I'm aware this isn't the way that BP is meant to be used, and I'll delete this if needed. Major disclaimers/warnings for disordered eating/weight talk.

For the past few months, I have been skipping meals and counting calories, and weighing myself nearly daily. As of right now, I am solidly certain I am underweight. The last time I was able to check, I was around 42 kilograms (92 pounds). I have cried over consuming too much, water fasted (not consistently, but I tried my damned best), and exercised until I couldn't breathe. I guess the first question is if this is even worth doing anything over. It just seems like a huge fuss over something that has only lasted a few months so far.

Additionally, if this is something I do end up telling a professional, my mother is sure to find out, which is... horrible for her mental health, to say the least. But as for my father, well, I don't even know what to do about him. I don't know what he may say or do to me. I don't want to think about it.

If context helps, I am quite young (minor), so there are quite a lot of things I can't do about it. I don't live in America or any Western countries, either.

If anyone bothers to answer, or even reads this, thank you. It's greatly appreciated. I hope everyone reading this has a good day, or at least one with less pain than other days. Sending love to all.