When my gorgeous girl cat of 18 years died, I grieved more than for my father.

And still most people who have never experienced it think that it's just "being sad". Nope. I wish I would have felt anything like being sad when I was clinically depressed... at least it would have been something else than this emptiness... I was more brokkoli than human.

When I first met my wife I was seriously alarmed at the pain she went through every month. Never realised it could be so crippling. I almost called an ambulance on one occasion.

This is sometimes referred to as "ADHD paralysis" which may not be a perfect term but is easier for neurotypicals to understand.

Yeah, one of the worst part of depression is that you don't even feel love for your most loved ones anymore. You know you love them, but you don't feel anything but emptiness.

Oh eww, I know that feeling. Or you stand up and it happens, it’s so ick 😣

And it can be loud to you while no one else hears it. I don't want to be triggered by lip-smacking and it is certainly far beyond a little annoyance. Not something I can 'just ignore.'

I've been under a couple times and it is not like sleeping at all. When sleeping you have a sense of time, with anesthesia you go out and then you come back in what feels like it could be a blink even though it was hours - absolutely no sense of time.

Oh hello other me! I think the weirdest part of this type of pain is how insidious it can be. When the back pain and breathing problems are chronic like mine, you start to acclimate to the pain. But there really is no acclimating to not breathing enough. It just steals your brain from you.

I don't have or want children, but the pure joy in a young child's laughter is something else.

Horrible, traumatic losses are like this. There are times I wish there was some sort of physical sign you would get so that others could understand how bad things are, but I guess that is evolution keeping our enemies from knowing how vulnerable we are at the moment.

The amalgamation of hurt, rage, and betrayal is overwhelming.

I'm just a bathroom and car singer, but I do love the feeling of it

Oh heavens at 17? That must have been extremely devastating! I‘ve lost my first child shortly before her due date and I think I will forever be gratefull, that she died like that and has not lived to be any age within her childhood or teen years. That would have broken me.

And the other way round with loss of a child. No parent should outlive their child

I had sleep paralysis and it truly terrified me. Not long after I watched a programme about it, now I just think oh it's that again.

And it doesn't go away just because they grow up either.

eughhh *shudders* that feeling when it's coming out though it feels like getting that one spaghetti in the back of your throat when you ate too much 🤢

But I am sure you did your very best!

I experienced these for the first time a few days ago, after my pharmacy screwed up my Rx and I ran out prematurely. Good thing I knew what they knew what they are. Mine lasted maybe five seconds each, but that five seconds is weird and disconcerting.

It' sounds like a terrible feeling. Try talking it through with a therapist? May be a lot of hurt and pain mixed in there.

I felt true "I hope they burn in hell for all eternity" hate for the first time last year. Genuine "I could watch you die a horrible death and be ok with it" hate. My mother gave me a set period of time that I was allowed to feel it. It sounds strange, but it was fantastic advice. I allowed myself to feel it fully, to talk about it, to wallow in it for that set period of time and then I put it away. It still rears it's head but not like that initial time.

This is dangerous

This is how I feel about my ex - even after 2 years.

I totally know it's a cliche but that kind of hate does nothing to hurt the other person. It can do extreme damage to you though.

Been there.

For most of us it's a rare and, hopefully, fleeting feeling..

I'd like that for anyone involved in Factory farming and puppy mills.

I had my best friend sleep with my fiance/daughters mother. Me and this kid spent everyday together. We were truly close. He married mt ex and had another daughter with her. After about 13 years (give or take) of pure hate for this man. He died in a car accident, that hate turned into extreme sadness. It was 100% unexplainable and unexpected. Just saying the hate you feel today can turn into sadness in the blink of an eye and tou live with the fact that you wished terrible things on this person. Just what I went through. You do you. Hope you can forgive yourself and this person enough to release the hate before its too late. Good luck.

I didn't realize that I hadn't truly experienced hate until I did. Sounds weird to say it that way, but a lot of people describe what they feel as hate and it's actually anger and/or indifference. I went through a lot of therapy before I came to the realization that feeling that true hatred was ok as long as it's not affecting your daily life by dwelling on it every second, letting it seep into other issues, or acting on it like revenge. Feeling hatred is valid, you are reacting to something/someone that has exhibited truly villainous actions. As long as you don't let it control you, just let the feeling do it's job.

The hate I felt when my husband got someone else pregnant, was a horrible stabbing heat that robbed me of sleep and burned in my chest like a hot poker. I wanted claws to strike out and teeth to bite and maim. Wanted both of then to suffer a thousand deaths. I didn't feel human at all. It was scary.

My EX not for anything he did to me but my kids. How I pretty much hope his life is torturous. That every part of his existence is slow and painful.

Remember, it takes more energy to hate someone. Physically, mentally and emotionally. The sad part about it is, the receiver of that hate, is probably paying you no thought at all. I'm assuming your ex friend is a narci, and screwed you over pretty bad. I've been there. Its hard, but the best thing you can do for you, and them... Is just act like they don't exist. You never met them. It's more than likely, they enjoy seeing you miserable. Even tho its hard for you right now, don't give them the satisfaction. You can do it ❤️

I have felt that, though only briefly. It's a fire that blackens everything, a pit that swallows everything, it leaves a nasty "taste" on everything, it's all-consuming. In my case, I take a few days and fan it higher and higher until it runs out of fuel; then I begin analyzing the feeling and my reaction to it. I usually find that I'm actually "just" disappointed in them and my hate turns (mostly) to pity. But it's still a horrible feeling while it's there.

And it's always there, like mild heartburn. You can often ignore it or deal with the bag of it, but then something triggers it again and it's full in all you can think about.

I had that feeling once: pure rage towards someone. Same as the OP describes. It's very powerful and dangerous. It makes you understand many things about humanity, and also that it takes a lot of self control not to let it control you. I was lucky that the person causing my rage wasn't there. I knew I needed to let it out of my body, so I called my best friend, told her the situation and asked her to let me let it out. I spent 30 minutes swearing, crying angrily, and wishing all sort of bad things to the person my rage was focused on. Sometimes my friend joined my venting and added some swearing material 🤣. Afterwards I felt better and that was it. I was left with a tolerable anger that went down with time. I have never felt such extreme feeling before. I hope you never do. If you do, please don't act. Let it out in a non-harming way.

Hate will eat you alive inside, if you are a christian, talk to God he can help, been there too, hope you find peace.

Don't let it become a grudge. I liken a grudge to a small, vicious animal with sharp teeth and claws, and if you clutch it, it will tear you up. Talk to someone about this.

The only time I have felt genuine hatred was and is when I see Cheeto man. I have to change the channel or read something else. Can't let that rent space in my head Otherwise, I'm good.

Yep. Twice off the top of my head, ex and father. Thank God it passed

The thing about holding on to hate is that it hurts you. The feelings you are feeling do not hurt the other person. Let it go. No one says you have to forget, or even like this person, but the world is big enough for you both.

Not to mock your feelings (on the contrary, I know the feeling), but listen to the song Loud & Clear from The Cranberries. It's a good one. ("I hope that you never get the things you wanted to, now I cast the spell on you, complicate your life (complicate your life!). Hope you get a puncture everywhere you ever drive, hope the sun beats down on you and skin yourself alive (skin yourself alive!)")

What many of the comments here say, seek help from a mental wellness counselor, hate like that is over the line and is one step away from the point of no return, please seek help, you recognize its wrong but there will be a point you don't and then we'll see you on the news. Please sell help.

It might be because I've just read the pie post, but that curtain doesn't half look like rhubarb

Why am i crying?

You can be alone but not lonely and you can be with people and feel lonely..

Memories you get if you smell some particular smell.

It's crazy. It's amazing. It's scary. It's wonderful. It's painful. It's exhausting. It's life changing. (Currently pregnant for the third time. 8th month. I still try to process all the feelings every day)

Yup. Borderline Personality Disorder here. I hate it

That's got to be incredible, and so affirming. Hard to duplicate that with self-affirmation.

Firstly, well done!! To keep working through this is so incredibly draining, you're doing amazingly! I feel this! It's a very hard one to explain, I've suffered with hypoglycemia for years to the point of blacking out, the only way I can describe it is like a dream state world where you're detached from everything but still there with the feeling of being very drunk movement, speech and brain functionality wise but not. Feeling trapped by it all. Unfortunately this is a daily/weekly occurrence my end and the feeling never changes. My heart goes out there to all you other type 1's! ❤️

Literally my default state. It's like an out of body experience, you feel disconnected from everything and function like you're on autopilot, your vision goes hazy, there's emotional numbness and memory lapses. That mixed with depression. It's not a great feeling.

True story- I was in a coma nearly twenty years ago ( got badly beaten up outside a nightclub) and from what I remember was that I thought i was on a ship- like a roman ship where you have to row, and that the ship was rocking.... I later found out when i recovered, that the reason I thought I was on a ship, was in fact, the intensive care bed where I was laying, had air cushions that rocked you, to prevent bed sores....

ok i hope I will never ever ever ever have to experience this