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Hey Pandas I Know That Many Of You Are Suffering In Some Way So Do You Need Help?
Many people in today’s world are facing issues in some form or another and i really want to help and try to comfort you all. Share your problems in here and we all will try to give some sympathy.
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really ? do you mean it? it's gonna be hard to explain Ah omg I realise I can't talk and I can't remember a lifetime I'm sorry I don't want to sound like I'm complaining I don't poeople don't like hearing other people's problems there's my father who's abusing me and threatening to commit me to an asylum if I tell on him or if someone finds out I mean it's mean years and no one's ever done anything against it and like I said it would be worse for me but it's hard to hide abuse, scars I mean, I have lots of them burn mark slash marks chemical marks.. on my back legs arms shoulder.. hiding these's gotta be hard especially in summer when I still have to have a sweater and full pants on even if people look at me weird.. he's been the only parent raising me he did as he wanted he rose me saying I was worthless and so on so I w have no confidence and I realise around now all that he's done all that I can't do now because of that like trust someone or have confidence in me or stop apologising or trying to be discret and hide my problems as a kid I didn't think being "raised" like this would change my personnality or change me for life but I realise now what I can't do like I can never love someone because I would feel like I am not worthy like I'm perpetualy being judged and I have to watch my every move and word (not not to be beaten but not to be hated again) I couldn't be asleep with someone it would be too scary I couldn't fall asleep and I would just be too scared to do it I have tried not to be shy and not to keep on talking donwn on myself but " you only talk ill of yourself you don't show off you don't talk about your life to others it annoys them they don't care about you " that's how I've been raised and I TRIED not to be shy but I physically can't now I just realised He did say no one could love me anyways and he's right he's intelligent I mean very intelligent after all and with those scars now..there's less hope than ever he owns me, and the worst ever would be if he did succeed in having me committed I mean he can do it anytime he would want like he said he just has to tell all the scars I have I did to myself like anyone would believe I would want to be ugly irreversibly for life clearly they have never been burnt by fire hot metals or chemicals not to even imagine how painful it is how excruciating it was.. but he'd sell them he's the adult after and I'm te girl he and his good reputation would be the one to be believed so as long as I keep on showing I can be useful to him and guess what he wants he'll keep me with him and won't commit me__ yet__ it's borrowed time really I'm gonna have to spend christmas with him., being afraid of the fire place.. I would rather spend christmas on boredpanda where there are good people, well, there's at least one, which is better than here ^^ thank you Chinmayee Kalghatgi
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RandomBeing 4 years ago
I think there are also places that will like hide you from your abuser and help you out (a few years ago I helped a place that did that for women and their kids who needed to hide from domestic abusers). Not to mention idk how successful he could be if he could actually send you to an asylum. Like you said you have a lot of scars so it's not like it would be easy to dismiss those as proof of abuse. The problem is would be what he does to you if you do try to seek help.
Kamiru (Submission author) 4 years ago
'it would be easy to dismiss those as proof of abuse' IF HE SAYS I'M CRAZY AND I DID IT !! please listen to me; THIS is what he'll do to me if I try to seek help ____ again I am so sorry I am not disregarding your help__I'm scared I don't want to end up..like this
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Anonymousplease 4 years ago
That's a lot to go through, and nobody should have to deal with that, especially when you are young. I really hope that it gets better for you and that you can find people who love and support you. You deserve an amazing life, and it's a terrible thing that it can be taken away from you. I can't even imagine how hard it is. I don't know if you are religious, but I'm praying for you. I hope it gets better❤
Kamiru (Submission author) 4 years ago
thank you for saying I don't desevre this. I forgot to mention but I didn't do anything wrong (exept maybe not being his biological child and even that is not sure I unfortunately think he IS my father and yeah he's got to know too, I don't know what I did I'm trying to think what I could have done wrong so he would be like that but, I did everything he wanted ---- I am not religous I can't believe there is a god; but I take your prayers for their good intent:) just this you are wellmeaning that a lot and a lot different from here; thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou
Load More Replies... Chinmayee Kalghatgi 4 years ago
I’m really sorry for you. You seem to be going through a really tough time and i can only relate from a very mild level which is not anywhere close to your level. It’s not a very nice feeling where you always feel worthless and have to hide the pain outside wearing a fake smile that nobody can see through. You are a very brave person posting your feelings on the internet so kudos to you :). You will get a very strong support group in this community who will raise your confidence even higher tha it ever was. Someday you will get the courage to nope out of the toxic relationship with your father. It will take time and will be energy intensive but you will get through this. You will look back and smile about the fact that you became even more stronger and that you had the guts to escape 😊
Kamiru (Submission author) 4 years ago
it's not a question of courage to "nope" out of this relationship it's not as if I'm staying on purpose it's not my fault! if I can't leave it's not because I'm a coward without courage ; I wrote it : it's because if I try to get away from him I'LL COMMIT ME ; he swore. --that's the burn he gave me last time I "tried to escape" ! 1097535661...cdc17b.jpg 
Kristi Savage Cook 4 years ago
Please know - we ALL have scars. Most are internal, hidden, scary. Yet, we CAN be loved, appreciated and needed. you will grow/age enough to be a legal adult. THAT'S when your life begins. He is toxic sludge and needs to be forgotten - have hope today that you'll be free from him one day. Start imagining what life CAN be like and then start living it in baby steps. He's conditioned you to believe only him - whatever he says to you or about you is not reality. Reality is different for everyone and it changes imperceptibly (or all at once!) - YOUR reality needs to be different from HIS reality or you will lose the game of life. He is not your (or a) "father" because of what you say. "Fathers" should love you out loud. Should clear the tears, not cause them. Should want you to be safe, happy and healthy. Leave when you can and (figuratively) burn that house down.
Kamiru (Submission author) 3 years ago
I will leave when or/ if I can thank you so much thank you for saying in a different reality I could be loved (I know what you mean it's really nice). he's not my father?what is he then??well thank you for your support and thank you for reading me when I talk. thankyouthankyou so much ❤
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Michael Murray 4 years ago
I think this situation is a desperate cry for help. I believe there are protective organizations that will step in to rescue this person and will have them protected from further abuse. This person MUST let child protection services in their area know the situation with emphasis on fears of revenge or reprisals from the offender. The abused party must reach out to the local County Child Protection Services and additionally the local police and District Attorney's Office. Child Protection Services is the best bet. They work fast and protect those being abused. No one deserves to be treated like that. The abuser's threats will be found to be false and won't happen once Child Protective Services are involved. My heart goes out to you and I understand as I was in that same situation but acted and life improved soooo much. Please act now. The abuse must stop. The abuser has no real care or love for you. They will never change. Mine never did. It's hard. You can do this.
Chin-sun Ming 3 years ago
Well my mother is toxic, brother has no rules to follow, not aloud to see the people that feel more like my family then my actual family, am the only one that does chores despite being the youngest, (isn’t it syerotipical for that to be the oldest?) and have a messed up sleep schedule, not to mention I don’t like socializing much but my mother makes me and over all, I just am hating life but I won’t give up on it cause I get my happiness at moments
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The-weirdo-in-the-back 3 years ago
When i was born my blood dad lets call him sperm donor abandon me and my mom on the streets i grew up a shy and quiet kid my mom had many boyfriends some would beat me without my mother knowing one of them would throw me across the floor cussing me out i was always quiet cause i felt if i said the wrong thing i felt like i would get beat more so i stayed quiet. when it was my birthday i was turning 9 one of my 18 or 19 year old cousin said he had a present for me in the bedroom he shuts the door behind me and rapes me after i exited the room i hid every time he would enter a room i hid when he would come by i would run and hide. i felt so scared. but there was one person that helped comfort me it was my grandpa he wiped all my tears then the most tragic day arrive i was moving away from him with my abusive moms boyfriend and her i was crying when we moved . shortly after we came back because my mom broke up with him i was the first to enter the kitchen noticing my grandpa on the floor.
The-weirdo-in-the-back 3 years ago
theres more its just that it is hard to say/type
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Deutschland Mädchen 3 years ago
So, Chinmayee, I am having a little trouble with Turtle. You see, he won't stay away from the cacti! No matter how much moon cheese I give him, he simply isn't full. The only thing that fills him up is cacti- but he's very allergic. The spikes keep cutting his throat and I've tried cutting them off, but I think that there's something else in the cacti that he's reacting to. I want to take him to the vet but someone gave them corn and now the geese are chasing them. It's been so hard with all this pressure like a drip, drip, drip that'll never stop. 'Cause my math is worse than my speeling witch is horribal and I'm not alowed to talk about my favorite celebrity, Bruno, even though I really really want to. Things are tough, y'know? I'm gonna need a whole lot of 'G'night, mate's to get me through this I think.
Chinmayee Kalghatgi (Post author) 3 years ago
Get some tomatoes and moon cheese and bread. It has ben proven that turtle likes it. Put anti- turtle spray on the cacti. The corn will come out on its own. Just lock up turtle before the corn comes out. Take maths and throw it out and speling dont mater. How many times should i tell you that we dont talk about bruno? But if you want to talk about him then sing the song
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The-weirdo-in-the-back 3 years ago
When i was born my blood dad lets call him sperm donor abandon me and my mom on the streets i grew up a shy and quiet kid my mom had many boyfriends some would beat me without my mother knowing one of them would throw me across the floor cussing me out i was always quiet cause i felt if i said the wrong thing i felt like i would get beat more so i stayed quiet. when it was my birthday i was turning 9 one of my 18 or 19 year old cousin said he had a present for me in the bedroom he shuts the door behind me and rapes me after i exited the room i hid every time he would enter a room i hid when he would come by i would run and hide. i felt so scared. but there was one person that helped comfort me it was my grandpa he wiped all my tears then the most tragic day arrive i was moving away from him with my abusive moms boyfriend and her i was crying when we moved . shortly after we came back because my mom broke up with him i was the first to enter the kitchen noticing my grandpa on the floor.
The-weirdo-in-the-back 3 years ago
theres more its just that it is hard to say/type
Load More Replies... Deutschland Mädchen 3 years ago
So, Chinmayee, I am having a little trouble with Turtle. You see, he won't stay away from the cacti! No matter how much moon cheese I give him, he simply isn't full. The only thing that fills him up is cacti- but he's very allergic. The spikes keep cutting his throat and I've tried cutting them off, but I think that there's something else in the cacti that he's reacting to. I want to take him to the vet but someone gave them corn and now the geese are chasing them. It's been so hard with all this pressure like a drip, drip, drip that'll never stop. 'Cause my math is worse than my speeling witch is horribal and I'm not alowed to talk about my favorite celebrity, Bruno, even though I really really want to. Things are tough, y'know? I'm gonna need a whole lot of 'G'night, mate's to get me through this I think.
Chinmayee Kalghatgi (Post author) 3 years ago
Get some tomatoes and moon cheese and bread. It has ben proven that turtle likes it. Put anti- turtle spray on the cacti. The corn will come out on its own. Just lock up turtle before the corn comes out. Take maths and throw it out and speling dont mater. How many times should i tell you that we dont talk about bruno? But if you want to talk about him then sing the song
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