Yes, this. I think depression is still largely misunderstood. Same with suicidal urges; it doesn't necessarily mean you want to actually unalive yourself, just that you don't want to live most of the time. You can still have things to live for, but it doesn't stop the feeling of wanting to no longer be alive.

PREACH 3 owls in a coat everyone thinks im fine because i laugh a lot and dismiss me when i say "actually im not" if i do and if im quiet im accused of being dramatic and aloof.

Bingo!

That's just how it feels

TIL, thanks Delta!

PREACH no emotions just anger and not even that most of the time im so burnt out what the f**k

"when I caught myself looking for reasons to kill myself" oh god help i feel called out (im not gonna kms i promise) i do this cause sometimes i just dont want to have to put up with this s**t and im gonna get bored with everything and i know im not gonna do it. but this is coming from a hormonal teenager so just because im not getting better anytime soon doesnt mean u wont :)

Me too. Feel like there is a glass wall between me and the rest of the world. People are always surprised when I deal with bad news so well. That's because all my emotions are depressed... got told I needed an operation and the surgeon was surprised by how calm I was. Easy with depression. People muddle it, sometimes, with anxiety (and you can have both). My sister has anxiety and cries a lot.

Suicide doesn't erase the pain, it only passes it on. There are other ways, don't give up, there is always someone who loves you. Life isn't all highs, but it won't be lows forever

Please don’t. Find another way, don’t give up.

I'm sorry. It's really hard sometimes. There are times when it's better. I was way down in the valley of depression for a few years and almost ended it so many times. I'm glad I didn't. I'm not all right but I'm not in the valley now and there are things I enjoy. I'm so sorry that you're in that valley now. Please hold on because you will climb out some day. Please get help.

please get therapy, or find someone to talk to. Psychiatrists can help as well. your pfp is so beautiful. Please, I hope you change your mind. I understand how you're thinking and suicide only passes on the pain to someone else. I believe in you ❤️

Please don't. I'm 78, almost 79, and half my life ago the thought of living this long was dreadful to me. How can I get through all the years ahead? I didn't do anything to stop life because I have a family and I couldn't bear the thought of how much I would hurt them. I got help, tried different meds till one helped most with the least negative effects. I'm not cured but now I'm closer to a natural ending I wish I had more time to do things I'd like to do before I go. Please don't give up. Things can get better. If doing nothing isn't helping try something else. Take the chance. Xxx

Please don't!! Upvote if you agree!! If you agree then you are people who care for this person!

No you're not, YOU are not going to kill you. It's not YOU that wants to kill you. It's the demon of depression that wants you dead. A little Elf Conscious wants to live, and to feel joy, and to bring joy to others. The depression is what wants to kill you. I have just come out of a bout of relentless depression myself, so I know that depression is convincing and manipulative. It's all your mind can hear, until you think it is actually you talking. But it's a liar. You don't want to die, you just desperately want to be free of depression. There are ways to do that, that don't require dying. I will pray for you, the real you, that you are blessed with life in its truely joyful abundant fullness. As a fellow fighter of the demon I say be strong little elf, and Lollipop Girl, and everyone else who understands too deeply what it means to be depressed. You don't need to win today, you just need to survive long enough to get stronger, and stronger, until you can win back your freedom.

Elf Conscious, please reconsider. I am here for you as well as these other pandas. Do you want to talk about anything?

Same

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