I had a childhood trauma and my psychiatrist says that’s the reason I have hallucinations.

When I got diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia, I thought my friends should know so I told them. Although my close friends were okay with it, I had many people leave me because ”people with schizophrenia are often serial killers due to voices telling them to murder”.

Many people from my school also believe those lies. I wish more people knew about this illness because not all of us are “evil”.

I was devastated because of it and I decided to draw my hallucinations. I want to share some with you because it might help people understand this mental illness better. As you scroll down, you’ll see some of my drawings during or after an episode. 

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I often feel as if I’m being eaten alive by paranoia and my voices but I learned to cope with it

This is a self portrait I drew when I could barely funcion.

I give my voices personalities and often draw them as human beings

This helps me visualise them and cope with them. This way I learned not to hate them, but to love them for the inspiration I get from them. For example, this is Charles.

Art helped me so much that I actually always draw myself with one of these voices

And this is another self portrait I did based on the game “Don’t Starve”.
I drew myself and Charles as the little ghost who follows me around.

I try to capture the feeling of having too many voices scream at you and talk all at once

Most of my art during an episode is characterised by messy lines and screaming

This was one of my self portraits and it was supposed to capture the visual hallucination I had when I looked in the mirror

Screaming, screaming, screaming

Visual hallucinations don’t last long in my case but they are terrifying

Everyone has their way of going through stressful situations. Art is my way. I am grateful to have friends and girlfriend who support me and help me during episodes. I hope you understand what I am getting through almost every day.

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