I really hope so. It's not me, but I have family members battling mental illnesses all their lives and sometimes they've mentioned suicidal thoughts. One of them self-submitted in a hospital because of this once. Now they seem better, they are taking their meds, but the mental health care here isn't very good - just sending you to psychiatrist and giving you strong meds, no psychological counseling or something like this, so they are left to cope with all the strange things that go through their minds themselves. They aren't 100% all right, they are a lo better, but they still have depressive episodes sometimes. I talk with them and visit whenever I can, I don't know if I am of much help, but I try to do what I can.

I'm in depression for too long. I don't know if I want to continue living or just ended my life. I always tried to commit suicide but always failed.

Yup. I can relate. It's hard to explain that mind-set. That horrible state of purgatory. Life sucks, but you don't wanna die. Sometimes self-destructive behavior is appealing to some, cos it causes and/or takes away the pain, but only temporarily. Having support is very important. As well as an understanding of mental illness, what it is, what people go through.

That's true.

The sad thing is that suicide ends feeling anything for the victim, and shifts the pain to those left behind.

A very good statement !!!

"I am being quite hypocritical since there has been more than several times when I have considered taking drastic steps" → That's the very opposite of being hypocritical, so, please, stop thinking you are. You're obviously speaking from experience, a bad experience that you hopefully overcame, because, as you say, the world does not suck as it seems to sometimes. Stay strong, seek help if you need, and don't let irrational thoughts take the best of you. Our brains can be such merciless trolls sometimes.