Hun, don't post your age or anything personal. There's a lot of creeps it there. Having said that, I second the advice of the others here - do find an adult you can trust. You'll be okay. :)

Get off the internet my sweet summer child. But also 100% if you need to escape your circumstances please go to a teacher. You deserve security and happiness.

If you need help please go to your teachers or the police there are adults out there you can not trust.

You sound like me Antonia. I wish I had spoken to my teacher when she asked what was happening in my life. I just said I'm fine. Just share things with a reliable adult whatever you are feeling even something small to you. Please message back if you need to. (42 YO female, mum)

Delete all your real-name social media accounts. Right now! It's toxic, and all the people you are seeing there are just fakes, showing just the A-side of their every-days. Also, please, never ever say your age and gender on forums till you are so young. Choose a neutral user name. If you have insecurities, the worst place to ask about them, is the internet. You may find nice people, and here on BP are mostly normal people, than trolls. But even BP is not a safe place for 12 year old girl. Because we, who are answering you, we want you the best and to succeed , but it's the internet, where every creep alive can see your posts. Find your safe place IRL, hopefully within your family, or with trustworthy adults in your life.

I wish people would stop talking about Antonia as if she is a little kid. I agree, she should go to an adult if there is a problem, and shouldn't post her age. But she is not a "child", she is almost a teenager and she's definitely old enough to be on the internet.

I'm 65 and still feel like running

Hunny if your parents are not great parents you need to learn early to always look out for yourself if they won't do it for u. That's most important listen to yourself and be selfish! Noone else is going to do it for you sorry you have to learn this lesson so early on but even parents with good intention can really mess up. Almost everyone messes up their child some way or another. I always say I love my parents but I most def don't like them. You got this! Be kind but be selfish and take care of YOU. Edit to add: I'm in my 30s and only just recently started putting myself first instead of catering to crazy parents wish I had someone to tell me earlier in life that the only person u will ever truly have is yourself.