Join the Fun!

jonschaff , Elina Fairytale / Pexels Report

The author of this thread, u/Waltef_j, kindly agreed to answer a few of our questions. We were curious how the idea of this particular question came to the Redditor. "I was laying in my bed and was bored as always."

"So I thought about [something] which would entertain me. Scrolling through Reddit I landed on the r/AskReddit sub and wondered what question could let people tell some interesting stories." So they landed on the one about secrets.

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I’m terrified of going into work….not work itself, I’m a hard worker, but I despise sitting in an office full of people I barely know, constantly being ‘on’, being evaluated in person, and pretending I enjoy not being warm and safe in my cozy home.

For some of us the pandemic was a blessing.

Final score:

364points

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Lavendar rose 7 months ago

I miss the pandemic. The only negative was that my son needed to be out and about and got anxiety. But, if not for him, I’d welcome another shutdown.

99points

Mistealakes , Alena Darmel / Pexels Report

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My ex-husband told me one time that he didn’t think it was wrong for a father to be sexually intimate with his daughter, as long as she was “old enough.” No one will ever know why we truly divorced, because I don’t think anyone would believe me. He started talking about children. I’d never let my daughter be his.

Final score:

342points

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Annabel Wood 7 months ago

glad you left so that your future children were safe

238points

123fofisix , Manja Vitolic / Unsplash Report

"I was very surprised by the reactions," the Redditor tells us. "I never thought it would get that big. It's really shocking to read what some people have/had to deal with in their life." However, the user also feels happy that they could provide a place for people to get their secrets off their chest.

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets A few years ago one of our cats died after we had her for 14 years. We were all heartbroken and devastated by her loss. We noticed something was wrong on Thursday, took her to the vet on Friday, and she died late Sunday night.

The night she died, I sent everyone to bed and I stayed up with her. She kept getting into the bathtub and lying down as opposed to a bed we had set up for her.

Just before she died, she let out a horrible scream and went into convulsions. Then she just stopped breathing.

I never told my spouse or kids about that last few moments. I just told them she just slipped away. I still want to cry every time I think about it. I will never tell them about that.

Final score:

309points

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Roger9er 7 months ago

I'm so sorry

212points

Background_Decision2 , Nichika Yoshida / Unsplash Report

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I can login to the jukebox at my local bar from my apartment. I often login from home and require it to play “what does the fox say” on repeat.

Final score:

303points

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Dread Pirate Roberts 7 months ago

ROFL this person is my hero 😂

169points

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets A few years ago I used to work at Home Depot at the returns desk. It was mostly very elderly people who worked alongside me in our store. I was the youngest in the team.

We had a lady, Margaret, who had issues with bowel control due to her medications. She used to fart without even realizing she's farting. Usually loud but harmless ones even when she was having a normal conversation. So we got so used to her doing that, even though it was awkward in the beginning.

One day we were having a team huddle and it started to smell like fresh manure..such a strong stench..and then one more with different flavor this time. The manager dismissed the team huddle...and one of the team members murmured "My God, Margaret, what was that!!"

It was me. I did that Margaret, I'm sorry.

Dry-Communication901 , Pexels Report

Final score:

251points

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Did I say that out loud? (he/him)cis/het 7 months ago

Bwahaha.

92points

BriarShine1920 , MART PRODUCTION / Pexels Report

"I saw that some were happy that this thread existed because it gave them a place to share their problems or traumas anonymously," they said. "And also [there] were some Redditors who offered help."

"So it wasn't only a place where people shared their secrets, but also could get help or feel [relieved] by telling others about it," the Redditor added. "It shows that a lot of people [want] a safe space where they don't get judged for their secrets."

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets All day, every day, relapsing is all I can think about. I’ve been clean for 3 1/2 months but oh boy is it difficult. I crave the relapse. The ONLY reason I haven’t is because it would hurt my boyfriend to see me relapse.

Final score:

236points

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Mela (qu33nwh0) 7 months ago

You've got this. You're stronger than you know, trust me, I know 💗

207points

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I walk around the house and monologue. Like, a lot.

Diare , Samson Katt / Pexels Report

Final score:

218points

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Mitchell 7 months ago

Me too

144points

I-heart-diet-coke , Farhan Abas / Pexels Report

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I have a good friend who is a very shy pooper. Like, we’ve been on trips together and he won’t s**t for days, he says he just can’t relax and go because he’s in public. But one time in college, about six years ago, he was super drunk and fell asleep s******g on my toilet. And the s**t got all over my toilet, not sure how but most of it did not go in the bowl. I got him up, cleaned him and the toilet up, and put him to bed. He was blackout drunk and doesn’t remember it at all. I don’t have the heart to tell him. He’d be mortified. It wouldn’t do anyone any good. But when he’s shy about pooping around me, I can’t help but chuckle at the irony.

Final score:

211points

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Roger9er 7 months ago

You're a kind person not telling him.

270points

Masked_Daisy , Cord Allman / Unsplash Report

#10

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets People in my personal life who find out I'm a professional domme, instantly feel free about telling me their darkest secrets.

I know who's secretly gay, I know who's on steroids, I know who's kinky, I know who has erectile dysfunction, I know both men & women who were brutally sa'd as children, I even know someone who's k****d a guy (he wasn't boasting or bragging, he seemed really shook up about it. I might be the only one he's told)

So, my most disturbing secret is that I'm a trauma-sponge for absorbing everyone else's disturbing secrets.

Final score:

181points

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Katie Lutesinger 7 months ago

Oh my god you kissed a guy?! Horrifying! (Yes, I know. That's the joke).

92points

Pizzasaurus-Rex , Henry Dinardo / Unsplash Report

#11

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I accidentally stepped barefoot into a boiling, maggot-infested raccoon corpse. It got stuck on my foot like a slipper and I tried to shake it off, something popped and got a spray of blood and s**t all over me. Then I puked on myself and stumbled home.

Final score:

155points

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Roger9er 7 months ago

Man, that is disgusting indeed!!🤢🤢

130points

#12

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I’m an alcoholic. no one is aware of how bad it’s gotten but i’m drinking to almost blackout daily and going to work ill every single day. i still do my job fine but the second i’m off it’s all i want to do and i can’t stop myself anymore. it’s been like this for almost 2 years now

what i’m doing to myself while acting completely fine to everyone disturbs me but i’m really struggling to get myself help :/.

Lolaiero , John Matthew / Pexels Report

Final score:

154points

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Roger9er 7 months ago

But please, please, do and try to get help, OP. It will kill you. Alcohol is poison.

179points

skootch_ginalola , Artem Labunsky / Unsplash Report

#13

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets During my worst periods of dealing with bulimia, if I had no food on hand to binge and purge, I would steal lunches from people at work or pick things out of the trash. I was never caught.
The shame, guilt, and disgust with myself was always there, but it took intensive counseling, medication, and working with a specialist on other issues to help me to stop.

Final score:

149points

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Hphizzle 7 months ago

The bathrobe IN the bath water???? This makes me so uncomfortable just looking at it.

156points

Robert T 7 months ago

Stock photo and BP couldn't possibly risk someone seeing some boobage, let alone a nipple!

25points

KinoEel 7 months ago

But I do get eating noodles like that in the bath

7points

Lester the Space Duck 7 months ago

I bet it's AI generated.

4points

Debby Keir 7 months ago

It's eating the noodles in the bath that makes me uncomfortable.

3points

Mimi M 7 months ago

I didn't even notice, but now I'm traumatized.

1point

The Abe 4 months ago

I don't think the target demographic is looking much past her feet...

0points

Jonny Dio 7 months ago

Dealing with bulimia is a serious staff. You've already won.

14points

Sue Denham 7 months ago

Glad you got the help you needed.

9points

Bec 7 months ago

Thank you for sharing. Now we know that we should even have empathy for lunch stealers. You never know what someone else is going through

4points

Meli Wolf 7 months ago

Great that you found a way, even when it was hard and long, to get out of it! I feel you and you are not alone. I was hardcore bulimic myself, in my darkest days puking in plastic bags stored in my closet overnight when i couldn't use the toilet (shared flat) withoout noticing and lots of more disgusting stuff. And yes, been there, too with stealing and even defrauding to get money for food. This wasn't us, it was the evil addiction (that is how i see bulimia, makes to me more sense than calling it eating disorder). But we were stronger in the end!

4points

Sweetie Dahling 7 months ago

Oh yeah I've done the plastic bag thing myself too. And I also think it's more of an addiction. For me it's still there but at least it's not a daily thing anymore. Really hope I can get over it at some point because it's been close to 20 years now and I'm so tired of it...

2points

Violet1854 7 months ago

So proud of you, human. You’ve come so far and you should be proud of yourself!!

3points

Lee Banks 7 months ago

So very gld you made it through! I hope there are people in your life that understand, and keep you on track. Amazing job seeking help.

1point

Kevin the Manager 7 months ago

I'm glad you are finding relief by getting help. The strength you show in admitting you have a problem, and the humility you display in letting others in to help you reveals an inner grit that I truly wish everyone could find. BRAVO!

1point

Watermelon 7 months ago

I really hope that picture is not actually you. There are so many things wrong and it only gets worse the longer you look.

0points

Julia Cargile 7 months ago

I'm proud of you. Happy life.

0points

Doofnuts 7 months ago

Poor Baby!

0points

Riley Quinn 7 months ago

Everyone has a bottom. A depth so low that they finally give up the delusion of control and seek help. You took a huge first step, then preserved with your recovery. You are amazing.

0points

Kraneia The Dancing Dryad 7 months ago

Good for you for getting help 🙂

0points

Robin DJW 7 months ago

Well done, friend.

0points

DeesoSaeed , Kelly Sikkema / Unsplash Report

#14

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My family think I finished the computer science degree, but I dropped out. However I've been working in the sector for about 25 years in a row without any trouble and people (employers and colleagues) seem to think that I'm quite competent. It's not disturbing per se but for my parents it was a big deal that I finished my studies. My dad passed away three years ago without knowing. My mom is 83 and she is still proud of me and I hope things stay the same till she dies.

Final score:

146points

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Phoebe Bean 7 months ago

If the person is successful in the chosen career path, everything is fine. Parents were happy, so mission accomplished.

119points

Hot-Neck-9524 , Towfiqu barbhuiya / Unsplash Report

#15

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets When we first met he made me promise “if I ever gain too much weight you have to tell me to hit the gym.” We laughed about it but that was almost 5 years ago, and now he has gotten pretty overweight and I don’t know if I’m supposed to keep my promise or just let him choose his own path with his weight. I’m still attracted to him and love him more than ever, but I want him to be healthy…

Final score:

125points

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Roger9er 7 months ago

Then say it.

207points

To_know0402 , Josh Willink / Pexels Report

#16

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I never had a gf but told everyone I did have one and that she broke up with me. I was so good at lying about it that I myself believed my lie and somehow I felt really sad and depressed. Than I even remembered memories I never had and afterwards I was like wtf am I doing.

Final score:

124points

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One Linus 7 months ago

We all tell ourselves stories

88points

Spencetron , Simon Berger / Pexels Report

#17

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets As a teen, I caught my parents' house on fire playing with pyrotechnics in the garage and then staged it to look like an electrical fire so i wouldn't get in trouble.

I was regarded as the hero who put the fire out before it consumed the house (I was home alone at the time), but really, I was the cause.

They had all of the electrical redone in the house as a precaution against another fire... I never came clean.

Final score:

120points

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censorshipsucks 7 months ago

did you learn to not f**k around with pyrotechnics as a result, or did you learn how to f**k around with them without causing harm? If so, lesson learnt, no harm done.

90points

_TLDR_Swinton , Kamaji Ogino / Pexels Report

#18

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My best friend is actually his uncle's kid. Apparently he confessed to it on his death bed. The mum won't admit anything and he can't talk to anyone else in the fam about it.

Final score:

114points

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Insomniac 7 months ago

I am really hoping by uncle he's means Dad's brother, not Mum's brother.....

124points

skrozokejpekara , Andrea Piacquadio / Pexels Report

#19

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I have a serious skin picking problem. I can just sit for hours straight in front of a mirror and inspect every pore on my face/chest/hands. It's gotten so bad that i have little scars all over my face. But i literally cant stop doing it.

Final score:

113points

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Insomniac 7 months ago

That's related to anxiety and OCD. There are medications that can help ease the compulsions.

132points

wookieejesus05 , RDNE Stock project / Pexels Report

#20

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets That I haven’t been happy since he asked me for divorce a couple of years ago…. I was ready to follow through and last minute he backtracked, but he never said he was sorry, and I haven’t been able to fully come back from that…. I don’t think I love him the same since

Final score:

109points

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censorshipsucks 7 months ago

Move on.

147points

cory140 , Dmitry Schemelev / Unsplash Report

#21

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I used to not eat and basically starve myself to feel hungry, just to feel.. something, and I had control over that aspect.

Tough home life with being groomed by mom and s**t. No contact for a couple years, and never had any sort of connection or love or emotions for family, it's still hard to feel anything but I have an amazing fiance.

100% classic narcissism abuse.

Final score:

108points

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Judy Reynolds 7 months ago

So glad you are recovering!

55points

Dutch Swimmer Goes Viral For Super Revealing Trunks During 2024 Olympics: “Is This Legal?”

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Thrill-Seeking Diver Jumps Down Extreme Waterslide, Ignoring The Strict Ban For Women

#22

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets Not a single person I've met in the last 10 years knows anything true about me. Not my name, not my profession, not my family life, not where I'm from etc. I've created an entirely fake person, and that's who I am to everyone that I meet now. Even my girlfriend.

poundmypoontyrone , Andrea Piacquadio / Pexels Report

Final score:

104points

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Did I say that out loud? (he/him)cis/het 7 months ago

They've missed out the most important and interesting part. Why?

153points

chantalily , Nadiye Odabaşı / Pexels Report

#23

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My friend’s younger brother took a dump in the litter box as a teen “to see what it was like”. Their mom, an RN, saw it and declared “there is a human SH*T in the litter box!” Whenever anyone brings up anything litter box-related, I think of this.

Final score:

99points

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El Dee 7 months ago

She sure knew her s**t..

107points

KittysOnKeyboarghjfg , Karolina Grabowska / Pexels Report

#24

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I hid the remote control to the living room TV for absolutely no reason at all, and kept it hidden for probably a week. My dad began to have a meltdown by the 6th-7th day, so I just put it under a random blanket on the couch where I knew he would find it. What a weird kid I was.

Final score:

99points

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Mela (qu33nwh0) 7 months ago

Literally control issues...

91points

Woman Put A Water Fountain With A Camera In Her Yard, Here Are 24 Photos Of Regular Visitors (New Pics)

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“Ma’am I Live Here”: Woman Refuses To Back Out Of Driveway, Learns A Lesson The Hard Way

#25

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I once felt overwhelmed with the compulsion to run through a farmer's wheatfield, I felt very naughty.

--Azazel-- , Magdalena Krekels / Pexels Report

Final score:

97points

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mandy the capibara 7 months ago

Hahaha, I see what so did there. How is the dancing progressing, theresa?

77points

Elendil_Stipho , Andrea Piacquadio / Pexels Report

#26

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I'm often emotionless but i'm hiding it through jokes and acts.

Final score:

92points

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Isa Wan 7 months ago

Would be worth to get checked on depression...

77points

Specialist_Intern573 , Danik Prihodko / Pexels Report

#27

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I had a sexual relationship with someone for months, not knowing he have a wife and a newborn baby. We're in our early 20s, I asked him if he has a girlfriend, and he said no, which was technically true because he actually has a wife.

Final score:

89points

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Tabitha 7 months ago

You were lied to, and had no reason to doubt the other person’s honesty at the time, so it’s not your fault. You went into the relationship honestly. The lying SOB you were with did not. As long as you broke it off the millisecond you found out the truth, your conscience should be clear.

100points

PettySquabble , Ben White / Unsplash Report

#28

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets That his mother is an exhausting gossiping windmill of geriatric nonsense.

Final score:

88points

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Dread Pirate Roberts 7 months ago

Love the creative last line of the description 😆

45points

Nerdbaba , Vija Rindo Pratama / Pexels Report

#29

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets Before my dad died, he told me about my mother’s affairs. One with his childhood best friend. I’ll never tell anyone else.

Final score:

82points

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censorshipsucks 7 months ago

...except internet.

79points

50 Of The Most Incredible Shots That Were Submitted To The Comedy Wildlife Photography Awards

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#30

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets My husband and I look so happy on social media but in reality we argue every day and our marriage is falling apart.

No-humor-3387 , Ketut Subiyanto / Pexels Report

Final score:

79points

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Did I say that out loud? (he/him)cis/het 7 months ago

Isn't that lots of couples with a "perfect " life on social media, though? I always take it with a pinch of salt.

133points

RemySmith92 , Clint McKoy / Unsplash Report

#31

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets Sometimes I make loud farting noises late at night to see if I can wake up the whole house. I consider it a victory when I’m asked if I’m feeling ok the next morning. .

Final score:

74points

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Tamra 7 months ago

I kind of want to laugh at this, but as someone who often gets awakened in the middle of the night, this would enrage me beyond belief. Let people sleep, dammit!

117points

tamtam2thousand , Kat Smith / Pexels Report

#32

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets One time I had to go number 2 so bad but our bathroom was occupied. So I went outside and the dog immediately gobbled it up.

Final score:

72points

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One Linus 7 months ago

Then he licked you

62points

icanwalkagain , Karolina Grabowska / Pexels Report

#33

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I brushed my sister‘s toothbrush over a soap bar when we were little because I thought that’s what she did too. sometimes my toothbrush tasted a little soapy. Never talked about it with anyone. First time writing it down.

Final score:

56points

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Dread Pirate Roberts 7 months ago

Could've been worse...a LOT worse.

66points

Woman Moves Out Of Parents' Home After They Asked Her To Give Her Space To Brother, They Freak Out

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#34

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I tell people I can get them exotic meats...hippo steaks, giraffe burgers.

It's all goat.

ChickenNugsBGood , Oliver Sjöström / Pexels Report

Final score:

44points

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lenka 7 months ago

You are an AH. Not because you lie to people about what kind of meat it is, but because you are condoning the demand for these animals. If they think they are getting it from you, they will also try to get it from other even less scrupulous people who will pay poachers for the real deal.

199points

#35

"I Never Came Clean": 35 People Reveal Their Most Disturbing Secrets I want to see a large plane crash in person.

I don't hope for it to happen, I just want to see it if it happens to occur.

Kataclysm , Flickr / Pexels Report

Final score:

22points

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Jonny Dio 7 months ago

This is really disturbing.

104points

Hi there, fellow pandas! As a person (over)educated both in social sciences and literature, I'm most interested in how we connect and behave online (and sometimes in real life too.) The human experience is weird, so I try my best to put its peculiarities in writing. As a person who grew up chronically online, I now try to marry two sides of myself: the one who knows too much about MySpace, and the one who can't settle and needs to see every corner of the world.

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I'm a visual editor at Bored Panda. I kickstart my day with a mug of coffee bigger than my head, ready to tackle Photoshop. I navigate through the digital jungle with finesse, fueled by bamboo breaks and caffeine kicks. When the workday winds down, you might catch me devouring bamboo snacks while binging on the latest TV show, gaming or I could be out in nature, soaking up the tranquility and communing with my inner panda.

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What do you think ?

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Sedona 7 months ago

I wish people on BP would understand that content like this is mostly taken from reddit so writing OP heartfelt comments does nothing.

27points

mandy the capibara 7 months ago

I'm quite sure they know. People just want to share feelings, even if they know the poster probably doesn't read it. it's a sign of empathy. Why does ot bother you that much?

82points

censorshipsucks 7 months ago

yep but maybe the BP readers have the same mental issues, and, when reading the heartfelt comments, gain some condolences?

18points

John Harrison 7 months ago

They understand that. They're just sharing their thoughts. How do you not understand THAT?

14points

Josephine Blogs 7 months ago

I came straight to the comments to say this. If people really want to reply to the OP, just hop over to Reddit. If they want to share their thought and feeling with fellow BPs, just address the crowd. 🥰

4points

35 cabbages in a trenchcoat 4 months ago

It drives me crazy.

1point

Wendy Me 7 months ago

The captions aren't appearing. I'm thinking this is a BP problem??

16points

Meep-Meep 7 months ago

Yeah for me it gives the first 10-ish words then cuts off

12points

Rose-Ann Gahan 7 months ago

I was just coming here to say this. Past week or so I can't see full articles.

2points

V Martinez 7 months ago

There are enough of us here with this same issue to start a club, or make our own post. Lol!

0points

shankShaw deReemer 7 months ago

I can see them up to the "meat" of the disturbing fact. Weird.

0points

Ranger Kanootsen 7 months ago

My secret is that I have been alone for so many years that now, since I have a boyfriend, I don't know what to do. I am FREAKING OUT and I am scared that if I share my awful memories that he'll realise I'm just a pathetic kicked puppy.

12points

UpupaEpops 7 months ago

You are absolutely not. I can't give much advice on how to talk about a traumatic past with a partner as I haven't dated 2017. Due to how abusive that relationship was. I just can't bring myself to open up to anyone. But I don't think either of us are pathetic for it. And kicked puppies can turn into the coolest dogs too. Maybe don't tell him everything at once, but giving bits of information here and there will help him understand you better.

18points

Squirrelly Panda 7 months ago

Ranger Kanootsen, I know you are witty and intelligent, your comments always add something to the dialog. Because of your obvious intelligence, I assume you have considered seeing a psychologist or talk therapist, but if you haven't considered it, or are reluctant for what ever reason, please consider it. Talking about it with a trained professional in a safe place may help you to to understand and accept what you need to so you can move forward in a healthy way. Please don't allow your past to overshadow the good in your now. A therapist might even be able to help you with if, and, if so, how you tell your boyfriend about your past. As I said, you may have already considered all this and much more. I just want to see you happy in your now and at peace with your past so you can work on making a better future that includes all the good of now.

5points

Connor 5 months ago

no worries if you open up he will love you even more

0points

Tyranamar 7 months ago

My app is not working. All I can see is one line

4points

Ada Hunter 7 months ago

i have too many of these. my main one is i’ve never told anyone how long my mental health has been bad. i wanted to not be alive since i was like 5 or 6. my whole childhood, before i got diagnosed with depression, my main thought was i wanted to unalive to see if anyone would actually care. i had a hard childhood but not because of my family or my environment, but because of myself.

4points

Luna Ulla Cieslak 7 months ago

I don't know you, Ada Hunter, but I hear you and I care about you! I am happy that you are here and reaching out! You are loved, Ada!

1point

bbfa 7 months ago (edited)

My secret is that I am a woman who had to train herself to like babies. They are smelly, loud, destroy your freedom and I couldn't imagine wiping someone's sh*t. But, for years I have coerced myself to feel empathetic feelings when I see or hold one. Now I adore seeing and cuddling them. You can learn empathy and love, it's possible. I still won't change diapers though, and am glad I am child free. I enjoy my nephews and give them back..

3points

John Dilligaf 7 months ago

I got a good job that required me to relocate half the country away from my extended family. I quit that job, but haven't told anyone in my family because they'd immediately expect me to move "back home".

3points

R Dennis 7 months ago

I don't care... all my disturbing secrets and the ones I've collected die with me... I will not share.

2points

John Harrison 7 months ago (edited)

My Disturbing Secret That I Wouldn't Even Tell My Partner is that I pronounce "GIF" with a soft "G".

2points

Seonag Udell 7 months ago

When memes first came out I thought they were pronounced me me's, I still get the micky taken out of me by the only two people who know, my husband and little sister. I was in my early 30s by the way.

4points

Buz Droopy 7 months ago

you're a monster

1point

Mike F 7 months ago

Off with your head!

0points

brittany 7 months ago

i lived with my best friend after college. i went to do my laundry after work. she told me she would be working late and said if my sheets werent done by bed time i could just nap in her bed till they dried. i took her up on the offer and felt something scratch against my leg. i found a dead flattened withered mouse in her bed. there was a very defined stain in her sheets from where it had been laying there for who knows how long. we usually did our own laundry so id never actually seen her do her sheets. now im wondering if she EVER did them. i disposed of the critter and never ever told her. and no we did not have a cat so it definitely wasnt a 'gift' from a beloved pet

1point

brittany 7 months ago

also yes i washed her sheets and scrubbed the bedding down

1point

Olli Hawk 7 months ago

I lie about my own name so often that sometimes I literally forget my own name😭

0points

Olli Hawk 7 months ago

I made a fake account on instagram because if I ever wanna point something out that might be offensive, I switch to that account to say it (only if it absolutely needs to be said)

0points

Esme J. 7 months ago

There’s a malicious woman that reads bored panda. She has said nasty things to my two nieces and nephew and has harassed other children in their building and block. Shes is racist against Asians and Black People. Shes bitterly single, and has been unemployed for over a year. She dresses terrible and has pathetic taste in music.

0points

Carol Bovee 7 months ago

Bp has been messed up for days. Now we don't have complete captions.

0points

Annabel Again 7 months ago

Every single one of the posts in this article cuts off after about the first sentence it is so maddening I don't know what is happening has happened, or will happen to any of these people! BP, please fix it!!!

0points

Veronica Monell 7 months ago

This page isn't loading for me... #1 days function in parentheses but nothing else lol

0points

Steve Hall 7 months ago

I noticed that the farther down this list you read the fewer points the posts have.

0points

carne asada 7 months ago

i want a zombie apocalypse to happen

0points

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Sedona 7 months ago

I wish people on BP would understand that content like this is mostly taken from reddit so writing OP heartfelt comments does nothing.

27points

mandy the capibara 7 months ago

I'm quite sure they know. People just want to share feelings, even if they know the poster probably doesn't read it. it's a sign of empathy. Why does ot bother you that much?

82points

censorshipsucks 7 months ago

yep but maybe the BP readers have the same mental issues, and, when reading the heartfelt comments, gain some condolences?

18points

John Harrison 7 months ago

They understand that. They're just sharing their thoughts. How do you not understand THAT?

14points

Josephine Blogs 7 months ago

4points

35 cabbages in a trenchcoat 4 months ago

It drives me crazy.

1point

Wendy Me 7 months ago

The captions aren't appearing. I'm thinking this is a BP problem??

16points

Meep-Meep 7 months ago

Yeah for me it gives the first 10-ish words then cuts off

12points

Rose-Ann Gahan 7 months ago

I was just coming here to say this. Past week or so I can't see full articles.

2points

V Martinez 7 months ago

There are enough of us here with this same issue to start a club, or make our own post. Lol!

0points

shankShaw deReemer 7 months ago

I can see them up to the "meat" of the disturbing fact. Weird.

0points

Ranger Kanootsen 7 months ago

12points

UpupaEpops 7 months ago

18points

Squirrelly Panda 7 months ago

5points

Connor 5 months ago

no worries if you open up he will love you even more

0points

Tyranamar 7 months ago

My app is not working. All I can see is one line

4points

Ada Hunter 7 months ago

4points

Luna Ulla Cieslak 7 months ago

I don't know you, Ada Hunter, but I hear you and I care about you! I am happy that you are here and reaching out! You are loved, Ada!

1point

bbfa 7 months ago (edited)

3points

John Dilligaf 7 months ago

3points

R Dennis 7 months ago

I don't care... all my disturbing secrets and the ones I've collected die with me... I will not share.

2points

John Harrison 7 months ago (edited)

My Disturbing Secret That I Wouldn't Even Tell My Partner is that I pronounce "GIF" with a soft "G".

2points

Seonag Udell 7 months ago

4points

Buz Droopy 7 months ago

you're a monster

1point

Mike F 7 months ago

Off with your head!

0points

brittany 7 months ago

1point

brittany 7 months ago

also yes i washed her sheets and scrubbed the bedding down

1point