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On April 20th, 2015 I ended up in the psych unit after an overdose – and it wasn’t the first time. I had been to treatment many times and failed to stay sober after every discharge.
On that last run I hit a physical, emotional, and spiritual bottom that I had not yet experienced. Sitting in that white room one more time with nowhere to go allowed me to have a moment of clarity that jump started my recovery. On April 22nd, I was on a plane to try one last time to get sober. I was able to go back to treatment and finally utilize the help that I needed – and I’ve been sober ever since (with a lot of help and a lot of action on a daily basis)!
When I got sober, I had no idea who I was without drugs and alcohol – what I liked to do, what I liked to watch – I didn’t even really know how to talk to people, I had been loaded for so long. I had never had to be present for my experience (and didn’t remember most of the experiences that I had, anyway).
Over the last few years, I’ve discovered the things I enjoy and the things which spiritually connect me. One of those things I discovered was portrait drawing! It has become a form of meditation for me, which has been a valuable tool in keeping me sober.
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Amy Begun Saab 6 years ago
You have incredible talent. You see & feel too much, born sensitive to everything. It's overwhelming...as an artist myself, i think you're like me. To drown out all the chaos that overwhelms you, you have to use drugs or drink. That sensitivity is a gift & a curse. Your art reveals how well you see. I hope you keep working on your art, the more you produce the better you will feel. Of course i am probably wrong...and being a jerk for my assumptions. Regardless, you have a gift, do not waste it. -amy
Amy Begun Saab 6 years ago
You have incredible talent. You see & feel too much, born sensitive to everything. It's overwhelming...as an artist myself, i think you're like me. To drown out all the chaos that overwhelms you, you have to use drugs or drink. That sensitivity is a gift & a curse. Your art reveals how well you see. I hope you keep working on your art, the more you produce the better you will feel. Of course i am probably wrong...and being a jerk for my assumptions. Regardless, you have a gift, do not waste it. -amy
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