I'mma have to ask everyone to take this to the top. Rain upvotes! Please. Thank you.

In the case of toxic people, family or not, cutting them out of your life really makes a difference.

That's why I love the internet. You can ask the stupidest or most inappropriate questions and it's more than likely that : 1- someone has already asked the same question or 2- someone will gladly give you an answer. At the same time there will always be that someone who will bash you for anything you might say or do (too ugly, too pretty, too fat, too skinny, etc).

This. i am fed up of people who have never suffered from depression but declare suicides as cowards.

Going through hard times definitely didn't make me stronger. It made me sadder and a lot more fragile and took away a lot of my faith in things.

To them it was their "normal" behavior.

🥺Thank you

I will admit that when my depression was at its lowest (besides suicide attempt). I didn't brush my teeth, brush my hair or showered in over 2 weeks. It was all just too hard.

Why does his expression match that statement perfectly. Lol. Good on you eagle.

That's my life spelt out!

I remember mom picking me up early from school in 4th grade to go see the 1st Star Trek movie. Still one of the best school memories, ever.

I wish social anxiety was an excuse. It has ruined so much of my life.

Me looking into the mirror: "This is all YOUR fault!"

I feel personally attacked

"You need to work harder". "You need to give up on the lattes". "You need to .............."

I just felt a weight drop onto my shoulders when I read this.

I needed people who actually cared about me and wouldn't ditch me on the playground for someone else and leave me alone without any friends for the rest of the year at the drop of a hat

Depression is not the tears you shed it's the smile you fake

#FACTS

This post is about me and I accept it....it's true. P.S. I'm not a doctor, my parents are still disappointed.

I felt this to my very core. Not to mention the loss of sleep over the associate anxiety.

Sometimes I question myself if I’m a toxic person. I may hurt others without realizing it. I really want to change to be a better person

One time when I was at my lowest I was driving around and contemplating where to park and potentially take my own life. An older gentleman was walking down the back road I was on with his wife and he turned and smiled at me with the most genuine smile I'd seen. His wife turned and did the same and they both waved. That couple saved my life by just showing me a moment of genuine humanity by smiling. Guilt was what drove me to want to die. This post made me remember this.

True. Never really thought about that. Was relentlessly bullied as a child and teachers/parents always ignored and brushed under the carpet. I always bury problems deep now, work through in my own space and never tell anyone.

I've never felt so seen.

As though you had a choice to be depressed when in reality you were having very serious mental health issues.

I did this too. I survived three attempts that night.

My mom says she had anxiety but I don't think she understands how serious mine really is

I think I want to be hospitalised, I need the break from this world.

Pretending not to be depressed is exhausting and then one day the energy it takes isn't there

I'm so very appreciative and grateful that I have a hubby like that. He has dealt with so much with me and my depression. He has supported me and loved me throughout everything.

Ohhh...that's what it is.

Yeah I realized I burnt out at the beginning of the year but I'm still going and (sort of) fine!

My son says "Wait! I'm in the blender......" Thats his way of saying full stop and he will let us know when he feels OK to continue.

I felt that right now. Thank you.

I cope with my suicidal thoughts by planning out super elaborate suicide methods i could never possibly pull off.

Ah , you've met our occupational health department

That's me at the moment. I'm also still trying to get into a good routine now I'm studying.

Exactly.

Thoughts like this coming to mind, At 3 am in the night

Our generation is the one that's dealing with wake up calls for everything that has been wrong. We're fed up with toxic people, toxic masculinity, homophobia, gender discrimination, glass ceilings. I think it's a hard time to live but it's a historic time to watch and enjoy.

Wait, I thought all that was "normal". It isn't??

Look up "Childhood Emotional Neglect."

What I did was pass a long line of mental illness on to my daughter, who is now a teenager and resents me completely while she's feeling feelings I can't help her with cause I can't help myself with the same feelings and it's torture. I want to wrap my arms around her and hug her and it never happens and I will always feel responsible for that

You are so wrong Alexis. I am normal... This is normal... Hey, seriously, I feel normal.

I feel so seen

Yes - they didn’t know what to do with me or how to raise me… so they bought me stuff I didn’t care about, then called me “an ungrateful, spoiled rotten brat.” I’ve had anxiety & depression for as long as I can remember (now it’s called Adult ADHD 🙄) and to this day do not like getting presents for any occasion. I hope this resonates with some else… Sux. And the emotional part, yup: People pleasing & codependency. Good times.

Well I’m definitely not normal…

*felt*

It's perfectly normal given the context, if you ask me.

All that WAS normal.

Definitely not normal.

I'll also lose a lot of sleep...so its best we discuss it right now.

Huh?

Lol same.

This is what happens when you grow up being told to suppress your emotions and never to ask for help or let on that you're hurting because that's "weak". It's so bloody sad. :(