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As the frequent site users know, I'm trans. And I need help to pick a middle name. I've been thinking about it for a while and can't really think of one that suits me. I'm not in love with my current one, as it's very masculine. I am very happy with my first name though, which is May.
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#1
Trolls need to stop, I don’t even know may but can u just leave her alone?
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#2
Why do you need a middle name? Have I missed something?
Ormaynott is a good middle name.
Personally I always liked the name Harper, after Harper Lee, not sure it goes with May though?
Are you thinking of a name from your cultural heritage, or a US name?
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#3
Is there anybody you admire May? Someone you would like to be like? You could use their name.
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#4
I'm obviously going to say rose, because it's the best middle name. Including me there were 4 or 5 girls in my class in elementary school who had the middle name rose. Other than that, it can be kinda cool to choose something that could be combined with your first name. For example, for about 7 years I went by "merry rose," a combination of Merriweather (my first name) and rose. I don't have any specific ideas right now because i am not awake yet, but I'll let you know if I think of something good. Another option is to go to a name generating website. I recommend https://www.name-generator.org.uk/ because they have a middle name generator.
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#5
how about amy? might be a little biased tho. plus, if you rearrange the letters in may, you get amy.
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#6
Why does BP say everyone is banned? Every profile I click on says page not found.
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Mermeow Overlord (they/them) (Submission author) 1 year ago
Even my own?! Can everyone who is not banned try to comment here.
#7
It meant to say hey pandas in the title. Oops.
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#8
Hey there! I would be happy to give you recommendations!
• Adaire
• Adella
• Addison
• Amara
• Caitlin/Caitlyn
• Crista/ Krista
• Della
• Dores
• Eileen
• Erin
• Kayla
• Laura
• Lea
• Louise
• Vera
• Reese
• Rosalia
• Rozenne
• Yara
I hope these are all alright! Lmk if you want any more suggestions. Good luck on finding a middle name you like, May! :)
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#9
Rose is the most popular middle name for people named May. Grace is also a popular middle name. Amber is a name too idk. Yeah this was probably isn’t helpful at all
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#10
something less common might suit you well, like for example my middle name is savina
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#11
you could steal my middle name >:) which is Isabelle :))))
but i feel like Lee flows nicely, or maybe Harper? also: sorry i’m late to the post lmao i’ve been getting ready for school
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#12
Idk, but my friend has been trans for like four years and he still doesn’t know what to make his middle name, so patience is key I guess
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#13
Maybe something related to something you like? Maybe a favorite book or TV short character? A favorite plant or something? I was just thinking, since your user is “maytheblahaj”, maybe your middle name could be April or June? Just suggestions, you can do whatever you want
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Lex <3 (they/them) (Submission author) 1 year ago
Or maybe Brynn? May Brynn just kinda has a nice ring to it.
#14
Aino.
That is an oldish finnish, and it is rather beautiful and actually means "the only one". It is also quite feminine, trust me, i'm literally finnish
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#15
I could suggest my name but I don't like to reveal it so I will delete my comment later, it is one of the few names that are not masculine or feminine.
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#16
here we go:
rae
rose
grace
sarah
or you can steal mines which is victoria
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#17
"You realize that bullying a minor on the internet is illegal, right? Whether you are a minor or not, it's punishable. All the cops need is your IP address, which is easily accessible."
🙏 Nuh uh
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#18
"
I'm gonna go read a book, goodnight. Please just drop the DP thing I hate how it affects you and he's never gonna change"
that summerizes it pretty well. None of us are going to change because you want us too. Somewhat good take for once. Good job
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#19
Where’d they get that little chestnut from?
the very bottom list additions
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#20
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#20
May, you are a fantastic and brave person, I am so sincerely sorry about my past behaviour. I will try to change and be a better person. In fact I am just a pathetic little loser who enjoys putting people down because my real life is nothing but a trash can filled with disapproval and rejection. I am a loser and all the things I've said to you were just born out of jealousy while all the things you said about me were totally true. I'm scum and I am sorry.
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#21
Hey can’t comment currently but I wanted to reply to this, figured this was the quickest way to reach you: “ Wait are you saying you’re ditching her for being trans? She probably wouldn't want to be your friend anymore anyway. Also don't misgender her”
Jordan said they go by both he/him and she/her pronouns, so I didn’t misgender him/her. I called him/her one of those two. Also I haven’t talked to him/her in ages.
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Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
Actually she goes by she/her pronouns but can't update her profile because she is grounded.
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#22
Rose is my Sisters nickname (she just turned 7 Aug 23)
Named after Rosa Parks
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#23
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#23
May, I am sorry for being so terribly rude to you. I actually adore you and think you are a really brave person. I am certainly acting like the worst person alive. The reason for this is that my real life is rather pathetic. I am a loser, I have zero friends and no purpose in life. I can only get some happiness sometimes by trolling you and people like you. In my heart I know you are all so much better than me and that really kills me. I'm honest right now. I am a real piece of scum.
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-6points
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#24
You should just pick what feels right for you. Strangers on the internet shouldn't determine things as important as this.
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Me, Myself, & I (She/Her) 1 year ago
It's lovely how you are trying to change, but maybe take a break from BP? It's upsetting a few people. Or just like, idk avoid may? She clearly doesn't want you here. I'm sorry, but it'd be best if you could go.
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#25
I aint sorry what i done. im sorry you care
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#27
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#27
You know may, imitation is the sincerest form of flattery. I am flattered.
80.25.211.67
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#28
"✨while wearing wet socks✨"
F**k yourself witha cactus
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A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
There's a reason you're banned from commenting. Replying to me via yet another submission is just sad. You really need to get off BP for a while.
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#29
"What the duck are you even saying, dude. Just go away. F**k you. Your a psychopath"
my brothe christ, I am a troll. Calm the f**k down trans
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#30
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#30
Young enough to die
And I'm rich enough to f**k
Yeah I came from the bottom baby
I'm not getting stuck
We sip lean by the litre like (bubble bubble bubble)
We sip lean by the litre like (bubble bubble bubble)
Cooking king krab on the stove wit da formula
Whippin Lamborghini in Bikini tryna run it up
Sippin' on the leany while I'm leaning out the passenger
Poppin' up on crabs like papparazzi ima snap him up
It's like it's Biggie versus Tupac
It's no biggie I smoke two packs uh
My s**t is cold it's a new track (Brrrr)
I own the city and they knew that
I'm eating burgers made of light yeah
This my buzz and this my light year
F**k this b***h up with my woody
I'm the kid just like I'm cudi
MR Krabs you know I'm right here
My b***h don't rag
She a PC
I got the mac
I press delete
I press the trigger at a Krab
And I'm itchin for the cash
Like I had an S T D
No, you not a Krab
You a rat boy
Talkin' to police
Huh? Fat boy?
I catch him when he lackin'
Out in traffic yeah my choppa automatic
So you know it's gunna clap boy
I got pearls on my neck
I'm at the chum bucket
I got pearl givin' neck
Cause she a cum bucket
You already sucked this d**k
B***h you can't unsuck it
Your dad a krab and I'm a demon he should run from me
Young enough to die
And I'm rich enough to f**k
Yeah I came from the bottom baby
I'm not getting stuck
We sip lean by the litre like (bubble bubble bubble)
We sip lean by the litre like (bubble bubble bubble)
Cooking king krab on the stove wit da formula
Whippin Lamborghini in Bikini tryna run it up
Sippin' on the leany while I'm leaning out the passenger
Poppin' up on crabs like papparazzi ima snap him up
Final score:
-13points
#31
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#31
"Stop. Using. Slurs"
No, Abbie, Abe, AbieUnited States, CanadaJewish menOriginated before the 1950s. From the proper name Abraham.[1]
ABCEast AsiaAmerican-born Chinese, Han or other Chinese (including Taiwanese) born and raised in the United States.The term implies an otherness or lack of connection to their Chinese identity and (usually) Chinese language; however, it has been reappropriated by many Chinese Americans and used to convey positive connotations.[2]
ABCDSouth Asians in the USAmerican-Born Confused Desi, Indian Americans or other South Asian Americans, (desi) who were born in the United States.Used chiefly by South Asian immigrants to imply confusion about cultural identity[3][4][5]
Abid/Abeed (plural)Middle East and North AfricaBlack peopleArabic for slave, associated with the Arab slave trade[6][7]
Abo/AbboAustraliaAustralian Aboriginal personOriginally, this was simply an informal term for Aborigine, and was in fact used by Aboriginal people themselves (such as in the Aboriginal-run newspaper Abo Call) until it started to be considered offensive in the 1950s. Although Abo is still considered quite offensive by many, the pejorative boong is now more commonly used when the intent is deliberately to offend, as that word's status as an insult is unequivocal.[8]
Afro engineering, African engineering or n****r riggingUnited StatesAfrican AmericansShoddy, second-rate or unconventional, makeshift workmanship. Indirectly refers to black American people as worse or lower-valued than white American people when associating anything bad with them.[9][10]
Ah ChahHong KongSouth Asian peopleFrom 阿差; Cantonese Yale: achā; from "acchā" meaning "good" or "OK" in Hindi.[11]
Ali BabaUnited StatesIraqi peopleAn Iraqi suspected of criminal activity.[12]
Alligator bait, 'gator baitUnited States (chiefly southern U.S.)Black people, especially black childrenDates from early 20th century or before; implies that African Americans are good for nothing except being used to bait alligators[13][14]
Alpine SerbSerbo-Croatian: Alpski Srbin (ex-Yugoslavia)People of Slovenian origin.[15]
AmaLawu, AmaQheyaSouth AfricaKhoisans and Cape Coloureds or ColouredsXhosa words for Hottentot[16]
Ang moMalaysia, SingaporeEuropean people, especially the DutchHokkien for "red hair" referring to Dutch people from the 17th century and expanded to encompass other Europeans by the 19th century. It has become a neutral term, though is sometimes seen as derogatory.[17]
AnnUnited States, CanadaWhite women, "white-acting" black womenWhile Miss Ann, also just plain Ann, is a derisive reference to white women, it is also applied to any black woman who is deemed to be acting as though she is white.[18][19]
Annamite, mitesFrench, EnglishVietnamese people[20][21][22]
ApeUnited StatesBlack peopleReferring to outdated theories ascribing cultural differences between racial groups as being linked to their evolutionary distance from chimpanzees, with which humans share common ancestry.[23][24]
AppleUnited States, CanadaNative AmericansFirst used in the 1970s. Someone who is "red on the outside, white on the inside". Used primarily by other Native Americans to indicate someone who has lost touch with their cultural identity.[25]
Arabush / Aravush (ערבוש)IsraelArabsArabs, derived from Hebrew "Aravi" (Arab).[26]
Argie/Argies (plural)United KingdomArgentine peopleExtensively used by the British soldiers during the Falklands War in 1982.[27]
ArmoUnited StatesArmenian/Armenian AmericanEspecially used in Southern California.[28][29]
Asing, AsengIndonesiaNon-Indonesian people, especially Chinese peopleInsult to non-Indonesian citizen, from "[orang] asing" (foreigner) that rhymed with "Aseng" (Chinese name). This word is often directed at Chinese people due to Indonesia's relationship with the PRC.[30]
Ashke-Nazi (אשכנאצי)IsraelAshkenazi JewsPronounced like "AshkeNatzi". Used mostly by Mizrachi Jews.[31][
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#32
May, more like gay
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#33
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#33
I am not "rsorting to slurs, you ignorant monkey, I am simply using the famous low tier god speech. Dumbass. What is this, 1785?
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Maytheblahaj 1 year ago
What the duck are you even saying, dude. Just go away. F**k you. Your a psychopath
#34
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#34
"Shut up"
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#35
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#35
"Ignore him he is just some sad pathetic loser. Sitting on his fat a**e hurting others to make himself feel better about being such a loser that nobody will ever love."
You guys are r******d
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#36
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#36
"Hey troll, please just leave. Nobody wants you here, you made fun of a kid that killed themself. We all think you're horrible. Go away"
Go f**k yourself with a cactus
Final score:
-16points
Maytheblahaj 1 year ago
My dude. Why? Why did you do that? And why are you being so rude to a suicidal kid on the internet, after mocking someone who did kill themself?
#37
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"My dude. Why? Why did you do that? And why are you being so rude to a suicidal kid on the internet, after mocking someone who did kill themself?"
Because I can. Why not? I do not care at all, "May.
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-18points
Maytheblahaj 1 year ago
Dude, your actually a psychopath or something. Making fun of lusion, then insulting crow and me, then spamming a post just because it was trans related and you hate us trans people or something, and now returning to be a d**k. What the actual f**k? You made fun of somebody who killed themself. Your head isn't okay
#38
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#38
"Dude, your actually a psychopath or something. Making fun of lusion, then insulting crow and me, then spamming a post just because it was trans related and you hate us trans people or something, and now returning to be a d**k. What the actual f**k? You made fun of somebody who killed themself. Your head isn't okay"
You are a worthless, b***h a*s n***a. Your life literally is as valuable as a summer ant. Your life serves zero purpose. You should kill yourself NOW!
Final score:
-18points
Me, Myself, & I (She/Her) 1 year ago
You know what. F**k you. Shut the f**k up right now. I don't even know May, but May you should not kill yourself. Be brave girl. You can do this. And I'll have you know toast, summer ants are VERY important to the ecosystem. they are VITAL parts to food chains and help the earth. So f**k off b***h. stop being a f*****g a*****e and get a life.
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Hey there! I'm the sites trans nerd of unknown sexuality who mostly likes girls I'm obsessed with Harry Potter and will talk about it for hours My height is 5'11, used to think taller but I measured wrong so yay!! I'm questioning everything about religion ✨ please help me If you're my friend I'll probably vent to you till you get annoyed and stop talking to me because I'm ✨great✨ at doing that My best friend here is cartoonghosts /crow, who is a completely awesome individual Pfp by dusttea
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A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You do not suck. In fact, can I tell you a secret? You're the reason I had the courage to share my pronouns on the first day of school instead of keeping myself closeted. I know you've gone through a lot of sh!t and you deserve so much better, but you're still a kind, friendly, and upstanding person. I knew that if you can be brave enough to let your fellow pandas see the real you, despite everything you've gone through and continue to face, I could at least tell my teacher I use any pronouns. Thank you for making me brave <3
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
you don't suck. do you know you've kept me alive? you've helped me so much may.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
you can't say that you haven't helped me. YOU HAVE HELPED ME STAY ALIVE. how many times do i have to say that you f*****g matter
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May, we're not lying. I swear to god, we're not lying. I've literally had a panic attack worrying that something would happen to you, but I would rather have a million panic attacks than actually lose you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago (edited)
It would barely make a f*****g difference in your life
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
YES IT WOULD! May, you're my friend. If you don't see me as a friend, whatever, that's fine, but I care about you and I'm so f*****g scared of losing you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Why? I make hardly any difference in your life, I'm just a dumbass on the internet
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You're not a dumbass, you're a person who made me feel safe here.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
NO YOU'RE NOT! May, seriously. I'm f*****g terrified right now. Please don't die.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Who f*****g cares besides people who just pity me anyway
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
I told you, it's not pity. I don't pity you, I just recognize that you're in a f****d-up situation that no one deserves to go through. May, please. PLEASE. I'm so f*****g scared right now.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I am literal human garbage which is how I know you're lying
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You're not! We're not f*****g lying. Anyway, you're a much better person than I am, so if you're garbage, what does that make me?
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
I AM NOT A LIAR. You know what? I'm f*****g paranoid about online info, but I'll send you my phone number if you're willing to call me. I don't care what it takes, I want to be here for you however I can.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Yeah I'll just call you with my whole family around great idea. Why can't you just let me f*****g die
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
I'm sorry, yeah that was a stupid plan. But I need you to know that I will do whatever it takes to help you, I'm so scared I can't breathe, please please please don't die
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
We've literally already gone over this. I'm not friends with worthless wastes of space. I'm not friends with terrible people. You're a great person, please just accept it and try to stay alive
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
i'm not f*****g lying may. why would i lie? i wanted to be dead this summer. you helped me not be dead.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
if you were useless then why would we care so much? why would we spend all this time trying to help you even when it seems like we can't do much anyway? don't say we're wasting our time, because we are CHOOSING to do this because we love you and we care about you and we don't want anything to happen to you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
It doesn't change that I'm useless it's out of f*****g pity
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
wtf may. please stop denying what we say about you. it's not out of pity. i'm trying to get through to you and i need you to listen. WE ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOU.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
do you remember back in april when we first became friends? i started caring about you then and i care about you even more now. you've gotten me through the darkest moments in my life whether you know it or believe it or not. and i'm not lying. i hate lying.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You're brave and kind and you made me feel safe here. That means a lot. I have trouble trusting people, but you feel safe. You're a genuinely good person, despite being in a sh!tty situation where you could easily take it out on others.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I'm not a good person. Everyone else is honest about it so could y'all just stop f*****g lying
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
By 'everyone else' do you mean the trolls and your family? Cause that's a kinda lame excuse to hate urself
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Don't be sorry, it's not your fault this is happening. Just please try to see this rationally
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
please just listen to us. we care about you. we love you. how many times do i have to say it for you to believe that?
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May are you still online? Please be ok, I feel like I'm about to throw up, please please please be ok
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
Thank you. Please listen to me for a second, ok? Take a breath. I'm sure there's a lot going on in your head right now, try to calm it a little bit. I know it's ridiculous to ask that of you right now, but just try. I'm sending you a hug <3 I know you have no reason to trust me, but I promise that things will get better. Do something that usually makes you happy- 'happy' might not be an attainable goal right now, and that's completely reasonable, but it might help to distract yourself.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
i have to go for a bit and it will be a while before i'm online. please stay okay.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
We don't pity you, we love you and we're scared for you. I know you're scared for Crow, please understand that that's how we feel about you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Nobody actually f*****g cares about me, I'm literally human garbage
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
THAT'S NOT TRUE! May, please. I wouldn't lie about this. Please trust me.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
How the f**k am I supposed to trust you when literally everyone I know hates me
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago (edited)
I don't hate you. Crow doesn't. Bee doesn't. Amy doesn't. I just checked my chat with Rose, and she literally just referred to you as her little sister (and also said they wanted to yell at DP for you). I'm sorry that you feel like you can't trust me, I don't blame you for it though. Please just do whatever you need to do to keep yourself safe.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
Yes there is. It doesn't seem like it now, but someday you'll look back and be so glad you stayed.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May, PLEASE. I'm f*****g begging you. I don't know what to do and I wish I could give you a hug right now, and the world is a better place with you in it.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May. Do not. Please. It's ok if you can't stick around for yourself yet, it can take a while to get to that point, but at least stick around for Crow. I promise, things will get better. It's like climbing a mountain- you're at the bottom now, so you can't see the other side and the climb looks impossible. But you're the toughest girl I know, and you'll make your way up to the top, and it will be worth it. I promise. I would never lie to you. Please use a helpline or something if you need to, do whatever it takes to take care of yourself.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I can't use a helpline and why the f**k should I i don't deserve to live and I'm probably unnecessarily stressing crow out anyway
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago (edited)
Any stress Crow has right now is NOTHING compared to how awful it would be to lose you. Trust me. I don't want to say too much, but my parter has struggled with similar stuff before, and if I lost them it would break me in a way I can't even explain. I know a helpline you can use, it's a live chat and you don't have to tell them your real name or anything, they can help (and you can hit escape three times to leave the site quickly) https://www.thetrevorproject.org/
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
No they wouldn't. Please. If you want, I can talk to them for you. I can be a go-between, tell me what you want me to say and I'll tell you how they respond.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
Please, just give it a try. If you don't want to post it here, you can email me what you want to say and I'll relay it to the chat
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Yk what would unnecessarily stress me out? One of my best friends being dead. Helping you feel better doesn't stress me out, it makes me happy and makes me feel like there's a reason to keep trying. You absolutely deserve to live, I'm sorry if anything I told u yesterday caused this at all
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
i'm so sorry, and you DO NOT suck as a person why are you saying that
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I'm absolutely terrible be honest I should f*****g stab myself right now
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Why the duck not it changes literally nothing and everything is just getting worse anyway so I'm going to jump off a f*****g bridge because I'm worthless and this planet is hell
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago (edited)
I just want to take this opportunity to say that May is such a great choice of name :) (Btw, do you want to become friends on the switch? I can share my friend code in the comments.)
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Thank you :) also, is it okay if I say no? My account name is my deadname :(
Load More Replies... Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
If you leave BP would it be possible to share your new friend code when you reach Seattle?
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
Sure, that is understandable, it is perfectly okay to be uncomfortable, would your parents be suspicious if you changed your switch username to not include a name?
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I'm alright, volunteering with 5 and 6 year olds and they're playing in the water
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Can you help with the trolls? Look at dps comment history to see everywhere they've been d***s. If we report them enough they might get banned
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I'll sneak into your room and steal it in the middle of the night, then burn it since you don't want it
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
The name is fine it's just boring haha (my whole name is boring tho)
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
You gave some hints about your name before and I think your first name is really cool!
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago (edited)
Lmao it's so basic haha, my friends always rhyme it with random s**t for fun and that's the only cool thing abt it. I love it and it's my name but it is very boring
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
I like names with less common letters like w, x, y or z, that is why my previous chosen name was Alex and my current one also has an x in it.
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago (edited)
Hi! Also what's up with ur original accounts bio like ur giving me a migraine, it's very funny but I'm actually dying here
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I got no sleep and I'm freezing cold and my parents are making me eat food even though I've been really good about not actually eating for the past few days and I both look and feel great. I could definitely be better. Hru?
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Heyyy I was about to kill myself earlier today and the only reason j stopped was cause there were people around and it would have been gory. I don't want to that much rn but I know it'll happen again and I'm really really scared, I don't know how to fight it when it gets bad cause all I want to do is kill myself and get it over with. I'm really scared
MayTheBlahaj(she/her) 1 year ago
Crow please don't kill yourself. When you feel that bad again, talk to me. Or do something to try and distract you. I'll try to check up as much as possible. Please just stay alive, your worth it
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I wish you were here irl so I could text you, or see you irl when I get bad
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Actually promise? Cause idk if I'm strong enough to survive this if I lose you.
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Thank you. I'll do everything I can to keep you alive, and I'll try my best to stay alive for you too. And hopefully also for myself but that's a work in progress
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I'm gonna go read a book, goodnight. Please just drop the DP thing I hate how it affects you and he's never gonna change
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
You're amazing. I was talking to my friend and yet again although he's a great person he isn't very good at actually giving a s**t about me, I want to ask him if he can check up on me more/care more about me but I don't want to force him to pretend he cares about me more than he does. Ik he'd be fine with it but I don't want to be that person. I think I might have been able to not get as bad as I did if you were there but I was seriously not thinking about anything and panicking a lot. I want to stay alive 60% of the time it's just that the last 40% is really scary for me
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Also I gave my dad a partially filled out form saying I have depression and I'm really nervous about what's gonna happen when he sees I checked the box for depression. I want to get help but I'm so scared of this going badly
MayTheBlahaj(she/her) 1 year ago
Don't worry I'm sure it'll be fine. And if not I'll kill your parents
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Yeahh. If only my dad sees its gonna be fine, he's great (we were filling out a medical thing and joking about how I'm missing some organs (u can guess) earlier), but if my mom figures out its gonna be bad
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Alright. I'll probably talk to you again tomorrow cause he's asleep rn and by then I'll be anxious about it again haha
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You do not suck. In fact, can I tell you a secret? You're the reason I had the courage to share my pronouns on the first day of school instead of keeping myself closeted. I know you've gone through a lot of sh!t and you deserve so much better, but you're still a kind, friendly, and upstanding person. I knew that if you can be brave enough to let your fellow pandas see the real you, despite everything you've gone through and continue to face, I could at least tell my teacher I use any pronouns. Thank you for making me brave <3
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
you don't suck. do you know you've kept me alive? you've helped me so much may.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
you can't say that you haven't helped me. YOU HAVE HELPED ME STAY ALIVE. how many times do i have to say that you f*****g matter
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May, we're not lying. I swear to god, we're not lying. I've literally had a panic attack worrying that something would happen to you, but I would rather have a million panic attacks than actually lose you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago (edited)
It would barely make a f*****g difference in your life
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
YES IT WOULD! May, you're my friend. If you don't see me as a friend, whatever, that's fine, but I care about you and I'm so f*****g scared of losing you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Why? I make hardly any difference in your life, I'm just a dumbass on the internet
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You're not a dumbass, you're a person who made me feel safe here.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
NO YOU'RE NOT! May, seriously. I'm f*****g terrified right now. Please don't die.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Who f*****g cares besides people who just pity me anyway
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
I told you, it's not pity. I don't pity you, I just recognize that you're in a f****d-up situation that no one deserves to go through. May, please. PLEASE. I'm so f*****g scared right now.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I am literal human garbage which is how I know you're lying
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You're not! We're not f*****g lying. Anyway, you're a much better person than I am, so if you're garbage, what does that make me?
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
I AM NOT A LIAR. You know what? I'm f*****g paranoid about online info, but I'll send you my phone number if you're willing to call me. I don't care what it takes, I want to be here for you however I can.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Yeah I'll just call you with my whole family around great idea. Why can't you just let me f*****g die
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
I'm sorry, yeah that was a stupid plan. But I need you to know that I will do whatever it takes to help you, I'm so scared I can't breathe, please please please don't die
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
We've literally already gone over this. I'm not friends with worthless wastes of space. I'm not friends with terrible people. You're a great person, please just accept it and try to stay alive
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
i'm not f*****g lying may. why would i lie? i wanted to be dead this summer. you helped me not be dead.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
if you were useless then why would we care so much? why would we spend all this time trying to help you even when it seems like we can't do much anyway? don't say we're wasting our time, because we are CHOOSING to do this because we love you and we care about you and we don't want anything to happen to you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
It doesn't change that I'm useless it's out of f*****g pity
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
wtf may. please stop denying what we say about you. it's not out of pity. i'm trying to get through to you and i need you to listen. WE ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT YOU.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
do you remember back in april when we first became friends? i started caring about you then and i care about you even more now. you've gotten me through the darkest moments in my life whether you know it or believe it or not. and i'm not lying. i hate lying.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
You're brave and kind and you made me feel safe here. That means a lot. I have trouble trusting people, but you feel safe. You're a genuinely good person, despite being in a sh!tty situation where you could easily take it out on others.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I'm not a good person. Everyone else is honest about it so could y'all just stop f*****g lying
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
By 'everyone else' do you mean the trolls and your family? Cause that's a kinda lame excuse to hate urself
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Don't be sorry, it's not your fault this is happening. Just please try to see this rationally
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
please just listen to us. we care about you. we love you. how many times do i have to say it for you to believe that?
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May are you still online? Please be ok, I feel like I'm about to throw up, please please please be ok
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
Thank you. Please listen to me for a second, ok? Take a breath. I'm sure there's a lot going on in your head right now, try to calm it a little bit. I know it's ridiculous to ask that of you right now, but just try. I'm sending you a hug <3 I know you have no reason to trust me, but I promise that things will get better. Do something that usually makes you happy- 'happy' might not be an attainable goal right now, and that's completely reasonable, but it might help to distract yourself.
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
i have to go for a bit and it will be a while before i'm online. please stay okay.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
We don't pity you, we love you and we're scared for you. I know you're scared for Crow, please understand that that's how we feel about you.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Nobody actually f*****g cares about me, I'm literally human garbage
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
THAT'S NOT TRUE! May, please. I wouldn't lie about this. Please trust me.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
How the f**k am I supposed to trust you when literally everyone I know hates me
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago (edited)
I don't hate you. Crow doesn't. Bee doesn't. Amy doesn't. I just checked my chat with Rose, and she literally just referred to you as her little sister (and also said they wanted to yell at DP for you). I'm sorry that you feel like you can't trust me, I don't blame you for it though. Please just do whatever you need to do to keep yourself safe.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
Yes there is. It doesn't seem like it now, but someday you'll look back and be so glad you stayed.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May, PLEASE. I'm f*****g begging you. I don't know what to do and I wish I could give you a hug right now, and the world is a better place with you in it.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
May. Do not. Please. It's ok if you can't stick around for yourself yet, it can take a while to get to that point, but at least stick around for Crow. I promise, things will get better. It's like climbing a mountain- you're at the bottom now, so you can't see the other side and the climb looks impossible. But you're the toughest girl I know, and you'll make your way up to the top, and it will be worth it. I promise. I would never lie to you. Please use a helpline or something if you need to, do whatever it takes to take care of yourself.
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I can't use a helpline and why the f**k should I i don't deserve to live and I'm probably unnecessarily stressing crow out anyway
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago (edited)
Any stress Crow has right now is NOTHING compared to how awful it would be to lose you. Trust me. I don't want to say too much, but my parter has struggled with similar stuff before, and if I lost them it would break me in a way I can't even explain. I know a helpline you can use, it's a live chat and you don't have to tell them your real name or anything, they can help (and you can hit escape three times to leave the site quickly) https://www.thetrevorproject.org/
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
No they wouldn't. Please. If you want, I can talk to them for you. I can be a go-between, tell me what you want me to say and I'll tell you how they respond.
A Wild Bean (they/them/any) 1 year ago
Please, just give it a try. If you don't want to post it here, you can email me what you want to say and I'll relay it to the chat
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Yk what would unnecessarily stress me out? One of my best friends being dead. Helping you feel better doesn't stress me out, it makes me happy and makes me feel like there's a reason to keep trying. You absolutely deserve to live, I'm sorry if anything I told u yesterday caused this at all
freakingbee (any pronouns) 1 year ago
i'm so sorry, and you DO NOT suck as a person why are you saying that
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I'm absolutely terrible be honest I should f*****g stab myself right now
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Why the duck not it changes literally nothing and everything is just getting worse anyway so I'm going to jump off a f*****g bridge because I'm worthless and this planet is hell
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago (edited)
I just want to take this opportunity to say that May is such a great choice of name :) (Btw, do you want to become friends on the switch? I can share my friend code in the comments.)
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Thank you :) also, is it okay if I say no? My account name is my deadname :(
Load More Replies... Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
If you leave BP would it be possible to share your new friend code when you reach Seattle?
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
Sure, that is understandable, it is perfectly okay to be uncomfortable, would your parents be suspicious if you changed your switch username to not include a name?
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I'm alright, volunteering with 5 and 6 year olds and they're playing in the water
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
Can you help with the trolls? Look at dps comment history to see everywhere they've been d***s. If we report them enough they might get banned
Maytheblahaj (Post author) 1 year ago
I'll sneak into your room and steal it in the middle of the night, then burn it since you don't want it
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
The name is fine it's just boring haha (my whole name is boring tho)
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
You gave some hints about your name before and I think your first name is really cool!
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago (edited)
Lmao it's so basic haha, my friends always rhyme it with random s**t for fun and that's the only cool thing abt it. I love it and it's my name but it is very boring
Mermeow Overlord (they/them) 1 year ago
I like names with less common letters like w, x, y or z, that is why my previous chosen name was Alex and my current one also has an x in it.
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago (edited)
Hi! Also what's up with ur original accounts bio like ur giving me a migraine, it's very funny but I'm actually dying here
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I got no sleep and I'm freezing cold and my parents are making me eat food even though I've been really good about not actually eating for the past few days and I both look and feel great. I could definitely be better. Hru?
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Heyyy I was about to kill myself earlier today and the only reason j stopped was cause there were people around and it would have been gory. I don't want to that much rn but I know it'll happen again and I'm really really scared, I don't know how to fight it when it gets bad cause all I want to do is kill myself and get it over with. I'm really scared
MayTheBlahaj(she/her) 1 year ago
Crow please don't kill yourself. When you feel that bad again, talk to me. Or do something to try and distract you. I'll try to check up as much as possible. Please just stay alive, your worth it
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I wish you were here irl so I could text you, or see you irl when I get bad
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Actually promise? Cause idk if I'm strong enough to survive this if I lose you.
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Thank you. I'll do everything I can to keep you alive, and I'll try my best to stay alive for you too. And hopefully also for myself but that's a work in progress
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
I'm gonna go read a book, goodnight. Please just drop the DP thing I hate how it affects you and he's never gonna change
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
You're amazing. I was talking to my friend and yet again although he's a great person he isn't very good at actually giving a s**t about me, I want to ask him if he can check up on me more/care more about me but I don't want to force him to pretend he cares about me more than he does. Ik he'd be fine with it but I don't want to be that person. I think I might have been able to not get as bad as I did if you were there but I was seriously not thinking about anything and panicking a lot. I want to stay alive 60% of the time it's just that the last 40% is really scary for me
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Also I gave my dad a partially filled out form saying I have depression and I'm really nervous about what's gonna happen when he sees I checked the box for depression. I want to get help but I'm so scared of this going badly
MayTheBlahaj(she/her) 1 year ago
Don't worry I'm sure it'll be fine. And if not I'll kill your parents
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Yeahh. If only my dad sees its gonna be fine, he's great (we were filling out a medical thing and joking about how I'm missing some organs (u can guess) earlier), but if my mom figures out its gonna be bad
cartoon ghosts 1 year ago
Alright. I'll probably talk to you again tomorrow cause he's asleep rn and by then I'll be anxious about it again haha
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