hbu?

im feeling awesome, a bit tired as i didnt sleep all night bc i was gay panicking bc the person ive been hopelessly in love with for 6 months kissed me yesterday and i was extREMELY surprised and idk whether it was with romantic intention or if she was trying to make someone jealous but it made me very happy either way and i have so much energy despite not sleeping while being very tired at the same time its a very weird feeling lmao

loll nice

lol also people just keep HANDING me articles of clothing, none of what im wearing is mine except my pants and also i have the hat on that i was wearing the other day (which is not mine) (ALSO I LOOK LIKE AN EMO LMFAO I DIDNT REALIZE UNTIL I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR) Screenshot...05-png.jpg

pfft lol

hello how are you today

Mountains by Jome is pretty good but not amazing but the chorus is fun to tap along to

(also I just realised I like Heavy by Haux like 2x more now that I know my favourite part of the song has these lyrics "take a sigh, take a breath in, keep em close, keep em guessing, people lie, learn a lesson, count your friends, and your blessings" idk why but I really really like those lyrics)

A song with a COMPLETE change of tone that you might not like because its extremely inappropriate to the point where it used to make ME feel uncomfortable (it doesnt anymore and is one of my favorite songs now but eh) but ive been listening to it on repeat and its stuck in my head so imma tell you what it is anyways, its HOT DEMON B!TCHES NEAR U ! ! ! by Corpse

I actually like the tune/beat a lot I don't have a clue what the lyrics are about but yea

its probably for the best lmfao

there are just some songs that cause me to zone out when they come on and thats one of them. no clue why, it just happens.

I have songs like that sometimes. sometimes it also applies to songs I like, where I forget to actually listen to them. other songs make me have to stop what I'm doing so I can focus all my attention into listening to it because it's just too good to ignore

exactly

oo ok I'll check that out

dude that song Heavy is really good

i will listen to both of those songs in a second

oh also I can't remember if I suggested it to you or not, all and any of Justus Bennetts' songs, but in particular Real Life Sux, Bad Day and Insomniac

ive heard all 3 of those before, theyre really good

lol I thought so

the song Youre So Creepy by Ghost Town is so good dude

Ugly by Ellie Dixon, Freak by Ellie Dixon and Pressure by Ellie Dixon are good

Disappointment by Sarcastic Sounds is my new favorite song bro

omg this is actually so good how come you find all the best songs

anyways more songs that i found over spring break that i think you'll like: Team by Lorde, Build-A-Bear by Maggie Brewer, Dead Girls by Penelope Scott

team by lorde is so good :00

lol i thought youd like that one

oo okie I'll listen to them

okok

oh and Lotta True Crime by Penelope Scott

im just amazing like that B)

nah bro Never Gonna Give You Up by Rick Astley is my new favourite song bro

ok but seriously have you heard Together Forever by Rick Astley? its a f ucking masterpiece

loll

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yesterday was autism awareness/acceptance day so like a true advocate I wore red and gold (autism colours) and, lol, I found that they coincidentally look really good on me

very nice lol and thats not a surprise, pretty much anything looks really good on you

ackkk stop with all the compliments

no /lh

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bruh youre literally stunning

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hot /lh

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yes its a very nice jacket i do like it

also btw ADHD by Truslow is good (a bunch of their songs are good)

i listened to that and it was amazing thank you

i shall listen in a minute

bro good question I've been wondering that for a good few years

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that's so cool :000

ikr :000

plus im still like super hot B) Screenshot...216452.png

indeed you are :eyes:

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I just realized I don't actually talk here that much, but like, even though I don't often have much to say that doesn't mean I think about you like every day :P

lol thats sweet of you, and i dont mind if you dont have much to say, i just have a whole lot to say

lol I like when you have a whole lot to say

lol thank you, i just like talking to you and telling you stuff

off topic but imagine showing your legs in what you wear to school smh couldnt be me Screenshot...c6f0ec.png

aRE YOU NOT COLDDD

I AM ABSOLUTELY FREEZING, IT SNOWED THIS MORNING. WHY DID I WEAR THIS /TODAY/ IM AN IDIOT BUT I MEAN AT LEAST IM HOT

also luckyy, it's barely snowed at all this year :( the one time it did, it didn't even settle

luckyyyy, i dont like the snow. (and before you get mad at me about that lol, everyone gets mad at me for not liking the snow, but its because i cant breathe when its that cold outside cuz of my lung stuff, it hurts like hell) it snowed so much back in january we had to stay home from school for like a week or two. it sucked.

ok ok I get that side of it but still IT BARELY SNOWS WHERE I LIVE and I mean, I kinda hate summer because it gets way too hot and all I can do is sit in the shade and sweat and drink cold water

yeah the summers really humid which makes it hard to breathe too, which is why i mostly stay inside except in spring and fall

aha

LOL

this morning i made a joke by saying "imagine feeling joy" (obviously i do experience joy) and my friend i was walking with goes "okay i know youre obviously an emo but you dont have to take it that far" it was the funniest s**t istg

loll

ok so i cried during lunch and then my friend made a joke when i was complaining about how they didnt hug me and they went "what are you gonna do, cry about it?" and then immediately was like "oh my god that was not the right time for that joke" but it was the funniest thing ive heard in a while other than when i was on the phone with a friend and i was playing video games at the same time and i go "oh i accidentally broke it" and he said "what'd you break?" and i went "your mom" and he went "my moms disabled"

so um, I realised I probably very likely have OCD

oh, how so?

you mean how did I realise or how do I have OCD? uh I realised because I've been looking through a bunch of conditions/neurotypes tryna find what it is that makes sense because there was part of me that I didn't understand and at first I dismissed it because like, I don't have rituals, I'm not obsessed with being clean or checking things over and over but then I realised like, I overthink ALL THE TIME and I could never put a label to it before, I couldn't describe that it wasn't normal overthinking so I just called it buildup of anxiety and 'like my thoughts were moving very fast' lol, and then I realised I actually do do some kinda dumb pointless things like I can't eat food that's past the date even if it's still fine, and I'm really picky about whether cutlery I use is clean (I have to wash it every time beforehand even if it's already been washed) and there were a bunch of other things I used to do when I was younger that I never understood so I just sorta kept quiet about.

oh i didnt know that was also OCD (tbh i dont know a lot about ocd so that might just be it) on the subject of dumb pointless things, i have things like that. like for example, i always have to blow into a cup before i use it, i dont know why.

lol look at me rereading this now like an idiot

lol i already re-read it dw dw

bro that is the most stupid genius reply I've ever heard lmao, idk if that was intentional

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i said "lmao wdym" but then i felt dumb so i deleted it and told myself id just live as an idiot that never knows what people mean lmfao

but I thought that in the first place because I didn't know what _you_ meant so I just guessed lol. it was a nice guess

pffft lol. I meant because it looked like you'd made a slick joke about "you don't need to reread it because I already do that 24/7 so I got you"

ah lol thats great

lol maybe you have OCD then. ok I said I couldn't be bothered, but I'll list a few more things. when I was younger, whenever I heard airplanes at night (only at night) I had to close my eyes and hide/pretend I was asleep. idk why. airplanes are cool, I wasn't even scared, I just had to do that. I hate the number 23 (for appropriate reasons) but because I do, I notice it all the time and whenever I notice it I have to distract myself or wait until it disappears. there was a period of time when I was younger when I was terrified of mosquitoes and whenever I heard them I'd bolt downstairs and get my mum to go find it. I had to keep windows closed and stuff and frequently flinched whenever I heard something that might be a mosquito. I wasn't scared of getting bitten, I was just literally scared of the bugs themselves, which I think is really weird because I generally like all insects. after like a year I completely forgot about that fear and have never been scared since.

I get really scared of sweating because once I start it's really hard to stop. I don't think I sweat an unusual amount(?) but I find it a lot hard to regulate my temperature and I hate summer so, idk. but like, whenever I'm sweating, all I can think about is the fact that I'm sweating. so I have to wear loose clothing whenever it's remotely warm weather. it's annoying

thats interesting

and then I realised I actually spend like 80% of my time just rereading messages I've sent people or messages people have sent me. and I was like shoot, am I not supposed to do that? nobody else does that right? so yeah I think I probably have OCD, or something along those lines :P I'm not too sure what to do about that because the mental health services in my country suck and it's kinda a big problem if I never noticed it before but at least I'm aware I guess

and welp im sorry that the mental health services suck there, i mean yeah being aware is better than being not aware?

but i do that. i reread every text conversation ive ever sent people. i scroll all the way up to the top and spend hours at a time every day re-reading everything we've ever sent to the point where ive memorized conversations from years ago that the other person doesnt even remember having.

loll OCD. I'm telling you. I spend so much time rereading things and thinking about random memories from years ago. I have a bunch of really random screenshots on my phone that I look over every now and then because they make me happy. I bookmark so much stuff. I also take ages to send a message because I spend a long time rereading it to check I've said the right thing. I'm bad at making jokes because I think about them so much that they become unfunny and then I can't stand to say it. I predict conversations in my head all the time. I guess random stuff about people too, like their personality types or personal choices. 70% of the time I'm right

i have a folder of random screenshots from conversations that dont stand out or are particularly interesting on my phone but i love them and i read them at least twice a day bc they make me happy. and i put paper in random places in the books i read so i can go back and read that scene again because i love it, even if its not that interesting. and what are some of the things youve guessed about people that turned out right?

one second imma see if there's any real life proof of stuff I've guessed