“I Never Came Clean”: 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets

However close we are to our loved ones, some things we still keep only to ourselves. Dr. Michael Slepian, an expert on the psychology of secrets, says that keeping secrets is a universal thing – we all do it. We keep secrets about ourselves and about the people we know, and it's all about what it means to live in a community.

But secrets also come with a lot of anxiety and isolation. Confessing, even if anonymously, can give the keeper a great deal of relief. That's why these two threads got as many comments as they did – people were rushing to share their burdens with strangers. Folks had some disturbing secrets they wanted to get off their chests, and others confessed what they would never tell their significant other. Curious to know what secrets they were? Scroll down and see for yourself!

Bored Panda reached out to one of the Redditors who posed this question about secrets on the Ask Reddit community. Check out our short conversation with the user u/Waltef_j below!

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My husband passed away a few years ago. I tell everyone how much I loved him and only talk about the good times we had and how great he was. In honesty I hated him for every bit of the 33 years we were together. He was so mean to me, both physicaly and mentally-every single day. He hid it well and in front of anyone he was okay to me but when we were alone he was terrible. I hated him so much I live alone now and am just finding myself. I moved to a different state and have made new friends and everyone seems to really like me and I even like myself now too. It's been really hard to tell myself that I am okay. I have never said any of this out loud. I feel bad that I am happy he is gone.

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The author of this thread, u/Waltef_j, kindly agreed to answer a few of our questions. We were curious how the idea of this particular question came to the Redditor. "I was laying in my bed and was bored as always."

"So I thought about [something] which would entertain me. Scrolling through Reddit I landed on the r/AskReddit sub and wondered what question could let people tell some interesting stories." So they landed on the one about secrets.

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I’m terrified of going into work….not work itself, I’m a hard worker, but I despise sitting in an office full of people I barely know, constantly being ‘on’, being evaluated in person, and pretending I enjoy not being warm and safe in my cozy home.

For some of us the pandemic was a blessing.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My ex-husband told me one time that he didn’t think it was wrong for a father to be sexually intimate with his daughter, as long as she was “old enough.” No one will ever know why we truly divorced, because I don’t think anyone would believe me. He started talking about children. I’d never let my daughter be his.

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"I was very surprised by the reactions," the Redditor tells us. "I never thought it would get that big. It's really shocking to read what some people have/had to deal with in their life." However, the user also feels happy that they could provide a place for people to get their secrets off their chest.

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets A few years ago one of our cats died after we had her for 14 years. We were all heartbroken and devastated by her loss. We noticed something was wrong on Thursday, took her to the vet on Friday, and she died late Sunday night.

The night she died, I sent everyone to bed and I stayed up with her. She kept getting into the bathtub and lying down as opposed to a bed we had set up for her.

Just before she died, she let out a horrible scream and went into convulsions. Then she just stopped breathing.

I never told my spouse or kids about that last few moments. I just told them she just slipped away. I still want to cry every time I think about it. I will never tell them about that.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I can login to the jukebox at my local bar from my apartment. I often login from home and require it to play “what does the fox say” on repeat.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets A few years ago I used to work at Home Depot at the returns desk. It was mostly very elderly people who worked alongside me in our store. I was the youngest in the team.

We had a lady, Margaret, who had issues with bowel control due to her medications. She used to fart without even realizing she's farting. Usually loud but harmless ones even when she was having a normal conversation. So we got so used to her doing that, even though it was awkward in the beginning.

One day we were having a team huddle and it started to smell like fresh manure..such a strong stench..and then one more with different flavor this time. The manager dismissed the team huddle...and one of the team members murmured "My God, Margaret, what was that!!"

It was me. I did that Margaret, I'm sorry.

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"I saw that some were happy that this thread existed because it gave them a place to share their problems or traumas anonymously," they said. "And also [there] were some Redditors who offered help."

"So it wasn't only a place where people shared their secrets, but also could get help or feel [relieved] by telling others about it," the Redditor added. "It shows that a lot of people [want] a safe space where they don't get judged for their secrets."

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets All day, every day, relapsing is all I can think about. I’ve been clean for 3 1/2 months but oh boy is it difficult. I crave the relapse. The ONLY reason I haven’t is because it would hurt my boyfriend to see me relapse.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I walk around the house and monologue. Like, a lot.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I have a good friend who is a very shy pooper. Like, we’ve been on trips together and he won’t s**t for days, he says he just can’t relax and go because he’s in public. But one time in college, about six years ago, he was super drunk and fell asleep s******g on my toilet. And the s**t got all over my toilet, not sure how but most of it did not go in the bowl. I got him up, cleaned him and the toilet up, and put him to bed. He was blackout drunk and doesn’t remember it at all. I don’t have the heart to tell him. He’d be mortified. It wouldn’t do anyone any good. But when he’s shy about pooping around me, I can’t help but chuckle at the irony.

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#10

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets People in my personal life who find out I'm a professional domme, instantly feel free about telling me their darkest secrets.

I know who's secretly gay, I know who's on steroids, I know who's kinky, I know who has erectile dysfunction, I know both men & women who were brutally sa'd as children, I even know someone who's k****d a guy (he wasn't boasting or bragging, he seemed really shook up about it. I might be the only one he's told)

So, my most disturbing secret is that I'm a trauma-sponge for absorbing everyone else's disturbing secrets.

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#11

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I accidentally stepped barefoot into a boiling, maggot-infested raccoon corpse. It got stuck on my foot like a slipper and I tried to shake it off, something popped and got a spray of blood and s**t all over me. Then I puked on myself and stumbled home.

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#12

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I’m an alcoholic. no one is aware of how bad it’s gotten but i’m drinking to almost blackout daily and going to work ill every single day. i still do my job fine but the second i’m off it’s all i want to do and i can’t stop myself anymore. it’s been like this for almost 2 years now

what i’m doing to myself while acting completely fine to everyone disturbs me but i’m really struggling to get myself help :/.

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#13

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets During my worst periods of dealing with bulimia, if I had no food on hand to binge and purge, I would steal lunches from people at work or pick things out of the trash. I was never caught.
The shame, guilt, and disgust with myself was always there, but it took intensive counseling, medication, and working with a specialist on other issues to help me to stop.

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#14

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My family think I finished the computer science degree, but I dropped out. However I've been working in the sector for about 25 years in a row without any trouble and people (employers and colleagues) seem to think that I'm quite competent. It's not disturbing per se but for my parents it was a big deal that I finished my studies. My dad passed away three years ago without knowing. My mom is 83 and she is still proud of me and I hope things stay the same till she dies.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets When we first met he made me promise “if I ever gain too much weight you have to tell me to hit the gym.” We laughed about it but that was almost 5 years ago, and now he has gotten pretty overweight and I don’t know if I’m supposed to keep my promise or just let him choose his own path with his weight. I’m still attracted to him and love him more than ever, but I want him to be healthy…

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#16

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I never had a gf but told everyone I did have one and that she broke up with me. I was so good at lying about it that I myself believed my lie and somehow I felt really sad and depressed. Than I even remembered memories I never had and afterwards I was like wtf am I doing.

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#17

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets As a teen, I caught my parents' house on fire playing with pyrotechnics in the garage and then staged it to look like an electrical fire so i wouldn't get in trouble.

I was regarded as the hero who put the fire out before it consumed the house (I was home alone at the time), but really, I was the cause.

They had all of the electrical redone in the house as a precaution against another fire... I never came clean.

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#18

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My best friend is actually his uncle's kid. Apparently he confessed to it on his death bed. The mum won't admit anything and he can't talk to anyone else in the fam about it.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I have a serious skin picking problem. I can just sit for hours straight in front of a mirror and inspect every pore on my face/chest/hands. It's gotten so bad that i have little scars all over my face. But i literally cant stop doing it.

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#20

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets That I haven’t been happy since he asked me for divorce a couple of years ago…. I was ready to follow through and last minute he backtracked, but he never said he was sorry, and I haven’t been able to fully come back from that…. I don’t think I love him the same since

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#21

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I used to not eat and basically starve myself to feel hungry, just to feel.. something, and I had control over that aspect.

Tough home life with being groomed by mom and s**t. No contact for a couple years, and never had any sort of connection or love or emotions for family, it's still hard to feel anything but I have an amazing fiance.

100% classic narcissism abuse.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets Not a single person I've met in the last 10 years knows anything true about me. Not my name, not my profession, not my family life, not where I'm from etc. I've created an entirely fake person, and that's who I am to everyone that I meet now. Even my girlfriend.

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#23

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My friend’s younger brother took a dump in the litter box as a teen “to see what it was like”. Their mom, an RN, saw it and declared “there is a human SH*T in the litter box!” Whenever anyone brings up anything litter box-related, I think of this.

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#24

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I hid the remote control to the living room TV for absolutely no reason at all, and kept it hidden for probably a week. My dad began to have a meltdown by the 6th-7th day, so I just put it under a random blanket on the couch where I knew he would find it. What a weird kid I was.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I once felt overwhelmed with the compulsion to run through a farmer's wheatfield, I felt very naughty.

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#26

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I'm often emotionless but i'm hiding it through jokes and acts.

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#27

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I had a sexual relationship with someone for months, not knowing he have a wife and a newborn baby. We're in our early 20s, I asked him if he has a girlfriend, and he said no, which was technically true because he actually has a wife.

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#28

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets That his mother is an exhausting gossiping windmill of geriatric nonsense.

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#29

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets Before my dad died, he told me about my mother’s affairs. One with his childhood best friend. I’ll never tell anyone else.

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"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My husband and I look so happy on social media but in reality we argue every day and our marriage is falling apart.

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#31

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets Sometimes I make loud farting noises late at night to see if I can wake up the whole house. I consider it a victory when I’m asked if I’m feeling ok the next morning. .

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#32

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets One time I had to go number 2 so bad but our bathroom was occupied. So I went outside and the dog immediately gobbled it up.

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#33

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I brushed my sister‘s toothbrush over a soap bar when we were little because I thought that’s what she did too. sometimes my toothbrush tasted a little soapy. Never talked about it with anyone. First time writing it down.

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#34

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I tell people I can get them exotic meats...hippo steaks, giraffe burgers.

It's all goat.

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#35

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I want to see a large plane crash in person.

I don't hope for it to happen, I just want to see it if it happens to occur.

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What do you think ?

Sedona 7 months ago

I wish people on BP would understand that content like this is mostly taken from reddit so writing OP heartfelt comments does nothing.

27points

mandy the capibara 7 months ago

I'm quite sure they know. People just want to share feelings, even if they know the poster probably doesn't read it. it's a sign of empathy. Why does ot bother you that much?

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censorshipsucks 7 months ago

yep but maybe the BP readers have the same mental issues, and, when reading the heartfelt comments, gain some condolences?

18points

John Harrison 7 months ago

They understand that. They're just sharing their thoughts. How do you not understand THAT?

14points

Josephine Blogs 7 months ago

I came straight to the comments to say this. If people really want to reply to the OP, just hop over to Reddit. If they want to share their thought and feeling with fellow BPs, just address the crowd. 🥰

4points

35 cabbages in a trenchcoat 4 months ago

It drives me crazy.

1point

Wendy Me 7 months ago

The captions aren't appearing. I'm thinking this is a BP problem??

16points

Meep-Meep 7 months ago

Yeah for me it gives the first 10-ish words then cuts off

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Rose-Ann Gahan 7 months ago

I was just coming here to say this. Past week or so I can't see full articles.

2points

V Martinez 7 months ago

There are enough of us here with this same issue to start a club, or make our own post. Lol!

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shankShaw deReemer 7 months ago

I can see them up to the "meat" of the disturbing fact. Weird.

Ranger Kanootsen 7 months ago

My secret is that I have been alone for so many years that now, since I have a boyfriend, I don't know what to do. I am FREAKING OUT and I am scared that if I share my awful memories that he'll realise I'm just a pathetic kicked puppy.

UpupaEpops 7 months ago

You are absolutely not. I can't give much advice on how to talk about a traumatic past with a partner as I haven't dated 2017. Due to how abusive that relationship was. I just can't bring myself to open up to anyone. But I don't think either of us are pathetic for it. And kicked puppies can turn into the coolest dogs too. Maybe don't tell him everything at once, but giving bits of information here and there will help him understand you better.

Squirrelly Panda 7 months ago

Ranger Kanootsen, I know you are witty and intelligent, your comments always add something to the dialog. Because of your obvious intelligence, I assume you have considered seeing a psychologist or talk therapist, but if you haven't considered it, or are reluctant for what ever reason, please consider it. Talking about it with a trained professional in a safe place may help you to to understand and accept what you need to so you can move forward in a healthy way. Please don't allow your past to overshadow the good in your now. A therapist might even be able to help you with if, and, if so, how you tell your boyfriend about your past. As I said, you may have already considered all this and much more. I just want to see you happy in your now and at peace with your past so you can work on making a better future that includes all the good of now.

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Connor 5 months ago

no worries if you open up he will love you even more

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