I reached out for professional help 3 years ago when it became too hard for me to hide my problems and handle them. Now, I see a psychiatrist regularly and have medication to take daily. My treatment changed a lot in the last 3 years because finding the right medication can take a long time. However, it's not useless. Even though many told me they would have lost hope and given up. It's very hard to stay patient when in pain but eventually I saw an improvement.

Drawing aside, I try to find comfort in music, writing down my thoughts and talking to my friend. The latter helps a lot.To me, staying alone is the worst way to deal with these things.

Also, hearing "just be positive" or other random advice (please, stop with the mediation) is not helpful at all. It depresses me even more. I feel guilty because that doesn't work for me.

I would also like to add that everyone experiences depression and anxiety in different ways, and there is no one magic solution. Everyone's path to recovery is different.