It has always been simply an automatic thing to do, and I didn't even realize how apparently with passing years I formed "my style" of self-expression this way. The whole "Teabag Cartoon" page was kinda (accidentally?) started because I built a behavioral pattern of making silly animal drawings for a person I liked and once our ways parted I still wanted to keep on doing that same thing, so... I just turned to the internet. I started with drawing mostly wholesome memes, later puns, or whatever I assumed would most likely be successful on the internet because I noticed that people liked to share emotions so I just delivered what was wanted - little drawn jokes to entertain others, and this way I eventually realized I may even be able to use the limited abilities I had as an autistic teen and turn them into a real career.

So motivation from knowing that combined with social attention confirming I was doing a good job kept me going and to this day I am still surprised yet endlessly grateful for how my little internet safe space grew. Someone may say it's sad, but honestly, it's probably the most personal connection I have with this world where I don't understand people. While on my art/meme pages, I can just organize silly creatures and feel able to finally interact with other people in a way that feels natural. Through media that I can control and daily routine of making one post per day.I don't consider it a job to create... It's literally the same activity as talking to someone, if not even easier when I can do it through drawings.

So... I don't know how I would explain my "creative process". I'm a huge daydreamer and you can just give me a single word, or I can see a random object outside on a walk, and with enough time my thoughts will always spiral around it and bounce to new and new more associations - so I can either turn it into an existential essay or turn it into a joke! Or multiple jokes - in an organized chain. The most common boundary I faced was usually just the fact that Instagram offered me 10 slots, so I just adjusted the drawing collections based on available options. I did this quite naturally for years because it was entertaining when there were clear rules - algorithms and seeing people's feedback.

Of course, I also did get a lot of hate messages, mostly when I was making LGBTQ+ puns (which to be honest are probably one of the main reasons the page even gained attention at the beginning) but like... it's my space. I decided what I wanna put there and carry it for myself, mostly because I love to organize concepts in my mind into drawings. And here we are today…

For years of trying to hide behind and through my creations… (whether it being comics or my other sketches and writings that don't get as much attention as the cartoon ones, but I still love making them) I somehow managed to be even more seen exactly because of them. Life is a funny paradox and I just wish people could find ways to self-express in ways that bring joy and magic instead of hating each other. At the end of the day, we are all just doing our own personal best and at the same time, none of us know exactly what is even going on.

Okay, I should stop rambling now, thank you for reading and if you got this far I will just say that I hope you have a lovely or at least manageable day and I'll be on my way now.