this is related to the so called "call of the void" where you're like "what if i just jumped off this bridge right now"

this is a physiological phenomenon called cognitive dissonance, and it has to do with your brain having to deal with ambiguity. known less formally as the high place effect(this is more commonly used to explain why people get the urge to jump off cliffs) explains that when your survival instincts just sort of shut off, also known as anti-survival

So this is apparently normal? Im not that insane?!

it went from weird to dark

I have crazy irrational thoughts like that too, like in a work meeting i might think "what if i just threw my coffee at someones head right now",, speeding along in a car and i will think "imagine i just opened the door now" it's odd but i totally get this.

lol I used to have those thoughts about my own baby ! lol Don't worry he's 11 now.

What if turned my steering wheel really hard and drove off this extremely high bridge?

Yes me too! like just scrollin' BP on ur phone then ur just like "what if i chucked this into the Misissippi?"

Very normal, if not very unnerving.

Omg. I do this too

Lol same the first thought I have when I meet someone is "how long would it take to strangle them...."

There is a phrase for this: 'L'appel du vide'. 'The call of the void'. They use it for the impulse to jump when on a high place, but it can be used for the impulse to do any strange/destructive thing.

The call of the void (standing on the brink and contemplating what happens if you jump).

Me too

I can't carry a hammer through the house for this exact reason! I impulsively want to smash something. But not a baby. Honest.

Thank god and OP! I'm not alone and not a complete psycho, apparently. Never follow through though.

#metoo

I think of doing something crazy like going into a grocery store when it's closed and just make a huge mess. Open stuff, throw it everywhere, slide all around the floors. Just going crazy.

Same

“What if if I jumped off this mountain” yes I have thought this while hiking before

I'll be riding my motorcycle down the road and wonder what it would be like to swerve my bike into oncoming traffic.

One time in 3rd grade, I thought to myself; "what if I jump on my teachers head while she was teaching and immediately throatfuck her?".

omg same

That sometimes happens to me too. Once, when I was at a birthday party there were ice cubes and soda, and I wondered, "If i put an ice cube in the hot tub, how long would it take to melt?"

yo i am dying ahahahahhaahhahahahah

oh my god! samee

Obsessive compulsive disorder is "responding" to these thoughts, either trying to dispel them, or reassuring yourself somehow that you're "good". This leads to completing physical or mental rituals. This comes from having a fundamental conflict with yourself, non acceptance etc. Source: obsessive compulsive sufferer.

I always thought I was the only one and something was wrong with me until I read this.

I have this weird desire to throw a flower pot from a high building on someone down below. my mom thinks I have violent tendency. so far haven't done it yet...YET.

Me too

The phenomenon is known as "Into the Void"

I did that but thought what if I set him on fire. I was holding my nephew

I know exactly what you mean. Like someone else said, it's like getting a weird urge to jump from a high place - it's not like you actually want to, but your mind likes to play out the worst outcomes of situations as a primal survival technique. I still don't like these weird thoughts, but at least I know I'm not crazy lol

I thought i was the only one to think what if I went "crazy'.

I get thoughts like that all the time. When I see a truck or bus I imagine jumping in front of it. I don’t actually want to though.

Same

The difference is reason, logic and morals they mean you think it, but don’t do it

I have had thoughts similar to this. Referred to as the "What if"