned to cut people off at the first red flag. Unfortunately this does cause less friends but atleast I know they are real ones.

    Leah Reid
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Life's like that, isn't it?.. I have zero friends now because I'm not going to beg people to want/ love me. I have a v. small family and that's it.

    Scarlett
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My family doesn’t even care for me so you’ve got me beat there

    Brazen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I was going to write the same thing.

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    Dregvic
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    If your friends aren't inviting you along, perhaps they're not really your friends. And you should happy and grateful you have a family who loves you and that you care about!

    Nadia D
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Count your blessings 😉 Your family cares - it's a lot already

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    #21

    I burned down a train station.

    sarusedo Report

    Aballi
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Ha! I set a field on the side of a main street in my town on fire once. I was drunk and high and wanted to "see if I could light the grass on fire." I could. I called 911, reported the fire, then booked it out of there. I'm 6 years clean and sober now and work right around the corner from the old burned field. It's green and lush now. We both came back to life ;)

    badboyhalo
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I am desperate for info but not enough to go onto reddit

    Anton
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    One sentence, six words. I'll keep those six words six feet under if I was you😆

    CrazyCatLady
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Well that took a turn from the others…

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    #22

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else I saw my friends nipple when I looked down her bra the other night whilst nursing her sunburnt shoulders and back

    stingray20201 , ᴇᴍɪ Report

    RezFidel
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Aahh... the famous US "nipplephobia"...

    Nathan Wolfe
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    As a US born and bred and a loud and proud nudist, I fail to see the nipplephobia the rest of my nation suffers from. Honestly, nudity in and of itself is just natural, so I don't see why its such a taboo, especially when its accidental like this post.

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    anarkzie
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    One day scientists will find a way to pixelate breasts in the real world and then no one will ever have to carry around this burden ever again.

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It's a nipple, not a Nobel prize -winning manuscript.

    Leoninus Fate
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    lol I remeber when i first took my shirt off in front of my best friend {a girl, im gay so it wasnt like that but she did like me but is now my sis} and she screamed so loud and ran into her house and dover under her covers {we were going in HER POOL!} and me and our other friend found her and dove in under just {I got fully nude to mess with her and he was gay to but wasnt my bf, we were just like 16 and idiots wanting to make her scream more} and she fell out of the bed laughing so hard and i pulled his shorts down and he ran out and she started laughing at me going after him then.... we never grew out of the insanity, im sure if we go back to her pool it will happen again even tho were all almost 40

    Sherri Mantooth Bagwell
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You have a set of nips as well, non-functional. Most guys are all turned on by breasts & nipples, until they see them being used for their true purpose...nourishing babies!!!

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    #23

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My parents are divorced and remarried (my dad is very happily married to my step-mom; my mom, is not so happily married to my step-dad). They both confided in me a long time ago that they’re both still very much in love with each other (separately, of course; they live thousands of miles apart), but they asked me to never tell anybody in our lives about this. I intend on keeping that promise, but it hurts to know that they still feel so strongly about each other, and maybe, just maybe, could have gotten back together if they weren’t so proud and stubborn. Such is life. Edit: extra detail that I totally forgot to mention - when I turned 18, my father and his parents (we’re all very close) sat me down and handed me a folder with everything that happened regarding their divorce. All of the letters between my parents, the confession of the situation that started it all, and it kind of shattered my world at the time. I had this image of my mom and my dad, and these images and ideas of who they were had to be edited to add all of this new information in, and they clashed very strongly. Over time, I came to understand that people change, and the parents I saw dealing with their divorce are not the parents I have today. My mom was only 19 when they started dating, and they married 2 years later. My dad was 7 years older, so he had more life experience. From what I gathered, my mom just wasn’t ready for that kind of life, that kind of commitment. I understand it a lot clearer now that I’ve been in my own relationship with my partner for 4 years now, and we got together when he was 18 and I was 21. Things are all the more difficult when you’re living with someone at such a young age. We’ve made it work and we are extremely happy that we did, but we honestly felt like it would end at any point during the first 2.5 years; they were hellish. It also didn’t help that my mom came from a pastor’s family, and they were extremely strict, to the point of disregarding their faith for the sake of the family image to the public. There are some very dark stories about that, but this thread isn’t the place to get into that, I feel.

    Cailinus , Charlie Foster Report

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm glad you and your SO are getting through the rough spots together.

    Lily bloom
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Right after I graduated high school, my parents told me they were getting divorced. A few months later a family friend told me my mom had cheated on my dad through their entire marriage. I told my mom what this person had said and she said "some were one time things but others went on for a while". I did not need to know this. Looking back on my childhood, I can see all the signs clear as day. Getting left kicking and screaming at my grandma's while she slipped out the back door, her being on the phone with her "best friend" for hours at a time, seeing her embracing a man I could only assume was my dad and running up to hug him too only to realize it wasn't my dad. This f'ed me up for years likely contributed to my years of drinking and drug abuse. Definitely messed up my brother more as he is much younger. Failure to launch and prison time but babied because he grew up with divorced parents. Sorry, I'm rambling, but I know what OP means when they say it changed the memories.

    Whodathunkit
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Jesus...why would those parents feel the need to put that kind of burden on their child...over 18 or not?

    Leoninus Fate
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    happened to me with my first husband, divorced 3 years later, I was a few years older, I wanted to Travel see more stuff but i was also very very sick, in a wheelchair of using a cane, HE wanted kids {FTM kept the female part} and we were in out early early 20's, Im sterile as well, he kinda stoped visting me in the hospital when i needed to go and he soon get ill and i knew what was happening and it turned out he went out to someone and got preg, I told him he broke me, broke our love, that i wanted to adopt, especially since we had a few grown adopted kids {16/17 at that point had been able to move out at 18 dude to my money and support} and I said we could adopt a baby or had one later in life, but no he wanted his own, he didnt want to be old with one, and....i left, I think it was the first time i got out of my wheelchair in a month, i grabbed my cane, told him ok, then i left the house, i walked down the street to my moms house

    #24

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else That this child isn't actually my bastard, but my sister's son, whose dad passed away.

    anon , Johnny Cohen Report

    Thee8thsense
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I think the term "bastard" in reference to a child can be retired forever. We must elevate our thinking, temper our judgements, and open our hearts, particularly when it comes to innocent children.

    memyselfandI
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I don’t think using it this way was judgmental at all, I think OP was simply using the dictionary definition of the word without remembering its connotation. Sort of like in the first line of the musical Hamilton, where it says “How does a bastard, orphan, son of a whore”, using both of those as the dictionary definition.

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    Chris Largent
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You're a good man, Ned Stark. Don't lose your head over it.

    Nadja Lambacher
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Finally someone who got the reference. Everyone else is freaking out.

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    Circa
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Surely people stopped saying bastard in this way several decades ago.

    Panda Kicki
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Well..I think they did. This is a Game of Thrones reference 😄

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    BluEyedSeoulite
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My cousin was "adopted" but my mother remembers the biological daughter disappearing for several months right before he was adopted. It wasn't said to us kids until we were adults but it explains a lot of his teenaged issues. His 'parents' were well into their senior years while raising him, including declining health. His sister got married and started having kids a few years later. We all lived in the same tiny town

    BluEyedSeoulite
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Therapy is good in these cases. Therapy was treated quite differently 40 years ago

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    SuperChicken
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I thought the meaning of bastard is, the son out of wedlock? Then again, I could be wrong.

    BasedWang12.2
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    nah, you are correct. People just need to chill out

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    Jorocky
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Oh my god, is that how you refer to him. Poor child has no chance, you sound like a horrible person.

    (Anti)Social Penguin
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I really hope he wrote “bastard” as in “the child of an unmarried couple/product of an affair” and not as an insult to the pour kid…

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    J
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    GOT me thinks 🧐🤔

    Marguerite Barnett
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Are you saying you had sex with your sister?!!!

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    3 years ago

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    #25

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else When I was younger I was at my friends house sledding. He had to leave with his family but I kept sledding. I lost control and ran over a baby pine tree they had planted earlier in the year. A tree they had planted in remembrance of my friends grandma passing away that year. I had snapped the tree when I hit it. So I just stuck it in the snow and left. Weeks later and it warms up enough that the snow melts and the tree falls over. They were devastated when they discovered their tree was broken with no explanation how it happened.

    PM_YOUR_REAR_PU**Y , Andres Siimon Report

    TheAquarius1978
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Just thank the Gods your friend was not a Russian Hitman, we all know the result from the last time that happened....

    #26

    That I'm actually really f*****g miserable. I really dislike the rest of the family save Grandma and Aunt. Everyday I want to just disappear and there is no one I genuinely love. I don't even know what it feels like to love. And I don't know why. I don't know what I want to do in life and would love to have never been to college. I really just want friends but I'm a depressed wreck who's limited and is too scared to do anything to change it. I can't tell anyone about this because everyone says just to go out and meet people or get help. No car, no buses here, nowhere to meet people, and a social wreck. We can't afford help. And it just kills me to never tell my mom, the one person I should tell because she'll either say I'm overreacting or feel like she failed as a mother. Edit 1: Thanks for offers guys and gals. Sad to say talking doesn't help me anymore. I used to talk about problems but it never made me feel better or actually changed things.

    anon Report

    Wooly
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Sounds like you need a dog … dogs will love you EXACTLY as you are-

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I've very much been there. If you're not ready for human relationships, have you considered a pet? Their love comes with no strings attached, and even when you're depressed, their pure silliness can distract you.

    Erin Shaw
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My heart hurts for you. I hope one day you can feel genuine happiness and love.

    Oros Vildheim
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Sounds a lot like me, I have cats so a low-maintenance pet might help, and on the downside, not wanting to engage with people actually made college easier for me, as it meant I could concentrate in class and not mess around with friendship drama.

    Melissa Jane
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Change all your passwords to - I am the best, or I love myself, anything like that. It doesn't take long before it's programmed in.

    Coral Rippin
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I know how you feel slightly. I am married with 2 grown up children yet I am extremely lonely. I have a few friends but I hardly ever see them and even when I do I just think to myself “you don’t know me at all”. Every day I think about ending my life as I am so miserable. There is no one I can actually open myself up to and talk to about how I actually feel. It is hard to find friends. I’m sure a lot of people have offered to be there for you on here. Hey if you want a pen friend I could do that. I don’t know where in the world you live but we could chat about anything you like. Best wishes to you, I hope you find what you need.

    Kalevra
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    OP sounds like a lady i work with.

    M Gee
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Get into hedonism bro. Can't enjoy compnay of others? Indulge in your own pleasures. Video games, movies, weed, booze(not excessively please). Theres a ton of people online that would love to spend time with you and be a friend. But if you insist on it has to be iel friends? You're being too picky.

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    3 years ago

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    #27

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else When I was like... 10 or 11, a lot of my classmates got glasses. I thought they were pretty cool, so I faked having myopia in order to get glasses as well. I wasn't too dumb tho, I pretended that I could see better with lenses that had a small diopter so they didn't actually damage my eyesight. The downside was that my parents thought using the computer had something to do with it, so they didn't allow me to use it anymore. Also, I got bored of the glasses quickly, so there's that. I don't really wear them anymore, but I'm ashamed to tell my folks that I faked having bad eyesight because they were really upset at the time.

    Chuuucky24 , Ksenia Chernaya Report

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    When I was a toddler, I had to wear braces so my feet didn't turn outwards. They came off before I could remember, and I walked fine. When my brother started high school, his mental issues caused him a lot of trouble. I wasn't getting enough attention, and I started walking with my foot turned to get it. My parents spent a lot of money to find nothing wrong.

    Katie Lutesinger
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I knew someone who tried the same thing, but the response they got was "nonsense, the ophthalmologist says your eyes are perfectly normal, now stop being silly!" and that was the end of that.

    Bender Bending Rodríguez
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Is someone you know who tried this named Katie Lutesinger? Asking for a friend.

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    RandomFrog(He/They️‍️)
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My mom got those cheap reading glasses from the dollar store and took the lenses out. She wore those in middle school lol

    M O'Connell
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    "Fashion glasses" are a thing, you can just go online and buy a pair of frames that come with 'dummy' lenses in them.

    Carrie Miller
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I did the same, funny enough! However, when I faked the bad eyesight, it lead to a dx of an ACTUAL severe eye problem (pseudotumor cerebri) that I do really have. Had I not faked it at 9, I may have eventually had more permanent damage that took my sight

    Metalhead Turtle 🇺🇦
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Glad you found that out. Fixed the mistake from predictive text

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    Daffodil
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I got glasses, my sister got jealous and did this same thing. They basically gave her glasses with one lens having the tiniest thing possible and the other not having any effect, she got bored after a few days. I stopped wearing my glasses when zoom school started, I still don't wear them but I think I've gotten used to it enough where I can read small things relatively well, mostly guessing by letter/word shape

    Leoninus Fate
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    oh man.... my sister did this, I remember her visiting me and my mother when i was 5 and she had no glasses, then when i moved in with her {adopted by her mom} at 12, she had them, i asked why she told me she liked them and pretended she couldnt see, it was only a few years ago, about 20 years later she told our mom and our mom told us while laughing that she thought so since the school nurse did the test and said it so she took my sister to the eye place the next day for a real test and they found out she really did need them, and my sister was just blown back she thought it was cause of glasses that her eyes did get bad is why she started to really need them, but nope they were just starting to go bad so her faking it helped her lol

    Deborah
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You feel bad for lying. And yet.. yoire still lying. And costing them money and anguish.

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    #28

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else I was using my dad's computer and it auto-completed "(our city) escorts". I was fourteen and had no idea what to do. It's been 8 years now so I feel it's kind of past the familial statute of limitations

    twelvehatsononegoat , Vlada Karpovich Report

    TheAquarius1978
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Yea... If you ever use my computer you would probably call the frikking Cops lol, just because its in the search history doesn't mean that your dad was looking for hookers.

    butt soup
    Community Member
    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    i'm an author, & some of my characters are very dark because they're antagonists in a dystopia. if anyone used my computer, they would assume some very VERY bad things about me due to my research.

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    Oros Vildheim
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I think I remember a similar story of someone looking through their significant other's computer, finding all these searches about how to commit crimes, hide bodies, etc, and it turned out the SO was a horror writer doing research for a book.

    Natalie
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Maybe he was just looking for a new Ford.

    Leoninus Fate
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Oh man the stuff i have on mine, mostly cause i cant spell so i use google, so i type it in and it pops up and i click on the right writing, I got in trouble for stuff when i was young cause my brother would see it and my mom wanted me to erase stuff if i looked at it, But this was the song from chicken little "one little slip" That is from a group called "Barer N@ked ladies" and while talking to mom, he ran to me and her and {thinking i would get in trouble} "MOM! Lee is looking up Bare N@ked Ladies!".... we laughed at him and mom told him it was a band and I was showing her it right that second so yes she knew i was

    Nathan Wolfe
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm a writer. I guarantee I'm on a few lists simply for that fact alone. Searches like "how long will a body take to decompose" to

    LH25
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I get some really odd auto-completes on my PC. I don't think it's things I searched for, and hubby has his own PC and laptop, I think it's an algorithm based on what other users searched for.

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm sorry, but that made me giggle.

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    #29

    I'm still married but have been in a relationship with my SO for a year and a half. I was in a really ugly, domestic violence ridden marriage with my childhood sweetheart, one night he choked me in a grocery store parking lot until I blacked out and the next day I maxed out my credit card and got on a plane to Florida to see my grandma. I graduated college a week prior and didn't have a job and had no financial means to leave my husband. I stayed in Florida for about a month, took my state boards for my RN license and passed the exam. I flew back to my home state, called my mom who I hadn't spoken to in 5 years and went to stay with her. About a week later I found my first RN job and worked while I stayed with my parents and was miserable and tried to hide from my crazy husband. Fast forward a few months and I saved about 5 grand. I was constantly scared of my husband knowing where I was and coming to find me, it was just an all around absolutely shitty time in my life. I have never been so depressed. I told my mom I had enough money to either hire an attorney or move far away somewhere that I could be safe and start over but I didn't know what to do. She encouraged me to leave and start fresh and take care of myself for a while. So I did. I packed what little I had in my car and drove across the country with no plan to somewhere I had only visited a few times. I ended up doing ok, finding a job as soon as I got here (yay nursing) and never telling anyone about my actual past. Everyone thinks I'm a divorced girl who left the Midwest because of the Cold. To this day the only people who know I'm actually still married is my family back home. I'm just now getting to the point where I can probably start figuring out how to get divorced but still scared that my ex will find out where I live through the divorce process/papers and would have to work really hard to keep it all a secret so my current SO doesn't find out. It's a serious relationship and we've talked about marriage etc and I plan to try as hard as I can to keep this all a secret. He would never forgive me if he found out I had been lying the entire time about being secretly married. Tl;dr ran away from abusive husband moved across the country started a new life and currently in a serious relationship with someone who has no idea I'm married.

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    Ray McArdle
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Some courts will help you conceal details of your location if you're the victim of domestic abuse.

    Stannous Flouride
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    And many organizations that assist battered women will help with the process.

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    Nor
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Oh honey child, please tell your SO the truth. it'll go two ways, he'll either be angry or really have your back and still stand by you, but open up and tell the truth

    kim morris
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    If he doesn't 'forgive' you for being secretly married, then he's not the guy for you. And be glad of it.

    Petra Moon
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    If you die your husband will be your next of kin and inherit your estate. Divorce him asap.

    El Dee
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Don't be scared, he WILL understand. Strangers on the internet understand so that should tell you something..

    Kalevra
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Its not true. If OPs current SO is a good person he would totally understand. That anxiety comes from OP.

    Michelle Carlson
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Girl, you need to tell him. Imagine how betrayed he will be if you don't. Because he WILL eventually find out.

    Helen X
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Get divorced. It’s the only way to get it all behind you. What are you going to do when your SO proposes to you?

    Signe Manat Hansen
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    If he isn't understanding of the situation described, he's not the one. Run.

    Scott Rackley
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Really. He's just supposed to be ok with being lied to. And if he's not ok with being lied to, he's the bad guy, eh?

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    Leoninus Fate
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    oh it's not a serious relationship if you can't tell him your still married, you should tell him, if not , finding out himself alone will hard the hell out of your "relationship"

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    #30

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else In 7th grade, me and my friend Simon got the password for the admin accounts on our classroom's computer and our teacher always came in late so we would just change our grades whenever we got to class before him and the door was unlocked. I'm pretty sure this is what got me into a really good high school because i rarely did homework, but I usually knew the material.

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    M O'Connell
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    The 1990s were the wild-west of school IT security. People who were SAs in the '90s came up in a computer environment where security wasn't as necessary. Users didn't go 'exploring' systems they weren't intended to access. I may or may-not have bypassed the school's approved-site proxy server by convincing the person in charge to add an "educational site" which was actually a browser-based anonymizer proxy based in the Netherlands... 7th grade, circa 2000.

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    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I'm surprised you weren't caught. Good work doesn't quite seem appropriate, but knowing the material is more important, IMHO.

    Signe Manat Hansen
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Right because your teacher was definitely like "that slacker kid who never does his homework? Of course I gave him an A, seems legit"

    Helen X
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Sooner or later you may become an employee somewhere while all your collegues think ‘how the hell did he get his degree?’

    Signe Manat Hansen
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You mean "how the hell did he pass 7th grade". If he has any degrees, he most likely earned them.

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    #31

    My mother is a virgin but has kids She's psychologically traumatized due to having weird, extremely conservative parents that stigmatized anything sexual to a weird degree. She was kind of like this with me too but I broke the barrier she tried to impose on me. She went through IVF with my father to have me and my siblings. I know this because my Aunt told me. I knew I was an IVF baby but my parents gave me a nonsensical health reason as to why. My Aunt told me when my mother got married she was fretting over having sex for the first time and she was holding it off for ages, but it just never happened and several years into marriage they wanted kids. It possibly means my father is a virgin too as they got married extremely young and dated nobody previous to each other. My father would have had to have cheated on my mother to not be a virgin, which doesn't seem like something he would do (he's a very loyal person and follows his personal moral code very strictly, I always remember him like this). I think I might be the only person in the world other than Biblical Jesus to be in this situation. At first I didn't believe my Aunt but then I realized it connected all the dots about everything I knew about my parents. I don't think I'll reveal this about them to anyone for their own sake, even when they're dead.

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    Liz McPherson
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That is pretty bizarre. Definitely a unique situation. Do they just have asexual personalities or do you think religion is making them feel like they can't have sex? Maybe one of them has a sexual dysfunction that prevents intercourse so neither can have sex without cheating. Either way probably healthiest to not did into your parents sex life. Or lack thereof. It's their choice

    Xenon
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    So you could be the second coming. Or would that be the non-coming? Jk, I will show myself out.......

    Bouche Clay
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That's a very unusual secret, but no, their lack of sex life is no one's business but their own.

    Petra Moon
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Well, I suppose it’s ok. At least you have nice parents. Odd though.

    Rei
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Its awesome when certain sects just cannot imagine a God who created sex for our pleasure so that we could connect in such a beautiful, deep way with the person we love. Don't be fooled by this false preaching.

    Kalevra
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    People are f*****g crazy.

    Circa
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Kind of strange that their aunt would tell them this.

    #32

    I can never recognize my face. I get scared to look in the mirror. Photos of me always seem different or disfigured. Way too scared to find out why or ask for help and don't want my family to find out. I'm weird enough as it is.

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    Lyone Fein
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You may have a neurological disorder called prosopagnosia. The specific inability to recognize faces. You should speak with your family doctor/GP first and go from there.

    Jaden Alexander
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    3 years ago

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    Jessi Lovely
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This sounds like prosopagnosia, a disorder where you have face blindness. I’ve never heard of a case where you don’t recognise your own, but I don’t see why it couldn’t include that.

    Raccoon panda
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Happened to me as a kid, too. My mother wouldn’t stop calling me hideous every chance she got. Fast forward a few years into therapy, and I find an old picture of myself. Other than the haircut she forced me to wear, and my desperate need for braces, I was a really cute kid. REALLY CUTE. And someone called me hot recently. But I still struggle to understand or comprehend what I see in the mirror today, TBH. But the hotness she was is now getting flabby, old, sour, and her attitude means that men wouldn’t touch her with a ten foot pole. The worst part is that she has to live with herself.

    Signe Manat Hansen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That's not what this is about. He literally can't recognize his own face.

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    Raccoon panda
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I think it’s facial dysmorphia combined with a little dissociation.

    Melissa Jane
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You are looking to hard, just look for the beauty.

    #33

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My sister and I were on holiday together recently and very drunk one night when we got back from the bar. Naturally, we started drinking more because we were on holiday. She has the ice cube tray in her hand. Opens the window simultaneously and loses her focus and drops the tray five floors to the street, hitting a big guy square in the dome. He looks up and started screaming and shouting in Italian (I live in Rome so I understood he was calling us some bad, bad names). We just closed the window and continued drinking while we could hear this man shouting he was going to come up there and rip our heads off... Please never find me Mr scary Italian man.

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    TheAquarius1978
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    And why is this a secret???? I though we would have something juicy her from " stories from an Alabama family " and instead it you dropping an ice Cube on a dude..... Talk about major disapointment, dude i use to spit on peoples heads when i was at school lol.

    Petra Moon
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Ice cube tray….not just a little ice cube. Personally (as no one was seriously hurt) I think it’s hilarious.

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    Melissa Jane
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Probably best you stop drinking.

    #34

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My ex only gave me 3 orgasms in 2 years. I faked about 5-10 every time we had sex. I told him once that I had faked "some" and he didn't seem too disappointed but I didn't have the heart to tell him the real number. I don't really care about getting off. It's hard enough for me to do it on my own and I don't expect anyone else to take that responsibility. But he is a good guy and told me once that because of me he has more confidence in bed. So I will never tell anyone this.

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    Liz McPherson
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It took a lot of time and partners for me to actually have an orgasm with a man. If I where you I would experiment with your body more because everyone should be able to cum, that's one of life's only pleasures. And once you know what you like you maybe can give better directions

    Lyone Fein
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    5 to 10 every time sounds excessive.

    Aboredpanda
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    To be honest I don't think anyone that constantly fakes orgasms will have an easy time having one. How will you let your partner know how to please you if you teach him/her exactly the wrong things about your body?

    Trillian
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You fake 5-10 (!) orgasm EACH TIME you have sex and he doesn't notice???????? LOL

    Circa
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    "I faked about 5-10 every time we had sex". Lol.

    Annie Bieber
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Its also okay to not be interested in sexual relations, I forget the terminology...help me out some one...tis better to Meh...than to force yourself into uncomfortable situations.

    Leah Reid
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    More woman have this issue than any of us know, I imagine. I found an account on the gram and she is all about this. I was sooo glad that I just wasn't the only one who felt broken, alone. Not feeling pleasure when you want to is devastating.

    June
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I think this is very unfair for the guy. He will have hard times when the next girlfriend(s) won't have 5-10 orgasms (wtf) every time.

    Melissa Jane
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Just learn to fully relax, don't think about anything, and let nature take it's course.

    DC
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My current kinkmate always gets some handiwork prior to any penetration. After all, we meet to both come, and as I'm faster than her, I think it is fair to arrange for something satisfying the both of us. She said, handiwork from someone else is else than own hand, which she proved to me applies to both sets of private parts.

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    #35

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else When I was 10, I walked in on my mom and stepfather having sex, standing up. Their backs were toward the door so I just quietly backed out and never said a word about it. That was 40 years ago.

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    Petra Moon
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That was the night you learned to knock….😂

    SuperChicken
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    At least, they have a healthy sex life.

    Jordi Sharpe
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I walked in on my dad jerking off to porn on our couch. Never sat there again.

    Dre Mosley
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    They were working on giving you a sibling.

    katrina hunt
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Okay…my brain is fried from work but how the hell were both (their) backs toward the door?

    #36

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My extremely close, fun, trusting, platonic friendship with my sister is largely the result of the lust I once felt for her. I'm a couple of years older than my sister, but we started puberty at about the same time. I had felt sexual attraction to girls since I was a small child, I'm guessing that my natural inhibitions are just lower than the norm. Anyway, when she started developing her body I was attracted to it. Very. We were comfortable with each other (we soon got along better with each other than any of our other siblings) and she had the innocence of the 10-year-old she was, so I ended up seeing stuff every once in a while. Nip slips, changing with the door open, etc. I was so ashamed and scared, but also desperately pubescently horny. So, I naturally went about things the same way stupid boys do with girls: I treated her like a princess. Now, she was a bit of a brat growing up, and we treated her like it, so she must have noticed when I started treating her differently. As far as I could (and can) tell, she was appreciative that at least one person in the family enjoyed spending time with her. Wrestling on the couch. Playing video games together. Going to the local pool. I was damn distracted, but still enjoying my time with her. Trying desperately not to be caught in my sneaking glances or be too obvious with my physicality. It was torturous. The cognitive dissonance between caring about her and what's appropriate in general, and desperately wanting her body, was one of the biggest struggles of my childhood. I remember one night on vacation we slept in the same bed in a hotel room. I stayed up the whole night, all too aware of her beside me. How thin her pajamas were, how easy it would be to stick out my hand and explore, wondering if it would wake her up. Fortunately, I won this struggle. Nothing happened that night. Shortly afterward, I decided that I needed to get my life back in order (as a thirteen year old, I already felt like my life was a mess) and decided to completely repress any urges or thoughts related to her whatsoever. It took months, and my shame didn't go away for a long time. I honestly have no idea where I got the massive resolve needed. Now, we're very close, and I never think or feel about her sexually. I suppose on a subconscious level I still know that her body is attractive, but I don't regard it as a prospect any more. We're closer than any of our other family members, to the point that we think almost exactly the same thoughts at the same time (even though our personalities are different in plenty of ways) and have tons of inside jokes. We have so much fun together, and I honestly believe that it was largely caused by my childhood maneuverings. Nowadays, I'm almost exclusively attracted to women of other ethnicity (my first few girlfriends probably had a lot to do with that), which I'm convinced helps; however, as an adult, I've discovered with a bit of fear and disgust that I also have somewhat of an attraction to girls the age she was when this started (9+, barely starting puberty). It's not as strong as attraction to women my age, however, and I'm not worried at all. I talked to a therapist a bit about that part just to be sure that all is well; despite some weird challenges along the way, all certainly is well. I've honestly never spoken of this as far as I can remember, and I had the urge to get it off my chest just recently, so thank you all for listening.

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    Jaden Alexander
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    3 years ago

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    Helen X
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That is a big struggle to carry around. But in one of the earlier stories, it has also been said that you can’t choose who you are attracted to. What if you, as an adult, discover you’re attracted to children? It does happen, and not only to ‘creeps’ but also more ordinary people, married with children and all. I remember seeing a tv show about such a story. What are you going to do with that? When you know you can’t and don’t want to cross that boundary, but have to fight it every day? When you are disgusted by your own feelings for children? Talking about suffering! I very much hope someday there will be a solution for these people.

    Ewelina Rydzewska
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That's good you didn't cross any boundaries. And noe you have great relations with your sister, and she has a great brother. Happy end☺

    Brandy P
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This all makes total sense to me, as a family therapist. Brave of you to say it!

    Emma Darq
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Good for you for setting boundaries and working with a therapist. It could not have been easy.

    Rei
    Community Member
    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Perfect example of a normal, healthy boy growing up into a real man. Men are not just some animals driven by lust. Its is completely normal to be physically attracted to siblings and the body reacting to (visual) stimuli during that age due to huge hormonal changes. Later on, hormones get into balance as a person matures. Even little boys at the age of three can have an errection seeing a naked woman. Not knowing this can cause a huge confusion. I would recommend every parent to talk about this with their children, so they know its part of growing up into an adult.

    IDK_Something
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I agree with you. I think OP is female, however.

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    Lori w
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Unfortunately, there's not a lot of help for people who admit these type of things. It would be great if doctors prescribed meds to lower libido for people who are struggling. if you can't keep the thoughts away, please stay away from kids. Hope you are successful with therapy and can overcome unwanted thoughts.

    BasedWang12.2
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    3 years ago

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    Maybe shoulda left a few things in that last paragraph out, but this person really went for it with the "secret" thing

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    #37

    In third grade, I cheated on my history exam. In fourth grade, I stole my uncle Max’s toupee and I glued it on my face when I played Moses in my Hebrew School play. In fifth grade, I knocked my sister Edie down the stairs and I blamed it on the dog…When my mom sent me to a summer camp for fat kids and then they served lunch I got nuts and I pigged out and they kicked me out… But the worst thing I ever done — I mixed a pot of fake puke at home and then I went to this movie theater, hid the puke in my jacket, climbed up to the balcony and then, then, I made a noise like this: hua-hua-hua-huaaaaaaa — and then I dumped it over the side, all over the people in the audience. And then, this was horrible, all the people started getting sick and throwing up all over each other. I never felt so bad in my entire life.

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    Mil
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I have played the movie to my kids who were either scared of Sloth or bored by the lack of special effects and technology. The moral of the story is: kids this day don't know what's good.

    SweetCheesySpaghetti
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I don't know if I'm disappointed or proud that I recognized this halfway through the second sentence.

    Hello
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Ohy gosh🤣🤣I love the Goonies

    PandaPops
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Awww Chunk, and how are the Goonies?

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    #38

    One time in middle school, I asked to borrow my friend's pen for a moment to write something down. He was pulled out of the room for something a second later, and I just forgot that it was his pen. When he returned to the room, the teacher chewed him out for not having a pen on him. And I think he forgot that he gave it to me as well. I still feel guilty as f**k about it. Plus side, I'm the godfather to his son now. I shall seek redemption in his time of need.

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    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Next birthday OP should buy him a really nice pen.

    #39

    When I was 4 I had a neighbor who was also about 3-4. My mom worked nights so I would stay at my neighbors and hang out with their family. For about a year once every week or so I don't really remember I would look her in a room just the two of us, force her to take of her clothes and touch and kiss her body. Keep in mind I was young and had no idea what I was doing or what sex was. Fast forward 20 years and my brother decides to look up our old family friends on facebook, and the girl had recently overdosed on drugs, and her family is now trying to help people with depression. I don't think I'm aggressive at all but I try to distance myself from people because I don't want to hurt anyone. I'll probably think of myself as a horrible person forever. only saying this cause throwaway and I'm drunk

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    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    OP was four, they had no idea what they were doing was wrong. I feel sorry for everyone involved.

    Helen X
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This doesn’t seem normal behavior for a 4 year old. My cousin has a partner whose son, 7-10 years old, behaves oddly. Recently we discovered his dad watches porn a little too often and doesn’t care if his son sees that too. That explains his odd behavior. I’m feeling smt similar might be going here with his story.

    DDmaybeandor
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    100%. This is not normal innocent behavior, yes these children were innocent but the male here has more to his story than maybe he can remember. The OP was sexually abused in some way before he was 4 or while he was 4. I too feel sorry for everyone involved. I hope he can find help to work through this and I’m glad he found courage to talk about it.

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    Petra Moon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Toddlers aged 4 don’t know what they are doing. It’s just exploring the world. Don’t beat yourself up.

    Anton
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I have steady job, wrote a book, am doing quite alright but drinking...I've been drinking since I'm 13, drugs etc too, then I had to move country because of my job, no more drugs and this weekend I out of the blue realised alcohol caused 90% of all the sh!t I had to face in my life, I just don't see any purpose for it in my life anymore. Dude, after you've sobered up, take a look in the mirror and take a look at the empty bottle...I promise you, the face in the mirror will look better and the real you inside will feel better if that bottle remains empty.

    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I hope you know this is not in ANY way your fault. I'm sorry your friend made that choice, but that also is in no way your fault. I hope you're eventually able to come to terms with what happened to you.

    Lori w
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That's really awful. It happened, it's in the past. There was definitely something at that age that was bothering you and you didn't know how to express it. Human memory is very sparse around those ages, so you may not be able to recollect it. Drinking won't take away the pain, I hope you consider therapy and don't turn one tragedy into two.

    BannedFromABoatShow
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Reasons are not excuses. Anyone can have a reason for doing anything, like some of the other comments say, but there’s no excuse for confining and abusing someone.

    Melissa Jane
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I don't believe this story, or there is more to it..

    Signe Manat Hansen
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    If you really were messed up at age 4, that was NOT your fault!

    Izzy Curer
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I just don't know. Toddlers roll around together all the time, right? I mean, usually with their clothes on, but still. Would a 4 year old even see this as sexual? Op doesn't mention where on the body. I just... don't know how likely it would be that this is why she would overdose. She may not have even remembered it, or didn't think of it as anything. Either way, Op isn't to blame.

    Danielle Richards
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I think the mind can register it as abuse. I repressed a memory of being molested when I was around that age. It came up a few months ago and I became a wreck once I remembered what happened to me. I became suicidal and non functioning. So...

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    #40

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else My dad cheated on my mum with her sister when I was born (my aunt moved in to help my mother with the newborn i.e. me). My mother told me while she was drunk at a dinner party, and started it all off with "You know, I know I sometimes sound like I hate you, but there's a reason..." So, even though I love both of my parents, I secretly think they're both pretty awful excuses for human beings. My dad for obvious reasons, my mother for holding it all against me. Edit (I'm so sorry for the earlier ambiguity!!!): My mother was the one who told me. I have never been allowed to meet my aunty, but never really knew why until my mother spilled the beans. Until then, I had been offered the excuse that it was because my mother didn't like my aunty's husband. Turns out my dad is the d******d.

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    El Dee
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Nothing should be held against a child. They are innocent..

    Alaskatgal
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That is an awful feeling to carry. Of course you know, YOU have no reason for guilt, this is your parents problem. It sucks when we realize our parents are merely humans learning as they age. Probably would help to talk through this with a professional. You will be better than they were.

    #41

    This will probably get burried, but here goes. When I was 17, I met this guy and became really good friends with him. We never dated or anything, but I fell head over heels in love. Every moment with him felt romantic. I was convinced he was the one. Life happened, and due to some geographic restrictions (going to separate directions for uni) and just random unimportant s**t we lost touch after about a year. I told myself that I would forget about him and get over it. It's been over ten years, and in some ways, I still haven't. He pops into my mind after every break up I go through. Occasionally I look him up on facebook. I've tried contacting him several times and we engage in small talk, but it never goes any further than that. I'm now seeing someone who definitely wants to marry me, and I'm pretty much convinced that this other guy has positive memories of our friendship, but no further interest. I know that I need to stop fantasizing and focus on the person I have, but some small part of me is having trouble letting go of the dream of this guy. I've gotten to a point where I've basically resigned myself to the idea that I will never have him, but also that I will never really let go. I secretly think I may be crazy. :(

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    Ralica K.
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    The guy he is today is not the same guy he was when he was 17. He was what 17 years old you wanted then, but would he be good enough for you now? You obviously need some kind of closure, contact him one final time, see how it goes one final time then close it off in your mind.

    Melissa Jane
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Yes you need to visit, but you must tell him how you feel, even if you get rejected. Set your self up for rejection first, so you have nothing to lose. Then you can move on in your life with, or without him.

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    Ewelina Rydzewska
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You remember the fantasy, not the real person he is now. He may be an a ss now

    Rachael Burger
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I had something similar like this. I actually have a tip - it worked for me, maybe this will work for you. If you drink alcohol, have a glass or two. Sit in front of the mirror and imagine that you are on a coffee date, speaking to him. Tell him everything. Tell him how you felt about him, how you feel now, and why you feel like you need to let him go. Literally just let the words flow from you. Imagine his responses, and the conversation you are having. Let him ask all the questions you need him to ask. Have a cry and a laugh if that feels right. And hopefully that will help to bring closure to that love.

    Xenia Harley
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Having pined for someone that I did have a relationship with (that I ended for personal reasons), if he has made no move all these years to contact you, it is a fantasy. Do yourself a favor and move on. No need to engage him, even. The actions are clearly there! I spent way too many years pining for someone instead of finding someone who could actually be there with me.

    Hooked
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Go to him and ask him ! Get it over with. What is the worst thing that can happen ? That he confirms your suspicion ? At least then you know and you can move on. Because this is not a healthy situation and it *will* come back to hurt and maybe break you once. Life's too short and precious to waste it like this.

    Bouche Clay
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I met the man I was going to marry at 14. He was 18, and was the first cute guy to ever be nice to me. I fell HARD. His discovery that he is gay made no difference. I was going to have him. I was in my 20's before I outgrew the crush and matured enough that we could be very good friends. He moved far away not long after. I missed him, but we were both busy with our own lives. About 15 years ago, I found his phone number online and called. It was awkward for five minutes, but then it was like we'd seen each other the day before. We talked for an hour or more. I'm thinking I might just try to find his number again, and catch up.

    Wintermute
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I had similar. When my marriage was going down hill I found myself hung up on a friend who I'd never had strong feelings for before. Thing was, it was only when she was away. I had this idea of a person that would fill the gaps I felt in my marriage and basically embodied that in a fantasy in someone else. Thing was, when I was with this other person in real life, there was nothing. No attraction, no idealisation. In fact, she had some qualities I really detested (politically). So I realized it was all in my mind as a deflection from admitting hard truths.

    Luke T
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Schedule a phone call and tell him all this. Maybe you'll get closure that way

    Kalevra
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I dont understand the "what could have been" mentallity in this situation. OP didnt take the shot and its over. Why continue?

    #42

    30 Secrets That People Promised Themselves They’d Never Tell Anyone Else Probably the fact that I lost my virginity at 24 and not 18. At that point, I knew it wasn't going to be magical or anything but I had this thought that I needed to get this done. I met a girl online and she took a liking to me. She hung out at my place for the second date and of course things happened. I did it in a very pragmatic and clinical way. My mind went "Lick here, stick this here." She did mention how bad I was but I played it off as me being rusty. It was a year long process that started with me stating that I will lose my virginity. It started with talking to 5 girls at the same time. I even went on a date with a 50 year old woman. I told her I was 35 (I was 23) but my quest finally came to an end. What's next? Repeat the process until I find someone compatible to make permanent. As the saying goes "You miss 100% of the shots you don't take."

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    TheAquarius1978
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Dude lmao, do you know where did i learned what to do.... At work, i had a lot of downtime, the at the place where i worked there was a Lady that had massive amounts of " pink magazines " só i use to read them, and i can tell you, it works it really works, who the hell would imagine that you can get a woman Turned on just by touching her arms in the right way lol...

    Helen X
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    So you lost your virginity at 24 instead of 18. No big deal, believe me. Don’t put too much pressure on that, you have the rest of your life to get the experience. Also having sex doesn’t change your character and in the end that’s the only thing that matters, when it comes to building a good relationship with your future partner.

    Izzy Curer
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    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I took my husband's virginity. He didn't tell me for ten years. I really wish I'd known at the time. I would have thought it was special, not embarrassing. Also, "Lick this, stick this here," is hilarious.

    Brenda
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    My (now) husband was 31 and I was 28. He served in the Navy for 6 years, traveling all over the world, and he was a virgin when we got together - I wasn't. I'm so glad he was honest with me about no experience & feeling nervous. We HAD to learn to tell each other what we did and didn't like. 25 years later it was obviously the best choice. Don't be ashamed and don't lie about it. Inexperience just means exploring things together.

    Signe Manat Hansen
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This sounds so much like one of my friends

    #43

    My friend showed me his girlfriend's (my best friend's) nude pictures

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    Annie Bieber
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    What a douchepacker your friend is...

    Banjocricket
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    This should not be a secret. She needs to know about this. Who knows how many other people have seen them? It doesn't sound like you're a good friend to her at all.

    Melissa Jane
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    He doesn't deserve to have a girlfriend.

    Trillian
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Um, and you agreed to look at them? Or did he just shove them into your face?

    #44

    I am the one that put the hole in the wall of the upstairs bedroom

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    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    what did you do?..

    Timothy Jamelli
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I....PUT THE SCREWWWW....IN THE TUNA!

    Melissa Jane
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    It can be fixed, own up and admit it.....Your life will be easier being able to admit to your mistakes.

    #45

    The only reason I married my first wife was based completely on a lie. We were taking some time apart because she realized she still had feelings for an ex. I knew the relationship wouldn't really work long term, we were young and too different; but the thought of that rejection was too much for my egotistical mind to bear. I was driving and crying one night and ditched my car on a country road, my face slamming into the steering wheel in the process. I instantly had a huge bruise, and when I saw her next I told her someone walked up to me and hit me in the face while telling me to stay away from her. She bought it, and we got back together. I later proposed to her because, and I quote my internal monologue, "if I were willing to lie like that, I **probably** loved her." Obviously, she cheated again, emptied our accounts and vanished. After she left, I was destroyed and sank into a decade long depression, became an alcoholic and basically tried to suicide via poor choices. In a way, I sort of deserved that Dear Bigsie letter and have no idea how to reconcile that fact with myself.

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    Petra Moon
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Wow..you made some bad choices. But you have the rest of your life so I hope you turn your life around and find happiness.

    #46

    I forged a report card in high school. I was a sh**ty student (undiagnosed depression and anxiety was the culprit, but that's another story). Anyway, teachers would often be able to submit stock comments such as "Fails to complete homework" or "Does not participate in class" along with their letter grades. My parents told me that if I get one more comment, I'm losing my computer and TV privileges for the summer. I went to a private Catholic school, and report cards were simply printed out on school letterhead and handed to the students. The day they came out, I had multiple comments. Thus my best friend Dan and I quickly devised a plan. I went to the front office and asked one nice secretaries there for a piece of school letterhead. I have no idea to this day what excuse I gave for needing one, but she happily complied. I then called my parents and asked to go to Dan's house after school. Knowing report cards came out that day, they said no. I disobeyed them (something I never, ever did), and went to Dan's house where we printed out a new report card on the letterhead with the same poor grades but sans comments. Since disobedience from me was so rare, I got a slight punishment for that, but they completely believed my fake report card. They never knew the truth and I will never tell them. I still can't believe I got away with it.

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    Minath
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I wonder how the parents would react many years later.

    Question everything
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    Depends how the OP turned out to be as an adult and their relationship with the parents. If all is OK they'd probably laugh it off.

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    #47

    I've made it a point not to tell any friends I make or girls I begin to love since high school that I had a brother who died in a motorcycle accident with I was 15. There's no good way to bring it up, it only kills good moods, and with girls they feel like they can't come to me with problems because generally it isn't as bad as losing a brother. Opening yourself up can make dealing with things a lot easier. But in my experience if things don't work out the fall makes re-learning to be self sufficent at coping absolute torture.

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    Shawnna Clement
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    There's always a right moment to talk about the death of a loved one. It just might take time...

    Brenda
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    One day, with the right person, you'll be able to talk about him freely, both the good and the bad. And if girls or friends can't handle it when you need to talk about him, then you're definitely better off not sharing.

    Dispatcherqueen
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    You should read the poem, Death is Nothing At All...here is the link https://www.familyfriendpoems.com/poem/death-is-nothing-at-all-by-henry-scott-holland

    Sherri Mantooth Bagwell
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    That's a tough one. You want to keep the memory of your brother alive, but not be a buzz kill by announcing he was killed in a wreck. We lost a son 15yrs ago in a car wreck. I don't make a point of going up to people & saying, "Hi! Want to hear how our 10yo died?" If it comes up in conversation it does. Otherwise, I keep quiet about it.

    #48

    How much of my school work throughout highschool was total b******t

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    #49

    I still love my ex

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    Chewie Baron
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I still love my ex and he’s been dead 7 years. Still can’t get over him.

    Petra Moon
    Community Member
    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    I know someone whose ex died 40 years ago. They are married with two kid but still long for their ex.

    BasedWang12.2
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    3 years ago Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    yeahhh been waning back and forth on this and know I had something REALLLLY amazing, but with what I've become and my drinking, I know it is definately better for her

    Kalevra
    Community Member
    3 years ago (edited) Created by potrace 1.15, written by Peter Selinger 2001-2017

    OP is a piece of shlt. Quit stringing people along.