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Norman Beattie 2 years ago

Well said !

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Vincent T Burgio 2 years ago

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dream of delusion 2 years ago (edited)

i can fully understand this. i think you made a good decision, handing him to a trusted someone who will give him the love a child deserves

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Jeni 2 years ago

I am adopted and I have nothing but reverence for my birth mom. ❤️

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Alex Schroeder 2 years ago

what a kind person. I respect her for taking care of the child she birthed instead of keeping and neglecting him.

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chiizkake 2 years ago

It totally counts. I have three kids, who I LOVE, but it's no daily picnic and every day I have to hope I made the right call for us all. It's only you who gets to decide what you're ready for in your own existence. I hope you live in a free state where you were allowed to make the call for yourself when it was still early on. But regardless, you made a call---and if they're thriving in a good life right now, you did the right thing and you should hug yourself every day for making the right choice for all parties.

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Not_Tellin 2 years ago

Admitting your short comings as a potential parent is hard. Better your child is with people who want and love it. I understand and respect that you looked in the mirror and said, "I will fail if I do this and ruin 2 lives, the baby's and mine". I must respect that kind of truth.

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Brenda 2 years ago

You did an amazing thing!

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Trish Smith 2 years ago

Bless you!

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Vincent T Burgio 2 years ago

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Gabriel Sbárbaro 2 years ago (edited)

I don't understand why people fall for that "it's different when it's yours" b*llsh*t... if all the parents of the world automatically loved their children, there wouldn't be mistreated, traumatized, abused, beaten, raped or murdered children by their own parents... STOP romanticizing paternity... not all people are cut out to be parents, to raise a whole person... and seeing the state of today's world, I'm confident in saying that the vast majority of people aren't...

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Samantha Whitley 2 years ago

My thoughts exactly. Very well said 🙌 👏

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Talon Miller 2 years ago

It definitely speaks volumes about your character knowing that if you can't be that person for the kid, you knew what should be done and made someone else's lives better, along with the kid.

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Mari 2 years ago

I respect your choice! You are a real mum, mothers wants the best for their child and in your case adoption is the best choice.

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Evelyn Ann 2 years ago (edited)

After realizing that you can't do it, finding a loving home is the best thing for your child. Amazingly strong for admitting this and doing ypur best for them. I went through a similar situation, an infertile couple I'm related to adopted my daughter through an adoption agency. A girl my age who was pregnant with her 3rd child at 21 who didn't know who the father was and lived off of housing and food stamps told me i was "the most selfish human being on the planet" for giving my child to a family with careers, a home and love to spare. I was homeless at the time and working for minimum wage, hated her abusive father who i had just left. Yep, I'm the selfish one. I work in customer service and that's STiLL one of the dumbest things I've ever heard.

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Evelyn Ann 2 years ago

Just wanted to add, i wish i could comment on the original source to the Karens who think you can just hand a baby away. A lawyer is assigned to the child to determine best home. Extensive background checks and home visits plus the fees are around $10,000 for adoption. The people who commented negatively are obviously the kind of women who scream at their children to shut up in public. You know the type.

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Brittany 2 years ago

The fact that this person had so many edits is the result of people having an opinion an not really knowing the whole story. Shut up and keep your opinions to yourself! You don't need to respond to everything and you don't need to defend yourself.

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A**hole2016 2 years ago

Ignore the backlash and judgement. You knew you couldn't give the child the love and affection children need and you made sure they had a family that could. I honestly praise you for that. I have two daughters of my own and I love children. I raised four of my siblings and babysat a lot growing up and yet, I still commend you for what you did. That is showing compassion for a child, whether you realize it or not. You may say you don't like kids or anything but your still care enough to make sure one has a life they deserve. A lot of people who "care" about children wouldn't do that because of judgement from people like the ones criticizing you. Be strong and remember that you did what was best.

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Benita Valdez 2 years ago

Whoever has said negative to you are assholes. There is nothing wrong with what you did. You did right by both of you.

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Heather Lambie 2 years ago (edited)

I am proud of you for knowing what your limits were and finding him a forever family❤️

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The Other Guest 2 years ago

I used to get the "It's different when they're your own" comment, too (I think all CFBC folks get that at least once). My response was, "Yeah - I'm stuck with them 24/7 and can't just send them 'home' when I need a break!"

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Mrs. Jan Glass 2 years ago

Got this all the time. Luckily, my personal experience with pregnancy, and opting to abort instead, made it clear to me that you do NOT have a baby and just hope it all works out. It's irrevocable. I decided I'd rather risk regretting having an abortion than having a child. Fortunately, I've never regretted an abortion, either. People who tell you "it's different when it's yours!" are just insecure assholes who want you to validate their own life choices by making the same ones. Don't do it.

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Doggo 2 years ago

Respect 😎

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Joanie 2 years ago (edited)

I wish my parents had been as honest, selfless and caring as this woman. They are two people who should have never had children. From the outside we lived in the average middle class household. From the inside it was a nightmare filled with hunger, neglect, physical abuse, alcoholism and dispair. I often imagined that I was adopted and that my real parents were trying to find me. It was a way for a child to cope.

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Tessb90 2 years ago

Having to find ways to cope as a child, is why my mental health is so fuc|<ed up as an adult. Behind closed doors, there are so many people who should not be allowed to have children, not just a trial run to see how long it takes CPS to catch up with them...

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Gen X. 2 years ago

I decided I didn't want kids at 12. And now that I'm 46, I'm glad I didn't have any.

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Camo Pena 2 years ago

Adoption is fantastic. Nice you did that

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Uber Mensch 2 years ago

You did the right thing.

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The Redhead 2 years ago

You recognized that motherhood wasn't for you (nothing wrong with that, it's not for everyone.) You made sure that he was adopted by a good family. You're a very compassionate person.

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Isaac the Human? 2 years ago

Good job, you. I’m not sure I would be able to do that, because I would be so insistent on keeping the child because my stubborn brain would think that I would be capable of taking care of them. Then that child would grow up with a parent who lacked love for them, which isn’t the best for a child’s mental health.

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Nubmaeme 2 years ago

You called yourself an incubator but you were far more than that. You loved the child more than you realize. You gave him life when you could have taken that life from him. Then you chose to make someone else happy. Only a true mother would want a better life for her child even if it meant giving up that child to someone else.

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Meghan Sullivan-Timcke 2 years ago

I think you did love him. It showed by what you did.

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Alessa Gillespie 2 years ago

How many kid's lives could have been improved if more people could accept that being a parent is not something we should all do.

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Moya Satterwhite 2 years ago

Honest and upfront, you gave your child loving parents, just what children need.

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Kelly Reno 2 years ago

This would be me with a kid. I said no kids at 13 yrs. Had absolutely no clue why. My bf in a conversation about my sister and niece that the reason I couldn't really understand (had to do with hormones and senerios) the full why was because I lacked that instinct. Yes I have zero maternal instinct.

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MygrandsonscallmeNia 2 years ago

I did it when I was 20 years old... I just didn't want to raise a child, I wasn't ready. I was an Alcoholic to top it off, No child deserves to be in a home, where the parent only thinks of partying... A wonderful family adopted him! He has an amazing life, with a couple who couldn't have children. They tried everything, nothing. This was back in "85", not a lot of options yet, either. Yes, when I first seen that beautiful face, I wanted to keep him. I began to truly want to take back my decision. But, how I was, and the papers already signed, I couldn't... When the day came for me to leave, and go home I wanted to take him with me. But, you see, since I drank, and used drugs, he had health issues. Plus, we have a genetic issue, cleft palate that runs in my family. He had it. He needed three operations before he was 2 years old, then more before he was 5 years old. There was No Way, I could settle down, and be the Mom he needed. He has a wonderful life! I'm glad I did it.

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MygrandsonscallmeNia 2 years ago

I ran out of room, here's the rest. Abortion, wasn't an option for me. The thought of knowing, it's little heart is already beating, when I found out I was pregnant, kept me from it. Knowing, there's couples out there wanting children, and can't have any, stayed o my mind. It was My mistake, not his, Why should I kill him? 6 weeks, is how old a baby is when it's heart starts to beat, and it's no longer just an egg. It now, has a soul. Adoption agencies, vet those who apply, and you can do a background check if your own, before deciding.

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Linda Estrada 2 years ago

I respect you SO much....ty for recognizing you weren't interested in being a mom ❤

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Ashley Lee 2 years ago

Having kids isn't for everyone. The fact that you can see them even tho you choose not is still ok. Making sure they went to a good family you know was a smart thing to do. Being open and honest about it all is the what will keep you happy! Live your life

2points

Meghan Sullivan-Timcke 2 years ago

I think you did love him. You showed it by what you did.

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AliJanx 2 years ago

Takes a lot to realize you're not the parent the child needs. Glad you found a good solution for everyone.

2points

Shiny1 2 years ago

Thank you for recognizing your limits and responding appropriately. Thank you for having your son. Hugs to you!

2points

Wiebke Zaniewski 2 years ago

Actually that was the most caring thing to do. I can relate as I think I would be the same. Now after having had a uterus carcinoma that's one worry less.

2points

Featherytoad 2 years ago

I totally get it. I never wanted kids and I think if I would have had one, I would have felt the same way.

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Nya Crea Singer 2 years ago

You did well. ❤️

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Cathy Hurd 2 years ago

Not everybody feels that pull of parenthood and there's absolutely nothing wrong with that. The most selfish thing you can do is have children you don't want. My sister had 3 and when they were 11, 9 and 3 she abandoned them.

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Mine Truly 2 years ago

Thank you so much for confirming what I've always suspected, that "you may hate kids but you'll love YOUR kid" isn't true for everyone. I strongly suspect it wouldn't be true for me.

1point

Christine Neely 2 years ago

I respect those who know they do not want kids. You made the right decision by allowing someone the chance to be a parent.

1point

Noor AtifQureshi 2 years ago

Saw this medical condition of no motherly love in Series-Good Doctor

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Chikin Nippls710 2 years ago

I was someone who was adopted by a very abusive and neglectful family, she did the right thing. If you don't want a kid, either get an abortion or put it up for adoption AND DO YOUR PART IN THE PROCESS. Our foster system in America is absolute trash and the home checks are bogus.

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Michael W 2 years ago

I can't even imagine what it's like to feel this way. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me going as a parent through the difficult times are the good moments. If I didn't feel much of anything to bolster my resolve there's no way I could do this. I'm happy to see that this worked out for the best for all of those who were involved, it must have been a very difficult situation.

1point

Suck it Trebek 2 years ago

You were strong enough to admit you couldn't do it and saved that kid by giving him a chance at a happy life.

1point

Brian Garrett 2 years ago

As a too young parent (and I'm not laying judgement) this is very hard to read I won't lie.

1point

CammyCat 2 years ago

I don’t see this as any different than a suroget. It’s just a matter of DNA

1point

Deitra Pawley 2 years ago

I think that was a very selfless thing to do,you knew you wouldn't be a good mom and you didn't try to force yourself which probably would have not been a good thing, you did something that wasn't just for you but for your child. I sometimes say giving birth to a child doesn't automatically make you ready to be a parent.

1point

Shyla Clay 2 years ago

Not only did you give your son a family that wanted and loved him, you gave people you care about a son. My aunt and uncle were blessed to adopt a baby on day one. They are Kathy's parents, and she is their daughter. Kathy has had a very good life, and is a part of our family. The son you bore will be a part of his family-- the family you were willing to give him to. He's not just some kid. He's a kid who was given a loving family.

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Beenie Cat 2 years ago

I wonder how my sister feels about her kids now? I applaud this girl for at least being upfront about not wanting to be a parent because what my family went through with my younger sister and her knucklehead shenanigans was awful before finally getting her kids out of her dangerous situation. Life has many twist and turns, I didn't expect to be taking care of kids but I'm taking care of my nephews and niece with my mom's help. I have a baby sister as well who was a knucklehead too and had a boy (my middle nephew) but she's working hard on turning her life around for her son so I wish my younger sister had that same motivation but looking at this article makes me rethink about it a bit.

1point

Mel Rupp 2 years ago

Sounds like a highly responsible way to go. Series the best parenting is finding your child the RIGHT parents.

1point

Tena Douglas 1 year ago

Good for you dear. I know the feeling so very well.

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Mark Kelly 2 years ago

I'm adopted My birth mother was a single mother with issues and knew she couldn't support 4 kids well.

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Key Lime 2 years ago

Good for you to know that you didn't have it in you to love and parent your child. So many people think it's their duty and these kids have horrible childhoods. You did what was best for the child and his loving adopted parents ❤.

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Janet C 2 years ago

Yeah that whole "it's different when it's yours -- you should try it" is BS. This is the result. Not everyone wants kids and when bullied into it they end up resenting or hating the fact that they have kids. No one should EVER push anyone else to have a kid.

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April Pickett 2 years ago

Good for you being proactive finding parents who wanted another child. You knew you wouldn't be a good parent and I celebrate your honesty. Thank you for finding a good home for your child instead of keeping him and having a not-so-good life.

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Mumof1 2 years ago

Much respect to you for your honesty and doing the best for your child.

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Diane Tabbott 2 years ago

You deserve nothing but kudos for facing your situation realistically and doing what was best for all concerned. Not all of us have maternal urgings, and whatever and whoever you are, my feeling is accept it and deal with it like an adult. That kid has a fantastic life because YOU had the guts to bite the bullet when it counted.

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joi 2 years ago

nonbinary was a hideously expensive oopsie whose defective hip sucked hundreds of thousands from my medical transcription service as they had three surgeries and months in hip spica casts/ We'd have possessions like the normies and not live in poverty if that kid hadnt defecated all over our young marriage. Not aborting K was the single worst decision in my klife.

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Sheryl V. Joned 2 years ago

Bless your heart for realizing your own limitations and feelings and acting appropriately on them.

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Chelsea Cella 2 years ago

Very respectful no judgement! Love honest moms! I bet that was still very hard for you.

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J Hatcher 2 years ago

My utmost respect and love for your decision!! You can't feel what isn't there. BUT you can and YOU WERE A HERO for knowing & making the decision to give your child a life filled with the love they deserve. Not all heroes wear capes and YOU are one of them ❤️

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River Davis 2 years ago

This is so much better. I was worried when they said they felt nothing, but as soon as they said they let their son be adopted, I was so relieved. So many parents keep children they never wanted and it leads to a lot of neglect and abuse or just stress and a lot of issues for the kid. Giving up a child you know you can't care for is the best solution. More parents should do this for so many different reasons. It is the best option for the kid to go to a home that wants them.

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Adiyah D 2 years ago

Thank you fur being honest and doing the best thing for the kid...I had a similar issue win my second child.. my older sister took him and around 3yrs old the feelings came... at 5 the bond cemented.

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Julie Fager 2 years ago

Thank you for realizing motherhood was not for you. Too many women don't have that wisdom/common sense. I too am adopted, and have always said that my bio "mother" gave birth to me, and my REAL mother gave *life* to me. And, I got to thank the bio mother for giving me a wonderful life by giving me up.

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Devan LePage 2 years ago

I was adopted and it is the best feeling in the world. So glad you decided to do this. It means a lot to those of us who have been adopted

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Susan Kiser 2 years ago

You provided a child to someone who truly wanted kids. You didn’t abuse the kid. You didn’t neglect the kid. You didn’t abort the kid. That honey in this world today, makes you a super hero!!

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Aldana Páez 2 years ago

You gave the child a life were they would be loved and wanted

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Tammy Alderink-Paige 2 years ago

I felt the same way. Never wanted kids. My ex husband and I got pregnant. He became a drug addict and I really didn't want kids. We adopted him out at 6 months old. I got to choose his family and he grew up as well as I'd hoped I, like you, felt not like a mother but just the person who gave birth to him.

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Alisa Martin 2 years ago

It is great you gave the child to someone whom he would be loved by. Nowhere did you mention a father. I assume he did not want the child either?

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Samantha Whitley 2 years ago

Ok I have to say I'm very proud of this woman. I couldn't imagine going through what she did. The struggle of trying to love your kid because that's what we're told we're supposed to do, trying to figure out why you can't seem to love them and wondering if there's something wrong with you(idk if this is how she felt, these are just thoughts I'd have in that situation). Despite not being able to love the child she still made a brave and selfless decision and did what was best for the child. We hear all the time of parents who hurt or end the life of a child because they didn't want them. Yet this amazing woman gave this child to a family who could give the child the life and love she knew she wasn't able to. I wish people would stop being so cruel to people who choose to put their kid(s) up for adoption. Sometimes that is the best or only option they have. This gives me a sliver of hope that not all humans are evil and completely suck.

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Susan Raskin 2 years ago

you did the right thing for both you and your child.

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Helen Benjamins 2 years ago

I love my daughter to bits but quite often, I don’t like her. But I expect she feels just the same.

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Mike willett 2 years ago

Why not just get it "taken care of" instead of ruining your body for something you didn't even want.

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Em 2 years ago

She should have got therapy for her attachment issues. This could have been fixed.

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madbakes 2 years ago

Yes, scummy how she decided to give the child a loving home. Just awful.

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MimSorensson 2 years ago

As opposed to keeping a child that they could never love and did not want, denying the child of their childhood and happiness and themselves of will to live? I can't even imagine how anyone would arrive at that conclusion.

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Auntriarch 2 years ago

In what way?

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children Mother of a seven year old boy here, with a throwaway because this goes down hard with others so I don't mention it irl with any links to myself.

I never wanted children. I saw no appeal, no urge to have them, no tugging on the ovaries when around babies. I never believed I was cut out to be a mother in any sense of the word, and experience proved it.

I dated my husband to be, who was adamant he wanted no children either, we married, and all was well until out of the blue a few years later he decided the most important thing to him on the planet was for me to bear his children.

He wore me down, and at the time I didn't have the fortitude to say or do anything to push my point, and he made promises to cover all my fears. He said he'd be happy to do most of the rearing and he wouldn't allow me to fall into being the sole childraising parent. He reassured me his parents would take some of the load. I thought it was all part of how love should be and with his persuading, my parents telling me I'd change my mind like everyone does, his parents being over the moon about his decision to try for kids, I went along with it. At the age of 27 I had a fine, healthy baby boy.

And within months it was clear my ex's promises were all about him and I'd made a dreadful mistake and I was raising a child I felt no bond with virtually alone. The experience changed us both and after just over a year later he left me because *I* changed. I probably don't have to tell any parent here about that, at least physically.

Mentally though, it was a killer. The bond never happened, and I just ended up a mother to a *someone*. I can't even say "this is my son" because I don't feel that. There was caring for a dependent human being who deserves a safe life and protection and security, and until he was four I raised him alone. I can't describe the hell of raising someone you can't work up a bond with, even a good person. It's like having the best flatmate I had while at uni, but also being responsible for every part of their being from food, medical, emotional, educational... I know no matter how I put it, to people who have children and who've connected with them there's no comparison, but that's you and this is me.

I don't hate the kid. He deserves far more than I am capable of giving, and I am so f*****g thankful my ex's grandparents stepped in. They were collecting him for a weekend and I made an offhand comment about keeping him (worn down by two days looking after vomiting child) and his grandfather took me aside and asked in all seriousness if I was coping. I let it all out and he, the man who didn't want me to marry his son, was understanding enough to see I was serious, I was trying the best I could, I was failing, and it was damaging his grandson. By the time he was five they took him in permanently.

So they're raising him and I think it's better for all of us. I ache because I don't love him, and never have - but he's still a small, vulnerable, developing human who deserves real parents with real love. He seems to have bonded well with his grandparents, though I know kids can be remarkably resilient and reserved when the biggest things bother him. I don't know if it's my bias from being free of the situation but I hope loving (relatively young, they're 51) grandparents are better than a constantly angry and increasingly resentful mother.

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I'm honestly not sure how I feel about my child, and that is a super s**t***ty feeling.

I thought I wanted a child. I wanted one so badly that it hurt. I even cried a few months before I got pregnant because I was so sure that I was finally pregnant, and then was let down when I found out that I wasn't. At the time, we were living in a small apartment in a not so very good city. I had an okay job, but it wasn't enough to comfortably live with 2 adults, one who is ... without sugar coating it... someone who doesn't add anything financially to the relationship. We were getting by on the skin of our teeth and with $200 a month in help with food from my SO's mom.

I was completely irresponsible, but I don't think I cared. It took us 6 months to get pregnant, and we had only been together for about 9 months until that point. I think I felt my whole life that I was unloved and that no one cared about me, and that no matter what I wanted to experience life inside of me, and have a beautiful baby that I could love on and eventually someone who would love me back. When I was pregnant, I would sit for hours and dream about my future with my little girl, like taking her to the park, getting ice cream after school, arts and crafts.. the works!

My daughter was born a little early, but otherwise perfect. So beautiful, people would stop us just to let us know we had a gorgeous little girl. I was absolutely in love, we were a bit better off financially, everything was going right. But as time went on my daughter who was meeting all milestones and even passing a few (walking before crawling) just turned off at 13 months. My once interactive and charming baby became a growling, shrieking machine of rage and hatred. She no longer interacted, she no longer looked at us. She didn't respond to anything, and our once calm nights became a night where we could have anywhere between 3 to 6 hours of nonstop tantrums. As she got a bit older, about 2 years old, she started to get physically violent too. She would kick us and pinch us, claw at our arms and faces. If we moved away from her, or tried to hold her down, it would get worse but towards herself, slamming her head into the ground, kneeing herself in the face... just SO BAD!

We got a severe autism with the future possibility of retardation as a diagnosis and found a doctor willing to help us with her violent tendencies with medication. She's 4 now. Still nonverbal, still in her own world and last she was tested is mentally about 6 months old. 6 months old.. but in the body of a child I can no longer control. She's too heavy for me to lift without a struggle, too long for me to be able to hold down all body parts when needed, and big enough that it really does hurt when she get's us. Her medications help, but it's no cure. Where it was nightly before, it's down to 2 or 3 times a week. That sounds a ton better, and it certainly is, but it's hard to accept that things are 'better' when you still spend up to 12 hours a week holding down a screaming child who is hellbent on making *someone* bloody tonight.

And with all of this, what hurts is that we can't tell anyone any of this. We can't talk to anyone. People suggest we go to support groups, but we feel like those are a sham. Anonymity has allowed people online to share their feelings that are in the same situation for us, and we know that how we feel... this love mixed with hatred, is normal for parents in our situation. But if we ever said that in person, even to other parents in our shoes, we would be vilified. Everyone would be upset that we feel this way. Our family doesn't understand, and they think life with our daughter must be so special and amazing...but they get to leave when she starts to whine. They force themselves onto us to visit, and then leave an hour later bitching that she isn't like Neighbor Julia's kids who all can play board games and read with their grandparents, leaving her a teeth grinding, head banging in the wall mess that takes hours for her to get over.

The last straw I think is seeing my friends who have children younger than my daughter that ... they can live out the dream I had with my daughter. They can talk to their kids, they can interact with them. Having children for them is a dream, and they plan on more in the future. I read last week about a friends 4 year old that wrote and left a note to be mailed to Santa and that together they baked goodies together. I don't get these. That's not my life, and it makes me jealous. And f**k me if I say anything too, because then I'm the selfish mom because I think about those things too instead of just about how this autism must make my daughter feel.

It's stressful. We can't afford anything but an apartment, so our neighbors constantly complain about her screaming that we have no control over. They complain when she is up at 4 am hollering because something didn't go exactly right. She tortures us (and probably herself) with only sleeping between 2 and 5 hours of sleep a night and that's it all day. She can only fall asleep when sitting on me - which doesn't sound too bad until you consider that she get's upset when she's tired, and will flail, kick and scream. Once she headbutted me and snapped my glasses off, leaving a huge gash across my face and blind for days without my glasses. When she does sleep, she will be sent into a horrible rage if she sleeps anywhere but with us, and with us being between us. Two adults plus a 4 year old in the middle of a cheap queen size bed. My husband and I have gotten used to sleeping so far to the edge that we have to hold on. We're constantly sleep deprived. When she wakes up, every day no matter how she woke up (on her terms or ours) she will scream and rage and need to be held down for at least an hour. Every morning. Imagine your alarm goes off 4 hours early EVERY day by screaming and trying to hurt you for at least 60 minutes. We darkly joke that it's like she's torturing us in some camp.

So that's my life. And honestly, I love my daughter in the sense that a parent has to, I think. I love her in the sense that I would be upset if she got hurt. I would be upset if she passed away, and I would be sad if she no longer lived with us. But at the same time I wake up every day wishing this was not my life. I wake up with the feeling that behind the love I believe nature makes me feel, that I hate my daughter. The part that ignores how I would feel in the event it happens wishes that I could give my daughter up for adoption and start over with my life. Part of me wishes that I had never gotten pregnant, or that I had listened to a few friends who had suggested I gotten an abortion. I wish I could leave. Just pack up everything and be the abandoned mother, running off and forgetting her past. But I cant. My husband cannot financially provide, and I would be kidding if I said he could take care of her alone. I love him too much to do that to him.

And I guess in a way I love my daughter too much to do that to her. This autism she has has pretty much ruined the future I dreamed of for her, but I know that her actions aren't her fault. And I think I love her enough to not let her know how I feel under everything. Each day we wake up, we hug her and stop her from hurting herself until she calms down. Once she's calm, she gets hugs and kisses from us telling her that everything is okay. I work hard to provide the therapy and supplies she needs. I make her favorite meal (the only one she will eat) every night. And at night once she falls asleep, I touch her face and love on her and dream that maybe someday things will be better, despite wishing the same thing every day for the last 4 years.

**TL;DR**: Read the damn thing. I spent the time to put my heart into this reply, give me the respect to read it all.

Edit: I just wanted to say thank you to the kind replies. It's like a salve to know that I can express how I feel and not be made out to be a horrible person, and that maybe how I feel isn't completely out of the ordinary. A private PM made me think a lot, and I think that it's true - that I don't hate my daughter, but rather the situation we're in in life right now, and that I don't think badly of my husband, no matter the situation, but was just trying to find a reason for the way things are, even if it was wrong. My outlook and even opinion of myself and how I feel right now in life now don't feel so ... bleak and monstrous, like I'm a bad mother. So thank you again, it's nice to know that even though it's just the internet, I'm not alone.

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I never wanted to be a dad. I had no plans on ever having kids. Fate had other ideas thanks to hormonal BC not being 100% effective. My son is mildly autistic and has ADHD and has some severe behavior problems. We're talking I have to straddle him while on the floor on his back to keep him from destroying the apartment, hurting us. I always knew I'd hate being a parent but I never knew it would be this bad.

Edit: Thank you for your sympathy. He's only 7 so he's not exactly dangerous right now but I'm really scared of how things will be when he gets older.

throwitawaydaddy Report

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I find my story is positive. I hope other's find some positivity in my post.

I've had two beautiful kids, but I don't love them as their mother. I was a twenty-one year old and met a gorgeous and awesome guy. He was older (27) and already graduated law school and was working at a law firm. He was great. Smart. Very attractive and very fit. Despite this it was clear it wasn't a long-term thing. He, admittedly, didn't function well in relationships. However, I could tell he really loved and wanted kids.

So I offered to give him a child. Sounds strange, but even though I knew we wouldn't be together-and I knew I wasn't in love with him-I had a strong physical desire to give him kids. Again it was strange and kind of hard to explain. We talked about it and he eventually offered to pay for my college degree and give me some money (I won't say how much). He bought me health insurance and then we started trying. I got pregnant surprisingly fast.

I was on summer break for the first trimester so I traveled. I, thankfully, didn't have a difficult time carrying (giving birth was horrible) and I was just in school for the rest of my pregnancy. His mother was around a lot so that was cool. I didn't have to do anything really to prepare for the child. He worked constantly during (he was trying to earn as much as he could)' but we always had great sex and continued during the pregnancy. Mostly, I think this was stress thing.

I had a girl and once she was born her father was on cloud nine. I think this caused the second pregnancy, because, well we had a lot (a lot!) of sex right after. He begged me to carry the second pregnancy all the way through. So I did. I took a year off from school because I didn't want to graduate pregnant and I again got to travel. The second time seemed way easier and flew by. However, the second time around there was more distance between us. I had my own place and was flying around a lot and he was raising his daughter. The second child was a boy.

The kids are four and three now. They have a wonderful father and a great extended family. We have a great relationship and I know he is there for me should I need him.

I went back to school, graduated, and started my career. I've had some ok relationships. I relish in my freedom.

My parents get to see the kids frequently and if I am over there I see them. They call me by my first name. They are great kids, but I don't have a motherly love-type relationship with them. We've discussed eventually telling them I am their mother. He is ok with it because he doesn't think he'll ever get married so he doesn't see any conflict with other maternal figures. My son also looks a lot like me so they figure it out eventually.

Kookoothrow Report

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children Throwaway, for obvious reasons.

I was a teenage boy with serious emotional baggage, the product of multiple father figures who came and went, each leaving a small reminder of themselves in the form of scars (some mental, some physical) My mother was a strong independent woman who was struck down by a drunk driver when I was 9, and although she lived, the head and neck injuries she sustained gave me the shell of what had been for my most trying years.

By 13, I was an alcoholic. By 14, I was working two full time jobs to keep a roof, and by 16, I *FELT* I was a mature man, who could handle anything. I avoided relationships because I always felt damaged.

One night when I was 17, I was drinking in a bar where I knew the bartenders well enough, and met a girl. She was beautiful, funny, the life of the party, and coincidentally, also underage. I made a few jokes, drank a few drinks, and made my way to the exit. As I started my s****y little car to leave, said girl's friend knocked on my window and asked my age. I lied and said I was 22, to avoid any trouble for my bartending friends. One thing lead to another, and that beautiful girl and I left together.

The next two weeks were spent drunk, barely sleeping, having sex wherever we could find a bed. Without a care in the world, I lost my job, alienated my friends, and consumed myself with this girl. We would both find out later that we were much younger than we lead eachother to believe. By then, it was too late.

When she announced she was "late", we bought two pregnancy tests from the pharmacy. Both showed negative results. When her little friend still hadnt visited two weeks later, we told her mom, who scheduled a doctors appointment, and low and behold, we were pregnant.

I spent the next two weeks BEGGING her to get an abortion, knowing full well I had the emotional capacity of a carrot, and realizing very quickly just how immature I truly was. She, the good christian girl, flat out refused, listing all the reasons she hated me for even asking, and reminding me just what an a*****e I was for not loving our "gift from god".

We were married the following month, after driving to a state that would allow it at our ages (my mother refused to consent) The next ten months were a mix of screaming, fighting, pretend break ups, and general hell for us both.

On the day our son was born, our parents gathered round and smiled, and she was just... different.
For the next six months, I worked as many hours as work would provide, in between losing jobs, and she slept. FOr hours, she slept. As he would cry, she slept.

By the time my son was 18 months, this girl who had convinced me I was a monster for not wanting our child was sleeping with a coworker (who was also married with children). I begged and pleaded with BOTH of them to end the affair. Within two weeks, she was gone. Her parting words "Call me when he can talk and is potty trained". Ironically, she left to join a christian band with her coworker in another state.

For the next year, I spent most nights drunk, contemplating suicide, and wondering what the hell to do with this child. My mother helped. Her mother helped. But I grew to resent him more and more. I pined for my youth, which she promised she would sacrifice with me, but instead left to pursue.

I have spent the better part of 12 years being congratulated on being "an amazing dad" and "stepping up". Secretly, I cry to myself some nights regretting how cold and distant i have been, how selfishly I have treated this child that looks JUST LIKE ME, and how much better he deserved. His mother bounces in and out now, just present enough to remind him he means less than her two new kids.

He and I have a strange relationship. My anger gets the best of me sometimes over the slightest things. He is respectful, well mannered, extremely intelligent, athletic, and just an overall wonderful person. By his age, I was on my way to being the piece of s**t I am today. And yet, knowing all these facts, feeling guilty beyond words for the hardships he has endured as I grew up simultaneously with him, I still feel like I love him because it is my DUTY to love him. Sometimes it feels like we are roommates, my friend who has slept on the couch for thirteen years. He deserves so much better than I have given him. Yet I rest on the fact he has had so much more than I did. And for that, I know if there is a hell, I have reserved my own suite.

EDIT: 1 Formatting?

EDIT 2: As I read the posts of people with children with deformities and sickness, I cant believe how lucky I am to have a healthy kid that gives me so little grief and so much pride.

EDIT 3: Thanks for the gold! And also, thanks for helping me find where the leaks in my face were guys. I have really never expressed all this together, so I appreciate everyone's encouragement and kind words.

EDIT 4: I cant believe the sheer number of responses. I apologize for not being able to respond to all of them. Thank you everybody for your encouragement and helping me see things a bit more optimistically. Im truly in awe.

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I have two children and now I love them both dearly. However, it wasn't always that way for my youngest son. I planned my oldest, wanted him, loved him from the moment I knew I was pregnant, and took him everywhere with me except work until he was 2. We were inseparable. We are still very close. Now, my youngest was a surprise, I used protection and it was one night. I considered abortion but couldn't do it. Considered adoption but my family freaked out at the idea, so I kept him. I hated the person his father was and how his father treated, I wanted a girl if I was going to have a child, and didn't want to give up what I had with my oldest. I was selfish. After I had my youngest it got worse. I completely detached, barely picked him up, and didn't take care of him unless I absolutely had to because there was no one else around. It was like this for almost a year, made worse by the fighting with his father. My son reminded me so much of this man who made my life hell. When my met my SO it changed, he got me help, he taught me to love my son and how to teach my son to love back. My child went from being this loner child who hated to be loved on or messed with to being this sweet, generous, amazing kid who can't leave the house without a hug. I would never trade my children for anything in the world, however I wish I could re do that year of my life.

MrsBearasuarus Report

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I am 42 and have 3 kids, 21, 17 and 5. I love them more than anything and would die to save them if I had to.

But they are people with their own personalities and there are days when I really don't like them. The 2 older girls teenage years were filled with these days.

What most new parents don't understand is that kids are not a blank slate that you get to draw on. Each child has their own personality and while you can guide and shape their views and attitudes, you just can't change who they are. That can lead to times when you don't like them. Don't feel bad or guilty about it, its natural but nobody talks about it.

Understand them, Talk to them and above all Love them. When you see something you don't like, do what you feel is right as a parent. If its serious enough that it needs adjustment, work with them. If its something small, let them be their own person.

SpagNMeatball Report

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I'll just tell my side for my mother. (For clarity, she has admitted all this to me in the past, these aren't assumptions or anything like that)

I was an unplanned/unwanted pregnancy in her teens. She didn't want me from the get go. She would often leave at night, with me in the care of my father, cousin or grandparents and go party. When I was 2, right after my brother was born, our father died in an accident. My mother took this opportunity to leave me with my grandparents after the funeral and just leave, taking my brother with her. Over the next several years I saw her sporadically and for maybe a few hours at a time once a year or so.

Fast forward to when I was teen and I was living with her because she wanted a babysitter for my younger half siblings she came home drunk and I had had the last straw and screamed out, "Why do you hate me??" And she point blank told me it was because I looked, spoke, acted and carried myself just like my father. The thing is, she loved my father with everything she had, she even kept my brother instead of abandoning him because he shared our father's name.

When she was sober, I confronted her again and I told her I wanted the rest of the truth (I just knew there was more) and she didn't even try to pawn it off as her being drunk. She told me the same thing but added on that she never wanted me in the first place, that she felt no connection or bond with me, never had and that I may as well have been someone elses child and with the way things turned out, I may as well have been my grandparents child rather than grandchild. She said she should have listened to her father (my grandfather) when he told her to abort me and that the only reason she didn't was because my father wanted me and she loved him.

This both surprised me but also....not really. Like I knew she felt like this on some level but to actually hear it sort of threw me for a loop. To this day my younger siblings, who I basically raised, do not know me as their sister, they have no idea. My mother has kept it from them, they just assume I'm another relative (likely a cousin) from our massive family. The other thing is that all 5 of my other siblings were also unplanned/unwanted but she treats them like kings and queens, they had the type of bond with her I only ever dreamed about as a child.

NavyLadyBug Report

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#10

I'll be honest here. Tithe first year or two with my daughter was really rough. I regretted having her almost every day. She sucked the life out of me and a lot of times, my husband too. I loved her, but I did not want to parent her.

She's almost five now and I couldn't feel more differently. I love spending time with her. She's a joy and I'm lucky to be the one raising her.

So if there's anyone out there with a little one that's reading this and feeling sh***y because you wish you hadn't had them, there might be hope. Things might change. Being a parent (especially to a baby) is so incredibly difficult. Don't feel guilty if it isn't all sunshine and rainbows and overwhelming joy.

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#11

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I never wanted kids (I'm female). My method of birth control (IUD) failed. Although my husband and I do all the normal parental stuff and now have a seemingly normal 3-year old, if I had a time machine or stumbled upon a lamp with a genie in it, I would take a redo.

I used to work in an office with mostly women (just out of college) and I asked a few women with children if they could go back and change it if they would. I assumed they would say no, but they always said, "I love my kids, but I probably would not have had them."

Take it for what it's worth.

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30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I just had a daughter a month ago. She was unplanned, and I told my wife (then girlfriend) that I did not want kids, but she did. She swore up and down she couldn't have kids, but lo and behold here we are. The pregnancy was awful, and now we have what simply must be the single most colicky and fussy baby alive, and she fights her sleep like a MOTHERF**KER. not to mention the post partner depression that my wife is feeling.

I didn't want to marry this girl, but basically felt I had to to support her (I'm military), and I didn't want a kid. I love my daughter more than anything, but the resentment and frustration I feel towards the situation makes me miserable.

Basically, I love my daughter entirely, but she makes my life a living hell. Hope I'm not an awful person for feeling this way.

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#13

With over 7,000 comments I doubt this will even get read, but it may do me well just to type it up. I wasn't going to initially, but after reading fairly far into the thread I kept seeing the same story about people who never wanted kids... and that's not me. It felt like no one had a story like mine here, so I might as well type it up.

I have 3 kids. A daughter who turns 15 today, a daughter who is 4, and a son who is 20 months old.

My 4 year old and I are best friends. I pick her up from school early for 'daddy dates', I take her everywhere I can, and we have conversations where she stuns me with her insight and intelligence.

My Son is just starting to really show his personality. He is extremely loving, sweet, and just so loving.

Between the two of them and my wife I feel like I have everything in the world that I need.

And then there is the 15 year old.

When I was 19 I got a message on AIM (aol instant messenger). It was this chick and she basically gave me her address and asked me to come over and have sex with her.

Had this been 5 years ago I would have assumed that To Catch a Predator or some s**t was waiting for me.

It took more persuading then it would have with most guys (I think anyways, as in it took 2 days of her constantly asking me). Night over, life goes on.

3 years later I get a call and its her. She tells me she had a baby after our evening, but that she had moved to another state and had some fellow sign the birth certificate as the father. Now she has just given birth to his kid, but he has left her. So she has 2 kids, and she wants me to get to know my daughter.

At this point I am in college, and I figure... well s**t, I guess I owe it to this little girl.

For the first 6 months we meet up once a month or so and do things like go to the fair or zoo or whatever. We all do this together. Eventually she comes to spend the weekend with me. Her little brother was spending alternate weekends with his dad's family, and I guess my daughter wanted to know why she wasn't going anywhere.

My family treated her like an alien and I really had no idea how to handle a child, so I would do stuff like put a video game on (like ape escape), and she would point out the monkeys and I would try to catch them. Or we would go to the park and play hide and seek and stuff. Come Sunday morning I would have to start calling her mother first thing in the morning if I wanted to meet her by noon (she often just didn't answer or had someone else answer and say she was in the shower). I had papers to write, books to study, and classes to prepare for so I was trying to cram all that into the very end of my weekends.

After about a year of this I got a hell of an opportunity to work for NASA for a summer at AMES in San Jose. It was a 12 week program, and by the end of it I was lead author on a published paper. While I was away my mother decided to step in and start having my daughter over. I thought this was a pretty good idea, as it would help them bond.

Through all of this my relationship with the girls mother was all together surreal. We didn't know anything about each other. We were a one night stand personified. We didn't have negative baggage because we never dated and broke up, but it could still get contentious.

When I returned from NASA my mother had bonded with my daughter and she basically had taken over scheduling the pick up and drop offs. This eliminated my need to communicate with her mother, so I was all for it. That was probably a dumb move.

Now, it's worth stating that I enjoyed being with my daughter at this point, but it wasn't until I had my two younger children later that I understood something was missing between us.

See, my older daughter really looked up to me and idolized me. She would tell people her father knew everything and could build or do anything. She was also uncontrollably afraid of me. She would hardly speak around me. She mumbled answer if I asked her anything. At one point when she was 13 she told me it was because she was afraid she would say or do the wrong thing and I wouldn't want anything to do with her anymore... but that seemed more like the rationalization of a 13 year old. I just couldn't understand it.

As the years went on my mother stepped in more and more and then I found she was telling people behind my back that I was an absent father and she pretty much did everything for her. I was a huge betrayal. I was paying money every month to her mother, I was buying her clothes, I was buying all her school supplies, I was picking her up and taking her everywhere, but because my mom handled scheduling, she thought I was "absent". I created a large rift between my mother and I.

Shortly after this I got married and bought a home. At my home I made a room just for her so she would feel welcome. It seemed to kicked off a bit of a competition with my mother.

My daughter quickly realized this and played it up to get everything she could. I never played the game, but my mother sure did.

After I had my younger daughter my older daughter got very jealous. She practically counted the number of photos on the wall even though my wife went to GREAT lengths to get photos of her and us up on the walls.

2 years ago her mother decided she was moving to California. My daughter took this as an opportunity to play a game of who loves her more. I told her she should move with her mother. I truly felt that was best, as they are extremely co-dependent. I had witnessed so many break downs because her mother had to work too much, or was too busy with her other kids, etc. Based on her inability to really connect with others, it seemed like a bad move for them to be apart a this point.

Ultimately she decided that if she stayed she wanted to go to a private high school that was 90 minutes away. It was an arts and theatre school, so we aren't talking like some science academy here When I explained that we didn't have the resources to transport her back and forth every day, she was done with me. She went to my mother who also said she couldn't fulfill that request. Suddenly my daughter announces she wants to live with some 80 year old couple that is a friend of her mothers because they said they wouldn't mind driving her to this school on a daily basis.

That's when I realized all she cared about was herself. In the end her mother never moved anyways.

My mother and I's frustrations came to a head and after some truly horrific behavior on her part, and I cut her out of my life. No more seeing my two younger children until she could get her s**t together. She immediately went into action to lock down my older daughter, and sure enough, a week later my older daughter calls me up and after a very short conversation she states she wants nothing to do with me until I apologize to "grandma" (my mom) and "fix things". She has zero idea what this fight is about, she has zero idea what went down or what was said, and yet she decided to take a very strong stance in her bid to be an adult at age 14.

6 months later my mother and I worked things out and we moved on with life. However I haven't spoken to my daughter since that phone call. I feel she cut me out and therefor it is her responsibility to deal with it, the same way I approached my mother to patch things up.

If it were up to her and my mother, I'm sure we would all pretend that none of it ever happened. Which doesn't do anyone any good.

We have been in the same room together 4 or 5 times during various family meetups, but each time she avoided me like the plague and hid in the corner on her tablet or DS or whatever.

At one point my 4 year old started asking me questions about monsters and other nonsense, and when I asked her where she heard it from it was her older sister. So at that point I made it clear to my mother that my daughters were not to be alone together if she happens to have them both at her house.

Last I heard my daughter was basically rebelling in every way possible. One day she is bisexual, the next she is dating a some guy and is actually going up to every family member she can find asking them if they are mad that he is black (I'm dead serious here). With the bisexual thing she decided she had to announce it to every single person she knew, and the follow-up question every time was, "so what do you think about it?" She is doing anything she can to get attention or opinions at this point.

My wife is very sensitive about it as she has an older sister who did the same things to her dad. And my wife is a lot like my 4 year old. She loves her father more than anything and would do anything for him, so when she sees her sister try to pull her s**t with her dad, it infuriates her.

So the short of it is, and boy, I can't imagine how long this post is at this point.... But the short of it is I really don't think I love her. I don't feel like I know her, I am disgusted by her actions, I am sick of her constant drama, and I just can't relate to her at all. And it feels so foreign to me as I love my two younger children with all of my heart. I consistently say things like, "my 2 kids", or "my firstborn" when talking about my younger daughter. Its like my brain just doesn't have the synapse connection that defines my older daughter as my child, and all the benefits that this would confer upon her.

Anyways, I really doubt that between the length and the fact I am so late to the party that anyone will ever read this. But thanks to reddit for giving me a place to type it up.

adifferentstory Report

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#14

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children They are too much work. I want to be left alone. I want quiet. I want less chores to do. The only part about having kids that's as great as I expected it to be is shopping for them. I don't want kids of my own, I want nieces and nephews.

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#15

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children Little f****r stole damned near everything from my house when I went on a vacation. He also stole half of my Dads' coin collection before he passed away. Over $10,000 worth of stuff between both of our houses. I can say I just don't love him, but I hate every fiber of his existence.

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#16

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children My wife cheats on me and I'm like 90% sure they are not my kids, but her cousin's. We are hoing through a divorce, I'm not fighting for them. I've caught my wife cheating on me with her cousin more than once.

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#17

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children One day he stole my car and we haven't seen him since. Its hard to have someone leave your life like that but at this point, 9 years later. I have no choice.

MrsWags Report

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#18

i'll do you one better, my whole father's (huge) side of the family all genuinely dislike or don't love me(including 5 halfsiblings, 8+ aunts and uncles, my (now dead) grandmother, numerous cousins(that I went to the same school as/had the same uncommon last name)), because my dad cheated on his wife of 15 years, with my then 20 year old mother. I was the bastard baby produced from that.

In addition to that mess, my mom has serious mental issues with violent, hateful tendencies, so there's not much room for a loving mother-daughter relationship there.

So, long story short, I have a huge family, but I have no family.

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#19

I'm stepdad, and have been with his mother since he was three. He's ten now. His biological father is still very involved in his life.

And honestly? That's part of the trouble. He is very attached to both his grandparents, who are incredibly passive-aggressive and infantilize both him and my wife. I woke up a few years in realizing that despite spending more time with him than any other member of his family, I was not considered by any of them (barring my spouse) to be his caretaker.

That attitude rubbed off on the kid, and I pulled away over the years to avoid the stress of being constantly barraged with disrespect. I couldn't run my own household because we're poor and rely on the child support and the grandparents for things like laundry or daycare, and if I tried to discipline him in even the most minor of ways, my wife would hear about it and our livelihood would be threatened. They didn't speak to me at all. I was completely frozen out of any decisions about his life.

The kid has been endlessly coddled and sheltered, and combined with a speech disorder he's a ten year old who is developmentally seven or eight. He doesn't challenge himself in any way, because an adult in his life will take care of literally anything for him. He whines, he's clingy, and not fun to be around.

I still make the effort to be there for him, but every year that passes I find myself just not liking them as a person. This isn't what I wanted fatherhood to be. I've been doing this for seven years, not counting the decade I'd spent previously taking care of my siblings in lieu of their own father, and I hate it.

I've got my own children through my wife now, quite young, and I know it's going to cause issues. I've refocused my attention to them almost entirely, and my wife is in denial about how thoroughly I've given up on my stepson.

I find myself just waiting for him to turn thirteen, wishing for puberty to hit so he'll angst out and ask to live with his dad. I just want them gone, and all of the complications that they cause with it. He brings me no joy at all, and I can't wait until he's out of my house.

TL:DR I wanted to raise a stepson, but his other parents wouldn't let me.

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#20

I am going to differentiate between love and like. I was 31 when I had my son and he was and still is much loved and much wanted. However there are far too many days that while I love him I do not like him in the least.

He has a learning disability, it is not an intellectual disability as opposed instead it is a severe organizational skills disability. All of the things that most of us to do fairly easily, keeping our schedules sorted out, doing multistep tasks and such are very difficult for him. Dad and I have been extremely supportive, we've made sure that he's had tutors, that he has helps as he needs it, pretty much everything we could possibly do either financially or by being supportive we have done.

He is currently living in my basement rental unit because at 22 he needs his space as much as I need mine. He's in college, this is after blowing three semesters at university because he couldn't be bothered doing the work. College has gone better but because of his learning disability I still have to make sure his schedule is sorted out, that he gets places on time and such. It's incredibly tiring and stressful for me. he has another five semesters left in this program, his dad and I are financing school as well as sharing the cost of living expenses. He works but only part time because of school commitments.

I suppose I'm writing this because I'm frustrated. In some ways he's incredibly mature and bright, he's articulate, he's smart and when he's in a decent mood he is enjoyable to be around. unfortunately he is lacking in self-confidence, both about his intellect and how people perceive him, he struggles to keep things together, suffers from depression [which is not his fault]. He's had a rough couple of years, bad choices in girlfriends and such.

I wish he would do something positive to help himself out, I know he will always need some degree of help to keep him on schedule, such is the nature of his disability [it's called executive function disorder if anybody is curious] but it would help tremendously if I didn't feel like I always have to be on his case to make sure he gets things done in a timely manner, that he's on time when he's going places etc. despite his rough time he has a good life, he has a few good friends, a place to live, school is taken care of but none of it seems to mean anything.

Anyway I felt like this was as good a place as any to vent, thank you all for listening Reddit.

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#21

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children They weren't mine, the wife cheated on me.

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#22

Well, recently I had a serious depressive episode. I grew up in very abusive homes, and my parenting strategy was to get a parent educator and, within reason, err on the side of loving and doting on my kids.
Aside from my mental illness, I was working three jobs and both my kids are both special needs. My daughter is violent, strong, and I tried for over a year to get professional help for her. I knew she would have a hard life if she didn't get straightened out before school.
My behavior was this bad as a kid, and the social repercussions gave me depression and low self esteem. I was heartbroken thinking my daughter was going to grow up with those issues. I was terrified she was going to grow up to be like me.
I couldn't bear to see that, so I was considering giving my kids up or leaving. But I knew if I did either, and continued to live, I would feel worse. I became suicidal. After two extended hospitalizations, I am well.
But I had to lie and say I had thoughts of killing my daughter. I'm ashamed. But the first time I was hospitalized, I begged for help, it was promised, but never came. So I had to go beyond and force the hands of the social workers and child mental health people.
We have services now. I still have my kids, and never stopped loving them.

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#23

I have a 31 year old daughter. I tried to get pregnant and was thrilled when she came. Her father and I divorced and did everything I could as a single mom to raise her right. When I remarried she hated that she was no longer the center of attention and everything went to hell. She was later diagnosed as bi-polar and has it is bad enough that she is on disability. She rebelled in high school and even tho we sent her to college she wouldn't go to class and snuck back to spend time with her boyfriend. One semester was all it took and we gave up. She ended up on drugs, and her addictions went from Meth to Oxy to Heroin. She stole from me, I had her arrested. I have done everything I could to help her and she is still troubled.

While I don't hate her, I hate what she is right now. She will still steal from me given the chance. She was over last week and stole my dish washing liquid, the silver coins out of my change cup and some things out of my cupboard. Had she asked, I would have given them to her. She also stole a bottle of Vicodin from when I hurt my rotator cuff a few weeks ago. She is my only daughter and every dream I ever had for her will never happen.

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#24

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I was 17 and found out the 22 year old sex friend got pregnant despite her on birth control and me using a condom at least 50% of the time. I told her to get an abortion which she said no to originally because she really actually wanted to have "my child"

She tried convincing me with stuff like: with both of us as parents the baby'll be gorgeous, she'll have my smarts, I won 't have to change my lifestyle since it'll be better to be educated, her parents can help out etc. etc. etc.

I didn't buy it. I finally convinced her to abort but she said we needed to end things so I ended up one less sex friend.

Fast forward 6 years

I've been in an accident that left me quadriplegic two years ago. I get added on facebook by my former sex friend. SHE HAS A SIX YEAR OLD DAUGHTER.

I didn't feel betrayed...I FELT TERRIBLE. She may have had the child against my will but I JUST LEFT HER TO FEND FOR HERSELF FOR SIX YEARS. WHAT KIND OF INHUMANE ACT IS THAT? She told me she just found out I had my accident even though it was a while and not to worry about money or being a father figure to OUR daughter. I'm hounded by all these conflicting feelings.

I don't need to be a father figure because her fiancé will take care of it. I want to.
I don't need to help support? I want to.
I don't need to care about them? I want to.
I cant help out because I'm crippled? I want to.
Im not allowed to be near them because it'll interfere with their newly wed life?

I feel like the life I should have had doesn't want me. I never wanted a daughter but that doesn't matter because she went ahead and had her anyway. I should help her instead I'm out partying and dating frivolously until I ended up quadriplegic.

I want to be able to support her but I can't.

I don't even know anymore but I've built up so much resentment...and JEALOUSY that I..."dislike" them.

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#25

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children Thank you all. I've really wanted to ask this question to see if others felt like me but have been too afraid to out myself.

I've always wanted what most girls wanted: Husband, children, be a crafty stay at home pinterest mom. Ended up with baby #1 way sooner than we planned because we were stupid. Baby #2 was a birth control failure. I tried to be a stay at home when #1 was a baby but it was hell (turns out she had autism with sensory issues). I couldn't wait to get back to work.
Occasionally they'll do something cute, or crawl into my lap, and that makes me feel something. But since we had them so young, every day I feel annoyed that we're constantly broke and there's not much I can do about it. I can't put in extra hours at work because I have to pick up the kids after school. We've put in many thousands of dollars to daycare/afterschool care that could've gone to paying off student loans. We should be saving for a house but instead I have to buy winter clothes for them because they outgrew last year's.

I don't hate my kids by any means... but I think a lot about how life would be different without them.

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#26

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I didn't want him. A long time ago I thought I wanted a kid, but after having to raise my sister's for a while, I realized that I didn't. My wife wanted a kid. I tried to convince her of what raising one is like, that everything you are goes into the child. She told me she was going off her birth control, I just didn't expect her to go off so soon.

We now have one. He is adorable. But I do not love him. I feel very little for him. I wish he hadn't been born. He has financially hit us hard, I am having to rearrange a lot of projects I've been working on for years, which means making other people rearrange their lives for him, and what is worse, he has taken my wife's creative energy out of her. She barely has any time to work on her art, and when she has the time, she doesn't have the energy.

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#27

30 Parents Anonymously Share What They Dislike About Their Children I want to start by saying that I am not at the point where I do not love my daughter, but there are days that I look at her and just view her as a human that I have to care for out of obligation. Maybe it is because I never wanted children, my fiancé basically left us, and I am in the middle of my nursing degree (which adds an intense amount of stress..). I don't think I have it bad compared to others, but it really doesn't help that I didn't want children, and I really wanted to develop my career and even continue my education as a nurse practitioner. There are many many things I wanted to do during my career besides just continuing education, but now with a child I can't do them. It doesn't necessarily make me not love her, but it definitely stirs up some bad and really negative feelings towards being the mother I should be. I feel like a big part of me has been stripped away, and when my fiancé took the path that he did I then had absolutely no help with her, so I felt even more defeated. I'm not sure if this is a satisfactory answer to your question.. But wanted to give my perspective as a parent who is kind of caught in the middle.

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#28

My wife wanted kids, I didn't. But I loved her more than I didn't want kids so we had two.

I never loved them or genuinely cared about them. I did all of the father stuff, more than most honestly. A ton of people who know me personally won't shut up about how amazing of a father I am/how they wish their husbands were as good to their children as I am to mine.

But it's all an act. I can't wait until they move out and I don't have to worry about them anymore. Can't wait to get my life back.

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#29

My throwaway for obvious reasons.

I'm a mother to a very lively child of about 8. I never wanted kids. Ever.

At the time I was a mess, on a massive psychiatric cocktail from hell (which, as a fun fact, turns out was all a misdiagnosis from the start, as I had the right combination at 13 of anxiety, depression, and so many damn hormones to get myself a diagnosis for a far worse condition), I only started dating the dude due to a horribly bitter breakup from a very longtime relationship, and I was miserable and back home for the first time in my adult life.

But, he had known that I didn't want kids. At the time, I couldn't take any form of hormonal birth control, due to the cocktail above. I wasn't aware of any other options.

Her father and I were in a really rough patch, and I think he realized there wasn't much hope of me staying with him for much longer. He was right in that, as I would likely have left shortly after.

So, one night he's frisky, and promises he's wearing protection (I was rather drunk as it was right after a formal event for his unit (just, so much drinking. I was a huge lightweight at the time) - so as I had no other reason to not trust him- we do what couples do. He, of course, lied to me, which I found out after.

We get married, mostly for healthcare. I won't lie, in hindsight - this was a huge f*****g mess. But, at the time I was convinced it was the only option I had.

I really want to go back in time and punch myself in the fact. Just, right in the face.

So, suddenly I'm pregnant.

He was deployed almost immediately after. So, here I am - pregnant, alone, absolutely terrified, and quite honestly assuming my (ex)husband is going to die overseas, and I'm f*****g lost. I cannot ever remember feeling like this before.

Happy 24th birthday, me!

As for now?

Now the kid is 8. He's started cheating a long time ago (go on, act surprised!). Right after he came back from deployment, he's cheated with about 50 odd women (paid and not) and spent literally all of our combined money (well over 40,000 in savings).

While yes, a LOT of f*****g amazingly wonderful things have happened due to this kid, I'm still at a loss over things. If he calls once in 6 months, it's amazing. But, to a degree I guess that I consider lucky. My parents have helped out, and I've met someone amazing.

But, it's not the life I wanted for anyone. It's not fair to my kid, and it's not fair (selfishly) to me.

I'm not maternal, at all. I do love her, don't get me wrong. But I'm the exact opposite of anything maternal it's not funny. I wanted to be like my mom, but I'm just not. I have her always and forever, but I'm bad at this, and I have no idea what I'm doing.

I see all these moms posting all this amazing stuff, and I want to feel this way. I don't think it's just her, as since everything, I've realized - I have a hard time forming bonds with people, and here I have this screaming mess of a tiny human at times, and I have no idea what I'm doing. I'm envious of these woman who have that love I can't seem to form.

I was adopted myself, and while my family has been nothing short of amazing, I think it's done a number on me in general.

If I had ever had kids, I wanted them to be planned and very much wanted at the time. When I had her - I was broke, beyond lost, and I hated her dad (he confessed to me that he had 'won' after I told him during a call that I had heard her heart beating, he confessed the rest after I asked him what that meant).

Now, I'm doing better. So is the kid. I wish I could say that my family had stepped in and realized that I was horribly suffering, but no. My family cannot for the life of them understand why I'm not defaulting to maternal. They've actually been far more of a hindrance on the process than anything. If she's upset, or cries, it's clearly my fault. If I say 'no' I'm overreacting. I've given up on my family due to all this.

But, I have a good job, and am able to support us. So, I guess that's something in and of itself. So, I would like to have that final 'planned' child, which may or may not happen. I love her, but I want to experience something like that, someday. Oddly, I do think it would help. But, to be fair, I guess I don't really care if I have anymore.

At this point, I'm still home for a bit longer. But, we're managing. I'm miserable, but am hoping things will start looking up soon.

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#30

I do love my kid. But at the same time I regret every moment I've lived since I knocked up the psycho mother. I NEVER wanted kids. I LOATHE kids. But my hormones got the better of me and, long story short, I'm now a single father with sole custody of a whiny, bitchy, mental-as-hell- 10 year old that I had to take out of school due to daily breakdowns and panic attacks. My child's shrinks (yes plural) say to not push school as it promotes panic attacks so I lost my job 2 months ago as I had no one to take car of the kid during the day. Now Christmas is upon us, I'm broke, and if it wasn't for the kindness of my parents, I'd be boned. The only reason I stepped up and have tried with all my might to be a father is because my (real) father ran off when I was only 2 and had himself a great life full of money and fun. Until he married the black widow and ended up dead anyway LOL. So I admit openly to being bitter. My dad was s**t, my ex is s**t, my life is s**t. I can't get a job because my mom is no longer capable of babysitting my kid for me, and if I can't get them back into school, I'm never gonna get my life back. P.S. Anyone willing to hunt down and kill my kid's mom feel free. She really does deserve it. She is a horrid person. She ditched all 3 of her kids to party, become an alcoholic, and worm her way into marrying a guy making 80k a year. Still has nothing to do with her 3 kids because she is too busy being drunk and doesn't pay those taking care of her kids a damn penny.

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#31

Dislike? Do not love? Too extreme of an expression. As a parent who's kids are grown now and have moved out and become successful and parents themselves (in one case), I would like to share this:

It is not fun to be a parent. Some people love it and find it the greatest honor and joy of their lives. I did not find it to be a joy nor an honor. It was an 18 year long war with a stubborn, ignorant, arrogant young person that ended only after they finally moved out, tried everything their way, failed, and finally admitted it and apologized.

I did not enjoy changing diapers or midnight feedings. I did not enjoy watching my wife be torn apart giving birth. I did not enjoy competing with them for attention. I enjoyed seeing them in plays, singing, doing sports, etc, but I did not enjoy how much of my time all of that took. I did not enjoy fighting with them about homework or not eating in the den or leaving dirty dishes laying around. The yelling, arguing, stupid idiotic bad decisions, destruction of our property from them getting angry at things or walls or breaking expensive plates or just playing around things and smashing them. The tremendous cost in money and time is just unbelievable.

I did not enjoy fatherhood, and I am glad it is over. I love my kids. I find them to be great people.

But goddammit, folks, if I had it to do over again, there is no f**king way I would get married and have children.

Some of your parents feel that way too.

These other posts on here about complete abandonment and drugs and s**t - I don't have anything like that in my life.

But seriously - wear a condom, and really think hard before you become a parent. It's not for everyone.

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#32

I have told this story about for quite a while and it goes a little something like this: My father was a professor at Yale. A well respected man and of high expectations. When I was very young he used to physically abuse me. It wasn't too bad at first, I mean he threw books at me, and smacked me across the face and sometimes he would hit me with textbooks. I thought it was just apart of growing up.

This was obviously when I was relatively young. I have no concept of why things happened, I assumed the just did and everyone knew better than me. When I was is 3-4th grade my brother and my father were always fighting, and for some reason my dad always s**t on me. He would constantly tell me that he was disappointed, and that I wasn't his real son. So one day My brother put soap detergent in my dad's coffee to poison him, but longer story short. The police came and my brother totally bailed the threw me under the bus. The police woman just thought we were just two trouble kids and she told my dad good riddance and we 'naughty' kids should take juvie. Later that night, My dad poured the rest of the soap detergent into a milk carton and told me to drink it all. HE was f**king angry so I did what he said. After wards he LITERALLY chased me onto the sofa, left to get his belt and beat me with said belt 14-15 lashes. I got blood posioning from drinking soap and had a cozen lashes on my back. My family was a mess, and my dad never said: Love you son. or how are you son. Mostly just: You're a f**kgin disgrace, you aren't my son.

Eventually my parents got divorced and I grew up alone and with alot of trust issues. I always smiled and hid it behind some jokes and a cheerful attitude. not having a real figure to look up to when I grew up lead me to have to behavior issues. But I eventually grew up and accepted that this is just how it's going to be. The only long term effect I think that I received. was that sometimes I have issues feeling emotions for people...

If someone was suffering I didn't feel bad, if someone lost someone else i couldn't sympathize. My friends birthday, I don't feel happy for them. It's christmas. So what, days always pass anyways. :/ at least I strive to not be the man my dad was.

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#33

Not a parent, but I observed my sister treat my nephew like a king for years while treating my niece with contempt.

One night, while she was drunk I asked her why and she was quite candid. My niece was conceived as a way to save her marriage, and since that did not work, obviously it must be because something was wrong with my niece. That's f**ked up.

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#34

Think about this seriously. My mom and I have a pretty good relationship, but she freely admitted to me when I was an adult that she did not really want children and just did it because that's what women did. I think this ambivalence was communicated to me and had a detrimental effect on me as a child and as an adult.

The contrast between how she feels about me and raised me, compared to my dad who definitely wanted a child, is stark. I can remember, even as a baby, crying at night and just hoping it would be my dad who came in and not her.

I'm one of those people that reddit hates: I was brought up with enough food to eat and roof over my head and with a good education, yet my own life feels like it has no value to me. Perhaps this is because I don't really like myself. Does this come from my mother's ambivalence about me? I can't be sure, but all arrows point that way. But I will tell you this, she will never know. The elaborate pretense of me being a happy, adjusted, successful adult is erected for her benefit, and it will always remain.

EDIT: I should add here, that she told me about her ambivalence, ironically, in the context of trying to tell me how great it is to have a kid once you have one, even if you think you don't want one. She never told me she regretted I was born, but her good will was clearly conditional. Interestingly, my father is a much happier and more accomplished person, even though he took on the bulk of the childcare. I think this is because he found having a child rewarding, whereas it was more of a drain for my mother.

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#35

I love my kids, I like my kids. But sometimes I want to lock them in a room and leave them there for a few hours.

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#36

I'm a female in almost an identical boat. The man in my life wants kids, I do not. My desire is greater than his at the moment.

I've seen kids that were "accidents" the parents didn't really want. It's blantantly obvious to everyone else around them. I don't want to be those parents.

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#37

I work in childcare and have seen parents who dislike their kids. It's obvious that they don't like them. The thing is, that all those parents, in my opinion, have the same personality type. They all thought they were the most important person in the room, they wanted all the attention and got pissy when they didn't get it, they were hateful to those they thought were less than them ie: childcare workers, their spouse, anyone breathing. I've also seen parents love the hell out of their horribly behaved children. They loved them but didn't like how they behaved. Which is the whole 'I love you but don't like you very much' thing people talk about.

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#38

This doesn't fit the question exactly, but my parents and my older brother (26) aren't exactly the closest.

They still love him and provide him with a place to live (for some reason) but he has f**ked up so many times to gain the respect of my parents

He started stripping for a living after getting out of a long term relationship. Turned to alcohol, drugs, steroids. Had an unplanned kid in another country which he is now not allowed in the country as far as I know. In his drunken states he has almost hit my father numerous times and almost hit girlfriends. We were on a family trip in disneyworld and he got drunk and cornered his girlfriend in our resort hotel room and I had to jump in. This resulted in myself and my steroid taking brother fist fighting. My parents forked up ALOT of money to send him to rehab...1 month after rehab and he was already back to doing all the things he was doing before and shows no sign of wanting to stop soon. Pretty sure he is content with dying soon.

My parents love him, and continuing to try to help even though I've practically given up myself. But it's tough to see them continuously try only for him to go out 4 nights straight doing drugs and making my parents worry.

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#39

My mom never really like kids. After I had grown up enough to understand where she was coming from, she explained what having me was like: "You were boring until you could talk. You really stressed me out. Because of that, I didn't always like you, but I still always loved you".

I imagine that's what it's like for a lot of parents who don't like kids.

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#40

I am not having children. Known it since I was 18. Never said I would have kids, this ended up being part of why my first marriage broke up. Current boyfriend is still in the I-do-crazy-flying sports/hobbies and is not looking to have children either. Plus we are very selfish.

I am an extreme worrier and can't sleep a full night even with sleep meds due to work stress, I can't imagine what I would be like with a child. Plus I didn't have the best childhood (they were extremely strict with very well behaved children, totally overboard behavior especially with corporal punishment) and I am afraid of repeating their mistakes. I see myself in them.

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#41

My fathers half of the family hate me because I stood up to him when I was 14 about his affairs. Went just as well as expected, luckily I own a fair share of the family company and can f**k with them quite a bit.

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#42

My wife took my kids and moved out a while ago to live with her parents. She didn't have to - there was nothing bad/dangerous happening here - but I think she just wants to be taken care of. I work (hard) and do reasonably well, but could never keep up with her needs/spending.

The kids are mostly adult-aged but dependent on her as she is on her family. The fundamental issue I have with them all is that they live off other people and feel no responsibility to support themselves or even contribute. And for years it was all on my shoulders. I'd voice my concerns and basically be outnumbered. In reality if anybody should have moved out it should have been me.

There are some other complications. She's been battling illness off and on, and we just don't get along anymore because of personality issues. Somewhere along the line she developed a major attitude/ego that's compounded by her need for constant attention. It was exhausting.

So the kids side with her. I'm the bad guy and it's all my fault. I'm just riding out the storm, touching base (I see them on a sparse but routine schedule). I'll always love them, but to someone on the outside looking in, I can totally understand why they might think I don't.

...and she definitely paints the picture to family and friends that I don't.

So be it ...

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#43

I genuinely love my kids with all my heart. With that said...If I had the chance to go back and do it again, I wouldn't have had any. And with that said...I would get married again either.

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#44

You're under no obligation to have a child. If you don't want one, don't have one. That being said, if you are thinking about having a child but merely nervous, that's a different story. Don't worry, evolution has figured out all sorts of ways to get us to attach to our kids. When you're in the presence of your baby, your brain releases tons of Oxytocin which causes you to feel an immense sensation of familiarity even though the baby is a brand new being.

I personally don't want kids either. That's why I have cats.

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#45

Long story short, I was activated for almost 4 years with my AF Reserve unit about 120 miles from home. It kept me from bonding with my oldest daughter. I saw her maybe 3 or 4 days a month for about two years until they moved closer to me. We then had two more children and I am very close with them. She is barely ADHD but medication helps. I honestly don't know what to do. Sorry I'm on my phone and can't really go into more detail...

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#46

I knew I didn't want to be a father because although I think little girls are adorable (like a thousand puppies rolled into one), little boys do nothing but annoy the hell out of me. I think it's a genetic thing; my father and paternal grandfather are exactly the same way which has led to a weird family dynamic.

When I married my wife didn't want kids either, but like so many of these stories she changed her mind once she passed her 30th birthday. I was adamant; after all, there's no reasonable way to choose the sex of your child, and there was a 50/50 of getting a kid I didn't, and would never, want. I DID NOT want to inflict that on some poor little boy, because I lived through it (my Dad did his best to hide it, but kids can see these things).

Cue emotional blackmail, which didn't work, followed by secretly going off the pill, which did. I still resent the s**t out of her for doing this, and will never get over her betrayal - nor do I want to. What she did was unforgivable. Even so, I stayed and prayed the kid turned out to be a girl.

The universe has a vicious sense of humor, because the kid turned out to be fraternal twins. One little girl who triggered the "puppies" gene, and one little boy I had no attachment to whatsoever. I do my very best to hide it, but I'm sure he knows it, just like I did when I was his age. I've spent a great deal of time hating myself for not being the loving dad I should be (and could've been, if he's just been another girl), and even more time doing my very best to pretend to love them both equally.

Fact is, though, I don't love him and never will. That kid deserves someone who actually feels something for him, and for whatever reason, I just don't. He's a fantastic little boy, and I just don't give a damn; there's zero response.

If there's a hell, I'm sure I'll burn in it, and I'll deserve it.

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Throwaway. I have two children. Two different fathers. A 12 year old son and my 5 year old daughter.

My father was very abusive, both physically and emotionally, during my childhood. I left home at 15 and got pregnant by my boyfriend at 16. I guess I went with him, solely because he seemed so non-threatening. We got married. (Huge mistake.) I never felt like I really loved my first husband. I loved my son... I stayed home with him until he was 4 and I was so desperately depressed... My ex had confessed to me that he'd been sexually involved with his "best friend" since we had gotten together. I was... Almost relieved, because I felt so much guilt about "trying to make it work", and now I finally had an out. I don't dislike gay or bisexual people, I just couldn't be married to one. I'll never have a d**k.

We also lived with his mother, the entire time... Who he had a very strange relationship with...

I don't hate my son, but when he displays his father's... Traits? I guess you'd call it that... Such a huge ego, zero humility... I can definitely say that I "dislike" him. He doesn't live with me. I do talk to him a few times a week, he splits his time between his paternal grandmother (who I actually still have a good relationship with) and my father. I think it's for the best.

I live across the country from him. I'm remarried. We were married for a few years before I got pregnant. My daughter was also an "accident", but I love her with ease. I think it's just the different situations, and the fact that I have a loving, wonderful relationship with my husband.

I'm thankful that my son looks like me. I think I might *actually* hate him, if he looked like his father.

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#48

I know a family in rural Washington state that shares no love between them. They don't dislike one another. They get along fine. But they don't express any affection at all. They never hug or talk about anything more than the superficial. They don't eat together or know much about each other. When the kids were old enough they moved out and never talk to the parents. And the crazy thing is the kids and the mom all have black eyes. The irises are so dark, their eyes just look dead. They're nice people. Really. They just feel nothing. Thinking about them makes me uncomfortable.

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#49

I went from not caring one way or the other, to feeling like a god-damned walking greeting card about my kid.

Seriously, I agreed to have kids because it was a good time for it, and I've always thought I would have kids ... but it wasn't like I felt like I desperately wanted or needed a child in my life.

I was honestly worried at first, because it didn't hit me right when she was born or anything. It wasn't like as soon as I saw her my heart melted, but somehow, over the first few months, something happened.

Now I carry a picture of my daughter around with me, have pictures hanging up at work, take time off just to get extra time with her, plan trips around things she would like to see, ect. It's really nauseating to my friends, and I've tried to tone it down around them.

The only way I can describe it is that I felt like I was doing everything I was told to do before, and after having a kid, I finally felt like, for the first time, I knew what life was supposed to be about.

I think raising a child is a genetic imperative, and if you give it half a chance you'll form a connection stronger than anything you've ever felt before. It's just our nature

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#50

Not my kid, but I sort of dislike my niece. She's only four and she's a prissy, self-centered, spoiled little bitch who only behaves around one or two people. I do love her because she is part of my family, but I don't really enjoy, nor do I foresee myself enjoying spending time with her. We just have nothing in common and I don't see her growing out of this attitude (she has a cousin who is exactly like her except 18).

This is in contrast to my best friend's nephew who is my favorite little kid in the world even though he's not related to me at all. He's just a cool, polite, chill little dude.

Edit: Oh, and I'm totally with you on that fear. I suspect my mother didn't like me until I was moved out of her house. I know she loved me, but she didn't like me. And I could always tell. And I'm not sure if I would like certain kids just because they were mine...love them, sure.

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#51

Coming from the kid's side of it. She said it was 'Because I called her a bitch when I was six."

No really, that is what she said.

Objectively, it is more she hated my father. She was dirt poor, and I guess she thought he would be a money ticket, instead of being as drunk and useless as her. She 'let' me drink bleach when I was

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#52

I have a son that turns 5 on Christmas eve. And while i would never admit this to people i know, i dislike my son, because hes just like his mother. After about his first year of life, i was incarcerated. I have no emotional bond with him.. Him and his mother live in another state, on the other side of the country. Id like to meet with him when he gets older, because he should be given the opportunity to understand the circumstances surrounding my absence.

Maybe one day.

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#53

If you do not want a kid i recommend you get fixed, or find a new wife. I hate children of all shapes and sizes with a fiery passion, always have. The "love" that instantly fills your heart when you first hold them does not exist. You will look at your child everyday and think, wtf is this kid still doing here. Yes, i genuinly dislike my child, because i decided to get laid and not be smart about it. Every time you see it you will hate yourself a little bit more. Also, all of the things youve ever wanted will no longer exist. You will get nothing. nothing

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#54

I never wanted to have kids. My girlfriend at the time ended up pregnant with my daughter and I kinda freaked out. I wasn't ready to be a father. I started drinking a lot and doing a bunch of drugs. I also started sleeping with a bunch of different women, going as far as bringing a stripper home one night and screwing her in the guest bedroom while my pregnant girlfriend slept in our bedroom. In the morning I was so hungover I actually had my girlfriend bring the stripper home because I couldn't drive.

When my daughter was born, her mother was understandably still very bitter at me. I didn't see my daughter much, mostly because I couldn't really face her mother. On top of that, I didn't know how to be a father. I didn't know what to do. When my daughter was around 5, her mother started seeing a guy that pushed her to let me into my daughter's life. She tried, but I just couldn't do it. I stayed away as much as possible because I was still scared. I had no idea what I was doing, I was still incredibly embarrassed about my behavior during the pregnancy, and I was making it worse by making my daughter have to live without her father.

Right after her 8th birthday, I moved across the country. Even when I'd go home, I wouldn't really tell them because I was still scared to spend time with her. Every time we'd get together, it would just be awkward.

I saw her again recently. She's a teenager now but it's still very weird when we're together. Here's this person that I'm supposed to love and care about, but I don't know who she is. She doesn't talk to me. I keep trying to learn about her hoping that some light switch will go off, but it never does.

It's not that I don't love her anymore, I just never did.

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#55

My wife and I adopted three girls. It changed our lives, negatively. As much as I hate to admit it, I love my biological kids and would do anything for them; I hate doing things for my adopted kids. Im a s***ty father.

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#56

The little s**t cries all the f**king time and takes up waaaay too much of my wife's attention and energy, if you know what I mean? Always needing feeding or a nappy change or some f**king thing.

Can't wait till he's old enough for kindergarten, I'm looking around for one that accepts boarders at the moment.

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#57

Im a father of 2 kids, with 2 different women, I don't love my son, but I do very much love my daughter.Sooo to explain why, its is not at all my sons fault, its his mothers, she left because I kicked her out afters seeing how she treated my son vs her other son, my son was always getting screamed at while my stepson at the time could do no wrong. It drove me nuts and I let her know quite often, so divorce. She took my son and moved 2 hours away, and I just kinda gave up on him. In my head I knew she's gonna f**k that kid up and I want nothing to do with it. I still see him 3 or 4 times a year (he's 7 now) but I honestly don't love him. or even care if I see him. My daughter is with another female, and I see her all the time even tho I'm no longer with her mother, and I LOVE that lil girl, she's the cutest thing ever and id do anything for her. if your weird and go through my post history you'll find pics of us. I don't know the exact reasons why I feel different for 1 child than the other, but I do.
Edit*F**k you guys for the down votes. I answered the f**ken question. #edit 2 i got banned from commenting on r/askreddit so I can no longer reply to your messages sorry. Feel free to pm me if your so curious

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Didn't want kids and neither did my wife at first. She got pregnant which I believe was done on purpose. Reason why I think that is because we had a 30 dollar copay on her birth control back then. I went back and looked at our bank cards and two years before she had the kid there wasn't any deductions from our bank account at CVS where we got our prescriptions or my credit card statements that I couldn't account for knowing that it was something else. She could have paid in cash though.

Anyways she didn't want an abortion and this was something previously talked about in case an accident happened but something she changed her mind on after getting pregnant then he came out autistic. I am sorry but he is f*****g annoying. I would have left her and him but I am going to be out so much support and I am planning ahead to do so. I work a lot now like almost 80 hours a week and I am not going to do that and let her get a huge portion. She quit her job to take care of him. So they are ALWAYS f*****g there when I get off work. I am either at work or dealing with them.

So I told her I wanted to pay off the credit cards and use cash for everything. I have actually been putting cash in a safe that is in my brother attic that she doesn't know about. I plan on quitting my job and being out of work for several months to take a break then the next job that I get will be no more than 40 hours. Let them base the support of that. I have really even considered saving up a lot and fleeing the country to a no extradition place and living out the rest of my years there. I believe my wife is lazy and using this kid as an excuse not to work and plans on never working again and using me or support in the future to live off of. I do not want to give her the satisfaction.

When he was born there was a time I actually did care for him but shortly after 2 I just found him annoying. Though if at anytime she asked me to give him up for adoption in those first two years then I would have not hesitated on a yes. I am hoping that after I lose my job she will leave me and do the paper work. If the courts ever ask about the missing money or find of it then I will tell them that I used cash and spent it on strippers and booze. I never took any from our bank account but started taking about 25% in cash or more and putting it in the safe. I have been planning this for almost 5 years and have seen how hard my coworkers have been hit with support. I also live in an alimony state and that afraid she might get that she is is care giver to him. I will work at McDonalds before I will pay her to live without working. The kid will be 9 next year. I might never get up the nerve to leave them before he is old enough to be out of the support system but never know.

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Beth S 2 years ago

I feel that those that do not want children and know they do not want children should be able to get themselves sterilized with minimal hoop jumping. I know it is much easier for a man to get a vasectomy, than it is for a woman to get her tubes tied. We need to normalize this procedure for women that do not want children. Quit badgering people to have children if they do not want them! The world won't stop spinning because someone doesn't want to push out a child.

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Uncommon Boston Premium 2 years ago

I agree. Birth control pills are expensive. Abortion isn't an option in many places. Men need act responsibly, don't blame the woman -- grow up! (Yes there are men who can't have surgery. How about the rest of you?)

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Melia Janssen 2 years ago

That's what I thought too. Most of these stories here could have saved themselves a life of heartache if they had just used birth control (some of the stories stated they didn't) or at least got themselves a vasectomy if they already knew they didn't want children. They get horny and all common sense is thrown out.

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shado 2 years ago

Try telling that to the pious religious right or all those passing the laws to get the 'expected' landslide of new little tax-payers - their world just might end if birth-control became a standard thing!

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April Davis 2 years ago

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Powerful Katrinka 2 years ago

These are so heartbreaking to read. And now, if the evangelicals get their way, there will be many, many unwanted children.

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Lara M 2 years ago

This is what it looks like when abortion is unavailable. And when mothers basically have no support in raising their children. Most of these are "I never wanted my child" or "I broke down because I had to raise my child by myself".

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Spider 2 years ago

I can't believe I read every single one of these stories thinking I'd get one from my mom. I know she loves me, but I've never felt it, and she's never showed it. Never said I love you, no hugs, just went through the motions. I was fed and had a roof, and she went through hell with multiple jobs to take care of me. But it's like she just didn't have the emotional ability to love me. Just do things so I didn't die.

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Beth S 2 years ago (edited)

I am so incredibly sorry. I cannot imagine how isolating this must have felt.

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Jessica Julian 2 years ago

As someone with a couple relevant social science degrees, I cannot help but wonder about the damage to these children. Every one of these children will wonder what is wrong with them, and why they aren't wanted. It will eat at them. Hopefully, they will learn to adjust, and realize that none of it was because of them. I couldn't even finish reading these...I had to stop a few responses in...I know I can't help them, so I know I can't have this information in my mind. I'm glad these women knew themselves well enough to try not to damage the children, and I sincerely hope it will be enough. I realized I didn't want marriage, not even a partner, and definitely not children. So, I don't. Because I know the damage that can be done.

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Little Wonder 2 years ago

It feels like as a society we are sold this idea that having children is the most perfect wonderful thing ever, and anyone who says something like "I can't wait till there's no more night feeds" or "I can't wait till this stage is over" is sort of looked down on as not Enjoying Parenting Properly. Which means people who really do hate it, who bought into the idea it's wonderful and fulfilling and marvellous, feel unable to express that. These conversations are important, because we can't keep pretending parenting is for everyone. It isn't. If you love it, great. if you tolerate it but still think it was worth it, great, but it's not for everyone.

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Tiredofpayingforothers 2 years ago

My wife and I have a daughter who is 25 years old. She had a first child (our granddaughter) at age of 15. Her second (grandson) at the age of 18, and her third (granddaughter) at 21. She and her boyfriend, who is the same age would not mind, would not listen, didn't care if they were grounded. They snuck out all the time. His parents and us tried everything we could possibly think of to keep them from being stupid. My wife even took our daughter to get on birth control, she didn't take it. Now at 25, the boyfriend is in prison for dealing drugs, and our daughter won't work. My wife and I have all three grandkids most of the time. Their mother only pops in maybe once a week to see them for an hour, then she's gone again. The grandkids don't even view her as their mother. My wife and I also have another daughter who went to university and now has a rewarding career. Sometimes you just get a bad apple.

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Helena R 2 years ago

Well done for stepping up for those kids

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Jason Marin 2 years ago

Whenever I asks my mom if she loves me, her response is simply, "No." If I ask my dad, "His response is either, "Hell, no. Are you out of your damn mind?" or "Hell, no. Get out of here." Both my parents verbally, physically and emotionally abused me when I was a child. I got bullied at school but I doubt my dad did anything as I was still bullied. Because of this, I desperately want to have children of my own so that I can raise them the way my parents should have raised me. With love and by teaching my children right and wrong in a positive manner rather then screaming my head off when the kids screw up. As a matter of fact, if I ever had any kids, I wouldn't let them visit my parents because I don't want them to be treated the same way my parents treated me and I sure as hell don't want them picking up homophobic and racists ideas from them either. I would teach my children to accept everybody for who they are.

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Tamra 2 years ago (edited)

I'm so sorry, Jason. No child should ever be treated this way. I hope your life is filled with people who truly love you, and that you understand and appreciate your own value.

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K Cede 2 years ago

I'm so sorry you went through this Jason. I'm glad you recognize, though, that you CAN and WILL do better than your parents and won't pass down generational trauma to your future kids. Good on you! I wish you love and luck in the future.

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ADumpsterFire 2 years ago

You deserved better.

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Ari Keeper 2 years ago

You can break the chain. My mother did. Best of luck to you 👍 ❤️

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Momo Tarou 2 years ago

F*CK all of this. I do believe society would be best if we had to fill a form to have children, or show we really wanted them. They say to go to hell, but we already are, this a a hell you all bringing new souls to, every frickin day. You suffer and suffered a lot, I'm sure, but dude, you know who are the ones who suffered the most and who are now carrying YOUR suffering too? The children. Let's make a normal situation to chose to not have or to have at 20, if you don't want, get a permanently sterilized. If you later chose to have, just adopt.

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Jerry Mathers 2 years ago

As a proud father I say to any that choose not to be a parent or give a child up for adoption, good for you! You have my respect and admiration. It takes a responsible and decent human to recognize the work and effort that goes into being a parent. I recognize and admire your respect for what it takes to raise a child and your selflessness that you show when choose not to have a child or whether you choose an abortion or an adoption. You are putting the needs of a child first by your actions and are every bit as decent and worthy of recognition as a great parent is. Thank you for your foresight and self awareness.

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CatGirl 2 years ago

All of these people are victims of the social pressure to have or keep a pregnancy. The pressure alone should be evidence that this life is not something you want to bring a kid into. And yes, I'm an antinatalist.

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JJ 2 years ago

Yes, and the other thing is that once the child is in the world, society does not give a damn any more. I feel that many, many of those stories above could have become better significantly, if the parents had had proper life conditions and a proper support system (doctor's, therapists, social workers, welfare, guaranteed income by the government, ...). Instead parents are told to just be happy because of those blessings...

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Ranch Dressing 2 years ago

I'm from a mother who had post natal depression when she had me. How do I know? I was always a bit suspicious and my grandmother told me. Even now my mother can't "connect" with me. I'm in my 40s and it still hurts

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J L 2 years ago

What about those of us with no feelings for our family members? I have no connection to my siblings nor they to me. They are totally different than I am. Same with my parents. My Dad's method of communicating with us was screaming in our faces. My Mom was so desperate to hang onto him, she ignored us and went off to play with him on weekends. My Dad died a year ago and I really don't care. My mother is 90 and a right wing nutjob with all sorts of conspiracy theories. She would be happier to die. My sisters also hold despicable human rights beliefs and if I never see either of them for the rest of my life, that's fine with me. My kids and my granddaughter are my life. They have stood by me through thick and thin. I was divorced from their father and made sure they saw him whenever possible, despite my "family" calling and yelling at me that he shouldn't see them because he couldn't pay child support. He died 3 years after our divorce and no one can ever say that I kept them apart.

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Angelina 2 years ago

damn dude I'm sorry, I'm glad you let their father still have connections to the kids it is important to a degree. I don't feel very connected to my family either, my dad was a navy drill instructor the only memories I have of him as a kid weren't great either but he still tries, some scars don't heal tho. my mom smothers & won't let go, my kids dad won't divorce me just like my dad with my mom, because of $ & denial. Idk 1 of my brothers at all except for his 1st name, the other 1 introduced me to some of my favorite music & games but that's it, moved to Iowa didn't say a word to ne1 & flaked out on his 2 kids then got some other chick pregnant. if it was just me & my 2 boys I'd b "happier" but circumstances :{ (honestly I wouldn't mind dying myself if I didn't have my boys but I want to try & help them in dealing with ppl as much as I can) I hope you/yer kids& granddaughter r doing ok.

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msminnie 2 years ago

These are hard to read.

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Brittany 2 years ago

4 years away from 40 and still questioning if I want kids...this didn't help but maybe it did.

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madbakes 2 years ago

If you're not sure, it's a no. I feel like getting married or having children is something you must have a desire to do.

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Tamra 2 years ago

Well Brittany, I will tell you that I very much wanted to have a baby. Went through 16 years of miscarriages, infertility treatments, invasive procedures...you name it. Then, without any hope, because doctors said it just wasn't biologically possible for us, I got pregnant and nine months later my son was born. I share all of this to convey that he was very, very much wanted. But parenting has been the hardest thing I've ever done. The most joyful and amazing, but also the most difficult. Would I do it all again, knowing what I know now? Yes. But it's not for everyone.

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Angelina 2 years ago

i'm almost 35, NEVER wanted children. I've been pregnant 5 times (I have allergic reactions to natural latex condoms, everytime I used them burning/itching/inflammation would happen so I said f that, always had issues with taking pills on time & a lot of the times I never planned on even having sex but I had a difficult time saying no even to ppl I wasn't at all interested in) 3 abortions & 2 carried to full term that i love very much even though it's extremely difficult considering i always hated children even as a child myself. even though I never wanted them I still love & appreciate them being around. it is a very difficult decision to make & considering your age (not saying yer old or nething please don't b offended) kids take up pretty much everything in you, yer energy/time/love/nething you can think of they take. they give back, depending on the type of ppl they r or become. but you really have to decide if at this point in yer life that's something you can handle.

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Cathy Jo Baker 2 years ago

This post ought to be titled "30 Parents Anonymously Share How They Messed Up"

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Rocky Mom 2 years ago

Righto

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Plutarch 2 years ago

As a 37 y.o. female that has never wanted kids and has kept her opinion through everything, the most annoying thing is when people are reckless with their sex life and birth control, get pregnant or get someone pregnant and then suddenly "uhhohh, I don't like my kid". You think you have the privilege to live like a moron and not live with the consequence. F*** you.

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Shine Chisholm 2 years ago

I wanted to be a parent and love my child more than anything in the entire universe. AND ALSO I hate how she makes my house messy, I hate that I have to put her first financially and she will never appreciate that, and I hate how much of my time revolves around her. I hate what pregnancy did to my body. So whenever I think of people subjecting themselves to parenthood and all of its struggles without actually wanting to raise a human... I just don't get it. Like no. You will hate every second.

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Helena R 2 years ago

I love my kids more than anything. But I'm upset by the fact my parents never babysit, that childcare fees are so high I'm never left with fun money and the constant noise and mess never seems to stop. I wanted them snd I still do but the lack of surrounding support is something I never anticipated and crushes my spirit. I'd love to spend more time playing with them but I spend more time caring for them

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Pink kitty 2 years ago

Interesting reading

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Gozer LeGozerian 2 years ago

If you know you don't want children, please please please make sure you do all you can to keep it that way, either by surgery or implantation or the like.

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Gozer LeGozerian 2 years ago

And I mean this in the best possible way, look how miserable people have been after being manipulated into having children when they didn't want to

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Awsomemom52 2 years ago

I love my sons (K 30 and S 23) but both were not intended children... more like "surprises". My older son K., is very similar to me in character. Rather relaxed... and he is much more extroverted (confident) than me. The younger son S, is the complete opposite. You could say he has "a very short fuse". I've never been good with people who get upset easily (for no reason) and make drama out of whatever they're starring in... S does that regularly. So, I just get along better with K. Depression is also a big problem for us... due to some very unfortunate events in the past. Unfortunately, not all of us take the professional help they need. I really love them... always. But sometimes, I really don't like them... at all.

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Anita Leary 2 years ago

I wonder how many of these people come from a strong Christian background. It seems to be the case in many instances I've read about lately on AITA.

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Ari Keeper 2 years ago (edited)

I don't think a Bored Panda article has ever made me weep before. May all these parents + their children be happy + well to the best of their ability. + for the guy who became a dad at 17, who has been showing up for his kid every day, I pray he addresses his self loathing, bc actually, love is an action, not a feeling + he gets that.

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Mike Beck 2 years ago

Birth control surgery (vasectomy, Fallopian tubes tied) is one of the very few things I think the government should provide for free. And double the cost of reversing it.

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Milan 2 years ago

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Metalhead Turtle 🇺🇦 2 years ago

I know that BP has a tendency of posting old articles/threads, but this is from 8 years ago

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SweetsEve 2 years ago

1. Don't believe 80% of anonymous things posted on the internet. 2. It is NOT NORMAL for a mother to not bond with her children. We are biologically built for it. It's science. 3. Mother's should seek counseling if they they feel emotionally detached from their children, there are a lot of well known issues that can be diagnosed and treated. The body goes through a lot during pregnancy and for some it can take over a year to start feeling normal especially if your partner sucks and you're not getting to eat and sleep as needed. 4. It's not acceptable to not love your child. Sorry, but no and it's not something we should even consider normalizing. Go get therapy.

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JIlly Bean 2 years ago

I only read a couple and everyone here is f****d up. Find a way to kill yourselves. We'll wait.

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Angelina 2 years ago

Lead by example, we'll wait.

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Shine Chisholm 2 years ago

Kids are not a retirement plan. Gross.

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Powerful Katrinka 2 years ago

These are so heartbreaking to read. And now, if the evangelicals get their way, there will be many, many unwanted children.

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Lara M 2 years ago

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Spider 2 years ago

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Beth S 2 years ago (edited)

I am so incredibly sorry. I cannot imagine how isolating this must have felt.

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Jessica Julian 2 years ago

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Little Wonder 2 years ago

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Tiredofpayingforothers 2 years ago

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Helena R 2 years ago

Well done for stepping up for those kids

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Jason Marin 2 years ago

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Tamra 2 years ago (edited)

I'm so sorry, Jason. No child should ever be treated this way. I hope your life is filled with people who truly love you, and that you understand and appreciate your own value.

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K Cede 2 years ago

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ADumpsterFire 2 years ago

You deserved better.

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Ari Keeper 2 years ago

You can break the chain. My mother did. Best of luck to you 👍 ❤️

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Momo Tarou 2 years ago

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Jerry Mathers 2 years ago

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CatGirl 2 years ago

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JJ 2 years ago

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Ranch Dressing 2 years ago

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J L 2 years ago

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Angelina 2 years ago

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msminnie 2 years ago

These are hard to read.

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Uncommon Boston Premium 2 years ago

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Brittany 2 years ago

4 years away from 40 and still questioning if I want kids...this didn't help but maybe it did.

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madbakes 2 years ago

If you're not sure, it's a no. I feel like getting married or having children is something you must have a desire to do.

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Tamra 2 years ago

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Angelina 2 years ago

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Cathy Jo Baker 2 years ago

This post ought to be titled "30 Parents Anonymously Share How They Messed Up"

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Rocky Mom 2 years ago

Righto

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Plutarch 2 years ago

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Shine Chisholm 2 years ago

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Helena R 2 years ago

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Pink kitty 2 years ago

Interesting reading

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Gozer LeGozerian 2 years ago

If you know you don't want children, please please please make sure you do all you can to keep it that way, either by surgery or implantation or the like.

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Gozer LeGozerian 2 years ago

And I mean this in the best possible way, look how miserable people have been after being manipulated into having children when they didn't want to

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Uncommon Boston Premium 2 years ago

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Awsomemom52 2 years ago

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Anita Leary 2 years ago

I wonder how many of these people come from a strong Christian background. It seems to be the case in many instances I've read about lately on AITA.

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Ari Keeper 2 years ago (edited)

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Mike Beck 2 years ago

Birth control surgery (vasectomy, Fallopian tubes tied) is one of the very few things I think the government should provide for free. And double the cost of reversing it.

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Milan 2 years ago

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Metalhead Turtle 🇺🇦 2 years ago

I know that BP has a tendency of posting old articles/threads, but this is from 8 years ago

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SweetsEve 2 years ago

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JIlly Bean 2 years ago

I only read a couple and everyone here is f****d up. Find a way to kill yourselves. We'll wait.

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Angelina 2 years ago

Lead by example, we'll wait.

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Shine Chisholm 2 years ago

Kids are not a retirement plan. Gross.

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